+The base of love is friendship[爱], the center of love is heart[愛]...that's wher it all begins...according 2 the chinese characters anyway, =)
+Read Galaxie about Natasha Richardson, act wept, I remember her as the actress of Parent Trap, it is indeed, a true loss to the media world, n the whole world mourns 4 her...
+Then, I wept again, this time, even more uncontrollable, was reading The Star 2 about Tee Hui Yi, u noe? The girl that went thru 2 heart transplants, it's been 18 months since her surgery, time flies doesn't it? I barely even realize, I duno y, when I wept, n stop, then I wept again, as I continue reading, the heart it hurts, n the tears juz kept flowing down, now u noe y I dun like reading newspaper? Yea, coz I cry reading it, duh...
+N there's one excerpt that caught my eyes, that the doctor told her parents, dun expect her 2 be the same, n true enuf, she has changed into a different person, she's more temperamental compared 2 bfor, well, I guess it's true wot they say, bcoz she bears the heart of another, she's act 2 person in one, the heart & the brain, I alwiz blv that the heart remembers better than the brain, so however u are, the heart will be like that, n when it's transferred, it stays that way...so it's rly scary in a way, knowing ur act no longer belongs 2 urself...well, but she sure is lucky 2 be able 2 live, life is a blessing...^^
"The heart is our soul, to lose our heart, is to lose our soul..."
+Had a dream laz nite, man, is that an odd dream...act dreamt of sum1 that I havent met 4 ages, how long is that? Let's c...it's been 2 years, n I dun thk I can recognise if I happen 2 bump into him, juz that, I wonder y I dreamt about him, n even weirder, when he's in my dream, but I dun get 2 c him, the kind wher a character is in the movie, that he is being brought up, but he nvr appears, yea, that kind...
+N hmm, who I dreamt of? I dreamt of his lil bro, which is even weirder, as far as I'm concern, he doesn't even hev one, duh, n it's rly funny, that's y I can remember it, though it's been a couple hours since I woke up, but then again, I remember his bro sitting right next to me, he was in a very serious mode, n if i'm not wrong, he was suppose 2 be 16...meaning 3 years younger than me, duno wot were we doin bfor, but I do remember him telling me wot afterwards, he asked me y din I answer his bro's call? Ever since I left, his bro has been trying 2 look me up, day & night he calls, then I told him, I nvr had a single call from his bro, n ask wot is he saying? He was skeptical & was still a face that isn't fond of me, yea, that kinda expression, he says his bro kept crying all d time, n so so, wth, then nvm, I ask him so how is he doing now? His answer rly bomb me man, he says,"He's married"...I was like, "Huh?"...at dis age?? Wot the??
+N the weird thg is that, in my dream, I was act hevin a crush on dis boy that obviously hev a bad impression of me, n dislikes me v much, mind u, in my dream, he doesn't even exist in real life, lol...that is d weird part, when u act feel sth in ur heart in ur dream...4got most of it ad, then I woke up I guess...zzz...weird...a younger boy har? I wonder if I'll ever fall 4 sum1 younger..kaka...dun mind act, y do most girls mind? The answer is obvious isn't it? They simply dun wanna look older than their guys, haha...
"True love knows no boundaries, no reasons, no doubts..."
+Went out wif Makko, Ko Chor Seng & Lee Wen 2 MBMB, the fountain site. Brought Hao Yang ther, he is as active as usual, running here n ther, n gosh, does he nvr grew tired...
+Then I went 2 JJ's McD wif Wen, get sum Ice-cream n walk bak ther, giv him eat, let him run, giv him drk, later, KCS tired ad, haha, Yang2's father lor, so he very stress ad, so we balik rumah lor, bcoz his son nvr know how 2 stop running de...haha...
