Live it Right

Life is about making Something out of Nothing at all. If you're able to do that, you're able to do Everything.

Painted Life

Life is like a flower, painted to perfection, yet at the end it wilts, fragile as it is, only the stem left unbroken.

Fallen Leaves

Like the autumn leaves, we fall at times, only to find ourselves blown away by the wind, and thus we reach yet another place.

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Archive for 12.2008

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+Rise Against...

"When winter ends, comes spring; When the cold ends, comes warmth..."

+Part I[Fundamentals]...

+Save money, use only what dad givs, keep what I earn...lol...
+Speak English, and type English....use Chinese when others are confused...
+Read more[reference], talk less[crap]...
+Sleep more[6 hours min], watch less[tv]...
+Eat more[ought 2 stop skipping my meals], Nap less[1 hour max]...
+Stop procrastinating[finish whatever hmwrk today]...
+Only go out on weekends[fri,sat,sun & ph]...
+Keep my mouth shut when I hev nth good 2 say[sumtimes honesty brgs u no good, might as well 4get about it]...
+Quarrel less[wif that pig in my hse], care less[of ppl who doesn't appreciate it, I had enuf, when ppl givs u 90% of their care, the least u can do is givs them bak d remainding 10%, 1% juz ain't enuf anymore]...
+Mind my own business[I'll be here whenever you need me, you know where to find me if you really do, other than that, I won't even try 2 get 2 the bottom of it, but I'll always be your pillar of support, and a shoulder to cry on, if you ever need one]...
+This is a strict year, there ought to be strict rules...
+Get rid of the 7 SINS: Pride[I hev no pride until I'm proud of myself] + Envy[Compete against myself, I'm in a race of my own] + Gluttony[Put my cash at home] + Wrath[Ignorance is Bliss] + Greed[Be contented] + Sloth[Stop being lazy, work on it] + Lust[Get rid of that temptation or whatever yearning I hev]...
+Stand up STRAIGHT, do not HUNCH[Remind me anyone? Seems to 4get abt it evry sec]...
+Play[exercise] hard, study[live] smart...
+Do not THINK[it doesn't fix anythg, it doesn't change anythg, so stop THINKING, juz REMEMBER, and do what I shud be doing]...

+List down the thgs I bought whenever I bought a thing, regardless of what it is...



Part II[Daily]...

+Be in bed by 1am...

+Wake up at 6am[skuldays]/9am[weekends]

+1 hour series a day/2 hour show for the weekends...

+Internet access[half hour per day, only for searching information, and blog when I rly hev sth 2 say/2 hours max on the weekends]...

+Novel[1 hour min/2 hours max per week]...

+1 maths reference weekdays/2 maths references weekends...

+1 other sub min daily/2 other sub min weekends...

+Hp - reply when important, leave it if not...

+Make up my bed when I wake up[yea well]...

+Wash whatever plates in the sink[I know, I know]...

+Drink at least 4 cups of water at home[can't do so in skul, toilet stinks, lol]...

+Eat at least a fruit per day[except when there's none 2 eat]...

+Switch off the fan n lights whenever no one's around that area...



+Part III[Skul]...

+Stop dreaming...

+Keep my mouth shut at all times except necessary...

+Ask n Answer in English, English, English...

+Prepare bfor being questioned[it helps that tcher do not get impatience wif me, what can I say, I'm pretty slow]...

+Finish my hmwrk in skul asap, so that I'll hev more time 2 study at home...

+Do not write craps in class, no time 4 that....

+Note book should only be scribbled wif study notes[or letting go of feelings]...

+Jot down thgs 2 remember for each lesson...

+Focus only on hmwrk in skul, n study when there's none...

+Stay in class, n dun wonder around...

+Do whatever tchers says, dun even talk about it...

+Do not question, only answer...


+Hmm, now what else, well, I guess that's all 4 now, will edit it when sth else cums out, I guess ther is a lot 2 work on 4 me 2 be a better person...

+Any rules that is broken, I shall pay for it[literally], and by means of RM1 per rule broken, meaning everytime I breaks a rule, my RM1 shall go into my coin bank, and I will keep it inside until the end of the YEAR, yea, until 2010, let's see if I manage to stay below RM100...hehe...well, crossing my fingers, hopefully, I can manage...

"Things will only keeps getting better, if only we're willing to work for it..."

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+Temptation...

+Hmm...
+Went shopping again...
+Perhaps I should refrain myself from going shopping at all...
+The temptation, it's juz so hard 2 resist...
+It seems when I see nice things, I juz want it so badly...
+But sometimes, after I get hold of it, I'll regret shortly after...
+Maybe there is a part of us that is a shopaholic, it all depends on us 2 take charge...
+I manage 2 cut down on my phone bills, I ought 2 be able to do so 4 my spending 2...
+After skul's reopen, I'm gonna work less hours...
+And I probably should start saving 2...
+Got to fight the urge 2 buy things...
+N the best way 2 not buy thgs is...
+Stay away from things that are hard 2 resist...
+As in 4 me, it'll be thgs like animes, cds, clothes, watches esp...etc...
+I ought 2 start putting my head straight...
+There's only less than 28 hours left before it's the new year...
+There ought 2 be a new resolution, and seriously, I need 2 start saving...
+Darn it...

