+Now my stomach is stuff wif food, that's d thg when we hev party at home, I seem 2 cannot control wot I eat, juz keep eating, n eating, n eating, yea, end up getting indigestion... Argh...darn it, wot can I say, it's my own fault after all...
+Well, quite ok I guess, I'm not rly d party ppl, I dun sit around chit chatting, rather, I prefer 2 stay wif d kids, least I dun hev 2 talk 2 them, juz play wif them...I juz dun rly hev anythg 2 talk about...
+One of my cousins told me that somebody said I looked fierce, she didn't wan 2 tell me who izit, but I guess it's alright, anyone of evryone thks so about me d sec they c me as long as they duno me...
+But sumhow...each time I hear such comment, my heart will still ache, do I rly not care? Or do I? What others thk of me, I juz dunwan 2 admit that I care even if deep down it affects me...
+Perhaps I'm juz putting on a masquerade for evryone 2 c, d way I act infron of others, n the way I am when no one's around...am I the same me inside out? I started 2 question myself...
+Come to thk about it, I seem to be 2 different person altogether, am I faking wot I do juz 2 get attention? Or am I faking who I am juz so nobody realizes dat I'm craving 4 attention? [Dun understand it myself, seems 2 write deep stuff these days, that twists my mind around...]
+I juz can't afford 2 care anymore, I'm never a proud girl, I hev nth 2 be proud of, d oni thg I can be proud of is d person I am, n yet right now it seems that, it is a question 2 whether or not I am really me...
+Be faithful 2 urself I alwiz say, am I doing d exact thg? Or d exact opposite? Which is d real me? D one that nvr smiles, or d one that smiles around others, I need 2 noe...I can't rly differentiate anymore...am I faking both of me?
"To be a soul potrayed by a masquerade, or to be a soul that is a masquerade...it's not much of a difference is it?"
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