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Like the autumn leaves, we fall at times, only to find ourselves blown away by the wind, and thus we reach yet another place.

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Archive for 01.2009

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+我亲爱的朋友[Always Keep Your Friends Close]...

+今天一大晴早爬起来,现在快累死了...
+但我还是想看我的戏,所以还是打消睡觉的念头吧...=P
+真的快全披沥尽了,想不到去拜年也可以这么累...
+从去到回来,我都是坐我弟的车...
+如果是跟中学的,我也会一直换车吧...
+不懂做么,就是比较喜欢粘我弟...
+昨天跟她们一般女子出去,我也没什么话讲...
+坐在车上静静的,不懂要说什么好...
+一整天在班上也只会糊闹,一幅不真经的样子...
+跟我弟就不会,我很喜欢跟他讲话...
+更喜欢他跟我讲话,因为我懒得开口...=P
+我们的四个单身汉,现在也只剩下三个了...
+一个一个交了女朋友后,还会记得我们吗?



+我相信我弟,十二年的友情,不会这么轻易中断吧?

+最近,很喜欢我单身的生活,自由自在的...
+也许因为这样,很喜欢赖着我弟吧...哈哈...
+因为哥他们都没时间陪我...
+而我弟是跟我相处最久,也目前跟我最亲近的人...
+就是距离最靠近的也是他...
+没办法咯,贤也距我千里之外...呵呵...
+如果弟有女朋友就不能了咯...
+换成是别人都会以为我跟弟搞地下情吧...
+别人怎么想我可以不去在乎...
+只要我在乎的人不会这么想就行了...
+因为他们对我来说真的很重要...
+是我人生中不可少的"Pieces of Puzzle"...
+所以,就算全世界遗弃我...
+只要有你们,我一定会继续走下去...
"朋友不必多,一个真心的就够..."+"Friends are pieces of puzzle that completes a whole picture..."

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+Masquerade...

+Now my stomach is stuff wif food, that's d thg when we hev party at home, I seem 2 cannot control wot I eat, juz keep eating, n eating, n eating, yea, end up getting indigestion... Argh...darn it, wot can I say, it's my own fault after all...

+Well, quite ok I guess, I'm not rly d party ppl, I dun sit around chit chatting, rather, I prefer 2 stay wif d kids, least I dun hev 2 talk 2 them, juz play wif them...I juz dun rly hev anythg 2 talk about...

+One of my cousins told me that somebody said I looked fierce, she didn't wan 2 tell me who izit, but I guess it's alright, anyone of evryone thks so about me d sec they c me as long as they duno me...

+But sumhow...each time I hear such comment, my heart will still ache, do I rly not care? Or do I? What others thk of me, I juz dunwan 2 admit that I care even if deep down it affects me...

+Perhaps I'm juz putting on a masquerade for evryone 2 c, d way I act infron of others, n the way I am when no one's around...am I the same me inside out? I started 2 question myself...

+Come to thk about it, I seem to be 2 different person altogether, am I faking wot I do juz 2 get attention? Or am I faking who I am juz so nobody realizes dat I'm craving 4 attention? [Dun understand it myself, seems 2 write deep stuff these days, that twists my mind around...]

+I juz can't afford 2 care anymore, I'm never a proud girl, I hev nth 2 be proud of, d oni thg I can be proud of is d person I am, n yet right now it seems that, it is a question 2 whether or not I am really me...

+Be faithful 2 urself I alwiz say, am I doing d exact thg? Or d exact opposite? Which is d real me? D one that nvr smiles, or d one that smiles around others, I need 2 noe...I can't rly differentiate anymore...am I faking both of me?

"To be a soul potrayed by a masquerade, or to be a soul that is a masquerade...it's not much of a difference is it?"

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+Reminiscence...

