Live it Right

Life is about making Something out of Nothing at all. If you're able to do that, you're able to do Everything.

Painted Life

Life is like a flower, painted to perfection, yet at the end it wilts, fragile as it is, only the stem left unbroken.

Fallen Leaves

Like the autumn leaves, we fall at times, only to find ourselves blown away by the wind, and thus we reach yet another place.

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:珊的天气预报:

今天的天气:轰轰烈烈的太阳
今天的心情:有点不知所措
今天的感想:请看以下。。。

剩下四天了,我的死期快到了。
呵呵,开玩笑啦。
可是这种感觉,
就像要上一年级时,第一天上课就哭个不停。
就像上了初中一时,第一天去学校就沉默不语。
就像要回到中六时,第一天又再次重新出发。

这一次,又是另一个阶段,
做学生真好,离家背景的感觉真不好。
别人总是以为我很坚强,
其实我比谁都还要懦弱。

很多事情我不敢做,
很多事情让我很烦,
那些小事大事,可以的话我也不想去管。

东西七七八八收拾好了,
不是因为我迫不及待,
而是因为我害怕遗漏,
是不是又缺了什么。

当心,新的环境,
担心,适应不来,
什么事,要自己一个人去办,
要自己一个人去处理,
很多时候也得一个人吃饭。

也许,会交到投缘的朋友,
但那个也许要去到那了才知道吧?

新的环境,新的机会,
新的自己,新的世界。

我想摆脱过去的自己,可是我依然喜欢沉默,不想别人打扰。
就让我静一静吧,什么话都别说。
别忘了,我就像你肚子里的虫,很容易就会看穿你,只是我喜欢装傻,装不知道,而你在我耳边说的,我也装听不到。

PS: Give me some time. Nothing can break me. The Tears are proof that I can still feel. And the Anger shows that I can stand up on my own. It's TIME.

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My soon to be HOME...I'm Dreading to go there...><"

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Things:I:Already:Miss


Just got back from PD. Well, nth much 2 talk about that, except I had a rather gratifying dinner. =)

All this makan makan, x minum minum is gonna make my stomach very Senak man.

Btw, I've just decided. Ought to 改口.
There are times when the words I speak really doesn't sound nice.
At all. E.g. I replaced "Shoot" for "Shit".

It's easier to replace words than to get rid of a word. Seriously.
There are three words that I should really stop mentioning.
1st two will be Stupid & Idiot
You know I hate my sis calling me that, but over time I t'jangkit from her, and I start saying her back whenever she says me.
Making it a habit, that the two words dun seem to be much of a big deal anymore.

But I understand that it makes other people t'singgung if I say them like that,
So hmm, I shud seriously quit saying it,
But since I'll be away from that lil girl soon, mayb I could.

Another word that I tend to use is really Offensive[Given that I refer it to a person, not that I ever did]
Is "Sial". I never said anyone sial.
I just tend to use that word, as in sial betul, etc.
But it really isn't a nice word to say.
Especially when I'm a girl. Lol.

Oh yea, I already miss Melaka.
Haha, I just thought of some things I will surely miss.
You wanna know what's number 1 on my list?
1. Fruits.
Yep, nanti pergi sana mane ada fruits giv me eat?
Sob sob, me An Apple A Day punya org nia.
Hari2 fridge got fruits one you know. Sigh~

That is so not gonna help with my indigestion.

Well, number 2 to 10 I'll tell you after I go there. Kaka...but most likely will be Qikely. =P

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Kesedaran:Diri:Selain:Diri:Sendiri

Human conscience that involves another other than ourselves.
Belum masuk Uni dah dpt lihat org punya tebiat, org punya tabiat.

I'll start from myself.
Ever since I'm a little girl.
Everything my mum settle for me.
Well, almost everything official.

I don't know nothing about my bank account.
I don't have an ATM card.
I don't even know how to bank in money.

All those Saham Amanah all that gua apa pun xtau,
Saje chop my cap jari then habis cerita.

U c, I'm technically clueless most of the times,
Can say that I dun even know how to handle my life,
Hmm, so much for a 19 going on 20 adult har?

Thinking of which, I'll be left to fend on my own start next month. T.T
Everyone have to grow up,
I'm sure I will survive. Cross my fingers.

Well, me not wanna bad mouth ppl at here,
For what am I about to say is about myself as well,
You see my mum, she's someone who likes to share things,
When there's good things she pass around,
Even the simple gestures, fruits, food, etc.
But she doesn't like to give "Kiam Siap" ppl,
The kind that is so RICH yet wouldn't share a sen with anyone,
[Got la ppl like that in the family tree.=P]

Yea that, bcoz not oni are they stingy,
They dun even wan 2 c ppl hev a better treatment, entah apa2 la.
Tebiat org kaya, what I can't have, you can't have either,
That kind of ppl, what I have, you mustn't have as much as me. Lol.
If you don't know any of those kind of ppl,
You haven't been to the REAL world,
Not that I have, I just happen to know.