"Times when the temptations are too strong for you to resist, say NO in your head countless times until you stop having the urge..."[It works, only thing is I need to get my head 2 say YES to No, instead of NO to No...]

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+Moodless...

+I know deep down, that my parents don't approve many of my friends as being decent...
+And that is only having known a quarter of them...
+I can't imagine what they would think if they get 2 noe each n evryone of them...
+My frenz r who they r...
+I am who I am, perhaps sum of my fren's parents don't approve of me as well...
+I'm juz a lazy girl, wif no ambition whatsoever, what differentiates me from them?
+It pains me deep down, knowing how I'm judged, knowing how my frenz are judged...
+I juz duno wot I can do 2 change their thinking...
+Isn't a good trustworthy soul much more important that the ambitions yet no good soul?
+I do not understand, now n again, when they judges who I mix wif...
+Doesn't it makes me the same? After all, we are all in the same crowd...
+I don't know how 2 make them proud of me...
+I go out late at night, cum bak past midnight, they kept quiet, did not say a thing but somehow I feel guilty, I know I'm not the daughter they can be proud of...
+My grades are low, n now that's gonna be my greatest concern...
+And wot after that? I can't even imagine...
+I know they hev expectations...
+But will I be able 2 live up 2 their expectations?
+Right now, I juz wan 2 put it the laz thg on my mind...
+The more I worry about thgs, the more stressed I get, the worse I focus...



"Perhaps avoiding isn't the answer to everything, but there's never a question to begin with..."

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+PD Trip...

+Juz came bak from Pd[Port Dickson]...
+Stayed ther one night at my uncle's house...
+The rest of them was staying at Tanjung Tuan apartment...
+Well, honestly, I dun rly like strolling along the beach...
+It makes me think, n when I do, it's no good...
+Kinda givs me a sad feeling...
+Lonely, forgotten...
+I hate those feelings...
+It juz feels like I wan sum1 2 be bside me...
+But juz quietly, no need 4 words...
+Juz their companion...
+That's how it feels...
+To want 2 be alone, yet wanting sum1 ther at the same time...

+Played badminton at the club house, hev no idea how long since I did...
+Then I played wif the basketball, n ok, I duno how 2 jump...=P
+Haha, I guess sumtimes, it isn't wrong making fun of myself...
+Evryone seems 2 enjoy it...
+Was juz playing wif my lil cousin, n her cousin...
+Hehe...juz needed 2 let go, I guess perhaps, it's a good way 2 do so...
+N a healthy one 2...
+Hmm, well, it makes me thk of my priorities as well...
+Sitting alone at d outside, feeling the sea breeze n the strong wind...
+I guess my 366 days for the coming year means refraining myself from hevin freedom...
+I nid 2 stay focus next year, I juz can't afford 2 lost it now...
+I hev 2 end it, n free myself...
+Or else I'll alwiz live in shadows...
+I nid 2 blv I can...
+I muz trust I can...
+I muz not let those negative thoughts affect me...
+I only hev one priority, and only one...
+Stay in the RACE...
+Thou who finishes the race is no coward, thou who stop halfway is a loser...

+I can't thk anymore, there's no time 4 me 2 think...
+It's killing me, it feels like I'm in prison...
+And ther's 1 year, 1 year bfor I'm set free...
+Still, ther's nth worse than the night, when I'll crawl up in bed, refusing 2 slp...
+It saddens me, but that's wot I do...
+No matter how I try 2 divert n change my thinking...
+Sumhow rather ther r still moments when I would want 2 break down...
+Juz let it all out n cry...
+But I don't, I'm not suppose 2, this is the time when I ought 2 be strong...
+I nid 2 survive next year, n for years 2 cum...
+Time is fast, but slow enuf 4 us 2 feel evry bit of suffering in it...
+Yet nvr 2 slow 2 feel a sec of happiness...
+If only we could feel equally 2 both feelings, then the world is beyond perfection...

"Perfection doesn't exist when flaws are what makes us individuals..."

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+It's Just Not The Way Life Should Be...

