Live it Right

Life is about making Something out of Nothing at all. If you're able to do that, you're able to do Everything.

Painted Life

Life is like a flower, painted to perfection, yet at the end it wilts, fragile as it is, only the stem left unbroken.

Fallen Leaves

Like the autumn leaves, we fall at times, only to find ourselves blown away by the wind, and thus we reach yet another place.

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Archive for 04.2010

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:Charisma:

Something I think not many have it in them. A few of which comes naturally, you don't need training and sorts. It just feels like their instinct, intuition, someone they had it in them. Something I pretty much lack of. 

Charisma (Greek "kharisma," meaning "gift," "of/from/favored by God/the divine") is a trait found in persons whose personalities are characterized by a personal charm and magnetism (attractiveness), along with innate and powerfully sophisticated abilities of interpersonalcommunication and persuasion. One who is charismatic is said to be capable of using their personal being, rather than just speech or logicalone, to interface with other human beings in a personal and direct manner, and effectively communicate an argument or concept to them.

Another reason why being a teacher isn't for me. I've acknowledged that if there's one thing that is standing in my way of achieving more is the fact that I'm a coward. That I couldn't find the courage to do those things. I'm afraid. And I don't know how to overcome the fear. Like phobia, fear is simply the mind playing tricks on us. It's really more psychological than anything else. If you learn to face it. You'll find there's really nothing to be afraid of. Yet I don't even have the courage to face it, further more deal with it. I wonder if it'll ever change. I hate to face reality, but that's just life isn't it so?

I notice some of my friends that didn't do quite well in their studies, yet they have some kind of charm in them, when it comes to interacting, be it the kids, or the adults. Kids are pretty much easier subjects to deal with in compared to adults, by using the right method, right attitude. Yet I don't have that kind of ability, to make a child smile because of me, sometimes I can, but that's only sometimes, after awhile, they get bored with me, maybe because I get bored of them. I don't know. Probably.

I've always been the kid that gets bored after awhile. Most of the stuff I learn, I learn halfway then stop, that's it. Taekwondo, piano, guitar, swimming, well, technically, I never had the tendency to continue learning something. I always quit after awhile. One will say because of the lack of interest, but is it really? That it's just not what fits me? That I haven't find the very thing that keeps me interested? Or am I just one who couldn't end the things she started?

To cause a fire, and do nothing to extinguish it. Seems I do that a lot. There are times when me being rational doesn't help when people are being irrational. My rationality sometimes cause more hurt than heal for them. What do we live for? Exactly? Everyone of anyone must have ask this countless times. Some find the answers in their lover's eyes. Some find more questions as they go through life. Live, and eventually die, and for what purpose exactly? And if there's such a thing as heaven, I wonder what we do there? To live eternally, and never dies? And lead a peaceful and happy life? If that's so, a never ending world, will one be happy forever? 

There are so many questions in this world. That human couldn't discover. And I doubt they will even as they perished in the fire. And for that I trust there really exist a higher being than us. Yet rebellious like the teenagers, many choose to disobey. And then we wait, the day the earth comes to an end.

And while that have yet to happened, we ought to continue living the lives like everyone else. Like how we're suppose to. Because it's always been that way. And always will be. Live, Love, Die. If Life is a gift. Than Love is something even more Priceless than that.

I know I know, strayed away from the topic again didn't I? Well, it happens a lot. Now then, if you would excuse me. I will continue to do the things I do being confined in the bricks of walls. =)

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Jane:Enaj

《怎样才会出于泥而不染呢?》

Do you have any idea what it feels like to be treated the way you treated others in the first place?
I'll start by talking about previous circumstances that happened to myself. 
The fact that made me believe "What goes around, comes around."

Because of a few similar occurrences, I learn to put myself in people's shoes, looking at things from their point of view, instead of my own. But lately, I find I'm becoming the person I used to despise.

To put it simply, I stop bothering my Little Qikely much anymore, I can just put my phone in some place where I don't see or hear it, as in my room or whenever. Only to check back once in awhile, sometimes miss calls, sometimes a few msgs, sometimes none at all. So it really doesn't matter.

Besides, I stop having the urge to find anyone to chat at all, seems like everyone is busy with their own life, that's just one reason of it. The fact is, I don't even want to know. The fact that you care for them, and yet do they even give a damn?

I remind myself constantly, that there are the others that matter. But I realize something, what others did to me, I do the same to another. For example, I used to hate people not replying my msgs, I make an effort to forward a msg whenever someone forwards to me.

Now, I stop replying to people's msgs, I just get tired of it, sometimes, I don't even read it. What "A" does to me, I do the same to "B". And I know, it isn't fair at all, when "B" did nth wrg, it's "A" that treated me that way, but I end up treating "B" the exact way that "A" treated me.

It's hard isn't it? To remind yourself constantly to not be the person you despise, because they are the people you never want to be. They make mistakes, just so you can learn from them, not making the exact mistakes they made. Yet it's easier to end up like them, than the other way round.

Even I, am afraid of myself at times. You know the belief of Yin and Yang in you? Meaning there's a Devil and Angel in you? Sometimes, the devil wins, and I don't like it when it does but yet I feel a sense of satisfaction, that makes me feels like the Devil's Advocate, speaking of which, a poem I've written, that hasn't yet publish at my other blog. It just doesn't seem good enough anymore. I'm tired of repetitive patterns, the same old same old. It limits my thoughts, I have to keep pushing the boundaries. I just don't know if it matters anymore.

I love being surrounded by Happy people, it makes me happy. But there are times when I hate these very people. Because they don't seem to understand my misery. Life is what you make of it. It can be half cup full or half cup empty. Yet there's always two sides to life.

"No matter what happens, the sun will still rise every morning."-[07-Ghost]
"The same goes to regardless of everything, the sun still sets every evening." Isn't it so?
Yet the night is as beautiful and haunting as when the sun shines in the morning.

There's a beauty in sadness, that I usually just translated into my poem, the tears that fall, living proof that you're alive.
Surely, it's always prettier to see a smile on the face, yet I've always believe that the tears are just as beautiful.
Call me crazy or whatever, it's just how you look at it.
A smile from the eyes speaks more than a forced one on the lips.
And the tears of happiness means everything that words can never explain.

