A friend of mine posted this on her blog. I find it to be very true. =)


Life's Journey

你就是我的天使 保護著我的天使 從此我再沒有憂傷
你就是我的天使 給我快樂的天使 甚至我學會了飛翔

飛過人間的無常 才懂愛才是寶藏
不管世界變得怎麼樣 只要有你就會是天堂

像孩子依賴著肩膀 像眼淚依賴著臉龐
你就像天使一樣 給我依賴 給我力量

Lost here in this moment
And time keeps slipping by
And if I could have just one wish
I'd have you by my side
Puhlease, that song is nice okay? =P

Still in my Playlist: Need You Now by Lady Antebellum
Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.
 
Playback List: I Turn To You by Christina Aguilera
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
 
到这里来真的是好少听歌哦，我平时在家都开着音乐的。
到这里来却有点习惯了平静的生活。 
刚又听回了这两首，依然很喜欢。
 
对了，下星期需要找三首歌词，要有意思的，最好也是时尚的。
好玩诶？我们不但研究诗还研究歌词。哈哈。
其实上课也蛮好玩的啦。
可是我就是有个坏习惯。
教师讲课我重来都不会专心听的。
从小学一年级都这样。
就是没有听课的习惯。
一上课就想睡，我也不想的。
可是。还是去买多点糖放着吃好了。

对了，还要回家拿我的连身裙上来。
想来想去还是带我的最爱好了。
那个应该可以咯。嘻嘻。
还要拿我高跟鞋哦。
麻烦的要死。
那个是八月的时候咯。
可是感觉很快就会到了。
 
惨，还要表演叻。呵呵。
最讨厌做那种事叻。
我又不会唱歌跳舞。
他们还要做戏剧哦。
糟糕。><"

What have I gotten myself into?
Note to self: Tomorrow have to look through all my tutorials and task to do ad.
Otherwise I confirm won't do later.
Need to print out so many stuff some more. Aikz.
It's true what a friend of mine said.
It's like money flows like water over here.
Books, fac night. This and that. Pengsan gua.

Oh, have to top up my hp ad.
The other day call too many times now bo lui liao.
Sigh, maxis very mahal thou.
That's the pro. N I can't switch to Youth Club.
Can only do that the next time I'm back in Melaka on weekdays.
Bcoz it's under my mum's name.
Have to go the center and switch it. ><"
 
Neway neway neway.
Life is Good at Night.
Not so Good in the Morning.
But still can Survive. Haha.
I can really do with more Sleep.
But tomorrow Morning got Ko-K sumore.
Damn sien lor. ><"

I wan Join PBSM[Persatuan Balik rumah Setiap Minggu] je. Haha.
Okla...I shall end my post for today.
Wan go clear some of my stuff.
Haha. Too many things ad.
I shall just stock it all in a box. =P

So long then. Laterz. ^^

-lilrig-

Everything is so Perplexing right now.
It's like trying to Cram everything right away.
Reminds me of instant food process.
Where you order, then you get it.
Kinda feels like Fast Food right now.
Where everything have to be fast and direct.

Gosh, you lost count of the days over here.
It just feels like the same day everyday.
Every morning had to wake up early,
Go class, sit bus, walk there.

And I still very blur.
My god, everyday go class I just feel so Sleepy.
I'm a sucker for class.
Always feel sleepy in class..><"

Ought to buy some sweets and keep me awake. Lol.
Anyway, this is the only time I get to release what's on my mind and whatsoever.
So now, I'm gonna go split my secrets out somewhere else so there. Done here.

-lilrig-

I can't really grasp the idea of being ask again and again of the same questions by the same people and giving them the same answers when they keep doubting me.

I wouldn't bother giving them the Benefit of the Doubt. It's up to them to trust me or not.
The thing that bothers me is that I've already said so many times and they still had to ask me about it.

And I thought I was the blur one.
Apparently, there are people even blur than me ><"

And I thought I could make my poker face look better.
But everytime I'm sleepy, tired or sick,
I show that poker face again.
The same old expression.
That people tend to intepret it as one expression when it's not.

Tired...Sleepy...Sick...Cold.
Sorta I guess.
And I look like an idiot if I keep a smiling face all the time.
Especially when no one's around.

I'm so sleepy, and so tired.
But still have things need to do.
But my mind is already half asleep.
Sigh...

Listening to: Secret by The Pierces
One of my favs.~

Look into my eyes
Now you're getting sleepy
Are you hypnotized
By secrets that you're keeping?