Juz now my parents go send the form for me,
The TAPEM form, for the pinjaman,
1 year RM4500 oni, interest free.
If results ok, they'll waiver a part of it,
If very ok, they'll waiver all of it,
So my sis say better take this one than take PTPTN,
Even thou the amount not much,
Coz they give you free money after all.
Let's just hope they approve my loan. Lol.

My main point here is,
Our GENERATION are Selfish Freaks,
Whoever is not can disregard whatever I just said,
I'm talking about myself anyway.
Like I've mentioned in my previous post,
Most of the times I'm just too concerned with my own things,
I don't have the time to bother about anyone else.

Ok, so any Malaccan that is going to further study, 
or already in Uni can get RM400 from the state gov,
Deduct the e-kamus that comes wif it RM340 I think,
Within 6 months from the date you enter Uni oni,
That's what my mum say la,
I oso just heard from my cousin mention yesterday,
My mum oso heard from a fren's aunt.
That's y she went and take.

Anyway,
I baru bgn when she came back,
Ask me fill in the form la dis la that la,
I say okay okay,
They keep say me apa pun need them to do,
When my sis was my age,
Everything she do herself,
Lol, it just gives me a headache.
I don't like to do all this official thingy.><"
Very de pek chek,
That's y Business, Marketing, or Management doesn't suit my personality at all.
I'm better off staying as low profile as possible.

Sigh, that's y they never had 2 worry about my sis,
Me? Byk susah lor,
Kejap2 sakit, apa pun xtau buat.
Ckp je senang, tapi xda beza pun...lol.

I was juz crappin off the score again didn't I?
Ya, then she ask me to notify my friends.
Which brgs me bak 2 the Question.
Would I have done that if she didn't ask me to?
I have no idea, maybe a couple but that's it.
I sent to almost 20 ppl,
Dun remember, but 10 of them or more,
Replied me and say they got ad,
A couple didn't know and ask me about it.
The ratio is about this, 15:5 approximate.
15 sudah tau, but u never heard from them,
5 xtau, n that's my job 2 notify them.

That's when I realized.
We are too concerned about ourselves,
That有福同享,有难同当,
Doesn't really do it at this kind of Day and Age.
Sadly, that's simply the case.
Friends heh? Time to self-reflect starting from myself.

Rotten apples we may not be,
But how many of us are organic anyway?
Poisoned by all the pesticides and sorts,
In order to survive we got corrupted as well.
PS: For my BBQ outing Pics last night, click here.
Actually wanted 2 say sth about that,
But I guess I think too much,
It's the moments that matters isn't it?
I have no idea how I ended up being the person I am now,
Than the person I am then. Or maybe I do.
Ought to start putting myself together again.
Then we will all be together.
And I know just the right song for it. =)

We're all in this together

When we reach

We can fly
Know inside
We can make it
We're all in this toghether 
Once we see 
Theres a chance 
That we have 
And we take it

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:表达能力:

很累了,才从沙滩烤肉会回来。
那个明天才说吧,我现在要谈些别的事。
我不想睡。
一,是因为吃太饱了。
二,是因为真的不想睡。

可以的话,
我真的想继续保持沉默,
就连信息所打出来的字都会得罪到人,
我真的拿自己没办法了。

也许我的表达能力真的很有问题吧。
我不知道为什么,
别人可以把我的好意当假意。
把我的实话当谎言,把我的赞扬当讽刺。
也许他们习惯了不真实的我吧,
是这样吗?

我从来就不知道自己真实的一面,
像他们说的,我这个人真的是捉摸不定。
忽冷忽热早已成了我的本性。

关于朋友,我有太多的不理解,
我总是把精神投入在自己的身上,
表面上我是个很好的听众,
很会安慰人,开解人,
其实我比谁都需要别人去注意,
需要别人的支持与陪伴,
这些日子就是有了鼓励才能继续走下去。

有些人不知道他们对我有多重要,
那没关系,
因为很多时候,
我也不晓得自己对他们有多重要。

我不喜欢解释自己,
因为话从我口出,听起来就像是借口。
所以也不想为自己辩解,
他们爱想什么,就想什么,
有句话说, 
"Don't worry over what other people are thinking about you
They're too busy worrying over what you are thinking about them."
当你在担心别人怎么看你的同时,
其实别人也在担心你怎么看他。
所以又何必这么在乎呢?

一个批评你的人又有多了解你?
一个你歧视的人,你又有多了解?