The prettiest scenery is when the rain falls, and droplets of rain shines from the ray of sun. =)

And I know, in some ways, I'm better than who I used to be, but in some days, I become the person I despise. Perhaps, there's a truth in Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. But me? I just be either Miss Jane or Enaj. ^^

Sign, Enaj.

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Love:Of:All:Seasons

《初三大四,我爱你》

纳:我们人,为什么回相爱呢?爱是怎样开始的,才会让两个陌生人相爱?

珍:两个人遇见然后相爱,爱是怎么发生的呢?在一起一两分钟就有爱?还是说眼光相碰硑一声就有爱?

看着这套戏,有不少下雨的情景,外面也真下着滴答滴答的雨呢。
一片温馨又动人的小故事。
初三时的暧昧,大四生对爱情的执着,两个兄弟,喜欢上两个姐妹。
故事很简单,却很有意思,让人微笑,让人流泪,只有几个角色,却显得这么出色。
人生也就如此不是吗?不需要太多人,一个真正关心你的人就够了。
你想他,他想你,活在自己的甜蜜世界里,有很多时候,就这么简单不是吗?
人渴望得愈多,失去的自然也就更多。

一见钟情是否就是命中注定呢?不能完全否定,也不能完全认定,就只好自己去确定,那等着你的另一半。=)

爱情就像四季一样。

天时,花儿开,甜甜蜜蜜的手牵手,脸蛋扬起了微笑。闭着眼都会傻笑的一幕还真让人爱得无法自拔。
天时,太阳晒,到沙滩上散散步,勾勾手指,一起期待着日出,一起盼望着日落。让人爱的情不自禁。也因为天气太热,有时变得爆炒,无意中跟对方顶嘴,反抗,翻脸,夏天过了,气也消了。
天时,满落叶,不想再因为小事而闹得不愉快,风儿轻轻吹响他的脸,跟对方说,我想你了。无可奈何的原谅他了。
时,下着雪,冷冷冰冰的,在他怀中却觉得好温暖,好舒服,心动了,眼泪也掉了,像是一闪闪的水晶从眼角落下。因为爱而留下的眼泪。

就算爱情在四季的结尾结束,却已经享尽了爱情的滋味,足够一个人用一世来回味无穷。

今天的爱情故事,就到此吧,风吹起了风铃,传达说,有人想你了。=)

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Take:Care:Of:The:Young:Lady

Finally finished watching it, after watching 1 epi a day. Well, in between my other shows that is. Hehe..luv this drama, gave me lots of inspiration and also some moments of laughter and tears. It doesn't drags on like all the other Korean dramas, that I find so irritating, always the same thing, quarrel, fall in love, something or someone keeps them apart, cry cry cry, heart broken, get back together, happy ending.


Well, practically most of the Korean series are like that, this is kinda sth like that, except less quarrel scenes, less cry cry scenes, less heart broken scenes, just enough to keep you want to watch it after another episode. Like I said, it doesn't drags on, so after an epi, something changes, and you just look forward to it. It's fun to watch, no doubt.

N still people say Boys Over Flowers is the best Korean Drama, I have to disagree really, even thou I luv looking at those guys, the rich boys, but damn, I hate that kinda heroin, not to mention they add another heroin that just sux, I stop right there and then. It happens when my fav character die, or when they introduce a new character which I hate. So goes to Criminal Minds which hev to mess up the brain of my fav character, that I don't wanna watch anymore..

It's not all about the good looking guys. This series @ Lady Castle, well, the main guy in it is so not handsome? Duh, and he's a poor guy as well. Sure there's a rich guy, oso not very rich oso, and oso not say handsome handsome oso. So damn all those rich guy spoil brats that falls in love with a naive girl series. I don't really think that happens in real life? I mean, come on? If the guy's really smart and all, you think he can really stand someone so stupid in life? I know I can't. Lol. That's just like falling in love with a little girl. Yea, coz well, technically, Taiwan series especially, show girls with really low mentality, low in IQ, or mayb EQ as well, make the girls seem so retarded, surely, not all, n surely, I'm saying it in a really not nice way, the nice term is simply, innocent naive knows-nothing girl. Lol.

However, I'm following two shows at the moment. Taiwanese series PS Man, which so do not have a dumb and innocent girl in it. Duh. And Korean series Personal Preference, Lee Min-Ho as the main guy, which can do better with a prettier heroin, but I guess the character needs a not so pretty one. Both really funny shows. =)

Ah, I haven't finish watching my 07-Ghost, hehe, but will soon, finished my Kuroshitsuji anyway, hmm, kinda lazy to read the manga scans on the internet, but I don't even know where I stopped at anymore that I'm lazy to get back on track. That happens with the English series I have on my com too, Gossip Girls, Privileged, don't feel like catching up anymore, even Vampire Diaries, that of which because I have two more of the books I have yet to read waiting for me at the shelf. Hee. N I want to go Aeon!!! Yosh. Wanna stock up on my snacks nia. Hyez, nth 2 bite these days, it's making me err...just looking for food all the time..

Well, speaking of which, hehe, afternoon suddenly had the urge to eat Ramen eventhou I wasn't hungry, then ask my frenz wan go or not, aikz, semua x senang, nasib the 2 xiao jie senang, keke, n 1 guy fren of mine, went to the place where my other guy fren work, was about 5pm sth ba, wasn't dinner act, just eat for fun, hehe, my mulut very gatal, just wan 2 eat, well, it became my dinner anyway, ate half a packet of nasi lemak for my supper just now.

Just feel like eating, and eat, and eat, even thou I'm rly nt that hungry? Well, kinda indigestion these few days, can feel it, gotta control my mouth[rly, dun niao me on this], still wanna stock up on thgs to eat. =P

Oh yea, after that, we went to Jonkers, walk2 je, bought a mouse pad thou, haha, kinda cute, my skin ad peel from my hand for using the mouse all the time...=P

Okla, that's all for today, gonna head off to bed ad, it's 12am ad. Hehe. Gonna rest my eyes. =)

PS: Been a day without tears. =)

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Obscene:Craziness

1st thing 1st, regarding the title, I'm talking about a Japanese movie that has recently premiered in Malaysia. Titled Kaiji. Just finish watching it on my com. Adapted from a manga @ "Ultimate Survivor Kaiji".

