I don't know if it's too much,
I don't know if I can handle,
But I'll take the chance,
And try to make a change,
Perhaps then I'll learn,
How to stand on my own,
Been trying to avoiding it,
Been reluctant to step out,
From my very comfort zone.

I don't know what I want,
So I might as well just heed any chances,
Take it as a learning experience,
Everybody keep telling me the same thing,
I too keep convincing myself the same thing.

I used to put on a brave front,
Used to dare to do sth,
But as I age I realize I'm just like a turtle,
Who hides her head in her shell when she's freaked out,
I know I can't be like this forever,
Keep telling myself that it's no big deal,
That no matter what comes I'll survive,
Just hope I don't run away this time around.

x Jane

Got an MC today,
What for?
Went and do a surgery,
Plucked out my wisdom tooth,
Lay there for one hour,
As the dentist drill my tooth,
Gosh, my face is swollen, sigh,
Can't open mouth big big,
I wonder how do I brush my teeth? Heh.

Anyway, wanna talk about some other stuff,
These days I'm just so dissapointed with some people,
Come the days when you realize it's easy to find someone to share your happiness,
But difficult to find someone to share your sadness.

I wonder,
So called True Friends,
And yet never really cared if I'm sad, or angry, or whatsoever,
So called True Friends,
Who gets frustrated with you, dissapointed in you,
And you, never get to do the same to them,
Is that True Friends?
Sick and tired of putting on a mask,
But I'm not them,
I ain't no B****，
Sometimes I wish I am,
I could do whatever I want,
Why do I even bother?
Seriously, Why?

Why do we concern about people who don't even give a damn about us?
Who finds us only when they feel like it,
Who doesn't exist when we need someone with us.

Don't tell me FOREVER,
I hate that WORD,
Only tell me that if you're gonna be there when I need you.

They say Love don't last forever,
Friendship will,
But I don't think so,
I think neither will,
It all depends on how you see it,
How you treat the other person,
If you can stand by them and support them,
Friendship or Love,
It will last, for Ever.
But if you don't,
You can forget about FOREVER.

Sign, Enaj

Thought I post something on this day, it's once in 4 years anyway.
I know I've been lacking from blogging these days.
That's because I'm always busy doing something else,
My life is pretty much pack and I don't even have time to emo anymore, heh.

What do I do all the time?
Well, if I can break it into 100% within a week, this is what I do.
30% go to class,
10% watch movie,
5% read novels,
10% work on my thesis,
5% work on my tutorials and assignments,
5% eat and bath and etc.
35% sleep.

So yea, technically, even when u c me online, I'm actually doing one of those stuff, hehe.

Anyway, I'm starting on my thesis even though it's suppose to start next semester,
But I'm starting now so that I have time to prepare it slow and steady,
I'm actually thinking of doing the movie "Talentime",
My favourite film from Yasmin,
My inspiration,
The movie still makes me cry,
Most people just don't appreciate it or find it boring,
But as a Literature student,
We can't afford to do so,
That is just not right to do so,
In my opinion la,
I may be biased as I like everything she directs and writes,
Even the commercials,
Bcoz it showcase a Malaysia that could be instead of the Malaysia fighting to win the Politics all the time,
It's sad isn't it,
I think so,
Well, the election is coming, anyhow,
Don't forget to cast your vote!
That's all for now!

Adios!

I know it's kinda late for my resolution, but here it is. I'll try to name 10 of them(2 ambitious I presume). xD

1. Do not buy Dress until the end of the year. (Bought 5 dresses for CNY alone.><")
2. Do not buy Books until the end of the year. (Bought lots of books enough to last me for a couple of years, or even more. xP)
3. Spend my money wisely (Gonna be broke every semester)
4. Take good care of my hp (While it's still alive and kicking)
5. Go less shopping (While I don't have money)
6. Smile more =)
7. Cry less. =P
8. Eat more. =D
9. Get FAT. XP
10. And lastly don't be such a lazy bump. xP

Haven't updated in awhile, thought I do so today.
Two more papers to go! And then I'm free!!!!!Yoohoo~

Anyway, recap of what I've been up to recently.
Hehe, got the RM200 book voucher.
RM50 use to pay off my debt to my sis, wahaha,
Good use of it, since I don't have cash. xD

The remaining RM150 use to buy 5 novels, 1 Book Wrapper, 5 pens, 1 eraser. Hee...
1 novel I bought for my elder sis, since she ask me to,
2 novels are crime thrillers, my favourite. xD
Another 2 novels is a different genre altogether,
Thought I try reading something different, instead of the usual.