"Sometimes you have to do the Right thing by being Wrong to a person."
这句话,我今天才想到,
因为一个朋友,
让我明白,
有些人,
不管你再怎么努力去维持那段感情,
太多的误会让我们没办法和解。
“公说公有理,婆说婆有理。”
对方也觉得不管他怎么努力,
我也没有收到他的心意,
事情并非是这样,
有时候对一个人好,反而是对他不好。

我只是装傻而已,
很多时候我都很难做,
不管我的选择是什么,
他们也不会满意,
有时候,
我真的很希望他们可以讨厌我,恨我,
甚至不要原谅我,
这样我也不需要再苦恼,
到底是该对他们好,
还是对他们不好。

算了,
I don't want to be a Pain in ur @$$ anymore.
You can F.O for all I care.
If I hurt you.
Feel free to know you hurt me too.
再这样下去也不是办法,
反正我也要离开了,
也不会见到你了,
就随你喜欢吧。

我都说了,你也知道,
没有我在你的人生,
你会更好过,
为了你的好,
我决定对你不好。


真的笑死人了,
如果你看到我所写的,
我也能猜到你会说什么,
一定又会说我O.P.之类的话了,
你还是除了我以外,
我认识太自相矛盾的人了。
也许我们在一些方面,
性格上太过于相似,
才会产生没完没了的摩擦吧。

If I'm the Worst friend you ever Had. 
Then I'll make it Right for you and Stay OUT of your LIFE.
I mean it. Don't come and Find me. And I wouldn't Find you.
So F.O.
You wanna be MEAN to me. I'll do just the same to you.
Not because you Piss me off.
But because you Wanted me to.

这样一来,我们之间也不会再有些无谓的误会,
每一次聊天总是让彼此不好过,
又不是一两天的事了,
都已经三四年的朋友了,
我不想再跟你纠缠不清了!!!
你总是认为自己很了解我!!!
你到底了解什么?!!
你。他。妈。的。朋。友。

If you don't need a Friend like me, so be it.
I don't wanna be the Reason for your Misery.
You can Blame it all on me,
But not your own Misery.

PS: "Don't Push your THOUGHTS into another. That is what you Think. Not what they Think."

是有点火滚没错,but if I said the things you said to me to someone else. There's only one thing I would expect from them. To leave me out of their life. If there's someone who wouldn't do that, they ain't a friend, they're a saint. But I would NEVER, EVER, Say the words you said to me to another Living Soul. Even to someone I Hate.

Then AGAIN, I guess your Faith in God is so Noble. That it doesn't really matter what you say just to prove a point. I NEVER said I was Right, I NEVER said I was Perfect. You Said I was Right, You Said I was Perfect. And that's my FAULT for making you think that WAY? Remind me again why I don't BELIEVE IN GOD? Why should I? When all the Gods are Fighting among themselves. Would they just Cut it out already.

别人可以误会我,小事。别人套我的话说我说过一些我从来没说过的话。那个真的是让人有点不爽。我们不是神仙,人的忍耐度有限。I don't even know why we keep putting up with each other's $h!t! When all we do is keep Pissing each other off.

I'm not an Angel. I'm just Plain Jane.

-Pl@inJan3-

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:我的灵感之源:


天国的嫁衣【没有帅哥,没有美女,只有好戏,那已足够】

+喜欢服装的世界,喜欢浪漫的景色,喜欢充满意义的台词。

放羊的星星【有型男,有美女,有快乐,有悲伤】
+喜欢可爱的Yoo Ha Na,喜欢好酷的林志颖,喜欢赛车的画面,喜欢Mont Blanc的首饰。

微笑Pasta【有好笑,有感人】
+喜欢伤感的栋梁,喜欢可笑的心凌,喜欢动人的旋律。

花样少男少女【就是很好笑】
+喜欢好笑的情节,喜欢好笑的Ella,喜欢校园的故事。

转角遇到爱【比较切实际】
+喜欢小猪演的角色。很好笑。也不是什么有钱少爷。

命中注定我爱你。【有缘相遇,有份一起】
+喜欢阮经天。

败犬女王【爱情不看岁月】
+还是喜欢阮经天。哈哈。

下一站,幸福。【关于牺牲,关于谎言,关于真爱】
+喜欢小小彬,喜欢Vanness。

偷心大圣PS男【自欺欺人的恋情,不敢触碰的爱情】
+喜欢剧情,喜欢各种各样的Audi.xD,红,橙,蓝,白,黑,点点。


+做么突然提起这些戏呢?也没什么啦,只是从中得到了不少灵感,不少感触。都是些让我印象深刻的台湾“所谓”的偶像剧。
+我不喜欢看那些有钱的败家子,因为有钱,可以叛逆,可以讨厌家人,冷血无情。【太多这种了,看到没兴趣了-从流星花园,到王子变青蛙,到点点~不实际,童话故事还是拿来骗小妹妹吧】
+也不喜欢看那些傻到极点的笨妹,却遭人所爱,而确是那种男生都爱,女生都恨的那种。【拜托,那种角色实在太夸张了】

而帅哥美女就不例外了。没有帅哥,也会有美女,其中就要说说关于以下这位了,真的是女人化妆起来可以变成另一个人。隋堂,台湾知名模特儿之一。偷心大圣的女主角,她在戏里真的不怎么样,重来不会看到她美丽的一面,我妹也说她不好看。刚看了几张她的照片,真的是化装出来就变美了不少。
所谓这世上没有丑女人,只有懒女人,只要努力补一补妆外表就会显得华丽优美了。而内在,那就得靠自己去修补了。=)