It shows a set of people that is preposterous and ludicrous that makes the whole sekai[world] seems so absurd to be lived in. There's the under ground world that people either don't see or choose not to see. The world is just the same. There are predators and preys, the weak feeds on the rich like parasites. There are the ones that benefits each other with their existence, other wise known as commercialism.

There's a truth in everything, a truth in the movie, that there is such people out there. That don't care about other people's life. To them human are just mere chess pieces. That is there to protect the king. Most of the times meaning themselves. The pawns mean nth to them. It's rare that a pawn ever gets to kill the king. Usually it is the queen that kills the king. I'll say there's pretty much 1 out of 100 game that a pawn be able to kill the king. Yet there's still a possibility, when you counter attack with wise strategies.

Everything in this world has its opposites. There's the good and the bad, the wise and the fool, the angel and the devil, fire and water. All of which exist back to back against one another.

When I watch Japanese animes, movies or dramas, I see a set of different kinds of people. In their world, there's just a varied of people. For someone to be able to think of such picture, for sure there is someone like that as well. Sometimes I just feel so sadden by what's happening outside in the real world. And most of the times, afraid of going into the real world. Human scares me. In contrary to all the horror stories that shows ghost going around killing people, I'll say the horror is more in the real world. Where it is the people that is killing one another.

It's funny, I wonder, if there's ever anyone killed by a ghost in this world except having left delusional, sometimes because of their guilt conscience, which I do wonder, what is it I'm really afraid of.

I don't mean to disrespect the japanese or anything, but right till this moment, to this day that we live in, it's pathetic for such Seppuku & Harakiri, both infamous ritual suicides to occur. Suicide of honor they say. Yet I don't see anything proud to kill yourselves. It's a work of failure, always were always will be. A winner will get back on it's feet and seek atonement and repent for their mistakes, instead of killing themselves for being a failure. Or to put it nicely inadequate.

"Suicide has never been criminalized in Japan.[clarification needed] Japanese society's attitude toward suicide has been termed "tolerant", and on many occasions a suicide is seen as a morally responsible action.[6] However, the rise of Internet suicide websites and increasing rate ofsuicide pacts (shinjū) has raised concern from the public and media, which consider the pacts "thoughtless"[6]."-Wikipedia

There's something wrong with that kind of mind set. I cannot comprehend the craziness that surrounds them, even if it's 1/100 of their populations. But this leads to that, and that leads to this. Eventually love is replaced by hatred. Even if it's one soul. It makes a difference in another's life. There's one quote from the movie that I actually agree. No one in this world is a failure. As long as there's a chance, you have to grab hold of it, and change the world you live in. For better or worse, you have nothing to lose. Except yourselves.

Guess that's enough for today, it just makes me think.Of which I don't really want to. There is not one night where I don't dream of a nightmare that seems so real and which freaks me out. A yume[dream] is a window to all my imaginations, I have to find the door to set myself free.
I Pray: That the World doesn't come to an End as a results of Human Actions.

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Essence:of:Life

The way I feel now. White:Room

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21:Days

Been 21 Days[3 Weeks] since I stopped working. Everyday is kinda the same thing I do. Haha. Not that I mind, but I ought to take care of my eyes better, since most of the times I'm focusing on things.

Well, wanna know what I've been up to? Hmm, pretty much what I talked about previously, downloaded a number of movies and dramas, everyday I'll watch chinese, korean, japanese, english or whatsoever language available, sometimes on the com, sometimes I just check out what's on TV, mostly on the com really, ah, and I've just completed a novel. Took me another week to finish that, that's quite the speed I could manage, considering I like to read lying down, which is rly BAD for my eyes, hee. And damn I hate the lightning in my room, always so shadowy, this is the problem when the bulb is too high.

Neway, well, I kinda STILL in a drowsy mode, even thou I slp more these days. Nth seems 2 catch my interest pretty much, I dun even wanna go out except for the movies and tea probably. Other than that, badminton, cycling, can't find the spirit to do that, I just wanna stay at home and sleep. Yea rite, I dun even slp in the noon, I juz slp late at nite, which is so bad, trying 2 slp earlier these days.

Anyhow, I ought to find something else to do than facing the com and books all day, which rly strain my eyes. Dun wanna end up like an Otaku do I? Won't be a Hikikomori thou. That's just sux.

Hmm, mum's bday 2moro, got her a Kerongsang, for her to wear with her kebaya, probably shud get her one too, do recall she cudn't quite fit in hers anymore. Heh, cost us RM120. Hev 2 cum out RM30 oni thou, hee. no idea if I'm going out 2moro, sis x balik, apa buat eh, hmm, she alwiz xnak beli cake one, but I wan eat leh. =P. Heh well. It's her bday lor.

Oh, I'm going 4 [my mum's family side] dinner gathering tonight. Like, so boring. Will bring my novel along, hehe, closing to a half, my tag along novel, the one I put in the bag, then I can start reading another one. HAHA. Gonna get another 3, I nid 2 get 2 popular~~!!! Yatta~ Well, I find reading my novel while waiting for time really help me get rid of the boredness. And which could help me avoid all those conversations I juz duno how 2 answer, or maybe I juz grew tired of it. It's the same thg all the time isn't it. How old are you?[After SPM? After STPM?] What you're doing now?[Work? Study?] Where are you going?[Uni? Work?]...sigh, won't you ever get tired of it?

