一首让我感动的歌,
动人的旋律，动人的歌声，
让人深深的感受到歌词的含义。

A song that touches my heart, deeply.
Such powerful voice, such powerful lyrics.
Unleashing your inner soul.

Sung by a UKM Alumni.
Support M'sian Singer, seriously has a very good voice.

It's been so long since I blogged,
I know I say this all the time.
Anyway.
Only two days and I think I did so many stuff than any other 2 weeks.

Crossing off my list one by one.
Now I have some other stuff to attend to.
Let's check the list.

Wednesday:
1. Rehearsal for presentation
2. Live Presentation
3. Sign Language Test
4. Complete Thesis Chapter 1-3

Thursday
1. Presentation
2. Prepare Thesis Presentation

Friday
1. Thesis Presentation

Next Week
1. Compile Portfolio
2. Gender Project
3. I.Style Final Project

Damn. I have so many stuff to work on. Crap

I wonder, if friends are those that will share their profit with you,
Or those who is often trying to outdo you?
This society is too materialistic and complicated,
People don't think good of others anymore,
Am I the only one that feels the way I do?
That I want me and my friends to do well together?
But are the others only want to out do the rest?
Trying to shine on their own?
I wonder, in life we make many types of friends,
What kind of a friend are you?

Hmm, I think I'm more interested in doing business than studying ad...
Haiz, demotivated these days,
All I'm interested in is buying clothes, shoes, bags, and all the other things woman like,
I don't even watch series on the com,
I still do read novels thou,
But my life is pretty much boring,
I don't even exercise,
Everyday I just online,
Especially shopping online. ><"

Wake up Jane, you have to do your thesis now,
So demotivated, especially when my proposal got B!?!
What the hell man, so damn terrible, can't forgive myself,
So bad..T.T..

I wonder what's the matter with my tummy this time,
Feels really bad and I have no idea what it's about, probably just constipation again,
But keep feeling like vomiting, and the worst thing is I couldn't,
Will be much easier if I can vomit whatever it is,
Instead of feeling nauseous all the time.

Haven't got any appetite,
And my tummy feel bloated up,
Haven't eaten since last night,
Only drank a cup of milo for dinner,
OMG, I feel bad,
Eat, or don't eat?
Eat and feel like vomiting,
Don't eat and feel like gastric. ><"

So annoying,
Am falling apart,
Very weak,
I know I need some food before I get myself passed out,
Nobody will even realize if I do right?

The Sick Jane, Regards.

You know how we all love looking at Pretty Girls?
Yea, not just guys do that,
Girls do that too,
Most of the times pretty girls attract more attention than guys do,
Not to say there's no handsome or good looking guys,
But well, not every guy could dress themselves up or make themselves handsome,
But every girl has the upper hand by converting themselves from an ugly duckling to a swan,
Just by using a magic powder, ahem, make ups.

I love looking at how girls dress up and what makes them beautiful,
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder,
That's right,
But some girls really don't know how to flatter themselves,
They have such pretty body and pretty face and yet they let it to waste,
Some other girls on the other hand, it's amazing how they dress themselves up even if they're skinny, or a bit chubby,
I'm always amazed with their dressings,
Not to say I'm good at dressing up myself,
Because first and foremost,
I already have a problem looking for outfits that fits me,
Most of them are too BIG for me,
I am that THIN for those who has seen me in real life. XP

Was having dinner last night,
And there was this girl and guy at the other table,
She's like a character you saw in the movies,
Girl going on a date,
Spraying perfume and make ups her face,
She looks just pretty enough,
And they all look the same to me with their make ups on,
But I'm amazed with the fact that they take the time to do their hair, nails, face, etc.
Well, I'm a lazy one at that factor,
I prefer to go all natural without make ups all the time,
Unless there's a special occasion, I'll put a little bit on it,
But that's just it, no fake eye lashes, no mascara,
Just BB Cream, Eyeliner and lip gloss, and that's it.
Yea well, I'm that LAZY.