+How I wish it could be as simple as the way u put it...
+That it's enuf that u like me, that u could even ask me 2 be ur gf...
+Whether ur 2 lonely or juz nid sum companion...
+It sounded so ez when u say those words...
+I know ur right, but I dun thk I'm wrong either...
+One can nvr love another without being 2gether, I get it bfor, but then I bump into sth hard, now, I get it even more, n I trust myself not 2 repeat dat mistake again, nvr ever...
+I juz dun thk it's suffice anymore, even if u like me, even if I like u, and both of us, our like is juz the kind of crush u had when ur little n not more than that, a tiny little crush, that u'll get over wif the next day, that's how I am, that's who I am...
+I will thk of u the days when we grow closer, but then wot happens afterwards? I'll juz 4get about it, n move on wif my life, u hev urs, I hev mine, we live in 2 worlds apart...
+I rly can't explain the feeling anymore, it all seems blurry in my life...
+I get touched easily, cries listening 2 songs, like anyone that pays attention 2 me, that's who I am, that's who I'll always be...
+Perhaps ur nt playing wif me, but ur nt 2 serious 2 the state that u would be jealous of the way I threat evry guys around...
+I dunwan a beginning that doesn't hev an ending...
+That's the reason y I dun watch spirited shows anymore, it nvr ends, the ghost, it can nvr die, it's already dead...
+If I could, I would, in the state where I simply feel lonely, n needed sum1 by my side, n knew dat u'll be ther, but I wouldn't, not when I know in my heart, it's only temporary, juz like alchohol, ppl drks it sumtimes juz 2 4get about their problems 4 a moment, but it nvr solves those problems, it only weakens our heart, it's the same thg wif life, we can't b wif sum1 juz bcoz we can, but oni bcoz we want 2, n want wif our whole heart...
+I'm not that good of a girl, I noe wot other ppl thinks of me, sumtimes it hurts, but other times, I couldn't care less...
+But one thg 4 sure, I'm nt a play girl, even if I could be, it's juz not who u'll find me as...

"Love doesn't come before two souls join into one, but then again, why risk the hand you take in exchange for something that might never come true..."

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+温暖的拥抱[English Ed: XOXO]...

+是我多心吗?
+虽然我有几个好姐妹...
+但往往在我失落时,最需要安慰的时候...
+陪伴我的,却是那一些少见的异性朋友...
+我总是能在他们的陪伴下感到温馨,解脱一切的烦恼...
+也许是我本身待姐妹们不够好...
+也许是我没更深了解她们...
+但我跟她们的路线却是不一样的...
+老是跟她们有不同的意见,喜好,兴趣...
+或许是那样,跟她们之间的距离,永远都只能停留在那一步...
+我总是喜欢跟男性朋友诉苦,因为他们不会批评我,也会耐心的听,安慰我...
+姐妹们,也会这么做,但往往,我感觉不到她们的关心...
+也许是我不够明感,但每一次发出去的短讯,却都是我几个男性好朋友回我...
+就算不是好朋友,只要我有心事,他们也会试着让我好过,陪我渡过...
+或许也是因为这样,我比较喜欢依赖男性朋友...
+而不想去打扰女性朋友...
+她们,往往,都在忙着做些事...
+过去,我可以因为她们的忽略而感到痛心,难过...
+但之后,我才发觉,我没必要心疼的...
+总是有人愿意陪在我身边,不管是男的,还是女的...
+谁对我好,谁关心我,这些我都心里有数...
+或许有一些人,会觉得我太过自由,开方[不是那种啦,只是...]...
+就,搂搂抱抱[也不是那种],对我来说也没怎样...
+也许很多人都还看不开吧,毕竟,那不是我们的文化...
+但我也不会作出过分举止的行为...
+只是普通的接触,普通的靠住...
+伤心难过时,偶尔,一个拥抱胜过千言万语...
+一个能给我们靠住的肩膀,至少我们知道...
+我们并不是一个人...
+只要让我抱一下就好...=)

"给你一分钟的拥抱,足以让你定下心灵,取得温暖..."

+English Edition: Altered...

+So I was saying, I like to stay in the company of guys...
+But each of them will always just be friends n not more than that...
+Even if I do care 4 them a lot, might as well love them too, but it's still as a friend....
+I simply do form a lot of platonic friendship, can't really explain the reason why...
+But I always do regard my friends as equal, somehow, however, can't help but drift towards the guys more...
+Maybe bcoz they understands, or mayb bcoz they doesn't judge, or perhaps the way they see thgs, it's juz different, n sumtimes, we need a different opinion to open up our mind...
+Still, it seems they won't forget me, but somehow I'm not too sure about the girls...
+Leading me 2 which, the question that might mislead ppl sumhow...
+Touching or hugging d op sex, may b a taboo 2 the society...
+But it juz doesn't work that way 2 me...
+I juz dun understand, y does it matter?
+When we could hug a baby evryday, y can't we hug each other evryday?
+I'm not stressing anythg here, but at times, that's the best comfort you can get...
+N ther's even research that shows hugging keeps the mood alive[dun get me wrong]...
+It simply cheers ppl up, n well, I might as well stop babbling about it...
+Different ppl has different minds, even my friends are not really acceptable to that...
+But anyone nid a hug or shoulder 2 lean on 2, I'm alwiz here...=D

"Hugs & Kisses may not calm you down, but least that's what one could do in times when nothing else works..."

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+凌晨的太阳[Midnight Sun]....