Hmm, I understand people's courtesy of asking, or perhaps trying to be nice and friendly and all with me. But I'm not that kind of person to appreciate gestures that by the end of the day you won't even remember speaking to me. I hate that, hate that alot. So don't act all goody-goody and friendly with me when you're just gonna talk to me one moment, and forget me the next. Coz I hate doing that myself, so mayb it's better not to even get started. I'm tired of saving phone numbers, and having to delete it after some time, relatives, friends, doesn't matter. Ofcoz, I'm talking about Hi-Bye friends, not the friends I've shared so many memories with, even if we hardly see each other now. But I remember, those days we're friends. =)

Here's a phrase from the book I'm reading, which I find rather amusing as I turn the pages. Eventhou I was quite skeptical since A Place Called Here doesn't really have much depth in it. And PS, I Love You, well, duno about the novel, the movie I can't even sit and finish it, cause it makes me slpy, lol. neway, the title is If You Could See Me Now by Cecilia Ahern:

Children are the ones that know exactly what's going on in the world. They see more than adults, believe in more, are honest and will always, always let you know where you stand. Children learn much more, far more quickly than adults. Because they're open-minded. Because they want to know and they want to learn.

Adults, think they know it all. They grow up and forget so easily and instead of opening their minds and developing it they choose what to believe and what not to believe. You can't make a choice on things like that: you either believe or you don't. That's why their learning is slower. They are more cynical, they lose faith and they only demand to know things that will help them get by day by day. They've no interest in the extras. But, it's the extras that make Life.

Somehow, there's a truth in the phrase above. That as we age, we get by from being "innocent" to "ignorant". How foolish of us to think we are wise, when it is the wise who regards themselves as fools. Always learning, always pushing the boundaries, raising the bar. Never satisfied, always searching for something more divine than what lays ahead.

And here's a couple of quotes from the movie Cracks. Poem can be found here. The main character, which is Eva Green[Casino Royale Bond Girl], plays a cracked up teacher to a number of girls in a boarding school. Like I said, she's cracked up, and the story slowly unfolds to show how she is not who she seems to be, and she that isn't as bad as she seem to be, and there are times, when the good shown are scarier than the bad shown.

-I don't think it's wrong to want to know about the real world. We can't stay pure forever.

-You can achieve anything you want. The world is yours for the taking. All you need is to desire for it. Nothing is impossible for you.

Anyway, kinda figure what else I can do already, hehe, mayb I can brush up on my japanese, or mayb korean, haha, nt that it's rly necessary since I'm dun speak either languages, it's just fun to learn sth, n ther's sth I wanna learn, keke. Just a click away~! =)

Here's the novel I've just completed. No Time for Goodbye. It's published in 2007, and you know what, it only cost me RM5. Muahaha, damn, I love stock clearance. 1 of the 5 books I sapu last year when I went to Klang. Hehe. Now that I've read 4 of it, 1 more thriller to go. ^^

Okay, about this story, so much different than the thriller that I usually read, which always start off with either a crime scene or a dead body, yea well, this, start off with a missing family, vanished, like they're wiped off from the surface of the earth, never to heard off, even until the center of the book, instead of getting some answers, you get more questions in your head, what and what is happening? But that's the fun thing, this leads to that, and that leads to that, eventually, tragedy strikes. Interesting, never heard of this author, perhaps I might get a look at his other works, which seems to be rather a set of case of missing peoples.

A novel that is a page turner, but however quick I want to get to the last page. I'm just the kind of person who rather takes it slowly. You'll miss out all the fun doing everything in a rush afterall. So what's the hurry? =) 

PS: Life is not Black and White, but a varied of Colours lay out for you to Discover.

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Eotteohke?:Shiranai.

That stupid psychotic b*tch. Been slping for almost 3 hours I thk. Probably 2 n a half. Dun remember. Neway, wasn't feeling well, down wif my flu again. Now that I'm awake. I still feel the anger in my heart I just wanna get rid of it. It's not good for your karma to get mad. Dun u noe it?? I so don't want 2 get mad when the pig barks at me. But it's so HARD to control your temper when thgs get so heated up. I'll let u be the judge alright? Is she insane or is she not? Call her nonsense, that may work.

I took a flu medicine, n was feeling light headed ad, so I went and lie down on my bed, can't sleep, reading my novel. Then that stupid idiotic pig comes in the room and ask me where's my mum, I say I duno, like I said I wasn't rly conscious at that moment, I always forget about thgs, pig calls her and says she's outside, then only I remember she went out with my dad to the hospital.

Nevermind, the pig says she's going to be late and ask me fetch her. I say my license expire ad, dun count on me. Crazy pig, then she teriak at me say sth like, as thou so coincidence u will bump into a police today, heh, I say, u never know, thgs alwiz happen that way isn't it, when u 4got ur mykad or license, then tada, that is ur unfortunate day. Furthermore, not only she wan me 2 fetch her, her fren sumore? I say dun be crazy la, I cant tanggung other ppl's life okay? I dun even dare fetching my fren, she wan me 2 fetch sum kid's daughter? Even if the pig doesn't get a heart attack, her fren might. Lol.

To top it off, she kept saying it's my fault, my fault I didn't renew my license, hello, I'm not the one that suppose to fetch her here and there, pluz, I am gonna renew my license this week, even so, I'm SO not fetching her, that psychotic pig, I hate to call her these, and everytime I tell her the same thg, bcoz we're the same blood, calling her crazy wouldn't that make me the same? But it's rly crap. That I get this kind of shit all the time, when I didn't do anything at all. That stupid idiotic crazy psychotic girl. Then I remember another thg, my parents took the kancil out, I say, even if I'll drive u, how the heck you want me 2 fetch you without the car?

Duh, expect me to drive the Persona izit? Which I x pernah sentuh pun, gila punya babi. U c, the situation is rly obvious that I can't fetch her, and she kept blaming me for it!! For wot? Just because my mum forgets, and then I say her, u noe she will forget, y didnt u remind her? Then she says bcoz she NEVER forgets, ya rite, my mum will 4get once in awhile. After all, it's not a duty to keep track of that's pig's schedule isn't it. Heh. Seriously, kept saying it's my fault, open mouth oni shout at me. It makes me so frust, even when I'm awake, I can't get it off my head.