Wish I could be a bit dilligent and put some make up on sometimes,
I like it when people puts make up on my face, xp.
Haha, I don't like it when I do it myself.
It makes me feel like a doll. =)

But I hate the idea of the make up on my face,
It's annoying because I can't touch my face,
Sometimes it's itchy and I can't scratch it, well that's just annoying. xp

Anyway, enough with my rambling,
At the end of the day, after you stripped off all the make ups,
The person who will say you're beautiful when you had a bad hair day,
Is the person that sees the true you as beautiful,
Not the masquerade you put on for everyone to see.

Ahh, inspired. Gonna write a poem now. Chao!

XOXO, Jane

Quarrel or no quarrel.
It makes me sad.
I really cannot understand,
Why is it always the people we love the most cannot appreciate us?
Or understand us?
Why is it that I don't want any trouble and yet she still throw tantrums at me?
I really don't understand what I did wrong?
When I really didn't do anything at all?
Even by doing Nothing is Wrong.

I really think I'm gonna develop heart attack,
Even though I try to ignore, try to act as if she's invisible when she's mad,
Still, the dog bites when you don't kacau her,
What the hell man?
This is what happens when you pamper someone too much,
When you give her everything she ask for,
The moment you don't,
She bites like a dog.

I really think I'll grow old faster with all the crying,
I don't wanna shout,
But there are times when  you need to when the other person is stepping on top of your head,
Just because she thinks she can get everything she wants by putting that play,
So annoying, so childish,
I'm not even her mum,
For goodness sake.

For the moment, I'll just have to calm myself down before I lose my mind, again.
Just ignore her, for goodness sake.

在家里，真的没有我开口的时候，
没有地位说什么，
连小的都不让我，大的更不会让我。

别人总是觉得我静静不出声所以好欺负，
我只是不想说这么多把事情变得难堪。

一个是家人，一个是情人，
我也不懂要怎样，
觉得打抱不平也不能说什么，
这次我真的觉得我家人不会做人，
爸妈教我的教育自己却不记得。

凡事客人为优先，
为什么好像只有我懂这个道理？
我知道他们懂，为什么就不能记得这个道理，
真的让我很难为情。

为什么别人家的家人对我好过自己家的家人？><"
我知道他们关心我，在乎我，
可是有时候他们却不那么对我，
我就这么没有用，不能说什么？
我也想去说他们的不对，
可是还是没勇气。

Haiz.习惯了，什么都不由得我说。><"

I don't know if I've changed, or I was never the Good girl people expect me to be,
I was always doing things with cautious,
Always afraid of doing the wrong thing,
Now I'm starting to doubt myself,
Did I change? Or I was never the me before?
The me that tried to satisfy other people unconsciously?
Even while I tried to disregard their comments?

Recently I'm doing things I never thought I would,
Things that I dislike and think it's no good,
But recently that's what I'm doing,
And I'm thinking if it's really no good?
I'm starting to wonder what harm it may bring?
Eventhough I'm well aware of it.

I don't know if I haven't unleash the inner me or am I just trying to find my way into the crowd?
But I think I'm old enough to know I'm not a teenager that is controlled by lust or desire.
I wonder, if what I'm doing is acceptable even to myself? 

Regards, Jane.

So boring...
Baru Holiday 1 week ad nothing to do...
OMG...Actually I have lots I can do,
I can watch the series, read the novels, but somehow I find myself rather lazy even doing those stuff.><"
It makes me sleepy...zzz.
Now I feel sleepy

Holidays during weekdays:
Eat, Watch TV, Online, Sleep.

Holidays during weekends:
Yamcha, chit chat, go out

Sien...
Friends all go overseas ad, one at Poland, Romania, Taiwan, Australia...
Y me still in M'sia ar?
Zzzz...
What to do what to do.
Who can teman me? Lol...
Hmm...writing nonsense here.hehe...

Okay, bye bye.

As if we're her place of throwing tantrums,
Terrible dao si,
Reaching 17, and knowing wth is wrong with herself, and never changing,
I seriously don't know why some ppl are like that,
At least I see myself changing gradually,
But this, this is insane,
I don't see any changes, if got also degrading, OMG.

