Baka|Jane

Baka|Jane

Really wanna scold myself,

So lazy sampai malas cari jawapan,

Soalan keluar xtau jawapan,

Ish,

50 Marks duno got 35% ma..

I kira2 atleast 30% ba..

I wan 40%...

T.T..

Ish, geram betul,

2 late 2 regret pun.

I yg malas..sigh..

Hmm, I estimate can get atleast 3.0 ba dis sem...

If not I rly can go jump sea liao..wu wu..sob sob..

I wan 3.33....no nid 3.67 la, I dun hev that high expectation pun...

Assigment n quiz pun sudah jia lat..

Aikz,

Hopefully can get 3.33 lor...sigh~

Ling Lang!!!

Muz study!!!

Ish ish,

Dun play2, dah la flung ur quiz,

Better get atleast B for that!!!

Cool down, cool down,

Clear ur head 4 2moro,

Try 2 get an A for that!!!

BISS!!!!><"

-lilrig-

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By Sicreci

A|Sign?

Studying TITAS. But thought I come n blog awhile.

Had a dream in the morning,

Freaked me out,

Was like I kinda busted out sum1 who's fake accidentally,

And all hell break loose was like,

I'm actually stabbing sum1's bak that isn't consider stabbing,

Since it's pretty much the truth? Lol.

Sum1 who's fake yet I can't reveal,

So I actually reveal it in my dreams. ><"

N dat strikes me,

I shud rly kip my mouth shut tight,

Dunwan 2 hev a slip of words,

And find myself in a hot soup again. Duh.

That's all, wanna continue TITAS.

-lilrig-

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By Sicreci

|Tips|

Lalala, finish PSS. But duno can get 40 marks or not ma...><"

Oso duno she will giv me marks 4 my assignment ma...T.T..

Cham, hopefully won't so jialat lor...Sigh~

Anyway, semua baca tips je, nasib yg baca ada keluar,

Kalo x abis kita semua,

Sama2 die. Lol.

Anyway, I thought d rest had tips as well so I din bother as much 2 forward2 sini sane,

I juz happen 2 ask whoever I bump into if they nid it,

If they do I juz tell them la,

I'm like dis de ar,

Like say I wan sth,

I'll go find out myself,

I dun juz wait around 4 sum1 2 juz giv it 2 me,

No one's gonna do that,

Like my parents said,

Nothing in this world comes free,

Surely sth like this is,

But how many can I tell?

I simply expect sum1 I told 2 tell the rest.

N ha, perhaps next time I shud be so generous enough n juz forward my whole mail box. Lol.

Lol, anyway, it's my wrong, so sorry,

I shud hev forwarded 2 all, I din thought of it.><"

It's so damn ironic,

I kip making myself guilty for sth that I did nth wrong of,><"

Damn, shud do more kindness n I shall be alrite,

Spare me sum mercy n take pity on my fragile soul...

Anyway, wanna study TITAS la!

Lalala~Aja2!!!

-lilrig-

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By Sicreci

|IBS|

Grr, old fren has decided 2 pay me a visit,

Been wondering y has I been alternating between diarrhea & constipation.><"

N get so uncomfortable whenever I had my meal.

Think I'm hevin IBS again.

The syndrome the specialist diagnose me with.

Even thou I was skeptical at 1st,

But the symptoms r there,

Very hard 2 not admit it.><"

The causes r not known,

Hence there's not much treatment to do with,

It's not a disease, just a functional problem,

That my abdomen just ain't functioning properly,

Hence the indigestion n etc.

Shud do more breathing exercises,

I'm just lazy,

N I seriously shud stick 2 1 meat per day routine,

Eating meat juz worsens it, @.@

Instead of 3 meals I shud be getting 5 meals instead.

Cutting down my portion of food. Eeek.

Hopefully it'll get better and get me bak spirited. ><"

-lilrig-

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By Sicreci

3 love

C|A

Pray that my mind don't go blank later on...><"

Wish me luck~!

3 hours 2 go~!

-lilrig-

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By Sicreci

Fire|Rain

I don't know if it's the first time I feel like this,
But I feel like shit right now,
Really really crap.