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:Tomodachi:

我问了一个朋友数次:“我们是好朋友吗?”
他回答我说:
“我们要是很好的朋友!虽然表面上不像,但是只要彼此有心就好。”

他说的那句话,我才想起,跟我很好的朋友,表面上真的看不出来。
应该说
知心朋友吧。我快乐时会找他们,苦恼时也会找他们。
是我一生都不会忘记的朋友吧。怎么说呢?
就算很少见面,很少说话。却在我最需要人陪和支持时,总会在我身旁。
就是那种朋友。

别人在烦大学的事,我却在苦恼其他事,唉。
三年前的我,不管别人叫我去哪里,我都不会去。
三年前的过后,别人叫我去,我就随他们跟去。
现在的我,有点厌倦了,不是讨厌跟他们出去的时候,
而是开始觉得离他们很远了。
一个人嘛,是不可能跟每一个人好的,这个道理我也懂,
我又没办法让他们知道,
我有多么的
Feel out of place.
It's like I don't belong there.


我一直都是那随性的一个,
那么又何必在意这么多呢?
反正我们大家也要各走各的了,
在将来的五年内,应该很少会见到面吧。
也许有些朋友,
再也不会再见面了。

像我妈说的,
去了大学,出来做工,结婚生子,
结果一个个不知不觉就离我们而去,
我不是沉默的女生,
只是喜欢保持沉默,
不是因为我没有话说,
而是因为不善于表达。

只是我内心的一点点感想,朋友,再会了。
希望你不管到了哪里,就算把我给忘了,就算我想不起你的名字,愿你过得好,有机会再相见。
也许我不是个称职的朋友,但我想自己也不是个坏朋友。
加油!!奋斗!!=D

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I'm:Sleepy

Slept at 2am last night, woke up at 7am this morning.
My mum woke me up, ask me go to the clinic.
Siang2 x ckp, zzz, so sleepy.
She went to check entah apa la, me go and do body check up for uni de.
Went to Poliklinik Ayer Keroh.

Go early in the morning not much people,
Was there for 2 and a half hour,
Membosankan, nasib ada bawa my buku,
My novel, my constant companion,
I find it a very good item to keep unnecessary convo away.
Haha. Unless ofcoz ur like my mum, pergi klinik pun nampak org yg dia kenal.

I tell u ar, she rly hor, go evrywhere sure got ppl she noe one,
And when it comes to relatives, it's always my granduncle's daughter's son sth dot dot.
I tell u her family tree hor, she can relate 3 generations, and I always huh? What and what? Confusing.
I don't know what 2nd cousin la, 3rd auntie la. Mostly just my dad and mum's closest that's it.
Other than that, let's just save it. Both my father and mum's side ad about 100 ad. Lol.
Not to mention all those 2nd relatives.

Neway, even if ppl she duno,
She sit down oni dah start ckp.
That's y I say, y dun she juz go do amway,
Kenal so many auntie auntie wot,
Hehe. My house dun buy amway's thg anway,
Cosway adalah. That oso few items je la.


Semalam mane gua pergi eh?
Pi tgk The Karate Kid.
About the movie: Worth watching, it's always fun to see kids kicking each other's @$$. 
Haha, jk, I'm like keep ouch, wah, eek, deng, damn, wow! 
Yea, if u get wot I mean.
7.40pm movie. Finish at 10pm lor.
Brought nuggets and fries.
Can't finish it oso, shud hev bought either one,
But xpe la, it was my breakfast juz now, hee.
Neway, 9.30pm and my stomach hurts like hell.
Tahan sampai de movie habis.
Then go yamcha wif the guys.

Haha, erm,
Actually is someone ask me go de la,
Then hor, my other fren say guys oni u wan go ar?
Lol, mcm 1st day know me,
I go watch movie with 3 guys ler...><"
Bo pian lor.
All the girls got BF ad,
No BF de all at KL,
My Skul de dun watch the movies I watch,
My Primary frenz alwiz watch movies late at night.
So wot choice do I hev eh?
Haha, nt that it's a bad thg.
Even thou we movie kaki alwiz senyap je,
But I actually dun feel so out of place,
Mayb bcoz I'm comfortable with the territory, I don't know.
But I felt otherwise being with "some" girls,
I won't say who are those girls,
Just, not in tune with them.

Neway, I feel so terribly Wrong for all the Right reasons,
I don't know if that's rite, I simply feel the opposite of feeling Right for all the Wrong reasons.
12 Days, that's all the time I have left.
Before I go wonder on my own.
I can't even go to the klinik myself.
And now I'll be by myself.
Sigh, seriously a sucker.
I feel like a little girl all over again.
A 10 year old girl.
Except I'm not.

Will work on a poem later.
I'm just kinda having mixed feelings,
As usual.
I'm so messed up. ><"
So many things to do, so little time,
So many things to buy, so little money..=.=

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:Report:

Since this is gonna be a long post, I'll try my best to cut it short. Haha. Just realize it's damn long, to cut short, juz forget about my trip and go see the post after the dotted line.