+这个时候我应该在床上做我的美梦了吧...
+最近,我的老毛病又发作了...
+究竟,我是真的睡不下...
+还是不想睡觉...
+我在逃避现实? 还是在逃避梦幻?
+是不想面对明天? 还是害怕面对隔天?
+我不喜欢晚上睡觉...
+我喜欢在白天睡觉...
+因为夜晚的天空看不见太阳...
+而月光下的我,感觉就在世界中心...
+在星星的陪伴下,我又渡过了一夜...
+只要没有阳光的地方,就是属于我的地方...
+虽然我依然会害怕深夜...
+但我却只想逃避白天...
+我的老毛病,能改吗?
+每一次不想一挣开眼就是第二天...
+我就算再累,能撑到几晚,就熬到几夜...
+也许是种习惯吧,而确还是个坏习惯...
+就算黑眼圈再深,我都视而不见...
+我处理事情的方法,虽说有效...
+但却牺牲了生命的一部分...
+但那一切对我来说,却一点都不重要...
+至少,我不会再想起...
+剩下的,也只有回忆当证据...



"我躲在黑夜的某个角落,不让你看见,我那双不笑的眼睛..."

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+付出[Least I Can Do]...

+我又没吃午餐了...
+肚子不饿也不饱...
+吃下去的面粉糕, 却感觉淡淡的...
+试吃其他的,但也吃不下去...
+就连早上的Pizza也吃了一片就不吃了...
+肚子也好无感觉...
+暂时,也没在痛了...
+我的胃好比如我的心一样...
+我的心感觉不到...
+我的胃也好无所谓...
+我的心会痛,我的胃也会...
+但却让我有个借口...
+让我逃离一切...
+我知道,时间有限...
+就算在比赛中,会跑最后,但最终,还得跑到终点...
+不管中途发生了什么,比赛还是要继续...
+游戏,才过了第一关呢,现在退出,也不行了...
+至少跑到最后,证明我不是弱者...

"我相信付出,不相信结果,所以不管付出有没有结果,我依然会心满意足..."

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+坚持到底[Make It Happen]...

+我又不想吃了...
+其实要我不想东想西, 一点也不难...
+只是, 我的脑袋在不想东西的当中, 心, 却觉得好空虚...
+偶尔会痛,很想停一阵子, 可是, 我知道, 我不应该这么做...
+不应该轻易的, 又沉迷在自己的世界里...
+我可以什么都不想, 但, 却失去了心灵似的...
+而我 不能继续思考, 那没完没了的结果...
+此时, 我知道, 该做的, 就是别想太多...
+希望这一次我真的能, 坚持到底...
+贤, 我们一起往前冲, 我不会再想了...
+我会尽我所能, 把注意力转移到该放的...
+梦想, 我想, 我总有一天会知道, 我的愿望...

"也许不是今天, 也许不是明天, 但晴天总有一天会到来..."

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+North, South, East, West...

+...n I miss Melaka so much...=)
+Home sweet home...
+Finally bak home...yatta!!
+Even though it was 4 days, we're on the road for 24 hours...which rly sums up 2 only 3 days...
+Melaka is still way better than other states...hehe...

Day#1...
+Cross Johor and went straight into Pahang...
+On the way to Kuantan, we dropped by Tasik Chini, which is said to be polluted in the newspaper recently...but hmm, it doesn't seem so when we got ther, the water is clear n clean, though on the way in there's a factory that gives out rather black smoke, but the lake is deeper into the forest...the lake area is so serene you could juz take a breath, close ur eyes, n feel the surrounding air...we got on a boat ride n got over to a rather small "orang asli" village, there's a cute lil girl over ther which has such a special colour of hair, it's a mix of highlight brown n blonde, n it's NATURAL, even "kacukan" rarely can be born with such a hair, perhaps she's mix blood 2, but even so, it is still very special, I wonder if the school will ask her to dye it black, if so, it will be such a waste, the hair is so beautiful, n I trust she'll be really pretty when she grows up...
+By the time we arrived Kuantan, it was about 5 in the evening I thk, not rly sure, we juz went 2 a Mamak stall nearby n hev sum roti apa2 la...
+Dinner time, we went to a chinese seafood restaurant, ordered sum dishes, n I rarely eat half of it, I wonder if the people here eats a lot, their one scoop of rice is so much...duh...
+After that, we went bak 2 my dad's cousin's hse n stay overnight, woke up early in the morn n went 2 hev nasi lemak as breakfast, then off we go 2 another destination...

Day#2...
+Masuk kita org ke Kelantan ek, bfor that my mum was sayin y dun u wear sth else(eh well, I was wearing a normal mng top)...n then my sis was wearing shorts, haha, asked her 2 change into sth longer, I juz wear a jacket over, was like, wth, ther will be "Mat Saleh" over ther dressing only half of their body, duh...my sis was like, is ther tourists in Kelantan?
+Duh, ofcoz ther is, juz after we chek in 2 our hotel, which is called Dynasty Inn, hmm, nt bad if ur oni 1 or 2 ppl, but I won't be staying ther again the next time I goes ther, hehe, after that we went around searching 4 dinner, then we passed by a chinese thai seafood restaurant n try the tomyam seafood, gosh, it's so nice, I wan sumore...lol...n yea, ther's a table of "Ang Moh" at ther, n who says ther ain't Mat Salehs over ther? Hehe...=P
+Ok, day 2 is done, n bak to the Inn we goes...

