Live it Right

Life is about making Something out of Nothing at all. If you're able to do that, you're able to do Everything.

Painted Life

Life is like a flower, painted to perfection, yet at the end it wilts, fragile as it is, only the stem left unbroken.

Fallen Leaves

Like the autumn leaves, we fall at times, only to find ourselves blown away by the wind, and thus we reach yet another place.

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Archive for 2011

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Confession to make

I have a confession to make,
I'm tired of dressing up,
Tired of constantly having to make myself feel pretty,
So as not to feel intimidated by all the pretty people,
Tired of having to seek for attention all the time,
Hoping that people will notice me,
Why do we have to do that?
Why do we have to be like that?
I'm tired of always trying to be pretty,
Every girl loves to dress up,
Loves to be told they are pretty,
But who can really tell who's really pretty,
You see all the pretty faces,
On the billboard, on the posters, on the magazine,
Are those people who we call pretty?
And are we not pretty enough ourselves?
Why do we stress so much on the outer beauty,
When so little people have what they call the inner beauty.

For now,
I realize I lack of that inner beauty,
One might be able to look pretty on the outside with the help of some make ups,
But how can one really be beautiful from the inside?
And only those who cares about you can truly sees how beautiful are you within.

Hmm, note to self, I don't wanna be some pretty face without a beautiful soul,
I wanna be pretty with a beautiful soul,
I guess to do that, I ought to learn to be independent 1st.

P/S: Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder after all, [E.g. To me, a girl smoking is just so ugly, I have no idea why, but I just feel so.]

Regards, Enaj.

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Take Love as a Fool

I often wondered how could some people change partners like they change clothes.
Is it not love they felt in the first place?
If it's not, then why? One after another,
Even though I know very well,
They take it as trying on clothes,
If it suits you then it's alright,
But it doesn't, then just change it,
But that concept is just so wrong,
If we try too many clothes without buying,
Won't we at least feel guilty?
For wasting people's time,
For wasting our own time?
People do not have to serve us,
They are only doing it out of obligation,
It's the same thing when you're with someone,
That someone don't have to play along with you,
It hurts when that someone is serious and you are not,
But somehow, they take love as a fool.

Good idea, I could write a poem with that title,
Anyway, that's someone's else problem, not mine.
You know sometimes you feel the strain when you quarrel,
It always happens, I always felt there will be a strain,
But somehow, he makes it all dissapear,
I don't know how he did it,
But he made me assure there wasn't the strain,
Even if there is,
He always tries to mend it instead of making it worse,
I guess I should be trying my best not to strain our relationship too. Hehe. xD

Okla, so long for now, thought I update since I neglected this blog for awhile.^^
XOXO, Enaj.

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Stupid Me

I've always been stupid when I do something,
Or after I've done that only I realize I'm such an idiot,
And then I'll be so unhappy with myself,
Like now,
I don't like that,
Even thought I were being stupid,
I wanted to get it over it,
But it's like a thorn in my head,
I hate that,
Can't find the heart to do anything,
I'm uninspired,
Hmm...

What do I do to cure myself?
To find back my "heart"?

Sad case.

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Time Flies

Time is too fast,
We can't even stop,
One day and one day and one day,
It goes non-stop,
Feels so much faster than it was before,
That's what my mum said,
Time used to be must slower,
When everyone was doing things at their own pace,
But now?
We have to keep up with everyone else,
It's just so tiring,
I don't know how to record the moment of happiness,
Other than taking pictures of it,
That we can re-live it in our memory,
I guess that is why pictures are important,
For us to have something to hold on to.

Hmm, ought to work on something.

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Sharing Happiness

You know the feeling when you're truly happy for someone and another when you're worried about them?
There are people who makes you happy when they are,
There are the others who makes you worry when they are.
What do I mean by that?
There are friends who you never know how long their happiness will last,
Is that what they truly want?
And there are those who knows what they're doing,
And you know they couldn't be happier,
Now I see the difference,
Now I know,
I just hope all my friends can be truly happy,
And for the some,
That I don't need to worry,
If they would break another heart instead of theirs.

I pray.

Sign, Enaj.

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In Time


Went to watch "In Time" just now.
Needed a break from all those writings,
I don't feel like writing anymore,
So uninspired.
Crap.