心平气和。What can you really do to extinguish the flame in your heart? I really need to know. Kerana mulut badan binasa, it's enough that she is like that. I'm fed up of trying to FIX her. Not only that, I think I'm so gonna be dragged down with her if I continue to argue with her. I don't want to be anything close like her. Zen zen wakaranai. O to ka jo?

PS: At least I found the answer to my question. When you turn your back at me, I know that I can turn to here. Feels better now. Don't talk to her will be my next best solution. When a dog barks, you don't bark back.

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Girls:Day:Out

Date: 15 April 2010
Girls: Me, Jenny, Mei Ling
Place: Aeon, Jetty, MP, DP.
Time: 12pm-8pm

1st Stop: Aeon
Food: Food & Tea HK
More Food: Sushi King
Amount Spent: RM20

Ok, my friend wanted to go eat Sushi King for the RM2 Bonanza. Since it's a public holiday, the other two had their day off from work, so we went to Aeon, but then saw the Sushi King q damn long man, zz, lazy to eat, I'm starving and I've wanted to try a pork meat spaghetti at Food & Tea HK, since my fren said it's nice, n has been advertised in Ho Chiak. 

Heh well, for RM9.90 I'll say it's kinda expensive for a portion of my liking[note that the places I go to eat usually have portions I either eat half or 3/4 quarter, rarely finish it up due to my small appetite], but considering the fact that it's spaghetti and quite a decent portion of pork, I'll say it's worth spending. Again, note that I rarely eat pork due to the hardness of the meat and the fact that it's so "Liat", 4got wot's the word in english, plz tell me if u do know. But the pork meat is rly nice, they slice it into thin pieces of it, and it feels like ur eating chicken meat, and it taste better than the spaghetti itself. Not bad, gonna try sth else next time thou. Hehe. Cheese baked rice perhaps!!! =)

Oh, then hor, after finish eating me went to the washroom, those 2 girls wasn't eating just now, they insist they wanted to eat sushi since they weren't that hungry at that time, so went to line up when they saw there isn't much of a q anymore. Thk we line up about 10 minutes then we're served. RM2 for evry "rice-based" sushi. Damn, I 4got about the word, my fren end up taking 2 plates of non-rice-based sushi which cost RM5 & RM6, sigh, but still isn't that much la, since two of them eat RM10 each, n me just RM5, it's a wonder I still can eat after I had that spaghetti[but I told ya the portion aint that much, haha].

Ok then. dat's all I guess. Now we go to the Jetty~

2nd Stop: Go Go KTV
Time: 3pm-6pm
Amount Spent: RM10 per person

Muahaha, hev been wanting 2 sing, yet nobody mention anythg about going 2 sing, juz then 3 of us wanted 2 sing, so pergi je la, keke, oh, not much ppl o, for a moment I was wondering weird, close down ad ar? Haha, the thg is ppl been flying 2 dream box, since yea well, I personally prefer dream box 2, but since we're broke, juz take the cheaper option. ^^

3 person oso syok oh, haha, then we get 2 sing and sing and sing, no nid 2 rebut if 2 many ppl. Heh, I rarely sings when there's 2 many, kinda lazy 2 rebut wif them. Lol.

3rd Stop: MP

Go jalan kejap, sebab my fren wanted 2 get a present, n me go look 4 a present, hmm, still duno wot 2 buy neh, aikz. Didn't buy anythg here, keep telling myself, dun waste money, lol. This is wot happens when I dun hev enuf 2 spend, heh.

4th Stop: DP

Went 2 buy the tickets for Ice Kacang Puppy Love, which will talk about the story later. Hehe. After that went home.

Home: 8pm

Have my dinner, belum mandi keluar lagi. =P...pergi tgk wayang, 3 org shj, me and another 2 guys. lol. Thursday night cudn't find kaki. Hee.

GSC: 9.25pm
Movie: Ice Kacang Puppy Love
Amount Spent: RM10

Those who wishes to see Nicholas Teo & Penny Tai on it, dun hope on it, they're oni cameos at the end of the story, lol. And they even put their name in the credits. SWT.

Ok, let's talk about the story 1st bfor I goes to the characters alrite. The story is a decent one, no ups and downs. A story of everyday life. Many will find it boring. And I don't think it's cinema-worthy either. But sure worth your time watching. I love movies that make you reflect on yourself when time is moving so fast. It makes you STOP and THINK, what is it you're missing. And that is what it made me felt.

I wonder, since it's a story of the director, has he ever met her ever again. Hmm.




Now, let's talk about the characters. Warning: May contain spoilers.

Character#1: Aniu

This is who I'll giv credit for, the director-writer-actor all in one. As a director, I'll say he have more to improve on. As a writer, mayb he cud make it less complicated 4 a simple story. As an actor, hmm, I dun recall seeing him in many expressions.

Character#2: Lee Sinje

The heroin in this simple love story. She's nt an international actress 4 nth u noe? At least she's better than the rest of the cast, be it her experience wise or acting skill. Rather than the so-called Veteran Actors that acted as her parents in the movie. I find the lady rather unconvincing, then again, I've never seen her acting, the veterans. I wonder. Still, Sinje bore a resemblance to her looks.

Character#3: Gary Chaw

Since I've never seen him acted bfor, I'll giv him credit for he played his role rather convincingly, and rather amusingly, haha. So he's one 2 look out for. ^^

Character#4: Fish Leong

Not mute in the movie, but kept mute all along the story, never uttering a word, only expression when necessary, a character with no speech, but still made a difference in the story. I luv her character eventhou she don't hev 2 speak. Haha, juz find it cute. And she actually looks Cute. Probably the hair and the pin. =P

Ok then, the rest of the characters you'll just have to see for yourself. ^^

PS: Had a great day~Yipee~

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Tears:&:Laughters

Here's what I've been up to~Hehe~...some movies worth watching. =)

1#Fame[English]
+The same old story. Young and ignorant. We used to be those people didn't we? Perhaps we still are. Perhaps I still am. Such naive and fools, you just can't help but think how stupid they are when they have such talent. Yet, there's one thing you need to remember. Wise man ain't born overnight. They're trained by fools, been a fool. But what they'll turn out to be, is a different story altogether.

