We've been through this stage so many times already.
I really have no idea what is it this time.
我不用说你就知道我在想什么 ，
但你不说，我真的不知道你在想什么？
I really don't know what you think I'm thinking.
It can't be any different than the usual.
You always said this time isn't the same.
What exactly isn't the same?
我猜不透，
好端端的，我到底做了什么？
还是我没做了什么？
Why is it things always turn into this way??
What is it you want me to do?
你知道的，我也知道的。
究竟是什么？
你想说又不说。
你不说我会觉得很无奈。
朋友，都这么久了。
为什么要这样呢？
我猜你猜，一直在猜心。
我不是说你烦，
我不想你烦，
我也不想烦。
算了，还是让彼此冷静先吧
是我想多还是你想多？
Whatever you think is best for me.
It's ok, I'll understand.
Just don't keep me in confusion.
I just don't get it. ><"
I'm sorry,
I'm just frustrated.
Talk to me when you thought about it.
-lilrig-
yayaya~ agree~ ^^
sometime me oso like tat~ will confuse da lo~
anyway~ dun think too much~
juz make da question 简单化 k~
=)
by: Yvonne ❤❤
+i go thailand for those days..
+jane was right that jane guess i wan to let go..
+i dun1 tell jane sth oso bcz xian noe it will bother u..
+bt it make jane frustrated make i was so sorry bout it..
+mayb i rly tired on it when jane said jane like sum1..
+it make me feel like i was alone again..
+jane mayb did not understand wot i said..bt i jz dun like de feel eventhough it was discover by myself..
+when i can let go of tis feeling,i will find jane..
+U noe I'm nt that kind 2 change juz like that.
+So u dcide wot u wan 2 do then let me noe.
+U noe I won't do anythg 2 change ur mind on anythg.
+My thoughts are just the same.
+i thk u no nid anythg and so do i..
+u will nvr realize tat actually i nid jane to accompany more than jane nid accompany by me..
+jane will hv de new life soon..
+i noe jane will nt 4got me,bt jane will 4got me when jane BUSY wif sth..
+tat will never happen when i was BUSY..tat y im feel like abandon..i jz dun like de feel..
+jz like jane said b4,i alwiz noe wot jane thk bt jane nt rly alwiz noe wot i thk,jane noe y??
+it jz bcz im care for u more than i care for myself..jane oso noe tat..bt jane oso jz take it..
+so i decide to let go bcz i noe i cant do it anymore..u dy hv ur own life thr,i shld start a new life for myself..
+i noe im important for jane,i oso will do anythg for u,bt at the same time,im will so sad when i feel jane dint treat me same..i noe jane will care for me bt alwiz duno hw to interpret..
+although i noe tat,bt i cant accept tat..so im better clear my mind and find out wot i wan from jane..
+conclusion??jane thk bout it and i oso will thk bout it..if jane can found out a better solution,then jz tell me..i was ran out of ideas..
+n i noe jane was sick,so do i when bek from thailand..fever,cough,sore throat n so on..so u mz take care for urself..
+我知道。你累了。不是说什么。可是如果那样真的让你更好过就随你吧。我不想因为我你觉得辛苦。
+我很感激你为我做的一切。也希望什么都不要改变。可是如果那是你的意识。我会去配合。
+不是因为你不重要。只是我真的不知道做什么才是对你好。
+你就算叫我想下去，我的答案还是一样。你知道的。我是不会放弃一个人的，除非他选择放弃我。所以还是一样的立场。
+我知道你的立场没改变，也因为你什么都没做，让我更难过..
+你知道吗？你现在对我所说的，就好像一个老师给你一样功课，却没有给你guidelines一样..
+就好像你说我对你来说还蛮重要，但你却什么也没做，也不知道要做些什么..
+情况倒转的话，jane有什么感受？
+说穿了，我只是一直想要得到相同对待，就好像我对你一样的关心，但jane，你问自己，什么时候你的电话，你的信息是慰问我的..
+这些都是我悲伤时的想法，现在的我，只是在想，我是否像以往一样，宠爱你，疼你，还是把这些任务交给下一个人..
+我只可以说，当jane快乐的跟senior们喝茶时，是否有想起过这里的我在关心你，担心你..
+很多时候，我真的觉得自己被遗忘，就连前几次跟你通话，我都听得出你的语气，敷衍胜于关心，所以那让我想了很多..
+我知道你不善于表达，但我并不像你想像中坚强，我也有难过的时候，想要你陪的时候，那时的我，你又在哪里？
+我知道，看了这么多，你也可能掉泪了，但这一次，就这一次，让我自私一次..
+我不要永远做那个潇洒和大量的人，而jane却是永远得到的人..
+虽然我这决心不知能维持多久，就算到时我们的关系回到最初，但我也希望jane能多体谅我，多关心我..
+tis is all i wan to said..tis is wot i said tis time was different..
+i dint ask jane thk bout our relationship,bt i wan jane to thk hw should we treat each other in de future..