Day#3...
+Woke up n find breakfast 2 eat...dun remember wot I ate thou...=P
+Went around Tumpat searchings 4 "wat"s, ther suppose to be many at ther, but we oni managed 2 find 2, sadly, but ther hardly is any signboard, even when ther is, we still couldn't find it, n we asked quite a few ppl, still, we keep turning in circle, god, that place is so misleading, duh...went 2 the Wat Mai Suwan Khiri @ the Dragonboat temple, the temple is pretty, I like the dsigns, n it has a tall standing buddha, after goin off from the temple n still can't find our way 2 the sitting buddha temple, we turn around n went bak 2 the previous temple, n my mum asked the monk 4 direction, it's a thai monk, he speaks chinese thou, n he drives, haha, my lil sis was like, oh, the monk drives, i say, lol, ofcoz they do, how else r they gonna get their groceries...=P
+Finally managed 2 find the temple, even though we still took the wrong way even wif the monk's direction, hehe...told u the road is misleading, he said straight, well, it seems evrywher is straight over ther...unfortunately, the Wat Machimaram @ the Sitting Buddha temple is all closed up, perhaps it's bcoz that's friday[off day at the state]...but my dad didn't like that temple, even though it's closed up, but we could see that evrythg is grill, I seriously mean evrythg? They put grills around the god statues, the dragon poll, n even the whole area of the temple are up with grills, wot's wif that? My dad was saying, who the hell put fencing around such thgs? I mean, evrywher we go, temples are alwiz open, n this one, is grilled around, n no touching whatsoever, n the dragonboat temple is still prettier, sadly, whoever dsign the temple, didn't thought of it thoroughly when they built it...is ther such a priceless gold that u had 2 locked it all up? I wonder...if "THEY" are happy wif it..hmm..bless them innocent souls....[Oh, I chek, I guess sum parts of the temple are covered wif gold foils[courtesy who ppl who visits, so ther's still no reason 4 the fencing]...n if the thief is stupid enuf 2 steal from temple, let him be...
+Well then, we din manage 2 find the Wat Pothivihan @ Sleeping Buddha temple even though it's suppose 2 be nearby according 2 the signboard, duh...we went 2 the tax free area straight up, the place is like, blood suckin, the price of items inside the tax free area is even more expensive than the ones outside, imagine that? I can buy cheaper chocs from the outside? Seriously, n ofcoz ther's no liquor ovr ther, u can juz go thru over 2 thailand ther thou, haha...pass the kastam 1st ofcoz...
+We had our share of rounding n went bak 2 Kota Bahru, stopped by Tesco and had some fish n chips at London Fish Tales, not bad, hehe...it's a fast food restaurant wif oni fish...so so, we are the oni one eating when we got ther, haha...ppl ther prefers chicken I guess, kfc n chicken rice shop is juz packed...
+Then we head to Perak[passed thru Banjaran Titiwangsa, it's so chilly on the peak] n go straight 2 Kuala Kangsar @ Bandar Diraja[on the way it's dark n no street lights at all, like 4 100km probably? That's like 1 hour journey? Oh god, oni the road looks nice...hmm, round n round we could barely find a hotel that we thk can be stayed, lol...so off we go to Taiping @ Bandar Warisan instead...n ther we head straight 2 Legend Inn recommended by my cousin since it's already 9pm, n we're all so tired, [so din managed 2 go visit the Night Safari, sadly]... after we chek in, my dad n mum went 2 da pao 4 us sth 2 eat, they round n found a food court, which they say oni started to pack at that hour, wow, can u find such a food court in Melaka which is open until midnite? I mean do the ppl ther eat n not slp?
+Then off we go 2 slp after dinner...

Day#4...[Today]
+Woke up n had breakfast at a coffee shop, ordered pasembor[which is rly juz rojak], mee rebus, mee goreng mamak, chicken dip orange rice, curry rice, hehe...not bad...we juz passed around n share..haha...that's wot we alwiz do anyway...=P
+After breakfast, went 2 a shop n bought sum stuffs, then off we go 2 Ipoh, oh, the place is so Big...hehe...arrived ther at 2 sth, meet up wif my mum's fren n went 2 the real Old Town about 3pm, n ther's still so many ppl eating, wow, even at 4pm, there's still ppl cumin in 2 eat, these ppl can rly eat, lol... n yay~finally, got 2 taste the real "hor fun", they call it "kuey tiaw soup" ther thou, hehe...nice one, the "kuey tiaw goreng" oso not bad, n if ur wondering about the white coffee, fyi, I don't drk "Coffee", not even "White Coffee"...haha...
+Dropped by my mum's fren's hse n sit 4 awhile, had a drk, n then heads right bak 2 Melaka..how much I miss here...I doubt I'll ever leave here...home sweet home...=)

+N ok, I'm tired now. So until 2moro, or the day after 2moro...juz wanted 2 safe keep wot I remember, leave out quite a lot thou, hee...

+Sum pix from the net, hev yet 2 upload those from my cam...hehe..so these will do...

+Southeast Asia tallest Sitting Buddha which is 30-metre-high, 47-metre-wide statue...note the fencing around...



+The Dragonboat temple, that's not the shrine hall ofcoz...beautiful isn't it?