+1st of all, Happy CNY!!=)

+Juz came bak from SKE...
+Saw him right bfor d chanting began...
+Who is him u may ask?
+Well, it's a secret I cannot tell...xD
+Juz a tiny little secret that oni happens once a year...haha...
+I knew him for 4 years already...
+He n my 3rd bro was d only 2 guys I can recall of from SKEDS 2002 camp, n was quite close 2 him, juz not as close as my 3rd bro...
+Wasn't sure y, if I'm not mistaken he shud be 22 now...
+Yea, so when I was 14, he was kinda 17, that's rite...
+So he treated me like a lil girl most of the times I guess...
+Can hardly remember either...
+Still can't believe that it's already d new year...
+Time flies in a flick of an eye...
+I'll never forget him even though we're not in contact...
+N we c each other oni once a year...
+Perhaps it's becoz I'm alwiz attracted 2 him whenever he's around, not d kind of attracted, but the kind wher u'll juz feel like being around sum1, even without words... 
+That was how it alwiz is...



+N another reason is that, he's d kind of guy that looks good even in his bad hair days, yea, "That kinda guy..."...I won't say he's damn handsome, but rather blessed with a face that I doubt anyone will ever thk of him as a bad guy, even when he's all cool, all quiet, I guess he's d kind that u'll c in d office as ur boss, n still can't believe wot a gud looking boss he is, but u'll never even try 2 speak 2 him personally...
+N here is why I'll never forget him, it's rly funny, I can still remember that part when he said so, it was rly amusing...we were suppose 2 stage a play at d camp, n then since no girls wanted 2 play d part of d girl, he was chosen 2 play d girl, =P, I was helping out backstage, n we fit him into a dress, then he look at our expression n say sth that sounds this way, "That's it, I'm never going 2 wear another dress in my entire life..."...haha...xD...it was rly funny, he was forced 2 act that part, not that he wanted 2, poor him...but we had our share of fun...hehe...
+Since then, I'll oni c him in d temple during new year eves, but that is not d reason y I go 2 d temple ler...evry year it wud nvr cum into my mind that he'll be ther, but each time I sees him, it's like I hev little butterflies in my stomach, the adrenaline rushing thru....
+That's how it is, it's a tiny little crush I had ever since I knew him I guess...but he's not d kind of guy that I wud approach, he's d kind of guy that exists only in my dreams, n will nvr cum into reality...I wish we cud atleast be frenz, but perhaps it's d age gap, n I'll alwiz be the little girl he sees..."I guess I still am a little girl, that hangs on 2 a memory, like a child does 2 her daddy..."

"If only we get to know each other, I'll be happy to have you as a friend..."

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+A Dream So Close...

+Now now..it's 7.30am in the morning, n I'm awake...lol...
+Well, u can skip the part bfor d pic n go straight 2 d pt...hee...

+Thing is, I woke up at 4am, haha, well, was kinda taking a nap at 9pm, was pretty tired, who noes I'll slp thru d nite, n find myself awake at 4am, lol, darn it, I thought I set d alarm at 10, mayb I did, mayb I was juz 2 exhausted 2 hear it...lol...

+Well then, listened 2 sum songs from my hp, sms sum pigz that are dreaming, kaka, who noes they rly did replied me, keke, n well, apparently, 2 of he wasn't aslp, lol...now I'm listening from the com, before that, I had a dream, if I'm not mistaken, a rather scary dream that I juz wanted 2 hide myself...zzz, thank god the memory is vague, can hardly remember...here's the interesting part...go on...

+I slpt again at 5am, set my alarm for 7.00am, well, I dun rly wan 2 slp so much do I? 9 hours is more than enough, then my hp rings[sorry, but this is not the interesting part...haha, xD]...n yea, it's 1 of the he that is still not asleep, for 19 hours? I was like, wth? Asked him go n slp ad...zzz...hopefully he's in dreamland right now...lol...

+Okay2, enuf wif the babblings, shudn't hev set d alarm, then mayb I could find out wot is it, in my dream?[Had a split dream, means 2 in 1 dream, like 2 scenes in 1 show, yea that kind, kinda confusing, but manage 2 differentiate it thou, now lets talk about d one wher I duno anyone in it] It is so vivid, n yet, like d typical dreams, it fades away if u do not try 2 atleast keep it in mind...it felt so real, right here at my home, for even when I woke up, I thought it was true, until I come 2 my senses that he couldn't be true...