...Me and Moo Moo going on a trip. =D


1st Day: Tuesday

Woke up at 8am+, got ready and start for our journey at 9am+.
My dad use the coastal road, all the way until Bukit Mertajam. At the Mainland of Penang.
We reach there about 7pm+ actually, but then couldn't find my aunt's auntie hse.
Ask my aunt she pulak duno wher we are.
After asking 3 person baru dpt cari de place.
By the time we reach there about 8pm+ ad.
Geng rite?

Ppl use 6 hours 2 reach, we took almost 12 hours 2 reach.
My dad la. Along the way entah dia sesat pi mane.
And he purposely masuk Carrey Island, which fyi, is just palm trees all around.
Nth 2 c, he went in just get 2 the end...><"
Took 30 minutes in and out.
That's y my mum keep saying he like 2 waste time.
Sigh, make us pening giler.
Asyik pusing sini pusing sane.
Along the way duno pass by how many sorts of things, and see how many sorts of stuff.
I dun rly remember ad. Lol. Haha.
Except for the cows crossing the road all the time. Heh.

On the way, drop by Teluk Intan, and see the Menara Condong, can't rly see it condong from my pix, bcoz I didn't even take it properly, but when u got in there, it makes u dipsy, dizzy,, even thou it's juz slightly condong, climb the stairs oso feel pusing~ It's the gravity har?
 
 

2nd Day: Wednesday

Was suppose to go over to the Island today.
But then hor, bcoz of other plans we go there the next day.
What plans?

Early in the morning, pi makan breakfast.
Then went to see Bird Nest. That's right. 
The burung layang-layang that creates the nest.
It's owned by my mum's aunt.
1kg of Bird's Nest can earn RM4500 I think.
Can't remember, about that la.
1 month can get about 50k if the birds all come around.
Depends on luck lor they say.
If the bird like ur place,
They'll stick to there.

If not,
Mostly about half that amount.
Ofcoz need to be divided to the middle man, the workers all oso la.
Average 1 person makes about 10k per man.
That's still a lot rite??
No wonder it's so xpensive siot.

Then nvm, we juz sitted there do nth. While my mum chat wif her auntie. She's like got so many thgs 2 talk. Lol. I mean my mum.
Note to self: Whenever you follow someone else around, bring a novel along. Heh. At least can cure my boredness.
After that hor, we go where you know? Go to a farm, see what? I'll show u a few pictures.

 

That's why me and my sis so pek chek.
My parents dun mind goin 2 all these places.
Thg is me not so nature and plant and animal person.
Me dun hev much interest in all these stuff.
Cameron go once is enuf 4 me.
The farm there got lotsa stuff thou if u wanna noe.
Padi field, fish pond, Jackfruit tree, Papaya tree, Durian tree, the durian size betul XXXL punyer, Melaka u won't c so BESAR punye.
The flesh very thick, not very sweet, not very bitter. 
Juz nice. Ate a couple oni, as u noe, I dun like Durians. Hee. Saje makan.

Then nvm, after that it rains and we go to another town, Kulim.
That's like 1 hour and a half from where we were.
Swt rite?><"

4got 2 mention, we went 2 shopping at nite, 2 buy xtra baju sebab x bawa spare. Lol. N my sis tgh frust giler...

3rd Day: Thursday

Same lor, woke up early in the mornin again.
After hevin breakfast.
We went over to the island.
1st time drove over ther.
Laz time sit ferry je.

OMG.
The place is so SCARY.
The road so narrow.
The ppl so many.
The jln so sempit.
Sigh.
Rly rly luan.
If I'm the one driving there.
For sure kena accident.><""

We didn't go 2 any of the historical places lor.
Coz all been bfor ad, even thou it's 15 years ago.
Haha, but my sis juz went there 2 years ago.
I oso sien wan go.
So we went 2 cari makan je.
Round2,
Went 2 komtar[Which sux],
Then Prangin Mall @ Komtar[Which is better, still, mcm Sg Wang je. Which I dun like 2 go]
Then cari makan,
After makan pi Gurney Plaza.
Haha, this one byk xpensive.
Mcm Sunway Pyramid je.
All the stuff branded goods.
And ppl here buka mulut je ckp hokkien.
Gua tia bo eh.

Then my dad go around the island, literally.
He juz drove up hill turn one round cum down hill.
Make us all so PENING.
Dizzy man. The hilly roads.
He blh thn, kita x leh thn.

Then apa buat?
Pi beli sum nutmegs~!!
Nice, got my fav kind.
Haha, tapi a bit oni.
Cum tu lor.

4th Day: Friday

Time 2 pak the bag n go bak!!
Hooray~!!
But bfor that, go eat breakfast 1st la, haha.
Started the journey about 10.30am.
Use the highway until we reach Ipoh,
Drop by my mum's uncle place at Tanjong Malim.
Evrytime we pass ther sure drop by there de.