"To go along the road ahead, not knowing where it leads to, sometimes you'll discover something you never expected to..."

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+I Used To...

It's been awhile, juz came up with this, it's none too good, but it's clearly me, =)



+I used to stay up until the wee hours of morning,
Crying my heart out for reasons that are not only stupid but childish...

+I used to lie around doing nothing but dream,
Hoping that somehow life will get better the moment I open my eyes...

+I used to be sad and down all the time around,
Leading people to believe that a smile is rare on my stoned hard face...

+I used to speak without going through my brain,
That it bugs me when I realize what a fool I've made myself of...

+I used to complain about every little thing,
To not see how lucky I am being surrounded by all those who cares...

+I used to be the girl standing at a corner,
Wishing that for once someone would turn their head around and notice...

+I used to live in a nutshell for years,
Afraid of venturing out for fear of sunlight that shines too brightly...

+I used to crave the attention of others,
For fear of being alone, for fear of being left out yet wanting to be free...

+I used to consider death as an option,
Until I start believing in miracle and the countless possibilities of life...

+I used to live a broken life of hopes and dreams,
But it will change, for the world is such a beautiful haven, if only we are willing to see...

"I used to wish I could see the future, now I am in the future.."

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+Race. A Factor?


+I was at work 2day, two tables to my left sits my colleague which is a Malay. Well, while I was marking the students homework as usual...my boss took some work from her place and handed it to me, standing in front of my colleague is a little boy, I don't know his exact age, but it should be 9 or 10... n the homework that was passed to me is that of a Malay boy, d other boy was like why the heck did my boss giv it 2 me... n then along comes another Malay girl which comes from the left side, she wanted to go over to my place and hand me her homework so that I can mark it, since my colleague is pretty caught up at that time...n then the boy that is standing in front of my colleague said something I wished I didn't hear, or mayb I'm glad that I did...

+He said: "Nak Cina ke Melayu?"["Want Chinese or Malay?"]...

+I was like, WTH?! Image Hosted by ImageShack.us Such opinions coming out from the mouth of a kid that I doubt is even a decade old...Image Hosted by ImageShack.us

+Even children apparently, isn't as innocent as they seems....

+But well, nth happen, except that the Malay student juz handed it over to her instead of me, simply bcoz sum1 deterred her from entering my territory, or so it seems...

+Pity the little boy, for having such Thoughts, that I assume that's wot he was taught, God knows by who, but kids are copycats, whatever we do, they would follow, so plz be reminded that as the following video shows, let us retain their sanity, for only those with none, creates such a thing call War, n again, we are Malaysians...no offense intended, I juz feel like saying that this world, is wot we mold into, teach ur child the right things, n not based on biased opinions...

"Our children are colour blind, shouldn't we keep them that way?"...Yasmin Ahmad


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+For My Friends...朋友...=)

林心如...--<@左右@>--
蒲公英是我掌心的雲朵
隨風飛 隨分秒輕輕吹送
不嫌遠 不嫌累 也不管多驚險
帶我看花開的喜悅
當日出 變成了 下個日落
想起誰 眉頭會變得溫柔
一句話 或問侯 嘴角上的笑容
就足夠我下次漂流

多感謝你 總是在我的左右
讓勇氣緊緊的保護我
能不能讓我 好不好讓我
用快樂回報你所有
蒲公英在指尖輕輕降落
城市中帶著謊言的寂寞
"哭累了 就笑吧 再一次 迎著風
把幸福飄到你左右..."

Permanent by David Cook...

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you’ll never see me cry...
And everything, it will surely change even if I tell you I won’t go away today...
Will you think that you’re all alone...
When no one’s there to hold your hand?
And all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary...
rest your head...
I’m permanent...

I know he’s living in hell every single day...
And so I ask oh God is there some way for me to take his place...
And when they say it’s all touch and go...
I wish I could make it go away...
But still you say...
Will you think that you’re all alone
when no one’s there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
and everything is temporary,
rest your head...
I’m permanent...
I’m permanent...
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Forgive my promise that you’ll never see me cry..."

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+幸福[Happiness]...

+原来...幸福,并没愛来得遥不可及...
+原来...在朋友的陪伴下也有幸福的存在...
+原来...比起渴望的,你们的陪伴让我觉得更温暖...
+原来...我从来没留意到,真正让我温馨的,是在乎我的人...
+原来...有你们在,我就有十分的安全感...十分的微笑...

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+就算...我哭了一夜...
+就算...我不停的责备...
+就算...我对你们不够好...
+就算...我在你的身上发泄...
+但是...你们,还是陪在我身边...
+仍然...不曾遗弃我更不曾忘记...

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+哥,我知道你对我好,也知道你为我好...谢谢,真的...
+贤,你还是对我最好的人...有你的陪伴,总是觉得很温暖...
+还有一直听我诉苦的人...玲,境...你们真是我的好朋友!!...=)
+小冬冬,我可没忘了你哦,虽然你距我千里之外...哈哈...=P
+还有其他有我心的人...我会继续加油的...!!Aja-aja!!