+That's y few of us is alwiz tagging along, then each can take turns chasing him, up & down n evrywhere..kaka...such an active boy, n how old is him again, hmm, shud be around 3, hee...dun remember, about that la, but he's very petite, so small size...so kyutt...kawaii desu neh..=)
+N I'm tired, juz din wan 2 stay at home during the weekends, I rly hate staying at home these days, juz makes me feel empty inside, somehow rather, was moody juz now, wrote a poem, thankfully ther's sum1 2 snap me out of my reverie, n get bak my senses, thou he's nt rly a fren that, how do u put it? That will care 4 u as much as u care 4 him, but he is sum1 that will be ther 4 u whenever u need him, so I'm thankful 4 that, though evryone thks he's simply a casanova, kaka, but act, I find him a very good listener & advisor, alwiz felt better after chatting wif him, perhaps bcoz he doesn't thk much at all, alwiz as carefree, alwiz as jovial...wish I cud do d same...^^...Happiness is infections...
+Thk I'll slp now, exhausted, gear up 2moro...
"We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light..." -Plato.
Last phone call +Dad...but if u mean a real convo, sure Xian wot..haha...
Last text msg +Appreciation msg 2 a lil ghost...xD
Last time cried +Cry 4 the right reasons? or cry 4 the wrong reasons? Or cry 4 no reasons? Let's c, I cried watching ugly betty on tuesday, Cried 4 the wrong reasons god noes how long, cried 4 the right reasons which is bcoz of myself, is a few weeks bak I thk...
HAVE YOU EVER?? Date someone twice +Wot does that rly mean? Meaning I go out twice wif them but we're not a couple, no, it alwiz ends wif a single date, then we're PERFECT STRANGER, yea, I'm gud at that, so if u wan 2 break off a friendship, juz brg me on a date, LOL...
Been cheated +Feel cheated? Yea, by those I cared for, n cherish, my frenz, n those that meant more than frenz at a time, but it doesn't matter now does it? They did not lie, simply bcoz believing itself is to beLIEve in a lie...how many times I've been lied to, how many times I've lied myself, life like's this, it's made up of Lies & Truth, but rly, it's how u c it as...
Kiss someone and regretted it +Nvr, coz I nvr did, haha, well, kisses on the cheeks yea, grandma, my parents, but lips, no, so I hev no idea...
Lost someone special +I won't say lost. For I dun thk I did, for they simply are passerbys in my life, PERFECT STRANGER, that doesn't nid 2 be remembered, nor bid farewell wif, to those that come into my heart as they like, n go as they like, I wish u all the best, 2 not feel the same as I did...n I'm not even being sarcastic...
IN THE PAST MONTH Fallen out of love +Love? Infatuation perhaps, how can there be love when two souls aren't attached? You tell me, I know I wud nvr say the 3 letter words again, except 2 my dearest frenz & family, since it pretty much means nth 2 those that doesn't seem 2 hev a idea how my heart feels...
Laughed until you cried +Hev I? Couldn't remember...
Met someone who change your life +Every person that I bump into changes my life in a way that mayb juz the slightest, or mayb the lessons of my life that I wud nvr 4get...so thx 4 the memories, even if they're the ones that I try hard 2 4get...
Found out someone was talking about you +No, but surely there are those that talks about me behind my bak, I dun mind act, as long as it doesn't affects my good name, but then again, anythg juz say directly 2 me, then I'll change, coz I alwiz do that, when I dislike sum1 doin sth, then I'll say it out, instead of keeping 2 myself, then they improves themselves, n I get happier...=)
How many people on your top friends do you know in real life? +9/10...if u mean msn, coz mostly I knew them online, but has since been thru lots of ups & down wif me, even the ones that is across d oceans...noes me better than the ones right next 2 me...
How many kids do you want to have? +a set of twins, who doesn't wan that? A boy & a girl, haha, but if ur talking about me, then I'll say, none at all, dun thk i'll be the ideal parent...heh...
Do you have any pets? +No, as above, I'm irresponsible as callous as I could be..
Do you want to change your name? +Nope, coz Jane is an ancient name, n I love it very much...
What time did you wake up today? +6.30am i thk, duno, been laying on the bed refusing 2 get up, my mum has 2 bug me evry 5 minutes..lol..=P...wot can I do? been hevin insomia these days!! Ish...when I'm exhausted like hell, I juz couldn't put myself 2 slp, y can't I juz sing myself a lullaby then? Duh..
