Change?

I don't know if I've changed, or I was never the Good girl people expect me to be,
I was always doing things with cautious,
Always afraid of doing the wrong thing,
Now I'm starting to doubt myself,
Did I change? Or I was never the me before?
The me that tried to satisfy other people unconsciously?
Even while I tried to disregard their comments?

Recently I'm doing things I never thought I would,
Things that I dislike and think it's no good,
But recently that's what I'm doing,
And I'm thinking if it's really no good?
I'm starting to wonder what harm it may bring?
Eventhough I'm well aware of it.

I don't know if I haven't unleash the inner me or am I just trying to find my way into the crowd?
But I think I'm old enough to know I'm not a teenager that is controlled by lust or desire.
I wonder, if what I'm doing is acceptable even to myself? 

Regards, Jane.