+所以小天使,放开吧...=)...自由自在多好...我会陪你一起渡过...

+还有小妹妹,我们还有很长的路要走呢...加油吧!!^^

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+幸福,只在于自己怎么去看待...现在的我,很幸福...

+能快乐一时,好过不曾快乐,让曾经的快乐留在回忆里...去制造另一个快乐...

P/S: I Love You...=)
+Note: Thx Piglet, Eeyore, Pooh...hehe...n oso Jeff & Mirra...4 being ther, n sorry, for no english version...=P


"幸福,就这么的随手可得..."["Happiness, it's just around the corner..."]
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..."享受,就是快乐的秘诀..."["The secret to happiness is to enjoy every moment of life..."]

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+又是新的一天[A New Day Has Come]...

+今天的太阳,又是新的!!
+我们,一起加油吧!!
+Aja aja!!
+我们一起寻找下一个幸福吧!!=D

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卓文萱...下個幸福...Image Hosted by ImageShack.us

同樣的話說好多遍 我的擔心妳很瞭解
但愛像糾結的毛線 得一天一點慢慢解

我會永遠在妳身邊 但我不能說妳都對
他為了什麼要告別 其實已不是重點

一顆心飛走的時候 兩個人的擁抱 都讓人想淚流

以前妳很快樂 什麼都告訴我
妳後來為什麼 要自己一個默默痛著
太聰明就想太多 越倔強越沒路走
我懂得 妳怕我難過 捨不得

以前妳曾說過 灑脫才能自由
陪著我看日落 再陪我聊到天空亮了
別拉著他的衣袖 就讓我牽妳的手
夢想的 下一個幸福 就快來了

妳抬頭是天空 妳還有好朋友
陪著妳唱情歌 再陪妳聊到心又暖了
別拉著他的衣袖 就讓我牽妳的手
完美的 下一個幸福 就快來了
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+协给小天使的歌...一个人勇敢...---<@

你想要的 我不明白 明明可以 愛得很自然
兩個人世界多簡單 就是我愛你 你愛我 不難
你還是 離開

你的決定 與我無關 我能理解 我不會責怪
這是你給我的答案 你要我接受 卻還要我等待
等不到一個未來

我不相信愛很難 沒有一點溫度
殘留下來 你失蹤的愛 我的幸福跟你離開
謝謝你那麼坦白 原來失去以後 比較愉快
不會再傷感

就算愛很難 我也不怕失敗
一定有一天 我會比你想像更勇敢

"我學會燦爛, 一個人勇敢"

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+Run by Leona Lewis...



I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Chorus:
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Verse:
Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

[Chorus]

[Verse]

[Chorus]

"Let us run with the wind, whenever it might take us too, it's the only way we'll ever survive..."

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+Is It Me? Or Is It You?

+Do I not click wif u, or is it u that doesn't comprehend me? I nid 2 noe that I'm not alone, every now n then, I nid 2 let sum1 noe they r not alone every now n then...it matters rly, even the slightest action, could affect sum1 u care 4 dearly...no one is 2 be left alone...when u do, look around u, n c others by urside, perhaps, they do not understand u, perhaps, u do not sit around n talk, but perhaps, they too, are the ppl that will be around 2 listen 2 u instead...

+I used 2 fear the life of being alone, solitary haunts my days in the past, it upsets me that nobody is around whenever I needed them, it even upsets me that at night I cry myself 2 slp...But, not anymore, not when the darkness has fade into the brightness, it shines every now n then, even when it rains, even when it pours, even when the clouds, cover up the sun, there's still a glimpse of light that will nvr fade, I noe ther are those who cares, n if ur not the one, there'll be others who care...

+Now I juz luv being who I am, wot I am, I am afterall, juz a human, I'm not gonna plz anyone, I'm not gonna let anyone brg me down 4 who I am, I luv the freedom, n u, do not let me go, I nvr held on 2 tight 2 begin wif, I'm juz a lil girl playing wif the kite, n perhaps when the wind is strong enuf, I'll let go of the string, n let it strode wif the wind...
"I don't mind being alone, but knowing that sum1 cares, it's comforting 2 noe that sum1 will be ther 2 catch me when I fall..."

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+For Love Is Eternal, Til Death Do Us Part...



+Finally finish watching my fav vampire series, n damn, it makes me cry...but, in a good way, hehe...Moonlight is still the best vampire series I've watch, it really din matter that Mick is a middle age vamp, instead of the young ones that are handsome n smart,[Mick is smarter...lol] well, that's wot makes Mick attractive, he's rational, n thoughtful, that puts moonlight ahead of Blood Ties anytime, even though Henry is a rather cool vamp, still, luvs Mick...=P..can't wait 4 the 2nd season 2 be back!

"Mick: This isn't about being a vampire or a human. This is about us. How we feel about one another. Right here, right now."