+D dream started that I was wif a bunch of frenz[whom I duno in real life...] at a stall, we saw a woman mumbling, I was asking my fren about it, she was walking around d stall n chanting sth, then he told me that she's casting a spell on d stall, she's d owner of d opposite stall, then she looked at us, wif a stern look, that seems like she noes dat we noe, gosh...That's scary, then we "cabut" la, one of them drove d car off...ther was 5 of us, oni when we reached d car do we realize, oh god, one of them is missing, I was thinking, shud hev hold each others hand juz now!! Now wot do we do? Then we saw another car drove off, we thought he should hev been taken by the "witch"...so we gave chase 2 d car, n true enuf, he was inside...unconcious, wonder wot "she" did 2 him...

+N now d thg is, I can't remember wot happens afterward[paiseh...dream term memory kinda hard 2 stick 2 mind...well, I'll leave it 2 ur imagination...=P], except that he's bak n well, but he was 2 go off, fly away, aboard a plane 2 another country, sum sort like that, wif his aunties that was at my home, no idea who oso la...I was in d room, not wanting 2 get out, heard his aunties chattering wif my parents, then I walked out of d hse, he was quarting outside giving my sis a hug, yea, I can even remember his gesture...I can even remember that I looked sad at that moment, duh, n then he hugged me...

+So then I said 2 him:"I oni noe ur name is STEPHEN"[In my mind I was thking 2 get his cell no. or msn, but no I did not get it, this is how it is wif dreams isn't it? U can nvr get a number out of it...or else I can go buy 4d ad...xD]Seriously, dis is d part wher I do not understand, I duno anyone of that name in life, neither hev I read about a character of that name except 4 d author Stephen King, n the vamp I'm obssesed wif is STEFAN...n we even call him Step, yea, that was even weirder...then he told me sth, he says sth about "This will not be the last we c each other, I'll come again"...he gave me sth, which I'm trying 2 crack my mind thking wot is it he gave me?? Crap, dun thk I'll remember it, but I can try to[so until I remember, we'll leave it ther...]...

+N about him, he's a tall guy, by means 180++cm that tall, well built 2, wore a plain white t, n khakis I thk, that was wot makes it seems so real, 2 d part that I actually saw his face, his features n even his slightly wavy hair, which rarely happens in my dreams, mostly, it is juz visions, but it was as if he was standing right infront of me, n I can c him all so clearly, but now d picture is slowly fading away...

+Then I went bak in, n thought I giv him sth in exchange, a bookmark perhaps. While I was inside, they needed 2 catch a plane, so they went off ad, sigh...now, here's d even weirder than the weird part, I sms-ed him[din I juz say I dun hev his cell, god noes how I did that??...well, common sense will be that in my dream, they skip d part wher I took it from my mum, probably...], the msg goes sth like this, "I wanted 2 giv u sth, but nvm, hev a safe journey..."...he replied: "Who's this?"...then I replied...:"Jane"...then I woke up...that's all, yea, alarm clock punya pasal, lol...so my dream came to a halt...

+Do u blv in dreams premonition?I do partially, coz there hev been times when it all comes true, but those dreams are juz scenes, never wif a name, never wif such details that I can remember of...whether or not it is a prediction, I'll noe when I happen 2 experience "Déjà Vu", until then, I'll put this dream behind my head, for it rings no bell on what it means 2 me right now...

P/S: Haha, 8.30am ad...well then, I'll stop here...

"Dreams will always remains dreams until it takes place in reality..."

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+Peace Out!!

+Thought of something today, n yesterday...
+Can probably describe it better in Chinese...
+But thought I write in English, was counting on sum1's opinion lor...haha...
+So ther, I type in English lor...
+Hmm, the topic of MUET discussion today is "A Woman Can Live Without A Man", n Vise Versa...
+Honestly, the question is not can or cannot, it's whether you want or don't want...
+Sum may luvs the freedom 2 much 2 get attached to anyone else...
+Sum may wan a companion that could be their shoulder to cry on when they're sad...
+Sum may luvs the attention given to them by their lover....
+Sum may wan a life of solitude instead...
+Well, it's merely ur personal choice...
+To whether or not u can live without ur counterpart, as they say, "The egg comes 1st? Or the chicken comes 1st?"
+So we'll juz leave it all 4 u 2 dcide...free 2 share ur opinions on this if u hev them...=)