Reach home by 6pm.
So about 7 hours la.
Including when we drop by for lunch.
So rly 6 hours can reach ad. Haha.
Half the journey when we went up.
Ofcoz xtra money for toll.
RM50+ I thk.

When I dun mentioned about any food?
Bcoz I dun exactly remember when and where I eat wot,
Even thou got pictures.
But not so nice la.
So not gonna post, haha. I'll list it out.

Food:
1. Hokkien Mee
2. Chee Cheong Fun
3. Lam Mee
4. Wantan Mee
5. Claypot Chicken Rice
6. Char Koay Teow
7. Tomyam bihun
8. Fish and chips
9. Nasi Lemak
10. Otak2
11. Curry Mee

Hmm, I guess that's all? N no la. I didn't eat all of that la. Campur2 la..share wif my mum and my sis. Haha.
If I ate it all, I've already put on some pounds liao lor..=P
N if u wanna ask me which food nicer. Ofcoz I say Melaka ler.
It's all about wot we used to eating growing up.
My cousins from KL still prefer Loloq over Satay Celup.
But to us, Satay Celup the best!!
Haha, so yea la, different rasa wot.
I tried the food biasa je, to them it's nice. 
To me, xda pe.

Special Story:
My mum's aunt has a son, that is kinda mentally not so fit.
He's not crazy. But his mind is like a child+adult. I dun rly noe how 2 xplain, for those who watch Fei Mao, u'll noe wot I mean.
There's actually sum1 like Fei Mao. That can do thgs on their own.
Can communicate wif ppl and all, just cudn't make logical thinking by their own.
He became like that bcoz he fell and knock his head on the stone floor when he was juz 2 year old. Yea, a kid.
Juz like fei mao demam panas so bcum like that.
As they say, the plug short circuit ad.
His memory is quite good thou. He can remember the places he been too.
But nth 2 far long.

He can speak a little bit of cantonese, hokkien, chinese, and english.
My mum says he went to special school.
But I thk his english is even better than those I noe. No offence.[I'm not saying mine is good]
I think if he haven't knock his head and got stitches on it.
He wud hev been a really smart person.
His dad is a high ranking police officer, his mum is oso quite smart.
So it's only fair that he is too.

He's 50 this year btw, 1 year younger than my mum, but he feels more like a koko then an uncle.
You won't think of him as a uncle figure.
But a koko, seriously, even thou he look his age.

My mum's aunt is a very rich lady.
The farm, the bird nest, all belongs to her.
But she doesn't rly live an expensive lifestyle.
Not rly stingy, not rly boros too.
Her hse tv byk besar man.
It's like 40-50 inches I thk.

When a family is too rich,
It drives people apart.
Her grandfather leaves a large portion of property,
But bcoz of that,
All of them gaduh,
She dun mind, since she's so rich rite.
But the rest oso very rich,
Only thg wif human, 
They're never satisfied.
Never.

The more money they hev,
The more money they want,
For what?
My grandmother alwiz say u can't brg it to the grave,
And bcoz we aren't that rich,
Out family is more close knitted.
My grandma has filial children,
Even thou sum of their spouse are calculative and wotsoever. 
But we're doing well, not so bad. ^^
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My sis's fren was saying yesterday,
How cum we boleh suka suka buat steamboat,
Buat bbq, we alwiz hev these gathering at home lor,
Even thou I dun like it, as u noe, me no party ppl,
Me dun like layan ppl, say me lan ci, I dun care,
I dunwan 2 layan means dunwan 2 layan.

Haha, well, I juz dun like 2 ckp kosong ok?
I notice ppl do that alot.
Asking u about ur stuff,
But it's juz 4 courtesy purposes,
Not that they'll remember after that,
Get wot I mean? I dun like doin that.

Bcoz most of the times, we won't even see each other the 2nd time, so why bother?
Speaking from an anti social perspective. No offense. 
Mayb it's a good thg I'm goin away,
Mayb I cud create a new identity while I'm gone.
Mayb it's rite wot a fren said, x dpt uni I Sad, dpt uni I Scare.=P

Got in to UKM btw, taking Literature. 
I thk it's my 1st choice, I dun even remember.
The nearest public Uni from Melaka.
Haha, 1 hour n a half. My sis's falkuti.

My gosh, her falkuti is up hill down hill man..><"
Means I won't be able to ride bicycle la tu.
My sis was saying, will I be able to cope?
Do I hev a choice? I put english as well.
But I wanted Literature more.
Bcoz I dun like 2 speak, english requires lots of speaking. =P
And bcoz I like to take COLD subjects.
The stuff ppl dun touch.
I'm guessing the business n sorts will hev hundreds of them.
N none of my interest oso.
Public uni so limited choice.
What choice do I hev?
None.

At least it's sth I prefer. Won't say like.
Since I prefer poems over classical novels.
But I'll find a way to survive.
If I cud make it thru.
I'm afraid of the dark btw.
I'll try keeping my eyes shut all the time when it's dark.
So, haha, I am so Si Liao. I pass thru Siliao btw, a small kampung in Msia. Haha.