Hmm, wot else is ther to say?
Can't remember. update later. hehe.

anyway, if you guys would love to read comic strips,
here's one, from someone I know, damn hilarious. =D

http://dontlikethatbro.blogspot.com/p/comic-strips.html

不用去上班了！好爽哦！
还是做一个星期五天的工比较好，
一个星期休息一天，
我好像都麻木了，
没有做工也习惯性的早起，真要命。

这两个月又三个星期学到什么了呢？
我学到责任感真的很重要，
有责任感别人才会看好你，
学到了有些事不要自作聪明，自做主张，
结果也许会弄巧反拙哦。

遇见了多性格的人，
遇见了无法理解的人，
这世上太多种人，
要学会做那个不让人讨厌的人。

我还没完全醒，只是在胡言乱语而已。=P

*Blink blink. =P
 
珊，上。

在几天前，还真觉得生活很反味，真是无聊透顶，
每天就只是上班，下班，
偶尔逛逛街，买买衣，
女人，最大的乐趣，还真是到处逛街，哈哈。
今天，又买了一件衣，
原本还说这个月不要买衣了，
结果看到又买了，嘻。。。><"

这个月应该还不会花过龙。=p

Food:
Sate Celup: RM7
Duck Noodles: RM3
KFC: RM4
Milo: RM2.50
Cake: RM1
Station 1: RM18
Secret Recipe: RM21
Pizza: RM7.50
Waffle: RM2.50
Cake+Buns: RM4
Sushi+Buns=RM6.50
KFC=RM4
Drink=RM2
Old Town=RM9
Cake=RM6
Buns=RM4
Waffle=RM3
Eggs=RM3
Pizza Hut=RM7
McD GCB=RM9
=RM126

Movies:
Harry Potter 3D=RM17+7
Hanna=RM6
= RM30

Clothes:
Hi-Style=RM35
Acewin=RM33
White Top=RM16.50
Babydoll Top=RM28
Belt=RM12
=124.50

=RM280.50

RM900-RM200=RM700-280.50=419.50+100=519.50

You know how people likes to Ask Questions? 
Well, I tend to avoid Asking Questions and Answering them. 
Because when I ask, they'll ask me back, then I'll have to answer them.
This anti-social alter ego[Refers to Enaj, =P] had to be kept in the closet starting tomorrow, or else I'll be left wandering alone.

Here's a simple quote that's since stick in my mind since I see it. It REMINDS me yet again.

For everytime I sigh, as in Law of Attraction, if there's sum1 bside me, they'll feel it 2, but for evrytime I smile, at least I'm nt making sum1 feel worse. And I mean SMILE, not LAUGH, for some reason I dun like ppl Laughing for no Reason, eventhou ppl thk I does that all the time.[Well, the reason juz ain't obvious. =P]

Oh yea, ever since the results for Uni intake is out, ppl has been asking me, what I wudn't ask another. 
The reason is obvious. 
When they know that I'm taking Literature, some ask me what's that? 
Some ask me what am I gonna do with it? 
What can I work when I venture out into the REAL WORLD?
You know what? 
If you know me well, I'm sure you realize that I usually just take One Step at a Time.

I'm a firm believer of the Quote: 船到桥头自然直. As in Tomorrow Will Take Care of Itself.  Whatever Will Be, Will Be~
Like I've mentioned before. 
I don't have Ambitions. I only have Aspirations. 
And a very simple one to note. 
To have my message reach another soul. 
By means of Writing. I love to Write. 
But too many times I fail to Deliver my own Expectations.
I'm not a Perfectionist. I'm simply a Corrector. I try to Correct as much Flaws that I spot as Possible.[Only subject to my writings, not taking in account of anything else..=P]

I'm not Perfect. Then again, no one is.
I see myself as Insufficient. Always having space for Addition.
I'm Not Enough. Yet I Wish You Enough.