Anyway, about the movie,
I'll say the storyline is refreshing,
But the show is really blue frame,
Reminds me of Twilight the movie,
The people in it is like drained of blood,
There's only white, grey, black most of the times.
Maybe it's their idea of a dull world,
But it seems pretty dull to do so.

Anyway, went to watch the movie because Justin is in it. Haha.
Typical of girls, eh?
But was not disappointed anyway.
Not a fond critic movie of myself,
If there's a movie I'll say sucks,
I think it must really suck for me to say suck. Lol.

Go watch it and find out yourself, it's not for me to tell you what it's about.xD


Regards, Enaj.

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Big Head Prawn

Dear Diary,
I'm always doing something wrong,
Or keep repeating the same mistakes,
Over and over and over again,
I never learn my lesson,
I mean, never, ever.

After some time I'll do it again,
I'm always being blur and out of focus,
I'm the "Big Head Prawn",
I wonder if I'll ever learn not to fall down,
Instead of keep falling down and getting up,
And never learning how to becareful,
I'm as careless as a person can get,
Always doing silly stuff,
Always doing the wrong thing.

It's like the world goes round clockwise,
And I had to go anti-clockwise,
Always doing things against the flow,
I wonder,
What is it with me that makes me, me?
I'm so confusing I'm not quite sure myself.

Yours truly, Jane.

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Headache

My head still hurts,
Gosh,
I wonder if it's the Sun,
or the Mood,
or the Stress,
I feel like taking a break,
I can't handle so many stuff at once,
If I'm at a job,
If I'm the boss,
I'll fire myself already,
I know that,
I'm never good at handling stress,
It makes me even more stress,
I need rest,
There's not enough time,
Why do everything need to come at once,
God damn it,
I feel like cursing,
You know I don't curse,
These days I just can't take it,
I'm emotionally+mentally+physically unwell,
I feel like shit,
I'm seriously contradictory,
I hate being left alone,
But now I just want to be alone. F***

Regards, Enaj.

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Lost Passion

It's been awhile since I blog, thought I update myself.
It's true what my lecturer said in first year,
That when we were first year,
We had to passion to do our assignments,
Prepare for our exams,
But when we enter 2nd year,
The passion starts to waver,
It's starts to diminish until a point where you ask yourself,
What the hell are we doing here?

I find my classes boring,
Lifeless, as I drag myself to class each day,
I couldn't seem to have the "semangat" to listen,
I can't seem to focus in class,
It's really annoying,
I hated it so much.

I wish I could only seek back the passion I had before,
The girl that loves poetry, it's hard, and it's not getting any easier, sigh...

Anyway, I wonder if we should stay friends with guys we used to like?
But then found out he's a jerk?
When he really just not that into you?
I get that now, but haha, I think it's best we stay passerbys,
I might not even recognize them when I saw them in the streets,
I guess it's best that way.

And I'm coping...
Coping with life, without many friends over here,
I can hardly imagine what it will be like next 3 sems,
When he's no longer around,
And I'm all left with myself to feed,
I guess I'll go into my emo state again then,
Sigh, I wish my friends are here,
It's hard to blend in,
It's hard to click with these people.
I think it's because I'm hard to comprehend,
But honestly, if you only know me.
Regards, Enaj.

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Confessions

Since I have nothing better to do,
Spent my time watching two movies in a row,
On my computer of course,
One is Nanny McPhee, heart warming tale, no?
I like her character, it's simply delightful.

And another is confessions of a shopaholic,
It's inspiring,
Everybody has a little bit of a shopaholic in our selves,
We just need to take control of it,
I've been buying stuff ever since I start working,
Keep going on a shopping spree,
And now I learn to count the worth,
Is the amount I'm paying for really worth the item?
Most of the times,
It's not,
Well, learning to say no, for things that I won't wear,
Enough is enough,
When I don't have enough money,
I always tell myself,
Never spend the money that I don't have,
I'm not brought up to aim for designer bags or whatsoever,
It cost thousands,
A month's pay,
No?
I mean, okay, I love buying,
But when you buy stuff that costs hundreds,
It'll cost me thousands,
And seriously,
I can't afford it,
I'm just a student,
And I know that.

Self-controlling ain't that hard,
If you know when to stop.