Eh well, gonna sleep early 2nite.
Rly slpy. Class at 8am tomorrow.
Sigh. Have to wake up early again.

So long then.

-lilrig-

说真的，还不是很习惯这里的生活。什么事都要自己去处理，抢先知道。

Freedom.
Energy.
Alert.
Respect.

F.E.A.R

In order to Survive, you have to overcome your FEAR.
N hev all these qualities to stay Focus and in the Field.

I'm not born a Leader. But I'm not a Follower either.
And another thing is, I'm not a Team Player.
But now I have to learn to be one.

I'm so used to doing evrything by myself when I'm in a group.
Reason bcoz they duno how 2 do and I wan 2 help us all to score.
But it's different over here.
I feel like the one that doesn't know what to do.
And I don't know what I really have to do.

It's all so Perplexing.
We're all in a New World.
Where no one will help us except ourselves.

对这里还是很陌生，
每天在想我真的行吗？
再告诉自己要相信自己。

You made it this Far.
Just go on.
When you reach the Top and look back Down.
You'll see how much the World has Changed.

只要相信，对自己有信心，一切会好过的。
我也很想相信，一直这样重复的想。事情真会如此的发展。

在这里第九天了，来update一下下。
本来第一天来时，有很多东西想写，很多东西想说。
可是一个星期后，觉得都无所谓了。
这不是结局，这是一个开始，虽然第五天就病倒了，还连续病了几天，我都没跟家人说，

从别人的缺点，我看见了自己不该拥有的态度。
不管什么事都好，sabar je lah. Evrythg will be alright.
As long as you Always keep your Friends close.
所谓在家靠家人，出外靠朋友。

你不可能跟所有人好的。
从以前就很清楚这个道理，所以也不想想尽办法去讨好每一个人，
找到能投缘的人，是好事。
接下来的三年，这里也会是我第二间家。

要说I got rid of the Fear.
其实也不是，还是很害怕，只是已经没有回头的路，
只能一直往前冲，希望自己能做那个到最后一站的乌鬼。
所谓乌龟力量大嘛。哈哈。

加油吧。
大家都一样，正朝着自己的梦想前进。
既然是我的选择，就得对自己的决定负责。
就是这一样的拉。
哈哈，来来去去还不是说些一样的人生道理。
同一句我都不懂重复了几遍。

给那些担心我的人。
我会努力的不让你的关心白费。
可是没有担保哦。哈哈。

今天就到这里咯，等我回到去再打，嘻嘻。

Aja2!! Fighting!!

-珊-

You know how people likes to Ask Questions? 
Well, I tend to avoid Asking Questions and Answering them. 
Because when I ask, they'll ask me back, then I'll have to answer them.
This anti-social alter ego[Refers to Enaj, =P] had to be kept in the closet starting tomorrow, or else I'll be left wandering alone.

Here's a simple quote that's since stick in my mind since I see it. It REMINDS me yet again.

For everytime I sigh, as in Law of Attraction, if there's sum1 bside me, they'll feel it 2, but for evrytime I smile, at least I'm nt making sum1 feel worse. And I mean SMILE, not LAUGH, for some reason I dun like ppl Laughing for no Reason, eventhou ppl thk I does that all the time.[Well, the reason juz ain't obvious. =P]

Oh yea, ever since the results for Uni intake is out, ppl has been asking me, what I wudn't ask another. 
The reason is obvious. 
When they know that I'm taking Literature, some ask me what's that? 
Some ask me what am I gonna do with it? 
What can I work when I venture out into the REAL WORLD?
You know what? 
If you know me well, I'm sure you realize that I usually just take One Step at a Time.

I'm a firm believer of the Quote: 船到桥头自然直. As in Tomorrow Will Take Care of Itself.  Whatever Will Be, Will Be~
Like I've mentioned before. 
I don't have Ambitions. I only have Aspirations. 
And a very simple one to note. 
To have my message reach another soul. 
By means of Writing. I love to Write. 
But too many times I fail to Deliver my own Expectations.
I'm not a Perfectionist. I'm simply a Corrector. I try to Correct as much Flaws that I spot as Possible.[Only subject to my writings, not taking in account of anything else..=P]

I'm not Perfect. Then again, no one is.
I see myself as Insufficient. Always having space for Addition.
I'm Not Enough. Yet I Wish You Enough.

>I'm Not Enough: I'm not doing enough.
>I Wish You Enough: I hope you have enough of whatever needed to Survive.