Pretty upset and frust at the same time,
I thought I could hold it in,
I thought I'll be alright,
But meletup jugak,
I can't constrain my feelings,
I'm still not good with that.

I get messed up with the littlest things.
I already start off with a really bad feeling in the wee hours of the morning,
5.30am and I'm awake, to add on a presentation that I so damn damn not satisfy with,
And to add on I got back my creative essay that I work so damn hard on,
Yet got such low marks that I just wanna knock myself against the wall,
I seem to always do things the wrong way,
That my efforts become nothing just like that.
Snap a finger and wahla, it all turns to dust.

I'm being extremely emo right now,
I have flames in my head,
While it's raining in my face.
I just don't want to do anything else for the moment.
Excuse me, I shall get back some slp.

-lilrig-

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By Sicreci

2 love

Creative|Project

tOkki is so Happy~!!!!!

So HAPPY it's over!!!

Nth makes me Happier than getting it OVER with!!!

Wah lala~lalala~

Made a new discovery today thou,

Actually changed my perception towards sum1 n sth,

Dat I shudn't be 2 skeptical.

N I realize they are rly gud ppl,

My lecturers,

We juz hev 2 c them as human instead of u noe wot? Lol.

Blood suckers? Haha, jk.

Anyway, our short film is about Dracula n Ponti @ Pontianak.=P

Had sum slight errors, n technical problems,

We're so scared n freaked out,

After all it's our final presentation,

Which carries 40% marks...grr...

Thk d lec weren't 2 hepy,

But I thk evrythg is cool~

So yea, I'm cool now~

Fortunately I got 2 frenz 2 cum,

Otherwise 10 marks sure gone.

I noe wot I said bfor,

But yea well,

I do noe that I nid d 10 marks,

2 score 4 dis sub,

For I thk I'll do worse in the rest...><"

So yea, nasib baik...fuh~

Neway, another report 2 kejar. Aikz..

Apahal semua benda kena I yg buat..><"

Dah dah, enuf complaining, cepat siapkan.

-lilrig-

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By Sicreci

2 love

No|Fun

I wonder if I'm getting old,

I wonder if we're getting old,

It seems to me the 1st year is more stress than having fun,

Unlike the enthusiasm that is apparent in the faces of the seniors.

Dancing to me is no fun,

For I personally ain't no fan of dancing.

So for the musical, I'm impressed with what they're doing,

But I won't hev fun if it's me doing so.

There are thgs that some ppl juz dun get it,

Nt evryone likes doin the same thg as evryone else.

I'm alwiz the odd one out.

I dislike doin those stuff.

N I gotta find 2 frenz as my guest 2moro.

It's 10 marks.

I hev no idea who 2 find,

Like I said, if my fren ask me instead,

I doubt I wud hev cum myself.

Dah la trouble us, skrg kena trouble org lain.

I mmg x suka.

Kalo xda blah je,

The 10 marks can go to hell.

Kalo bawa pun x semestinya 10 marks.

Grrr...benci giler aku pasal benda mcm ni.

I dun mind ppl m'yusahkan aku.

I very mind I go n m'yusahkan org lain for thgs that I wudn't do so myself!
><"

-lilrig-

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By Sicreci

4 love

Off|Day

Today tOkki took her own day off.

She skip 2 of her classes,

One that is non-importante, 1 that is quite importante~

But then, she needed the break.

It's been stressing her out.

She even cried herself to sleep last nite,

tOkki loses it evry once in awhile,

She can only control up to sum point before she burst~

But then tOkki will alwiz get bak 2 her feet,

It's oni a matter of time, n another matter of time bfor she decided 2 fall bak down.

Woke up early in the morning, 7am, slept for 5 hours oni.

Had my bath n milo n sum biscuits,

Took the 9am bus to KTM wif sot,

Sat the 9.30am KTM to KL Station,

Reach there about 10.15am,

We were early, bcoz sum1 was late,

So had our breakfast there,

Ate Mee Sup Utara. Quite nice. =)

Then hmm, suppose they will be late,

Since we're near Pasar Seni, which is Central Market,

Decided to go there,

Quite a nice place for tourists,

Or ppl looking for souvenirs,

The price aren't that expensive pun,

About the same as wot u can find in Melaka,

N I saw a bunch of cheongsams less than RM100!!!