Ok then, 2 weeks n I'm gonna be caged, this time on my own.
Hev 2 leave Melaka, my beloved home.
Sad sad, sob sob.
Melaka the best!!!!!

Xtra:
As u notice, I dun like 2 post a few posts in a day. Made exception for a few, but, lazy rite now. Hee.

Laz nite pi makan Pizza Hut sama family n my sis's fren, we all noe him lor, org baba, haha. Then after that went to Wings wif my Jie Jie and her fren, that lil pig n me both no brg hp, coz by the time we got home sudah kong, entah mane itu charger hilang, cudn't find it, need 2 buy another one.

Anyway, I won't be going to Wings again. The price really ketuk org kao kao. I never been there lor. Oni been to Xuan. Nvm, the thg wif these places is that. They FORCE ppl to order drks. That's y I go Xuan 1 time then no go ad. There's a few places that I wudn't go whenever my fren ask me. Wher is that? Station 1, Mori Cafe and Xuan, and now Wings. I say u mau pi pergi la, gua xmau ikut. These kind of places rly chop ppl I tell u. Blood Suckers...Eek, if the thg is nice, I might still consider, thing is, the thg not say very nice oso. Swt.

My drks, as usual, oni drank until half, I dun like cold drinks. I dun drk Coffee and Milk. Which put Old Town in my anti list oso. Bcoz it serves no TEA for me!! Ish, geram betul.

Things I Like & Hate:
1. Like English Tea. Hate Chinese Tea.
2. Like Honey Dew. Hate stuff that smells of Honey Dew. E.g. Marshmallows!!!
3. Like Banana. Hate anything other that has Banana in it. E.g. Banana cake.

That's juz a few. Hee. I guess that's all for today. Wah, sudah pukul 1pm man. Gua blog more than 2 hours liao. Haha. Starving ad. So long then. Any mistakes I write above malas nak chek. So tell me if u spot any. ^^

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III:Home:Sweet:Home

I'm back!! In Melaka, haha, anyone miss me? No one knew where I've been to anyway, didn't tell anybody. Keke. Even thou it's just two hours drive. Lol. If you still don't know where I've been to, I suggest you check out post number I, haha.

Hmm, well, from The Pig and The Rat. I've observed that they have quite the similarities. Which is?


1#Have the tendency to "Shout" instead of "Speak" whenever people ask something.
2#Always answer back with a set of words that includes: "What?!", "Whatever", "Anything".
3#Cannot ask them to "Repeat" whatever it is they have said. Even if you can't hear. Ask them thrice and they'll "Meletup"
4#Ask them for something or to do something, the answer is always the same: "Wait". And it's not 5 or 10 minutes. It's wait as in half an hour or maybe FOREVER. Depends on their mood and circumstances.
5#Can keep asking them to do the thing from the moment they say Wait, but still can keep answer Wait, I can remind the Pig to do something many times and she can't even do it, and when she does, she gets mad at me. For what?? It's what she's suppose to be doing, not me.

The Pig


6#Keep blaming people whenever we forgot about something. She thinks her memory is good that she remembers everything.
7#Always use my own words as a weapon to argue back with me.[Only most of the times she interprets my meaning the other way round, so that every time we argue, she'll get back on track and I'm the one that's wrong, not she. Never she.]
8#Buka mulut aje xda benda baik. Asyik panggil people: "Idiot", "Stupid", "Crazy", as thou she very clever. Ask her get straight A's and prove that she's clever. She answer me: "Y shud I?", I don't need to? "Puhlease, I simply answer her because you can't, duh.]..and I always say the same thing to her. Kerana mulut badan binasa.
9#Know how to create rubbish but never knew how to throw rubbish. I don't even know if she can spell Rubbish Bin. Dirty like a PIG. Technically, she is.
10#Stubborn like a cow. Talking to her is really like 对牛弹琴.

*Note: Don't get me wrong, I love her. I rather sleep with her than sleeping alone. Well, mostly because I'm afraid to sleep alone. The thing is, I don't get it with girls her age. What the heck is wrong with them? They seem to lack modesty and manners to be honest. How can they expect people to Listen to them when they don't even Listen to anybody else? Communication is the key. Only with communication is there trust. Only by communicating can we get to know one another. Shouting isn't communicating. It's like what I see in Nanny 911 all the time. All the kids shouting at one another.

I'm not a perfect person, there's more for me to improve on. But I know enough to at least have the dignity to respect others so that others will respect me. And thanks to them. I realize what I need to work on. First off is certainly get rid of the two words. Whatever & Anything. I just realized how much I hate both the words. It's annoying and irritating. Like my mother always say when I say I want Anything. She say they don't sell Anything. And the pig and rat, well, save it if you want their opinion. Just decide for them. Because they'll just answer "Anything". Gosh! How I hate that word right now!