+Speaking of which, my fren was talking about wot do we do after we graduated?
+She says it's important that we already figure it out by now...
+To me, that's juz not the case, "I live at the moment, the more I worry about tomorrow, the more tomorrow will be worse than today; The least I worry, the better it will be..."That's what I believe...
+Even my sis herself that's studying in Uni, is still doubtful on wot she's going 2 do after getting her degree. Well, thgs dun alwiz go ur way, 9 out of 10 times it chooses to go d opposite way...
+So instead of me worrying about the future, that is 1 year, 5 years, 10 years later? "Why not live right now? When the present is the future of the past..."
+Nobody knows if they're gonna be here tomorrow, people always tend to thk that life is constant, certain. But the truth is, life is everchanging, the world never stands still, what makes u thk that evrythg is constant? Anythg is possible, to rise from the bottom or to fall from the top...Sum say it's luck, but is it? perhaps, 1% or it...99% of it is wot we fought for...
+"To stand by the devil's side and play by fire, or to trust in an angel to show us the light..."



+So then, we talked about love life, yea, love, I've never been wif sum1, but I noe very well, that it's not worth caring for sum1 90% when they oni cares 4 u 10%..."It's better to be heart broken over the littlest thing, than to get crushed when all hell breaks loose...."
+That reminds me of a quote..."Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned..."
+Wanted to talk on sumthg, but 4 sum reason, I couldn't remember wot it was...sigh...
+Memory is getting worse, imagine that, I can 4get sth d sec sum1 told me so...duh...
+When I say I've never had a bf, people is alwiz giving me the skeptical look, I mean it's not that hard 2 believe if u noe who I rly am, haha, xD, kinda a psycho chick in a sense that I luv doing thgs that people doesn't do, afraid to do thgs that most people does, perhaps I'm juz rebellious in a way that my heart goes against, yet my mind do not hev d power 2 do so...well, I noe it's deep, sorry 4 that, can't explain wot I'm writing either, lol, it happens, 4giv me...=P
+So yea, I'm the kind of girl who's waiting 4 d right one, n not juz anyone, I hev frenz that changes guys/girls as like how they changes clothes...Sure, there are those who are serious, that simply enjoys the process of being in love, but somehow I thk they're juz wasting their heart, but now, it's not 4 me 2 judge izit? So let's stop here...
+I'll only giv out my heart 90%, as long as it's not 100%, it's ez 4 me 2 use my willpower of 10% 2 let it go when I hev 2...like I said, "It's better 2 be hurt over small matters, than to cry over the real deal..."
+What I meant is that, use evry lil experience as a lesson 2 be learnt. "Life has no regrets, only lessons to be learnt..."Learn 2 deal wif it, analyse the situation n use it as a 1st aid 4 ur broken heart....Oft times is that the ones that broke their heart over their 1st love suffers a great deal when they pour their whole heart into the relationship compared 2 d ones that has been hurt by those they care for n learnt not 2 sink 2 deep into the ocean of love...

P/S+Well, honestly, I'm tired now, so gonna call it a day, well, technically, it's another day ad...lol...chao then, take care, n hev a nice day ahead!! Peace Out!! =)

"To live according to rules, or to live without regrets. The decision is yours, what is wrong may actually be right, what is right may not be what it seems..."

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+Four Leaf Clover...=)

1. Four countries I have been:
+Never been out of M'sia ever since I'm born...

2. Four countries I would like to visit:
+Volterra, Italy...
+Paris, France...
+Tokyo, Japan...
+London, England...


3. Four of my favourite dishes/snacks:
+Nasi Lemak...
+Chicken Rice...
+Shoyue Mi...
+Chipster...


4. Four of my favourite desserts:
+Ice-cream...
+Pudding...
+Ai Yu Bing...
+Gui Ling Gao...


5. Four things that I'm getting soon:
+Secret...
+A Novel call..."..."
+Jigoku Shoujo 3rd season dvd...
+Ayumi's Greatest Hits...


6. Four things you may not know about me:
+I'm not who u thk I am...I'm nt brave at all...
+I luvs the attention, yet dun like standing out in crowds...
+I'm more of an ice-creamolic than a chocoholic...
+I do not drink COFFEE...