So don't ask me what I plan to work as after I graduate. 
That's for later years to figure out.
You don't always end up doing the things you like.
And you don't always follow through your plan.
Life doesn't only have Plan A, there's Plan B, and the Back Up Plan. =)

My sis didn't know what she wanted to work as even when she was studying Masters.
My dad says to her. Don't worry about it.
When you go out, you'll figure it out.
-Pl@inJan3-

Date: 26th June 2010, Saturday
Place: Asian Havana, Melaka Raya
Group: Primary Skul Pals

As for my primary skul frenz, I went out with them last sat to Asian Havana, hehe...the food and drks ther a bit pricey la, but at least it's NICE...unlike sum places that cost the same, yet sux.
Anyway, I can alwiz c my primary skul frenz bunch whenever I cum bak 2 Melaka, even thou a couple goin Uni as well.
It's fun to be around them, they alwiz make me laugh, n I alwiz end up doin sth silly that made them laugh 2.
Whenever we're together, it's like the Vibe alwiz goes up, that we forgot about our worries at that moment.
Or I should say most of them are really happy go lucky type.
Just take things one step at a time and be grateful for now.

Date: 30th June 2010, Wednesday
Place: Station 1, Melaka Baru
Group: F6 Mates

Probably the last gathering for the year for us Form 6 classmates. 
Mostly Sastera 2 students, a few Sastera 4 students. But semua kenal2 de la.
I didn't want to come actually, y? 
Bcoz if I haven't mentioned it before. I hate going to these Music Cafes.
Esp W and X, even thou the singing is so much better than anywher else.
But haha, I'll rather listen 2 Youtube anytime. Lol.

N wot's worse is that, there's 2 guys singing at S1 at that time.
One guy sing not bad, the other guy........o.m.g.......
Wot makes it even worse it, we can't make out a word he sing.
And the volume of his singing just won't allow us to speak from one table's end to the other.
Like I said, I really dun understand y ppl wan 2 go 2 noisy place to CC?[Chit Chat btw]
That we had to raise our voice everytime we wanted to communicate. Duh.
 
Well, I can't really complain much since their proposal to go Pure Bar got rejected by me.
But haha, I ad said I'm nt goin in the 1st place, so the reason isn't exactly me?=P
That's why I went anyway.
Heh, wot's worst than Music Cafes are Clubs...><"
Go in there and all you smell is the 2nd hand smokes and 3rd hand smokes.
Besides, I dun dance, I dun drink.
Me going this kind of place stand there do NOTHING?

Anyway, as usual, me the gengless[juz invented that word, haha, meaning no geng punya budak] girl, kip table hopping around, my other gud guy fren was sitting alone at his table using his laptop, my F4SC1 classmates was at another table, which I'm nt rly close, they're all categorized as "Classmates" except for some that I regard as friends. Eh well, typical me, it's nth rly, juz that, I duno y, my F6 Classmates can all gather around, but mostly they're close-knitted within their own, n it's hard 2 EXACTLY get into their specific circle, I'm nt kidding, it's true, juz that we all stands at the line of the circle, if u get wot I mean. So no harsh feelings, or anything, just not the kind that u'll share evrythg wif except for them among the circle. 

Date: 1st July 2010. Thursday
Place: Mori Cafe, Bukit Beruang
Group: F5 Frienz

Another music cafe, but at least we were sitting outside. Well, well, 2 girls that were supposed 2 cum cudn't make it. 3 guys were there, I went ther at 9pm, I drove there, fetching sum1 else as well, haha. I came bak by 11pm, dad ask me to, since I'm the one driving. Usually I cum bak after 12am? Lol.

Anyhow, after I came bak, another guy wan go join them, bcoz I ask him 2 go, he say I go bak ad he go for wot, then later on he cum pik me up pulak, so I went out another time, by that time is 11 sth ad. My mum kip say me...zzz...I say 12am I cum bak.

I reach home by 12.30am. Hehe. So scary nia, I rly rly dunwan 2 drive..T.T...1 month din drive ad, I almost forgot 2 brg my license, lol. N then masuk salah lorong, n then mati enjin, n then kena horn. Swt. My dad took off the "P" sticker. I hev 2 remind myself that I'm not a "P" anymore, eventhou my driving still is.><"

Anyway, I'll surely miss them. I don't know why, even thou I dun talk that much with the guys. I just. Feel close to them. I feel safe around them. Different friends different feelings. With them, you just feel safe and secure. One of my fun part is ofcoz sitting in the car while they're driving 120KM/J+...haha...xD