Next year CNY mau beli la!

I nak hitam punyer...=P

N huh, about 11am++ baru they came,

So went to Segi 1st, budak pi buat benda,

Then they went n makan Pan Mee,

Me n Sot full le, so din makan,

Then around 12pm++ went to 1U.

Lepak at 1U from about 1pm-2pm++?

Sekejap je, 1st time been there,

Tapi mcm The Gardens+Mid Valley je.

Xda pa pun, bought Sticky thou~!

So cute de sweets. Hehe.

After that went to Pavillion,

X buat ape, had lunch at Old Town,

Haha, u tau la, ther all mahal2 giler,

Thg is, I'm cutting off fast food pun,

Cant take fast food le, later will lagi cham,

So ate noodles again. =P

Still got so much time, suggest go watch movie lor,

But no movie to watch pulak~

Jalan-jalan, eh, late ad,

Go Times Square find digi center,

Been hopping around to find digi center,

Haha, 2 bad semua place xda.

Ada pun x buka.

Then fetch the leng lui bak,

Take my thgs from her,

Bak to KTM lor,

Thg is, when I was walking bak to the KTM,

Then realize I lose my ticket, swt.

Hev 2 buy another ticket bak UKM.

Add on another RM3.50 je la.

Waited for half hour for the train,

So slow man~

Then reach UKM about 7pm,

That's all lor. =)

2moro, will be a better day~!

-lilrig-

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By Sicreci

Frust|Giler

Everyone knows I hate vulgar words. I don't use them.

Especially the F words. But ever since I came here.

I snap once in awhile and I just couldn't stand it.

Still, I never did uttered the word orally,

Only in my mind it kept repeating, over and over again,

I feel so intensely frustrated to the state that I just get all upset.

I'm not good at handling pressure,

My dad says I'm low spirited,

At some point I am,

The only thing is I will always get up when I fall down,

It's only that it always hurt so much falling down,

It's making me painful along the way,

Crap. I seriously, honestly, wanna scold it out rite now?!

I wish I can just shout and scream it all out.

3 years from now, I'll probably be scolding the F word off ppl's face.

I can actually see that honestly, when I can't take it,

And just snap. Holy Shit.

I need to calm down, and gives myself a break.

Except I dun hev time for a break.

I'm turning into Enaj again.

Somebody save my soul.

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By Sicreci

Fri|Sat

Friday Movie, Saturday Field Trip~

Friday: Mid Valley

Movie: Eat, Pray, Love.

Damn, damn, damn, nice movie to watch and sit back and just enjoy. Was skeptical at 1st, even thou I'm a big fan of Julia Roberts. The trailer just wasn't interesting enough to capture my attention. The reason I went to watch it because my sis and cousin said it's nice. And true to her words, it really is. It's like you're absorbed into the movie, into her mind, that you don't even realize the time while watching it, it felt like forever in a good way, even thou it's just a moment.

It makes me think about where am I now, and what I'm doing with my life? Am I on the right track? Is this really what I want? Yet sometimes, you end up with no answers. So be it. You don't have to find the answers for everything. You just need to find the balance in life. Not too much of something, not too little of anything.

I am trying to balance myself in between everything. It seems I'm standing with one leg up, which, u wudn't fall if you close your eyes and stand still. But when you open it, it's like when you see with your eyes. You get all these different images in your mind, and walah, you lose focus and fall. So the theory is that we have to clear our mind and see things like how we see our reflection. Clear like the water, calm like the wave~

So yea, that's about the movie.

Went there after class, about 12.30pm.

Reach there by 2pm, beli ticket jalan2 kejap.

4.30pm movie.

Finish by 7pm, then pi makan kejap.

Took the KTM at 10pm.

Reach UKM by 11pm.

So tired, slpt at 1 sth.

Saturday: KLCC

Field Trip: OCS

So lazy 2 wake up in the morning, and drag myself to KLCC.

Aboard the bus at 8.40pm. Took the 9.30am KTM.

Reach KLCC at 10.30am.

Had a bun for my breakfast.

11am start searching for subjects.

Gosh, it's so hard for me to approach strangers.><"

Grr, really testing my courage.