Seriouslylah, even if we say things you don't like to hear,
Sometimes you have to listen if what we say is not Right at all?
Has we said something that doesn't fit your reaction?
You demand respect from us, but have you respected us at all?
Shouting at us is not Respectful at all.
Grow up, you want us to treat you like an adult, act like one.

I really want to turn a blind eye,
Like my mother does,
But if we really don't care, we won't feel so KEKSIM,
And there's she making us keksim, n herself keksim, every single day,
Because she just couldn't control her own temper,
She can make a small issue become a big issue in an instance.
Wah lah~Everythg goes Boom!

Annoyed, we're the elder, and we have to give in to her wishes?
Pampered much, I really don't understand why teenagers these days treat their friends, outsiders, relatives better than their own family?
At least they don't shout at them. 

The Fed Up Sis.

And you wanna know why my best friend is a guy?
Girls are complicated, I admit it myself,
I'm complicated,
I don't like being friends with girls,
Because I know how they are.
No girls will really accompany you until the end,
If you have 10 girl friends,
Only 1 will stay in touch with you right till the end,
That's girl friends for you.

And they wanna know why I'm closer to guys,
Bcoz guys won't put up smiley faces and stab you at the back,
Bcoz guys won't calculate how much they sacrifice for you.
Well, it's not a matter of guys and girls anyway,
But most of the times,
The girls are a pain in the ass.
Eh well,
Sometimes I question myself,
Am I the one in the wrong?
I seriously don't know,
If I'm such a bad friend,
Please don't be my Friend,
I mean, seriously?

Those who are my friends will know how much they meant to me,
Even as I write this,
For my girl and guy friends,
You know who you are.

No matter how much I try to disguise myself,
Try to put on a masquerade and act as if I can survive on my own,
The fact is, I'm still so weak,
I still cry easily,
For no reason,
I cry when I feel lonely,
When I feel hungry,
Or when I feel angry,
Have you ever seen someone crying more than me?
Not that you have seen me cry ofcourse?
Well, I shall drown myself in my assignments for now,
The rest can come later.

Adios, Hasta Luego!

Human are negligent, if it's just a small thing, we can fix it.
But negligent in driving?
It costs lives.

I was in class, boring as usual,
Decide to watch the clip I downloaded a few days ago,
My sister ask me to watch it,
Yea I know, it's already yesterdays news.
It's really Saddening,
And horrifying,
For a Ferrari to crash into a taxi,
And they all ended up dead, or wounded.

I mean, what the hell is wrong with the one driving the Ferrari?!
If he want to go to hell,
Drive into the sea,
Instead he crashed into someone else,
And killed someone else too,
I'm sure he'll rot in hell,
It's really damn damn saddening,
Nobody should have their life taken away by some negligent driver.

And yea it serves him right,
But not the ones that he crashed into.

I can say no more, it makes me sick and sad,
For people in this world who takes life for granted,
If you don't wanna live, let others live.

Here's the clip, if you don't know what I'm talking about.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BhKaedPTtTg

Regards.

Finally, I feel like writing,
Because I'm emo-ing,
Went to watch Dark Shadows today,
Decent for Johnny's performance,
Every charming,
Well, been a follower since Edward Scissors-hand, haha.

Anyway, as soon as I came back room,
I feel damn damn down,
Very de sad,
Why?
Because I realize I have to be independent,
And I want to be,
So most of the times I don't want to ask people's help,
But it actually makes me sad that NOBODY really BOTHERS to offer a hand,
Or accompany when I need someone,
Feels lonely no?
When it seems nobody cares.

When I say I'm alone,
People will just say I have my bf,
Like, what the heck?
Can they not say "I'm here" instead,
As if my life revolves only around him,
Makes me piss,
So called friends,
Irritating,
Annoyed,
If I'm the problematic one,
You may leave me alone,
After all, I'm better off alone,
Since nobody cares,
Nobody bothers.

Sorry for those who cares about me, you do know I'm not saying you,
Sometimes I just need someone to be with me and there's NOBODY,
Nobody there...

P/S: Feel like writing a poetry now, maybe I will...later...

Yours truly, JANE.