And this movie, is just about that. Most of the actors and actresses, the dancers in it, are all fresh faces. Rarely seen, yet together they made a team. A typical teen story, except in a Performing Arts Academy. The hardships they face. The trials they had to overcome. The strains they had to endured. Nothing is easy. It's how we choose to live our lives.

I don't write reviews, because reviews mean nothing when we all have our own opinions. That, is mine. =)


2#My girlfriend is an agent[Korean]

+This definitely worth watching if you're looking for some laughters and drama. Haha, very amusing. Thought it'll be like Mr & Mrs. Smith, maybe in some ways it is, considering the plot, but I couldn't rly remember the Smiths anyway.

And well, for one, the main actor is so not charming, at all, be it in the movie, or outside the movie. Inside the movie, he's just a silly guy that kept getting screw up, but well, that's where the fun begins...=D


3#Mao's Last Dancer[Chinese+English]
+Last but not least, infact, it is the movie I rly recommend you to watch, almost missed my attention, thought the poster was lame, the trailer kinda boring. But something got me to download it, just a simple phrase. "Based on a true story"...hehe, I'm a sucker for true stories. =P

And yea, it's about a former ballet dancer, that is now 49 years old, named Li Cunxin, and the ruckus he caused when he fell in love with an american girl, I know what you're thinking, it's not just that. Trust me.

It is about the art of understanding, the art of sacrificing. Understanding the pain, the determination, the hardship of others. Sacrificing what needed to succeed. Even if it means Love. Love isn't everything, but it's everything you'll work for.

Anyhow, if you don't fancy seeing a guy dancing ballet, this is so not for you. But to be fair, ballet rly ain't for sissy, as a danseur[the guy term for ballerina]. They need a lot of strength, in order to support the ballerina. It's so not about being soft, but both slender and strong. Hmm, another reason I dun learn dance because it needs a lot of energy and my coordination sux. Haha. =P


Ps: It made me cry in the end. Told cha I'm a sucker for true stories. =P

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Make:Up

Ok...went to help my fren yesterday. Be her guinea pig. Haha..ok..be her real life model for her to practice on. Like a canvas except I'm a human? Yea well, she's learning Make-up at the moment. Since I hev the time, went along n let her do her thg. It took about 2 hours and 40 minutes I thk 2 complete my whole FACE...yea. No kidding. Now I know it's rly ain't as easy as it seems. Usually I juz spend bout wot 5 minutes? Then I'm done. Okay, maybe more. Still.=P..

As I sit ther, letting her draw on me. I realize how much patience is needed 4 u 2 actually decorate urself. Except I'm so not a x-mas tree. Lol. Neway, Fuh~Those girls that make-up everyday rly is sth. I feel like I'm wearing a mask when she's done. Seems so fragile and delicate too that I'm so afraid to touch any part of my face. Thking it may just come off.

Her box of make-up is like the ones you usually see those make-up artist carrying. From foundations to lip gloss. The base and the wotsoever. Lots n lots of it, which 2 sum it all out, if 1 were 2 buy the whole thg, probably could cost above RM500. That oso nt so good brand. Mayb 1k? For all the good brands? Yikes. That's y I don't rly spent much on Make-up even thou I do buy sum of the stuff. But I dun rly use much of it. Hehe. Only on SPECIAL occasions.

It made me felt like a Barbie Doll for once. Which is far from who I'll ever be. But it was fun. Sitting ther n seeing my own face changes. Haha. Eventhou when I got bak home my sis say I look like a ghost. Lol. wth. I dun mind being treated like a doll actually. Haha. As in well, u noe? To be decorated wif. Clothes make-ups. Hehe. But that's juz once in awhile. Kinda makes me feel cute. I'm nt saying I am. I mean the feeling. =P

Eh well. You can find the rest of the pix at FB when I feel like revealing it. Hehe...here's one.
PS: When you feel Pretty, you feel Happy...=)

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2 Movies:2 Novels

2 Movies:

1*The Lovely Bones[Peter Jackson]
+Since no one wanted to accompany me to watch this movie, I downloaded it. Lol, save my money also, really going broke soon, and I realize I really need to get 3 more Novels!!! Yikes, which will cost me another RM100, good for my dad thou, since he get to claim tax reduction, no good for me thou, since it's my money. ><"...

Next time anybody ask me what I want, might as well tell them I want novels. Haha, damn, I've just finished up one novel, faster than my usual record, and I'm craving for the sequel already!!! Ish, xleh tahan, hand itchy, nasib got all the shows for me, otherwise I'll go finish up all the books ad, haha. Ok, enuf wif that, now back to the main point.

My Opinion: It made me Laugh, it made me Cry, a very Simple, yet Deep in content story. Told from the main character, which is technically dead, telling her story from Heaven, Susie Salmon acted by Saoirse Ronan, which is quite an actress for her age, as seen in "Atonement". She reminds me of Lindsay Lohan[In Parent Trap]. Hope she'll never end up as her thou.

And hmm, the story, eventhou you know who the Murderer is right from the beginning, somehow you just have to continue watching it, see where and how it progress, a risk in letting us know who the main protagonist right from the beginning, but you'll start to understand that's how it's supposed to be told.
It just made me think of life from both sides of the mirror. The one standing behind the mirror couldn't see the one standing infront, vise versa the one standing in front the mirror only sees their own reflection.

I can't really explain it, but Life and Death, is like two sides of the mirror, both looking back at each other. Confusing I know, perhaps you should just watch the movie then you'll understand. Or maybe it's just me thinking that way. =P

Neway, really a movie worth your time. It affects you emotionally, and rationally, what or how you'll feel if such events occur in your life. Again, you'll never Know until it does. Thought of a quote: "We're ignorant people who believe ugly things will never happen in our life until it knocks on our door and everything goes down the drain."

Every time you read the newspaper, accidents, fire, flood, it's like you'll think how unlucky those ppl is, how lucky u r, thinking it'll never happen to you, bcoz ugly things dun cum to us. Those ppl 2, used to thk the same. I cry when I read the News, I'm that emotionally sentimental. I cry when I read about Death, it simply is 2 much 2 deal wif even if I may not know who are they. Somehow, I share the grief of their love ones.