+tat all for 2nite..take care..
+I'll like to type chinese actually.
But I'm at the lab. N if I dun type now I'll say sth different later on. So let's try this.
+Then wot do u wan me 2 do? Bcoz no matter wot I do. Thgs tend 2 end the same way. Remember?
+All those times I ask u wot I shud do? It's funny how thgs r every time.
+Whether I treat a person good or bad, thgs end up the same for that specific fren of mine.
+So yea. I can't rly decide wot is best 4 u. U hev 2 dcide 4 urself.
+Wot is best for me is ofcoz 4 us 2 be like bfor.
+But I noe that's hard for u. I'm aware of all the thgs u say n the stuff I did.
+It juz bcame a norm, sumkind of habit that I find it hard 2 get rid of.
+The reason y I ask ppl 2 leave me alone when I'm frustrated. Bcoz I wud rather not lash out on them. It's juz a part of my personality.
+Everyone have flaws. N that's mine. It's not that I don't wan 2 fix it. I'm tryin 2. But it's like a reaction that I get irritated juz like that.
+If the situation is reverse u ask me? I used 2 be in ur situation. So I noe exactly how u feel. But my answer is still the same. If I think it's worth it, I'll do wotever I can n however I can. Whether or not he appreciated it. It's wot I feel I shud do. Not the question whether or not it makes me happy or sad.
+Even if I'm hurt, I'll nvr regret the choices I made and the decisions I take. Bcoz at that moment. That is exactly what I wanted. U get wot I mean?
+So in the end, it still comes 2 ur choice. Not mine.
+Maybe if I treat u better, u'll feel better. But better in terms of wot? If I treat u better. I'll treat u like how I treat my koko. As apparently u seem 2 thk I treat them better than how I treat u. When in fact we're closer than I am to them.
+Perhaps I've already kuan si. Juz like at home alwiz quarrel wif my sis. But over here, I miss her. It's juz a type of communication that me and her uses. Quarreling. Even thou it makes me sad evrytime. Stil. We juz tend 2 do that.
+Some ppl do 2. No one can stay close all the time. Even husband n wife quarrels. So it's only natural that we do 2.
+But we dun. Bcoz u wudn't quarrel wif me.
+I used 2 thk the way u thk. That if I treat sum1 nice, I'll wan them 2 treat me exactly that way. But u noe I dun thk that way anymore.
+Bcoz u can nvr treat a person exactly the way u treated them.
+Instead I try 2 find ways 2 treat ppl according to my conscience and be nice and good. If that's wot best 4 them.
+U can nvr tell wot's best 4 another unless they told u themselves.
+So if u wan me 2 treat u in a way u can juz tell me n I'll try 2 do so.
+It's not wot, it's simply compromise, juz like how u tolerated me when I dun like sum of ur ways.
+Every relationship is a 2-way communication. U can't dcide evrythg on ur own.
+U rly shud thk positive. Wot ur writing here is like wot I wud hev written bak then. U taught me 2 be positive. So b that guy.
+It's call law of attraction. I truly blv in that theory.
+If u wan 2 thk the way u thk, I can't stop u from thking the way u thk, n wot u thk I'm thking.
+I dun hev 2 thk that u're thkin of me bcoz I noe ur thkin of me. N I dun rly hev 2 thk of u bcoz ur already in my heart. So it's simply a part of me. N that said I dun rly hev 2 thk that part of me? I duno if u get it. But that's wot it's like. Juz like I dun hev 2 thk of my family bcoz they're all a part of me.
+That's wot it feels like.
+N if u need me 2 accompany, juz say so n I'll do so. Bcoz I rly duno when ppl nid me 2 teman. Juz like ppl rly duno when I nid them 2 accompany me.
+It's like this. If I dun say they wudn't notice. That's how it is. But I find no problem wif that bcoz who can tell wot another is thkin. Perhaps u can. But I can't.
+U can b selfish. Everyone is. Everyone is realistic in sum ways.
+I can understand wot ur tryin 2 say. N I do care 4 u. I juz dun show it in ways that u xpect me 2.
+This is the future. Remember? From the past. I don't know wot else 2 say. But that's all for now.
+Take care.
+我想我知道你在说什么，这一些可以说是我教你的，但说的跟做的，往往是不一样..
+jane说有事情的时候可以找你陪，但现在的你，我担心那是不可能的，因为你自己都很忙..
+以我的了解，jane不可能同时间做几样事情，所以我现在更不敢奢求jane能给我什么..
+我觉得这是我自己的事情，我把你看得太重，少了你陪我聊天，传信息，我的生活突然空虚了许多，所以导致我想了太多太多..
+至于很多时候，我都不知道要怎么把心事跟你说，因为jane总是不能够了解我的情况，也总是说着说着，说到jane的事情..
+现在,jane给我一点时间好吗？让我把一切想清楚，弄清楚我自己到底要怎么样..
+Ok