Got an MC today,
What for?
Went and do a surgery,
Plucked out my wisdom tooth,
Lay there for one hour,
As the dentist drill my tooth,
Gosh, my face is swollen, sigh,
Can't open mouth big big,
I wonder how do I brush my teeth? Heh.

Anyway, wanna talk about some other stuff,
These days I'm just so dissapointed with some people,
Come the days when you realize it's easy to find someone to share your happiness,
But difficult to find someone to share your sadness.

I wonder,
So called True Friends,
And yet never really cared if I'm sad, or angry, or whatsoever,
So called True Friends,
Who gets frustrated with you, dissapointed in you,
And you, never get to do the same to them,
Is that True Friends?
Sick and tired of putting on a mask,
But I'm not them,
I ain't no B****，
Sometimes I wish I am,
I could do whatever I want,
Why do I even bother?
Seriously, Why?

Why do we concern about people who don't even give a damn about us?
Who finds us only when they feel like it,
Who doesn't exist when we need someone with us.

Don't tell me FOREVER,
I hate that WORD,
Only tell me that if you're gonna be there when I need you.

They say Love don't last forever,
Friendship will,
But I don't think so,
I think neither will,
It all depends on how you see it,
How you treat the other person,
If you can stand by them and support them,
Friendship or Love,
It will last, for Ever.
But if you don't,
You can forget about FOREVER.

Sign, Enaj

Thought I post something on this day, it's once in 4 years anyway.
I know I've been lacking from blogging these days.
That's because I'm always busy doing something else,
My life is pretty much pack and I don't even have time to emo anymore, heh.

What do I do all the time?
Well, if I can break it into 100% within a week, this is what I do.
30% go to class,
10% watch movie,
5% read novels,
10% work on my thesis,
5% work on my tutorials and assignments,
5% eat and bath and etc.
35% sleep.

So yea, technically, even when u c me online, I'm actually doing one of those stuff, hehe.

Anyway, I'm starting on my thesis even though it's suppose to start next semester,
But I'm starting now so that I have time to prepare it slow and steady,
I'm actually thinking of doing the movie "Talentime",
My favourite film from Yasmin,
My inspiration,
The movie still makes me cry,
Most people just don't appreciate it or find it boring,
But as a Literature student,
We can't afford to do so,
That is just not right to do so,
In my opinion la,
I may be biased as I like everything she directs and writes,
Even the commercials,
Bcoz it showcase a Malaysia that could be instead of the Malaysia fighting to win the Politics all the time,
It's sad isn't it,
I think so,
Well, the election is coming, anyhow,
Don't forget to cast your vote!
That's all for now!

Adios!

I know it's kinda late for my resolution, but here it is. I'll try to name 10 of them(2 ambitious I presume). xD

1. Do not buy Dress until the end of the year. (Bought 5 dresses for CNY alone.><")
2. Do not buy Books until the end of the year. (Bought lots of books enough to last me for a couple of years, or even more. xP)
3. Spend my money wisely (Gonna be broke every semester)
4. Take good care of my hp (While it's still alive and kicking)
5. Go less shopping (While I don't have money)
6. Smile more =)
7. Cry less. =P
8. Eat more. =D
9. Get FAT. XP
10. And lastly don't be such a lazy bump. xP

Haven't updated in awhile, thought I do so today.
Two more papers to go! And then I'm free!!!!!Yoohoo~

Anyway, recap of what I've been up to recently.
Hehe, got the RM200 book voucher.
RM50 use to pay off my debt to my sis, wahaha,
Good use of it, since I don't have cash. xD

The remaining RM150 use to buy 5 novels, 1 Book Wrapper, 5 pens, 1 eraser. Hee...
1 novel I bought for my elder sis, since she ask me to,
2 novels are crime thrillers, my favourite. xD
Another 2 novels is a different genre altogether,
Thought I try reading something different, instead of the usual.

Hmm, wot else is ther to say?
Can't remember. update later. hehe.

anyway, if you guys would love to read comic strips,
here's one, from someone I know, damn hilarious. =D

http://dontlikethatbro.blogspot.com/p/comic-strips.html