What were you doing at midnight last night? +Trying 2 slp...
Name something you cannot wait for? +Finish my muet, n start looking at the world wif only my heart instead of my eyes...eyes can be deceiving, do not trust all it sees...
Last time you see your father? +Few hours ago...lol...weird q?
What’s one thing you wish could change? +The way my I perceive thgs as...n accept that it's nth wrong 4 me 2 thk the way I do to sum extent, or mayb change the way I thk 4 the better...
Have you ever talk to a person named Tom? +Nvr heard of anyone wif that name...except Tom Cruise ofcoz..lol...
What's getting on your nerves right now? +The fact that in 8 hours time I'll hev 2 sit 4 my muet test, n I'm still awake, chatting away..lol...
Elementary/primary school? +Wot is the different eh? no idea...
Middle/secondary school +Ditto...
Hair color +Shiny Black, n luvin it the way it is...
Long or short +Short, n I'll luv 2 kip it this way until d end of the year...
Want kids +Look bak above...
Want to get married +I noe I dun wan 2 live by myself when I reach the golden age...being old n cranky, lol...
Career in mind +Novelist, editor wil be good, but all in all, still, holding on 2 a dream 2 open an ice-cream shop, that takes away all ur worries wif a scoop, n cheer u up...=)
HAVE YOU EVER??? Kiss a stranger +No way
Lost glasses/contacts +Dun wear them
Ran away from home +I'm nt going 2...
Broken someone’s heart +Got heart broken...
Been arrested +By whom?
Cried when someone died +Alwiz will...
Is there any person you want to be with right now? +My bear2...lol, no one in specific, I juz wan 2 rest 4 now...put my heart on halt...n my brain on forward mode...
Do you believe in God? +Sum1 will knock my head if I say I do, but I can't say I don't either, it's the same thg wif spirits isn't it? Doesn't mean they doesn't exist juz bcoz u dun c them...
"There's a reason for everything, always remember to see with your heart instead of your eyes..."
+Happy Birthday Mum, ur officially a Pentagenarian, =)
+No idea wot 2 say, thought I wanted 2 wish u at midnight act, but then u fall aslp...
+Then I thought I'll give you a hug in the morning, but then I woke up late, that you hev 2 rush me 2 skul...hehe...=p
+Paiseh paiseh, so I juz wished u a hepi bday, u seem surprise thou, hehe, which hmm, I wonder, usually, I dun say it, the 2 simple words, I hev no idea y, dun say it 2 my sis, or my parents, but I guess I ought 2 change my habit of not saying it, at d strike of midnight, ur bday wud hev passed, but then, it's d 2 turtle & tortoise's bday, hehe...小乌龟, 大乌龟[海龟]...miss u both, act ar, I hev a confession 2 make, I kip thinking it's 24th instead of 23rd, eventhou it's juz 1 day after my mum's bday, n haha, I juz realize that my mum's bday falls on Earth Day, n she says her bday is ez 2 remember, bcoz y? 2+2=4...heh, din notice that..=P
+Hmm, well2, bought a tiramisu cake, which doesn't rly taste like tiramisu, hehe, but I guess it's alrite, coz, honestly, I'm nt rly crazy wif tiramisu, it's ok ok 2 me, so yea, then I upgraded the cake, into "Strawberry Tiramisu"...hee...still got a box of strawberries left in the fridge, so I juz cut it into half, n added it 2 the sides n the top...yummy yummy~nvr rly tried fresh blueberries, perhaps I'll buy it next time, or mayb black berries, hehe...
+Well, okla, stop here, thk I'll lay on the bed until 12am now, then wan slp ad, so tired...zzz...nite2, slp tight...
"Time & time again I fall, but you were always there, & I know you'll always be, holding onto me, never letting me down, no matter where or when, you're just like a tattoo carved into my heart, that I simply can't live without..."