But alas, dapat jugak buka mulut gua yg berat. Lol.

N hmm, like that la, no comment. Hehe.

You meet ppl who's really nice, n u meet ppl who malas nak layan engkau.

The society is like that,

You can't really stereotype everyone into the same category,

As it's really unfair to do so,

Our question is Do Malaysians "Smile"?

If it's me. No. I don't smile often. I admit.

N u get different kind of answers, and ppl giving us smile.

The one I'm most impressed with is the mother and son from South Africa.

Don't look like one thou, hehe. =P

Ok well, nth much I hev 2 say, bcoz ahem, kesedaran diri.

Xyah ckp byk. =)

-lilrig-

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By Sicreci

3 love

Sakit|Hati

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By Sicreci

Sharing|Complaints

Ckp je sharing. Sharing is to do wot?
Complain, complain, complain.
Seriously, ever since I came 2 UKM,
I actually learn 2 appreciate what I have,
Instead of complaining all the time.
Like that is gonna change anything.

I mean, come on?
I used to complain about my mum's cooking,
And she'll simply reply me you want you cook urself.
After you're away from home, you'll realize mum's cooking is the best. ^^
Sometimes you need to be taken away sth 2 appreciate it.
I don't fancy taking UKM food because it's oily n salty n spicy. Yikes.
So not healthy.

As for our dinner, most of us order rice.
And it's so much cheaper than eating at canteen,
Given the proportion and selection of dishes.

Still, you hear complains.
Expensive la,
X cukup meat la,
Not nice la,
Dis n that la.
Walao eh.
I eat ok ar?
Then oni I realize there r ppl choosier n fussier than me.
Come on la wei.
知足常乐。

Kinda complained less these days,
Even if I do, it's oni 2 release my stress, lol.
So yea. That's all I wanna say.
Stop complaining baseless stuff, we all had it the same. Duh.

-lilrig-

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By Sicreci

Week|End

There goes my weekends.

Spent my time at mini PPC,

Went to watch 2 movies,

Wall Street & Detective Dee.

Still got movies I wanna watch~!!!

But, aikz, bo lui liao.

Regarding Wall Street,

Hmm, the trailer seems ok, not the movie I usually go for,

But hmm, after watching it, still think really not a movie I rly fancy watching,

But I guess ppl who likes that kind of movie will like it.

And I thk The Adjustment Bureau trailer is interesting,

But the name is so so. Haha.

So yea, it's ok la for those who prefer this kinda movie,

I simply prefer watching romantic comedies,

Which guys usually wouldn't pik 2 watch. Heh.

Detective Dee,

This one hor, hehe, bcoz they wanted 2 watch Wall Street,

But din inform me bforhand, I ad watch jor,

So hev no choice but 2 watch other movies,

The 2 girls wanted 2 watch ghost movie,

But haha, no fan of it either.

The film is seriously low budget even with the big names like Carina Lau, Andy Lau, Li BingBing and Leung Ka Fai.

The scenery is mostly CGI, it looks like ur watching a human in a video game,

Well, HK or China CGI biasalah.

Anyway, the story is cliche in a not so cliche way.

The storyline is nt rly that ez 2 guess but when u found out, ur like,

Oh, y didn't I thought of that that kinda thg?

So yea, the storyline is the only thing that's worth watching,

I simply luv Andy Lau n Li Bing Bing's scene. =P

So hmm, enuf wif the movies. wot did I spent on ar?

Let's do the math.

Zzz...

Movies: 14+12

Dinner: 4+12

Lunch: 4+8

Titbits: 26

RM80

I thk I've decreased up to half the amount I spent on the 1st month liao.

That's a progress, but I wanna stock up on fruits n stuff 2 munch on.><"

Kip like this wud be RM100 per week which makes it wot?

Approx RM500 one month ba.

I juz remember I hev a book 2 pay sumore. Swt.

Wan go bak Melaka this week if can.

Otherwise no chance until my finals le!!!

Which will be stucked here for one month.

So long pals, starting tomorrow I'm gonna retreat from blogging until the weekends,

I do hev 2 settle my assignment blog thou.><"

1st time I hate 2 blog. ><"..crap.

-lilrig-