And arguing with a Pig is baseless. I just realize what a fool I make of myself whenever I let my temper get the best of me, when in the end it's me who cry. It's like talking to a barking dog. Lol. I shall remember. Sabar, sabar, countless times I say in my heart. It doesn't matter what she says, it doesn't matter. I should trust myself more. Let her say what she wants, it's her mouth, don't get kek sim over what she says. And I still had to remind myself every time I talk to her. ><"

PS: Let the Mistakes of Yours and Others be your Guidance to being a better Person.

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II:Reality:Check

I realized alot lately. Like, say for a start, I realize I say "I realize" a lot, like all the time?
The day I arrived in Puchong, we sat the bus lor. My aunt shows me what a kind act truly means.
It was drizzling that day, 3 of us kids just carried our things quickly and head for shelter, after my aunt put down her bags, she got over into the rain and help an old lady carries her bag.
It made me realized that I'm always unaware of what's happening around me, even of what is around me.
Oh yea, btw, I just type "I realize" at my blog search, and 13 posts with the word came out.
Haha, very well, my lucky number. ^^

You know, I'm like kinda phase out all the time.
Self absorbed that I don't realize or see the things around me.
There are times when I'm having my meal. I actually forgot to eat something. How can I forget you may ask?
Well technically, I don't, I just don't "realize" that dish, can say that I don't "see" it there. Even when it is.
There is one time, when my mum ask me why I didn't hang up the food cover, she always make a point to make me hang up that thing.
Then I say "Huh? What? Oh, that, I x nampak."...It's only at my left hand side.
N I really didn't realize it's there. It always happen you know?
I'm searching for things, and I can find at a place that is so obvious that I do not see it until someone pointed it out to me?
That's y the pig always say me
"mong dong" de...

Well, not only that. While staying here, today is my fourth day, it's thursday. Since I have nothing on my hands to do. I'm typing this while it's fresh on my mind.

I realize, how fortunate I am. And how much I love my mum. For all she has done for us. I cannot imagine life without her. Oh gosh, I'm crying. I feel so useless, and so dissapointed in myself. Having thrown at my face what I should do but not doing enough.

I told my friend the other day, I may be 19 going on 20. I may know a lot of things others done. But I certainly am not doing things I know I should do. I know I shouldn't compare myself with others. But it's what happening around me every single day.

Growing up, looking at my sis. I thought it's easy to do the things she do. The reality is, I'm not like her, and I'm never gonna be like her.

At my age, she's driving my mum around, instead of me still having my mum to drive me around.
At my age, she can handle anything her own, going to the doctor, the dentist, even shopping, etc. And I still need my mum to bring me go.
At my age, well, you get the point. I'm gonna bored you if I'm gonna write non-stop.


My cousin, is a rat, she's 14 this year. 1 year younger than my sis, the pig. We'll talk more about the Rat and Pig later.

She had a lot of chores in her hands, since she's the only one at home most of the times. Both my uncle and aunt are working, her eldest sis working, her second sis, my cousin twin* is studying, although both her sis are staying at home. The thing is, she's home alone most of the times. She can't cook, I really have no idea what she have for lunch most of the days. Simply cook maggi mee or something.

The chores she had to do by which I've observed[Not sure if it's because of holidays thou, well, even if it is, my mum not asking me do anything actually made me feel bad about myself. Since I'm older, I should be more concious am I not?]
1. Cook Rice
2. Sweep Floor
3. Dry clothes/Take clothes in
4. Wash the dishes/Clear the table
5. Throw out the rubbish
6. Etc.

My mum does all the chores. The only time she ask me to do something is when she's going out or well not at home.
And she doesn't like to call me do things, because. heh well. Let's see eh?
1. She ask me switch off the rice cooker, most of the times, I forget. Hehe. She always ask me off because she'll be walking around. But she alwiz cum bak bfor the rice goes hangus. =P
2. She ask me dry the clothes. Ok, but then she says I queeze not dry enough. Not that it's a big deal.
3. She ask me fold the clothes. Ok, but when I'm done, she'll re-fold it because I fold not nice enough.
4. She ask me sweep the floor. Ok, I sweep sweep the floor then she still say me, I thought I ask you to sweep the floor. I say "Huh? I just swept it." You get the point.


Technically, she always say the same thing,
"Ask you do I have to do again." Well, my fault actually, for not doing good enough. She always say another thing too[This one to my dad, the pig and me]: "Everything have to wait for me." Because well, she does all the things at home. And so yea, everything kinda depends on my mum to do.

I don't know how to make tea btw, so I alwiz ask my dad to make. And he likes to tarik tarik the tea. Lol. What do I mean I don't know? You see, I'll end up putting lots of sugar or milk in the tea, and it's still tasteless, yea, that, and the amount of sugar I put in is like. A lot?

It reminds me all the more, I have so much time on my hands that I am so free and that makes me lazy.
Well, it is gonna end soon. My comfort life at home.
In no time, I'll have to head out and feed for my own.
Even the thought of it scares me like hell.
Everyone kept telling me I'll be alright, I'll adapt to it.
I'm not so sure about it. I don't easily blend in you see.
 It takes time for me to open up, and takes time for people to accept me.
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