+Juz finished watching Ugly Betty, damn, I love that show, act cried at d end of it, now I does that alot, zzz, I dun mind my tears flowing down at all, but for all the right reasons, I'm nt gonna cry over sth that ain't worth, it is wot touches the heart that is REAL...
+Every episode the characters juz keeps getting better, n I act stop hating Wilhemina, that used 2 be an evil witch, but humans are humans afterall, sumtimes our heart takes the better of our head...even the strongest will person falls at times...
+I guess, in life, we have to make lots of choices, even if it means hurting one side of it, you can't always have the best of both world, that's y the globe is round, nt literally, but yea well, it juz means u can't stand at north & south at d same time...
+May the better man win, it alwiz says, 2 follow ur heart desires? Or to make the "right" decisions, who r there 2 tell us wot is right & wot is wrong? n wot is black & wot is white? 2 betray ur heart, or 2 be rasional n listen 2 ur brain? The brain & heart, they're like angel & devil, constantly going against one another, but when it aligns, that is where the world is perfect, which hardly exist in this imperfection world...
+Honesty, the best policy? Most of the times, yes it is...=)
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+Simply beautiful...
1) Because we can cry when we want to, no need to hide the tears unlike guys that will not cry infront of others, because of what?? There's nothing wrong 2 just break down and cry, it doesn't make you sissy, thou I do understand the reason they do not cry, what I want 2 say is that, it's OK 2 cry at times...if a guy ever cry because of me, I know, he is someone I shouldn't let go, but that depends rite, if I dun like him, I'll still let him go...=P
2) Because we get to wear pretty dresses, put on pretty make-ups, hey, ther's nth wrong being vain, thou I stil insist that natural is beauty, but make-up is juz like accessories 2 me, as long as u dun thk of it as ur clothes then it's alrite, afterall, beauty lies in the eye of the beholder...=)
3) Because we have the priviledge to act kyut, kaka, and the pestering power that cums wif it, hehe...=P
4) Because most girls are sensitive and emotional, perhaps way 2 emotional at times, but, being a girl, we understand better to others need...yea, when u put it that way, still, I noe I need 2 control my emotions, now I'll balance both my heart & head, coz my heart is 2 easily influenced...heh...darn it...
5) Because I dun hev 2 pay 4 a guy, n mostly they pay 4 me?? Haha, waliu, jk la, I'm not that kinda girl, I dun mind paying 4 a guy act, but, they will nvr let me anyway, so yea, still, I'll pay 4 my own unless they call me out n I no money la...*guilty*runs*hides...=P
6) Because I can keep long hair n need not tie it up, guys wif long hair tying up their hair? hmm, well, it's bad enuf if ur long hair looks like a girl, if u tie it up, err...it will totally looks like a girl, thk ther's few exceptional thou...ther alwiz is, isn't it?
7) Because I am born a girl, n proud of it...wot is EGO? is it so important that guys cannot put their face down at times? I noe, it doesn't matter 2 me, that's y I luv being a girl, even if we are considered "weak" at times, even when they say us "emo" at times, so wot? I am Jane, that's me...=)
P.S.: All comments are not directed to anywho in real life, and anything I say is not refered to all but some of all people, or perhaps most...=P...
Passing this award & tag to : +Evry girl that is proud of herself...=)
"Being proud of yourself is the first step to happiness..."
+This is an excerpt that's been circulating around the web, which cannot be truer...
+Which reminds me, Show Luo[罗志祥] once said, "我失去的是一个不爱我的人, 她失去的却是一个深爱她的人..."...ppl might thk I'm consoling myself whenever I say this phrase, but it is wot I blv in, that's wot I say to those heart broken souls anyway, to the ones that still cannot let go..."他的损失比较大, 那你还哭什么?"
+It's been a day, love my friends so much, now I know if there's one thing, make it 2, that I can't stand losing r my friends & family...
+Sure, I was frustrated, but, I'm not gonna cry, neither am I gonna beg, guys r still guys at the end of the day, perhaps they might thk I'm juz trying 2 make myself look good n make the other look bad, but, we're friends, we don't keep secrets afterall, n I thk they deserves 2 noe wot I've been going thru, instead of keeping it from them n making them worry more about me, coz I noe, how it feels when they dun tell me wot's keeping their mind occupied, I'll get rly tense up when I c them unhappy, so yea, I wudn't keep it from them, they're my friends afterall, my shoulder to cry on, n my pillar of support...