7. Four things I dislike:
+Judgmental people...
+Hypocrites...
+Speak bad behind me, anythg juz spit it out...duh!
+People telling thgs I already noe when I say I KNOW, and act as thou they know it all, lol...


8. Four meanings of my life:
+Family...
+Friends...
+Food...
+Freedom...


9. Four things I don't dare to do but wish to do:
+Tattoo...=P
+Drive alone...I'm afraid atm it's kinda not possible 4 me...
+Cook perhaps? Scare of fire, maklumlah, kena celur how many times ad...aikz...
+Flash my finger across the flame, argh, how the heck do they do that...scary...zzz...


10. Four obsessions:
+Animes...
+Poetry...
+Music...
+Shopping!~hehe..xD


11. Four bad habits:
+=( instead of =) most of the time...
+Mess up my stuff...lol...
+Spending habits?=P
+Slp LATE, wake up 2 EARLY...

12. Four fav singers:
+Kenji!!
+JayChou~
+JadeLiu!=)
+Ayumi...




Hehe...copied the 6 q from a blog, wrote d other 6 myself...lol..bored la..okla..when I thk of sumore qq then I post, meanwhile, mayb u could copy it n paste it on ur blog? Let's get 2 noe more about u shall we?

"When the last leaf falls, then lucky is no more..."

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+Happy Day!! Music Day!! Every Day!! =)

+Yipee!! I got my VK Guilty!! Hehe~can't wait till the weekends, then I can watch it..keke...*grins...
+N wot else, oh oh, I got Kenji's Magik as well!! Yahar!! Damn nice damn nice...worth the price, hehe, 2 cds[32trax]+1 dvd[19trax]...

+N here is 4 myspace profile that u shud go listen rite away!! Put on ur headphones n prepare 2 listen 2 the coolest music ever heard in M'sia, haha, no kidding, lol, support the local scene!! Call for attention!!



+EndlessEternal+ ...a jpop band that is rising to their fame!! Support2!! Close ur eyes, n feel their music, doesn't it makes u juz wan 2 stay in their music 4ever?!! Endless Eternal!! Suits their name!!=D
+TerraFirma+ ...a band from Malacca, wow...japanese one 2....awesomeness!!Yatta!!
+Unabashed+ ...“We don't presume to know all the answers, but we hope to ask the right questions.”...that answers it all...

+N lastly, yet 2 be known, well, soon I'm pretty sure, my fren's band, he's the drummer...lol...cool music, nice nice...gambateh neh!!
+AutumnToMidnights+

+Hehe..well, that's all for 2day, got 2 noe the existence of these bands today, will definitely get their album if it's in stores, do support the local talents that deserves the attention...=)
"Music is magic, that makes believe everything we pour our heart into..."

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+Music Is What Feeling Sounds Like...=)

+Hmm, thought of something a fren told me, that some music ain't that great...is that so? Or izit merely personal opinions?
+Well, to me, any music is alright, as long as it is one that I prefer listening too...Sure, there is great music, n great musicians[e.g. Beethoven, Chopin, Debussy etc]...
+But as I'm trying 2 say here, Music is like Poetry, that touches the Soul. And so it doesn't hev 2 be of high standard, that oni the grade 8s can play, or a sheet of complicated score to what makes it great, it really doesn't hev 2 be that way...
+Music is Life, is Love, is Lullaby to all that's happening around us...
+To those who says one doesn't know how to appreciate music, well, think again, each of us has our own interpretation regarding music, our own appreciation, it juz depends if we prefer the same kind of music, or sense of individuality...
+The world is based on Yin & Yang, so is music, there's the sweet melody that puts you to sleep, and there's an angst driven song that says words you can't speak, and what you really feel within...
+For if there are those who makes such unique music, there will be those who listens to that kind of music, take hardcore or visual kei for example...it really ain't that bad, though all those shouting I juz can't heard...
+But, the thg is, the music is simply ALIVE, and that is much more important than anythg else...
+You do know that the famous poems we read today is of a rather simple poem, most of the poems that touches the heart is that of the Feelings portrayed in it, rather than the beautiful vocabulary that the soul tries so hard to Impress...
+Music is in our soul, and nothing can ever defines what the heart hears within, to those that doubt my taste when I listens to hardcore, raps, metal, or even visual kei...
+Surprisingly, I listen 2 ballads, oldies, and new age as well...so well then, music, poetry, and art is our feelings that can't be spoken, so there is no specific definition to the extent of being great or not...
+So beat it whatever one listens too, I simply enjoy listening to any music that fits my soul...