Perhaps they're in a better place. But losing them is a whole different meaning altogether. Sometimes, it's in mourning that they continue to live on. At least in our hearts. It's not really a bad thing, it just teaches us how to deal with it, how to live loving them without them by our side.

You never know, what will Happen Tomorrow. It's Important to know that you're still Alive Today.

PS: As expected from Peter Jackson. Nevertheless, a good story told. =)

2*Beauty on Duty[Wang Jing]
+Heard it's a HK version of Miss Congeniality, the one acted by Sandra Bullock and got me laughing non-stop, love her shows, hehe, she's careless and funny, neway, I for one do not go to the cinemas to watch HK comedy movies, rarely, unless I find the story interesting, other than that, I'll always skip it. 

My friend ask me to accompany him, his treat, so I went with him lor, eventhou I got a really bad headache, budak tu, last minute my other fren pop out, then I just say if got ppl accompany you no need to ask me ler, coz I rly wanted 2 stay at home lor, haha, I'm a sucker ok? I do this kinda thgs a lot, if they need my company I'll accompany them, not every single ones of my friends thou, =P.

My Opinion: I kinda half-expected it to be a copy cat of Miss Congeniality, but nth like it at all.  You won't even link the two movies, even thou ther's a similiarity in the plot. Yet, the movie sure is full of laughter, made me laugh all the way, but still, it's still not Cinema-worthy in my mind.

It's funny har? Considering the fact that I'll go to the cinema to watch Malaysia and Singapore movies, just not HK comedies. I don't know, it's always the kind of movies that I'll rather or might as well watch at home, not the Cinemas. Even thou I luv watching Charlene Choi's movie. Still~

Eh well, to be fair enough, there's pretty girls and a handsome dude in it. Which is really rare in HK dramas or movies. Haha...xD...he's so cute...don't know much about him thou, name William Chan Wai-Ting. Details no idea, 1st time see him oso. Haha..=P

Anyhow, I'm so gonna watch "Being Human", which I'm pretty sure after the "Jack Neo" scandal, many will anti it, I duno, seems to me ppl alwiz do that, even thou I too show no respect for him anymore, but his talent is unquestionable. And I'm rooting for Mark Lee and Yeo Yann Yann anyway, so it would be unfair 2 them, if bcoz of 1 person, you missed them in action. As the tagline says "What comes around, goes around." He's probably in remorse right now. Money: The cause of Infidelity. “没钱,没本事出轨”

Okayy~Enuf wif that, the way I write is even a hundred times the amount of words that comes out of my mouth, nono, make that a thousand. Haha. Okay, let's go to the novels now.

2 Novels:

1*Real World by Natsuo Kirino
+A Japanese crime thriller novel translated into English. A crime thriller that does not actually features the crime scenes, but more towards the criminal minds of those that got involved with the main antagonist.

 Sypnosis: A story of a guy who killed his mother and ran away, helped by 4 strangers[4 girls that are friends]. However far fetched and illogical it may sound. With the fact that it's really ridiculous for such events to really happen in this world. I simply couldn't put down the novel until the end of the page. The reason is simple, you get into the thoughts of 5 different individuals and see life from different views altogether.

However fiction it may be, it contains a sense of reality. That those Scary and Ugly ppl really do exist in this world. Which still haven't got the chance to write the poem, titled, "The Other Side"...hmm, will thk of sth. Hehe..

For those that watch "Criminal Minds". They always mentioned something about when you got into the mind of the Criminals, you get corrupted yourselves....Bcoz in order to understand them, you have to think of yourselves as them, which at the same time, being exposed to corruption. That is when their lives get messed up. Bcoz they had to, and they had learn to, see things from the ugly side. Hence, polluting their once Beautiful sky. The world is how you see it after all.

Another thing is, I see a little bit of me in one of it's character: Kazuko Terauchi. Quote: "I'm this superphilosophical kind of person stuck in a prison of abstract ideas and overpowering emotions, changing day by day, growing more and more complicated and individualistic, something nobody can really comprehend."...posted it on FB bfor, those words hit me. Yet I've decided, to simplify my life. I don't rly nid 2 worry so much do I? Everything will take it's natural course. For now, I'll just leave[live] my life as it is. =)

2*Masquerade[A Blue Bloods novel] by Melissa De La Cruz
+I take back all my words on every other vampire books that I say is the best. This, is the Best. Better than the Best, Better than Twilight!!! Of which I so can't wait about for the Sequel!!! But rly, it's more Immortal than Vampire for this novel. Kinda a Clan that never dies, but, hmm, constantly reincarnating, some sort of vampire but one of the immortals.

For one thing, it doesn't have a brainless Bella in it, duh, and to think one will have start to like Bella, maybe I'll like her, in Breaking Dawn, lol, just like I did reading the novels.

Anyhow. The protagonists and antagonists are both Dashing, even the humans, rooting for the human dude honestly, hope for once instead of falling for the ever Charming Vampire Prince, she'll end up with the Ordinary Mortal instead. Which rly isn't Ordinary, and which rly isn't totally Mortal. Hehe...

Just when you thought you know the story, who the bad guy is, walah!! The author takes you in a roller coaster ride yet again. You couldn't guess who the true guy really is. Who she'll end up with, you just can't wait to find out and yet finding all your guesses wrong again. Highly recommended, for those that love Gossip Girl and Twilight. It's like okay, Rich and Famous Immortals, Lurking in the day, so Openly and living their lives just like the mortals. 

Heh heh, why I write all these even thou no book lovers rly reads my blog? Well, the reason is simple, I'm really forgetful, I'll forget about the story when I read another. But I won't read it twice, because I'll still remember. Just like a movie you watched, but forgot, but when you re-watch, you remember. Get it? =P

Ok then, I guess that's it for today, think I blog for almost 2 hours ad, try 1 hour and a half, haha. Continue blogging and I don't have to take my lunch ad, which xda benda makan pun, mum ask me cook instand noodles nia. Wanna go cook now. Tata ther. =)

PS: I probably shud giv e-books a try, will save a lot of my money, but I rly hate the idea of reading a book from a computer...><". Sigh. But ther's a bunch of books I wanna read, n u can't even get it here. Mayb if I got the time, speaking of which, eek, 4got about my mangas, gonna resume it soon.