>I'm Not Enough: I'm not doing enough.
>I Wish You Enough: I hope you have enough of whatever needed to Survive.

So don't ask me what I plan to work as after I graduate. 
That's for later years to figure out.
You don't always end up doing the things you like.
And you don't always follow through your plan.
Life doesn't only have Plan A, there's Plan B, and the Back Up Plan. =)

My sis didn't know what she wanted to work as even when she was studying Masters.
My dad says to her. Don't worry about it.
When you go out, you'll figure it out.
-Pl@inJan3-

或许难以想象世界真有其人。但我相信有。

而往往都会遭到女士们的崇拜，羡慕，甚至的妒忌。

如果要说好强，一个女人的好胜跟一个男人比？

那男生也没什么胜算吧。

而我想女人跟女人比，会更有战斗力吧。

我从来就不明白，为什么女生就这么爱跟另一个女生做比较？
是女人的天性吗？
我无法否认，自己偶尔也会那样。
还是人与人之间就是这样呢？
有时候，做比较也不见得是件坏事。
因为从中提升自己，让自己做得更好，更出色。
发展就是要有战斗才能更上进不是吗？

但有时候，人们太过于重视他人的意见，他人的眼光，
看着别人比自己好而感到不服，看到别人拥有自己没能得到的而感到不满，
心想为什么他偏偏这么的出色，而自己却不管再怎么努力也不被人表扬，欣赏，称赞？

答案其实很简单，因为你不是他，他再怎样那是他的事，跟你无关。
你的竞争对手从来就不是任何人，而是你自己。
连你自己都觉得不比任何人好，那么单靠那个想法就足以让你一直跟随在别人的后头。

只有相信自己，积极的呈现自己，找寻自己的潜能，
才能真正的脱颖而出。

♥ 只有弱者才需要贬低他人来提升自己的价值。而强者则是不向社会的批评低头的那位。-珊

♥ 

每个女孩子都是公主。所以，不管遇到什么事，都不能低头认输，不论何时都要挺起胸膛。-莎拉母亲

♥ 

总是想着失去的东西，是不会得到幸福的。-莎拉

因为金钱，一个人能不谈人情。人情对那种人而言并不值钱。可是人情却是钱买不到的感情。

这世间只有廉价的人才需要用金钱买到服从，用钱收买，用钱让人向你低头。

真正有实力的人，单靠自己的魅力就能够让别人尊敬，佩服，跟随他的榜样。

一切都是靠他自己的实力来说服，来证明给大家看，他真正的本事。

如果一个人讨厌你，那么你就做那个喜欢他的人，

如果一个人欺骗你，那么你就做那个相信他的人，

如果一个人

欺

负

你，那么你就做那个善待他的人，

如果一个人鄙视你，那么你就做那个看好他的人。

如果一个人妒忌你，那么你就做那个羡慕他的人。

我的意识不是说别人怎么贬低你，你就向他低头。不是这样的。

看到那个我特别Highlight的字吗？

一个人可以选择做那些心中怀着讨厌，欺骗，欺负，鄙视的人。

但你却可以选择做那个心中充满喜欢，相信，善待，看好的心情对人。

而妒忌跟羡慕只是一线之差，以其妒忌别人的好，为是么不选择羡慕呢？Do you rather be Jealous of one's success or Admire their capability and look up to them for reference? 要做那个内心丑陋还是内心美观的人，那个就由你自己来决定。

不管别人是否会对你微笑，是否会回你敬礼，那不是重点，重点是你自己会不会对人微笑，向人敬礼。So I try to make it a point while I was in school. To greet, and to smile. Even thou I kinda suck at it most of the times. 想到也可笑，我不擅长跟人打交道。So sometimes, it felt like the Cat got my tongue and I just got stuck. Fumbling with my words. Don't know what to say.

小学时看到老师就敬礼，老师进教室，就会起立行礼。It's a very polite way as to greet a person, especially a teacher. That's one thing I admire about the Japanese and Korean culture. Forget about the people that do not practice their formalities, just focus on the people that does so is enough. We should always find the Good in people instead of the Bad. It helps shape our Pure Mind rather than Corrupted Mind.

That is why whenever we transitioned into Secondary school, we get Culture shock. Or maybe it's only me? A teacher of mine once mentioned something that despite the reality is what we all agree on. She had a point. But before that, let's talk a little about her.