"Music is in our soul, that beats to the rhythm and go through life's core..."

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+I Love You...

+Oh yea, breaking yet another rule, wth, this is important...lol...
+Juz that simple 3 letter words, why not tell it to someone you really care for and love?
+Yet it is oft times one could say it easily to the crushes we have, yet doubtful to say it to the ones that we truly love and cherish, e.g. our family & friends...
+"I Love You" holds more meaning than one, and it could mean anythg of evrythg 2 anyone at all...
+Perhaps it is the love of a friend, the love to a pet, the love of a dear one, yet LOVE it is still...
+The heart is warmth when love remains, the heart is cold when hate replaces...
+"I Miss You" too, I sincerely say it to you...
+Love is what makes the world goes around...
+I really can't describe it in words, it is simply a feeling that only you can feel within...
+Not even a painter could draw the feeling of love in it's most precise way and details, simply because it is not constant, it changes, like the wind, never a solid to begin with, it holds different meaning to each n evryone of us...
+If only those with a heart could feel, there wouldn't be tears shed over blood that's been poured...
+God bless the innocents souls, for if there's a thing we can do, is pray they're at a better place...
+I know this world is fair, I trust karma to do it's job, what's been a sin, would be paid with a price...
+Many people do not comprehend, that love isn't juz about lust, isn't juz wot u feel for the op sex, but it is a fundamental element in our life in order for us to be passionate, to be caring, to be tolerant...
+Life is born with love, only wif love, can LIFE sustain...
+I Love You, n you noe who u are, my dear Family & Friends...=)

"Love is not to be bounded with burden, love is the light of your life, and for the heart to see what the eyes couldn't see..."

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+Four Faces Of Me...=D




+Yea well...what can I say, forced 2 cut...lol...had 2 types of comments, some prefer my hair before, n some prefer my hair now, yea, esp my mum, she was thinking that I'm going QUIRKY...=P

+Ok, din take a pic of my hair from the bak, simply bcoz it is EXTREMELY short, no kidding, zzz, well, 3 more weeks 2 CNY, it better be good by that time...practically, I did not altered much, din came out like the way I expected 2, but nevertheless it's alright, since u hev 2 fit the hairstyles with ur features...

+Erm, so yea, took a few pix, I noe I'll get asked when I goes bak 2 skul, well, wth, sue me, I'll reply u the same thg..."I broke my heart"....wakaka...the guy who cut my hair used 2 say, in the old days, a girl only cuts her hair when she broke her heart, well, it's a saying, apparently, japanese says that 2...hehe, 2 bad he ain't in Melaka anymore, I nvr nid 2 thk wot kind of hairstyles 2 cut, he'll cut as he likes, n it alwiz suits me...

+Least I juz hev 2 use a tiny bit of shampoo now, n it's windy~lalala~haha...xD...xxss...

"We never know until we take the chance to change, who we are to become..."

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+Sorry For Being A Friend...

+One day into the new year, n I'm already breaking every possible rules!!
+Really frustrated with myself right now!!
+Am I wrong for being a friend?
+I knew he'll get mad if I bust him out, but still I did...
+I told anyone that is around...
+I just don't know wot 2 do!! It frustrates me when I still care...
+After all, we're merely ordinary friends....
+Even if he's gonna hate me for telling it out...
+It doesn't really matter anymore does it? The wound has been inflicted upon us...
+I cannot take back the words I said, neither can I stop caring...
+It pains me, it hurts me, but it really is none of my business anymore...
+I should have known better than to get involved in your life...
+Not mine, not theirs, not anyone, but yours...
+So I better keep my butts out from anything that is none of my concern!!


"Sometimes I'm just too weak myself to be your pillar of support..."