"朋友不必多,一个真心的就够..."+"Friends are pieces of puzzle that completes a whole picture..."

+Now my stomach is stuff wif food, that's d thg when we hev party at home, I seem 2 cannot control wot I eat, juz keep eating, n eating, n eating, yea, end up getting indigestion... Argh...darn it, wot can I say, it's my own fault after all...

+Well, quite ok I guess, I'm not rly d party ppl, I dun sit around chit chatting, rather, I prefer 2 stay wif d kids, least I dun hev 2 talk 2 them, juz play wif them...I juz dun rly hev anythg 2 talk about...

+One of my cousins told me that somebody said I looked fierce, she didn't wan 2 tell me who izit, but I guess it's alright, anyone of evryone thks so about me d sec they c me as long as they duno me...

+But sumhow...each time I hear such comment, my heart will still ache, do I rly not care? Or do I? What others thk of me, I juz dunwan 2 admit that I care even if deep down it affects me...

+Perhaps I'm juz putting on a masquerade for evryone 2 c, d way I act infron of others, n the way I am when no one's around...am I the same me inside out? I started 2 question myself...

+Come to thk about it, I seem to be 2 different person altogether, am I faking wot I do juz 2 get attention? Or am I faking who I am juz so nobody realizes dat I'm craving 4 attention? [Dun understand it myself, seems 2 write deep stuff these days, that twists my mind around...]

+I juz can't afford 2 care anymore, I'm never a proud girl, I hev nth 2 be proud of, d oni thg I can be proud of is d person I am, n yet right now it seems that, it is a question 2 whether or not I am really me...

+Be faithful 2 urself I alwiz say, am I doing d exact thg? Or d exact opposite? Which is d real me? D one that nvr smiles, or d one that smiles around others, I need 2 noe...I can't rly differentiate anymore...am I faking both of me?

"To be a soul potrayed by a masquerade, or to be a soul that is a masquerade...it's not much of a difference is it?"

"If only we get to know each other, I'll be happy to have you as a friend..."

+Thing is, I woke up at 4am, haha, well, was kinda taking a nap at 9pm, was pretty tired, who noes I'll slp thru d nite, n find myself awake at 4am, lol, darn it, I thought I set d alarm at 10, mayb I did, mayb I was juz 2 exhausted 2 hear it...lol...

+Well then, listened 2 sum songs from my hp, sms sum pigz that are dreaming, kaka, who noes they rly did replied me, keke, n well, apparently, 2 of he wasn't aslp, lol...now I'm listening from the com, before that, I had a dream, if I'm not mistaken, a rather scary dream that I juz wanted 2 hide myself...zzz, thank god the memory is vague, can hardly remember...here's the interesting part...go on...

+I slpt again at 5am, set my alarm for 7.00am, well, I dun rly wan 2 slp so much do I? 9 hours is more than enough, then my hp rings[sorry, but this is not the interesting part...haha, xD]...n yea, it's 1 of the he that is still not asleep, for 19 hours? I was like, wth? Asked him go n slp ad...zzz...hopefully he's in dreamland right now...lol...

+Okay2, enuf wif the babblings, shudn't hev set d alarm, then mayb I could find out wot is it, in my dream?[Had a split dream, means 2 in 1 dream, like 2 scenes in 1 show, yea that kind, kinda confusing, but manage 2 differentiate it thou, now lets talk about d one wher I duno anyone in it] It is so vivid, n yet, like d typical dreams, it fades away if u do not try 2 atleast keep it in mind...it felt so real, right here at my home, for even when I woke up, I thought it was true, until I come 2 my senses that he couldn't be true...

+D dream started that I was wif a bunch of frenz[whom I duno in real life...] at a stall, we saw a woman mumbling, I was asking my fren about it, she was walking around d stall n chanting sth, then he told me that she's casting a spell on d stall, she's d owner of d opposite stall, then she looked at us, wif a stern look, that seems like she noes dat we noe, gosh...That's scary, then we "cabut" la, one of them drove d car off...ther was 5 of us, oni when we reached d car do we realize, oh god, one of them is missing, I was thinking, shud hev hold each others hand juz now!! Now wot do we do? Then we saw another car drove off, we thought he should hev been taken by the "witch"...so we gave chase 2 d car, n true enuf, he was inside...unconcious, wonder wot "she" did 2 him...

+N now d thg is, I can't remember wot happens afterward[paiseh...dream term memory kinda hard 2 stick 2 mind...well, I'll leave it 2 ur imagination...=P], except that he's bak n well, but he was 2 go off, fly away, aboard a plane 2 another country, sum sort like that, wif his aunties that was at my home, no idea who oso la...I was in d room, not wanting 2 get out, heard his aunties chattering wif my parents, then I walked out of d hse, he was quarting outside giving my sis a hug, yea, I can even remember his gesture...I can even remember that I looked sad at that moment, duh, n then he hugged me...

+So then I said 2 him:"I oni noe ur name is STEPHEN"[In my mind I was thking 2 get his cell no. or msn, but no I did not get it, this is how it is wif dreams isn't it? U can nvr get a number out of it...or else I can go buy 4d ad...xD]Seriously, dis is d part wher I do not understand, I duno anyone of that name in life, neither hev I read about a character of that name except 4 d author Stephen King, n the vamp I'm obssesed wif is STEFAN...n we even call him Step, yea, that was even weirder...then he told me sth, he says sth about "This will not be the last we c each other, I'll come again"...he gave me sth, which I'm trying 2 crack my mind thking wot is it he gave me?? Crap, dun thk I'll remember it, but I can try to[so until I remember, we'll leave it ther...]...

+N about him, he's a tall guy, by means 180++cm that tall, well built 2, wore a plain white t, n khakis I thk, that was wot makes it seems so real, 2 d part that I actually saw his face, his features n even his slightly wavy hair, which rarely happens in my dreams, mostly, it is juz visions, but it was as if he was standing right infront of me, n I can c him all so clearly, but now d picture is slowly fading away...

+Then I went bak in, n thought I giv him sth in exchange, a bookmark perhaps. While I was inside, they needed 2 catch a plane, so they went off ad, sigh...now, here's d even weirder than the weird part, I sms-ed him[din I juz say I dun hev his cell, god noes how I did that??...well, common sense will be that in my dream, they skip d part wher I took it from my mum, probably...], the msg goes sth like this, "I wanted 2 giv u sth, but nvm, hev a safe journey..."...he replied: "Who's this?"...then I replied...:"Jane"...then I woke up...that's all, yea, alarm clock punya pasal, lol...so my dream came to a halt...

+Do u blv in dreams premonition?I do partially, coz there hev been times when it all comes true, but those dreams are juz scenes, never wif a name, never wif such details that I can remember of...whether or not it is a prediction, I'll noe when I happen 2 experience "Déjà Vu", until then, I'll put this dream behind my head, for it rings no bell on what it means 2 me right now...

P/S: Haha, 8.30am ad...well then, I'll stop here...

"Dreams will always remains dreams until it takes place in reality..."

"To live according to rules, or to live without regrets. The decision is yours, what is wrong may actually be right, what is right may not be what it seems..."

"When the last leaf falls, then lucky is no more..."

"Music is magic, that makes believe everything we pour our heart into..."

"Music is in our soul, that beats to the rhythm and go through life's core..."

"Love is not to be bounded with burden, love is the light of your life, and for the heart to see what the eyes couldn't see..."

"We never know until we take the chance to change, who we are to become..."

"Sometimes I'm just too weak myself to be your pillar of support..."