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Hello:There

Miss me? Sure miss my qikely. Anyhow, today's topic is Bimbos!

Bimbo stands for "a stupid, egotistic blonde, usually with big breasts who wears shit loads of make up" , that is according to the urban dictionary. I didn't just made that up okay? As for me it not only stands for the blondes, the big boobs and the clown girls but any of those girls that just couldn't be even more clueless.

And those people. Well, I'm sure you could find lots of them in "Beauty and the Geek", the reality show that is produced by Aston Kutcher. Why do I know so well? Simply because I used to watch it. Then it just got even stupider. Here's the thing.

Most of the ladies in it are practically Bimbos that technically has really low IQ, literally. They can't even sum a 91 and 123 with their BRAIN. That's just an example. Those who followed the show will know that what I say is TRUE.

Aha, for that we'll go to EQ and IQ. U c, here's when the Yin meets Yang. Surely, the girls may have very low IQ. But they sure do have higher EQs than the geeks. The geeks on the other hand has very High IQ, but DAMN low EQ. Those guys in it is practically CLUELESS on how to treat a lady, even more to tackle one. That's when the girls come as useful. Vice versa. You c, they are actually teaching each other in the show. The geeks being taught how to communicate. And the girls being taught how to actually use their BRAIN to THINK.

And why the heck I'm talking about it today? Because I wanted to talk about the balance of life only to realize that this world is really imbalanced. Even the Gemini scale is one high one low. We need two elements to complement our lives. Fire and Water. Good and Evil. Two sides of everything. As long as the other does not succumb to another. 

By Good and Evil. This is a tough topic, since obviously the Good should be more than the Evil. For this I'll research on the sub. Which rly is more of a misconception of the west than the true meaning of Yin and Yang. Hee...eh well. honestly, I'm not sure what I'm babbling over here. What I do know if I have a poem in progress. Titled Yin and Yang. Maybe I'll go rest my head for now. You know me. Just writing wotever is in my head. Just so  I can throw it away from my Head. Too many rubbish. Ought to recycle it ya' know?

"The world is Unfair in a way that it is being Fair by the Counts of Deeds and Sins you Carried and Committed in your Past Lives."

PS: I Love You. J

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I:Am:Such:A:Crazy:B*tch

Haha. Call me crazy, who cares~!!! I'm actually loving it. I mean, the crazy part of me. At least that's when the fury and grief doesn't hit on me.

Neway, I'm feeling better today. Juz once in awhile I get hit by the blues~Haha...y'all know us girls. So insensibly irrationally emotional. Hehe. So yea. Nothing much to say. But perhaps I ought to explain myself. Here goes.

I realize that when you remain silent. It's actually more worrying than when you're not. You'll realize this when you put yourself in another's shoes. That when I'm angry, or crying. Atleast you know that I'm upset. But when I'm not speaking, no emotions written on my face. That's when you'll be afraid. Coz that's how I'll feel if sum1 else is like that instead.

It's like you stop feeling. You start to feel numb. Your heart cold.

And right now. I rly kek sim. T.T...I rly can't help it. It's rly eating my heart. How can someone be so terribly rude and no manners?? How can she be so ruthless for the feelings of others? It makes my head crack, I feel like bursting. Yet all I can do is simply cry it all out until the tears stop. I wonder. If her soul could ever be saved? I wonder too, if mine will survive in the end.

Bukan gua yg nak cari pasal. But y d heck muz she make evrythg so simple be so complicated? Evrythg so nice and sound be so awful and nasty? Why must she be the grey clouds in my blue sky?

It hurts like hell. But she knows nothing like hell. I am of no concern of her. It doesn't even matter how I feel. My tears don't mean a thing to her. I don't even want to get mad at her anymore. Coz it's rly pointless. It's useless. I just wanna give up on her and not hoping that she would change anytime soon. I can't stop my tears from falling. She can shout and get mad at me for all she want. If I'm one crazy b*tch. She's one idiot b*tch that I don't even want to give a damn about anymore.

So wot if she's terribly an idiot? So wot if she wants 2 be such a person wif such terrible personality. [And now I wonder, if I'm just the same.] I don't even know why I bother. Don't even know why I even take to heart the thgs she says when what she says is pointless.

Let the tears flow. I'll be alrite.

Okay, since I'm calm down ad. Let's talk 3D today.

Went to watch Clash of Titans 3D on Sat. Went to watch How To Train Your Dragon 3D just now. So here. I'll talk about the previous one 1st.

Clash of Titans
Story: Rly an epic. Worth watching no doubt.
3D Effects: The same as Alice, no FEEL at all. Lol. Post-production 3D shows. Not worth watching in 3D.
Graphics: Amazing. It's like a world of its own. Except it's rly surrealistic.
Characters: Beauty and Brains. Haha...
Note: Most suitable for those who luv the greeks and their mitoses. If you're one who prefers chinese movie, you might find it hard to comprehend. And if you're no fan of them, you might as well skip it. I personally luv the greek mitos. Keep thking of The Lightning Thief thou. Since ther's 1 demi-god ther 2. Pluz Zeus and Hades. Eh well, they are those infamous characters afterall.

How To Train Your Dragon
Story: One of the best animations I've seen.
3D Effects: Much2 better than Alice & Titans. Some scenes you actually feel you're in it. Especially the water flowing, as thou it's flowing towards you. Hehe. Thou not that much of those scenes. Still~. Heh well, probably my last 3D movie for now until the next genuine 3D movie comes along.
Graphics: Damn amazing colours and movement. Definitely the best animation for the year.
Characters: Luv the dude and the lady. They r so cute 2gether~!! Oh yea, not to 4get, toothless is so CUTE~!! Haha.. cute dragon. Hmm.
Note: Suitable for all AGES. You'll love it. Love it love it love it~Yiyea~
PS: I Love You. J