+Went out laz nite, wif a couple of friends, n another couple, lol, yea well, they're nice ppl, n yea, it's 2 bad they hev 2 meet the bad ppl that doesn't appreciate them, hehe, I trust everything happens for a reason. Let's put it this way, if someone couldn't appreciate your love, then they ain't worth ur love anyway. We deserves better, y do I say we? Because those around me seems to hev more difficulty letting go than I do, even after all the trials & hardship, I juz realize that love shud not be based on pain or tears, put it in an economical way, if the rate of return is not worth the risk u take, then y take the risk? It's that simple, it's not a good business deal when u can't even get bak wot u pay for, n even more, when u get bak lesser than u deserved, so, deal or no deal? U dcide for yourself. Love rly isn't evrythg, but love is evrythg when u realize how much love ur being surrounded wif...I noe I'm loved by those around me more than I deserve, now that's a rly good profit I'm making, well, I'm juz putting it as an example, I'm nt rly putting a price on my relationships or their care for me...coz I noe, I couldn't, it's priceless, so y pursue a worthless love, when u already hev a priceless one...^^
+This is for my friends that I care & love for, n for those that cares & loves me unconditionally..."A Shoulder To Cry On by Tommy Page"...unfortunately, I couldn't find the song thou, here's the lyrics, ask me 4 the song if u want it...=)
"Love doesn't come easy to everyone, it would be easy if everyone comes to love..."
+Went 2 play badminton juz now, juz 4 girls, hehe, so tiring, damn, act suppose 2 play for 2 hours, but one slightly sprained her shoulder, no biggy I thk, hehe...n then another one xleh tahan ad, so played 1 n a half hour oni...kaka...xD, they very bad de...T.T...keep on laughing at me, imitate me sumore, haha, bcoz I 2 many pattern ad, hehe, I noe la..yo! Lalala~like this oni fun ma, keke...paiseh la, my pattern damn funny one, =P
+Hmm, yea, all I can thk about is, I wanna eat ice-cream when I got bak home, yea, I did, hehe, peppermint ice-cream~~yipee~~lil sis buy wan, hehe, cannot eat 2 much, haha, next time buy sumore...so so...then I drk xampai apple, hehe, been keeping it in the fridge 4 long, how refreshing~~wait awhile more go pong2...=)
+Okla, I thk that's all, later wanna gambateh, nid 2 study study ad, 1 more month, zzz, less than one month muet test, wth, so FAST?? adui, pengsan man, pengsan, band 5? Impossible la, now I'm trying 2 stay at band 4 at least...
"Impossible is nothing, nothing is impossible..."-hehe, from a fren, call sm[slow motion]
+I won't deny that there's still doubts in my mind, and I thk that u shud noe, that I do trust u, yet at the same time, I can't help but fear if this is rly happening? Juz like wot u said yesterday, is this 4 real? We were merely strangers juz less than a couple of weeks ago...
+Another thg I won't deny is that my feelings for you is real, that it makes me worry even more, perhaps I won't thk as much anymore when we come face to face with each other...
+Even if this is all but a beautiful lie, I won't regret any decisions I'm gonna make, bcoz my heart, it nvr does go wrong, even if in the end thgs might not turn out 2 be the way we want it to...
"I just need to look into your eyes, to know that this is true, and I will show you the same, the truth beneath my eyes..."
This.Is.Me. Introducing the alter ego within me, her name's Enaj Nehzus. Welcome to my world of Hell & Heaven. As I record my journey here on Earth, I discover yet another side of me. This Is the journal of yet an unlikely lass. P.S: I don't need you to tell me what kind of a person I am. I know very well, I hope you do too.
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An unrealistic story
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Just great, another convert.
Convert to what?
Convert to Malay.
Here's the thing, before I go further,
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