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Self-Identity

Went to watch "Abduction" yesterday.
Not bad for a not so expected movie,
I mean, besides Taylor Lautner, you don't really know the rest of the casts.
And we only know him because he's the werewolf in Twilight,
Anyway, it's a little cliche, but a while different kind of movie,
Interesting in a way that makes you enroll together in the ride to escape,
Get away from all the bad guys,
Find out your true identity,
And well, it's a thrill of a ride.
Honestly, there are times when I feel like he does,
That I'm a "stranger in my own life",
I don't know why,
But sometimes I feel like I'm standing outside looking at what I'm doing,
Isn't it strange?
Or do we feel that way sometimes?
I feel like I'm out of my physic, and my soul is separated from me,
I really can't quite explain how that feels,
Just feels like the soul out of the body,
If you get what I mean.
Eh well, so long for now.


Regards, Jane.

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Sophie's Tale

Just finish reading Twenties Girl by Sophie Kinsella,
The 2nd book I read from her,
The first was Remember Me,
Now that was amazing,
So is this,
But I don't read her shopaholic series thou,
Not my kinda thing.

We were ask to do our assignments based on vampire novels,
Now I seriously loath that,
Even though I love it so much before,
It's just over my phase,
I admit, it's intriguing,
For teenagers,
But when you pass the age,
It gets annoying,
All I all,
I hope we does well,
Cross my fingers.

Right now,
I'm more into chick-lit comedy novels,
And of course, ever the crime novels,
It never bores me.

To those chick lit novels,
You should really check on Sophie's novels.
Now, if I could get my hands on Alexander's Potter's Book.

Will do, maybe next month! =P
Regards, Enaj.

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Unhappy

You know how it feels like when what you're feeling inside simply turns into a word in your mind,
And I was like having these thoughts that I'm really "unhappy" today,
I don't know why, perhaps because of the nature of me,
Ever the emo girl,
Yet it also strikes me as I can talk to a stranger if I want to,
I can talk to people if I want to,
But sometimes I just want to shut the whole world out of my life,
I don't really know how to explain how that feels,
I just feel, alone somehow.

Regards, Enaj.

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Presents!

12 more days until my birthday,
And I've already received four birthday presents~
^^

1. Canon Camera, courtesy of Dad & Sis.
2. Nichii Jacket, courtesy of Von.
3. Golden Key Pendant, courtesy of Mum.
4. Adidas Watch, courtesy of the guys. =)
Wonder what he'll be giving me...hee...
Happy, happy, lalala...

That's all for now. C ya later.^^

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累了

我又累了,精神和肉体都累,
累得,不想跟人家解释所做的一切,
累得,不想自动去找别人,
别人想我时自然会找我,
累得,不想再当那个主动的,
累得,想休息个够。

珊,上。

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Girlfriend Outing.^^

Wee! Went shopping today~!
Hehe, got my 2nd Birthday gift! Courtesy of Von~
Lalala, finally found a jacket, even thou not a blazer,
I guess I give up je la cari blazer,
Make me look lagi thin for some reason,
Wanted black, but make me look lagi thin,
So I got a White one~
Happy happy~^^

Okay, wanna go watch my show ad, tata.^^
Regards, Jane.

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Mi Cameria.

Got my early birthday present! And my first birthday present this year!
Courtesy of my sis, dad, and ofcoz, myself.xD

Wanted to buy Canon IXUS 220, end up buying Nikon S8100 instead. Zadao...
My family forever Nikon fans...xD

First reason I bought this is because I played with two cameras, and Canon really got beaten down by the pictures, Nico really takes nice pictures, and has 10 times zoom instead of 5 on Canon, and the price difference is only RM50, dis one more xpensive la, but my dad keep pestering me to get this instead of Canon, so I got this lor, and it has Red as well, otherwise I sure won't buy.xD

*Just a little problemo wif my Nico here, her flash pops up at the finger where you hold d camera, lol.

Other than that, loving the pictures she takes. ^^

P/S: I noe ppl alwiz calls their Nikon Nicole, Nico, or Niko. But haha, no idea what to name here, so she's Nico as well. xD

Btw, it cost me RM350, my sis n dad paid for the RM500, it's RM850 together.

 

Regards, Jane.