She was a good teacher, a very strict one as well. She always make a point to "Tegur" us whenever we are not "Polite" enough, especially when we're "Rude". You have to greet her before you open your mouth and say something. I think most of us "Kena" say by her before, even the Ketua. Haha, but she remained the teacher that we all Respect. 

This is what she said, it's been years, so I'll say it with my own interpretation.

"It doesn't matter whether or not a teacher will reply your greeting whenever you greet them. What's important is that you greet them.那是基本礼貌。I know some teachers don't greet the students back, but you have to be the student that shows Respect to the teachers no matter what."

It's true you know? Not all teachers will smile at you, well, you'll see some showing us sour face[Student-Teacher always have this Prejudice against each other, lol]. And some wouldn't even be bothered when we greet them, there is that kind of tcher ok? U ingat apa? Itu cikgu bukan manusia ar? Nobody says EVERY teacher is Good. Of course not every student is too.

Quote: If you can keep your heads high despite being look down on, you are at a place higher than the one that look down on you. 

PS: It's your choice isn't it? It's my choice to be Better. Despite anything that May come my Way, I'm Alive and that is my Ticket to make a Change.

That reminds me of the song~ One way ticket...

One way ticket, one way ticket to the blues. Haha, even the kids will be able to sing it.

USED vs LOVED
 
While a man was polishing his new car,
his 4 yr old son picked up a stone and scratched lines on the side of the car.
 
In anger, the man took the child's handand hit it many times not realizing he was using a wrench.

At the hospital, the child lost all his fingersdue to multiple fractures.
When the child saw his father.....with painful eyes he asked, 
'Dad when will my fingers grow back?'
The man was so hurt and speechless;he went back to his car and kicked it a lot of times.
Devastated by his own actions......sitting in front of that car he looked at the scratches;the child had written 'LOVE YOU DAD'.
The next day that man committed suicide. . .
 
Anger and Love have no limits;
choose the latter to have a beautiful, lovelylife & remember this:
Things are to be used and people are to be loved.
The problem in today's world is that people are used while things are loved.
 
Let's try always to keep this thought in mind:
Things are to be used,People are to be loved.

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character;
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

Muaha!! I'm bak, anyone miss me? Haha, well, I certainly miss everyone('s) blog post, hehe, especially my own blog, so sorry Qikely, left you alone for so long, hehe, kinda high rite now!!!!! Finally!!! Trial over, damn!! So dissapointing!! My maths damn damn sux, I dun even wanna say the marks, less than 20, very very much less, omg, tcher oso very dissapointed ba, haiz, that's y d 1st thg I did after I had my lunch is math, usually I'll juz switch on d tv, okay!!! Muz kip working hard!!

I realized something from what I heard, and from what I've experienced, that, your effort counts for nothing to others if it didn't show the results it's suppose to show. So yea, you won't be sorry for yourself if you made the effort, but sometimes, it's not suffice, and what is left for you to do, is put in MORE effort!!!! Yea, so spending at least 2 hours a day 2 do my math!!! This is a must if I wanna c a pass in my paper, crap, have to persevere!! Aja2!! Fighting, counting down to 2 months, and I hev 3 subjects 2 really study in order to pass!!!!! Aiseh aiseh, our time is running out, n my time is running out~~~ Hehe, Muse? I love that song.

I miss typing so much, I juz realize something, that not being able to type out my frustration makes me frustrated even more, so yea, this not blogging thing is so not helping, I can only study a sub for a max of 2 hours, n that's it, more than that n I start 2 "PEK CHEK"!! Rly2 annoyed, n keeping awake is a problem as well, the only time I dun fall aslp is when I do math, n the time I kip feeling slpy is maths period 2, so yea, I hate maths class, wot can I say, well, do the best Jane!! You can do it!! That's what others keep telling me!! Ought 2 believe it myself, n here's a very simple quote: "Do not say No. Do say Yes. Do not say Do Not. Do say Do."

Feel pretty much happy, but I hev so many thg 2 bereskan, n I'll be off awhile more, n continue doing wot I'm suppose 2 be doing, exam over, next exam cumin, in 2 months time, no time 2 waste, so will be online 2moro, Ja-ne~!