Featured Song+Love remains the same by Gavin Rossdale

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+协给小天使的歌[2 Songs 4 u little angel]...=)

谁说 - 黑girl

送我回家的路上
你沉默抹不说话
我努力讲,冷的笑话
我想我明白了吧
你的冷漠会解答
我们之间
都在逞强
别说我还会遇到更好的男孩
别说还是朋友太老派
该分开就分开

谁说我没长大
谁说我不够坚强
就算受了伤
也不会害怕
有一天幸福在造访
谁说我放不下
谁说不能去原谅
虽然有时候
还是会想他
对的人却再另个方向

"离开了才能各自飞翔"



李冰冰 - 只有回忆

总是在 消失了才看个明白
手一松 心就会期待
总是在 静下来心跳如钟摆
才无处可逃要对自己坦白
可惜在往往尝透了悲哀
才更懂什么是爱
快乐匆匆风雨未来
忘记了缝补现在

遗憾在 念念不忘受过伤害
才怀疑 那是因为爱
遗憾在 失去了沉默的关怀
才醒悟感情原本无需表白
可惜在要把一切放下来
才感到曾经沧海
就象是眼睛睁不开
清醒是这样无奈

"遗憾在, 发生过的不容修改
眼泪是, 为过去还债...

最遗憾在 爱总是来不及明白,
只有回忆能证明真爱何在 ..."

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+The Truth That You Leave...




piano boy - the truth that u leave




Hehe...heard it from my fren's blog, it's so soothing, yet sad...n it reminds me of sum1, that plays the piano as well, n that sum1's music is simply mesmerizing...it's been awhile since I heard his music, been awhile since we last met...it's like a lullaby, n it goes wif the wind, the heart, it moves wif the music...mayb sumday, we'll meet again, my piano fren...

"If only we'll meet again my fren, perhaps we'll still be frens..."

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+New Hair Cut...

+Hello there...xD









+What can I say? I was BORED...lol...hehe...now it's one short one long, 2 bad d other end not that long, or else it'll be nicer, thg is my hair curves out when it gets too long, so hev 2 chop it off...T.T...nvm, next time I'll make sure it's sliding down my neck like a snake...=P

+N yea, ppl probably thinks I've got a bad hair day or sth, wot the heck, couldn't care less, n my sis thinks it's weird, ok, they aren't the only ones, hehe...but darn rite, weird is my signature, seems 2 be that way wif evryone else around..

+I'm juz tired of being ordinary, juz feel like doing sth ordinary ppl seems 2 afraid of doing so, yea, that's rite, I'm juz BORED...=P

"To be the same as everyone else, or to take the risk and be the odd one out... I, choose the latter..."

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+No Such Thing As NORMAL...

+Thesaurus: Usual, Standard, Regular, Ordinary, Typical, Common, Average...

...Now if u may, define "NORMAL"...wot is normal 2 u exactly? Sumthg USUAL? Like the rice we eat everyday? Or the pasta Italians prefer, or the ramen Japanese favor? Or the kimchi Koreans fancy eating?...is that normal? Which is it? All of it? Or none of it? U can't say either one, bcoz normal doesn't exist universally, only to the choice of the ppl of a nation that they consider that being normal...

...And then comes the STANDARD choices, by means of standard? It's wot u c in a clothing department, with standard sizes...then they hev another extra department that states extra large sizes, is that not normal? Is that not standard? How can we classify which is standard, n which is normal? It's not right 4 us 2 say that certain ppl or certain thgs isn't normal according to your terms...

...Movin on to REGULAR, when we hev lunch or dinner at a certain place, they'll hev regular set of food, n we can juz go with it, their regular is juz wot most ppl around there would prefer 2 eat, n not those from outstation, or those from overseas, let's say loloq, n sate celup, the Malaccans will surely prefer sate celup, but still, loloq seems to remain it's popularity in other states, juz not in Malacca...this is due 2 the fact that we are used 2 eating the food here n not elsewhere, doesn't mean that it's regular here that it will be the same everywhere...

...ORDINARY girl next door, how does this girl looks like? Sum1 wif glasses? Carry her texts in her hand when she goes 2 skul? Doesn't talk much, doesn't complain either, pay attention in class, doesn't mind the heat, doesn't seems 2 bother much, is that wot an ordinary girl is? Is that normal 2 u?? Duh! If it is, I rather be WEIRD...

...The TYPICAL, juz like the typical M'sians, that choose 2 be a bystander rather than the helper when sth unfortunate happens, it juz seems 2 be typical, now if that's typical, tell me wot's right n wot's wrong?!

...COMMON ppl hev common thinking, when u do sth that others do not approve of, they condemn u bcoz of that, it rly din matter if wot u did isn't a sin, but in their opinion, it's worthy of punishment, they say great minds think alike, the opposite of it simply is fools think alike 2...

...N lastly, AVERAGE is the kind of girl that fits into the displayed shoes in the shoe department, no matter which shoe she picks, n that's average in that place, anythg smaller, or larger than that size is consider less or more than average...I guess that's juz how it is wif evrywher, saying normal each n evryday, n doesn't rly understand that there's no NORMAL in this world...I'm not the odd one out, I am juz who I am, mayb it's not normal in the opinion of others, but hell do I care? When I'm ONE & ONLY...

"I rather be the ODD one out, than 2 be the same as everyone else around, I juz dun like being NORMAL..."