I dreamt the exact same dream,

I just forgot about it,

And when I woke up,

I realize it's the same damn dream,

What a nightmare it was. ><"

I don't know how it starts,

I do know how it ends,

First I was walking all by myself,

When I encounter an abandon building,

I was outside of the building,

Then I write something on stick it notes

And put it on the ground,

Then I heard someone coming,

So I ran into the building,

It's just a girl and a guy,

They quickly came to usher me out,

But I didn't manage to do so,

And I have no idea how,

I switch on the outside light,

And they quickly usher me inside,

Of another hall that is of the size of a church.

It was pitch black inside,

I can't see a hint of light,

Then the light is switch on,

As an old lady stand on the stage and deliver her speech,

The others are all in a hood,

I can't see their faces,

They all wore blacks,

I was wearing white,

But I just hang on to the girl beside me.

After that the old lady walked along the path in between,

And look at the followers,

I was so afraid she will notice me, the outsider,

But when she pass through me,

Nothing happen,

Instead she just look at me and look away,

But when it's finally over,

I went out and start running,

That's went a car in red drove pass me,

I realize it's the old lady,

So I tried to run to another direction,

Only to notice she turn her car back and follow me?!!

What the heck,

I just ran and try and hide myself in a corner,

Wishing she wouldn't find me,

Just then, I woke up. ><"...

With my heart beating fast.

It's so freaky, it's the 2nd time I dreamt about it,

I remember that I dreamt something like this sometime ago,

And it's about a deviant religion,

When they chant, no hint of light is allowed,

Not a single hint of light,

That explains the total darkness,

What I write here is nothing compared to the picture in my mind,

I can actually visualize the whole place,

A stage with art works,

The old lady that preach,

It all seems satanic to me.

People seriously should stop getting involved in all those cults and sorts. ><"

Time flies, and that's cliche.

Anyway, it's really another sem already,

Gosh, I can't believe it,

Even thou I feel bored at home,

Being here makes me emo again,

Been dripping tears since I'm back,

Maybe because I'm not well,

Maybe because I don't feel well.

Anyway, I'm fine, still standing.

I kinda lazy to talk about it, not in the mood to blog now,

Briefly we went to Times Square, Look Out Point, Back to UKM, n then they went to I-City.

Seriously mixed feelings,

I don't wanna come back here,

But it serve no purpose back home,

So yea,

Don't feel like writing for now,

That's all for the updates.

I learn about Non-Verbal Communication last sem,

Which included this topic: Body Language,

And if you've seen "Lie To Me",

Facial Expressions, Hand Gestures are examples of Body Language.

And I've been trying to find out more about it,

Some people are natural at detecting the Truth & Lies based on your body language.

So far I'm only good at detecting a person's emotion from their eyes,

Eyes do not tell lies, but it usually only works with people I care,

Perhaps because I tend to notice them,

And I just somehow got used to interpreting their emotions.

Did some research, and Smiles is another thing,

I'm sure everybody did at some time.

Yea well, another tell tale sign is that,

A genuine smile actually involves the movement of 17 muscles,

One of it being the eyes,

That's the reason why my eyes always close when I smile with my teeth,

That's real smile, reason why I always don't show my teeth when I smile,

Otherwise you can't see my eyes, haha.

Another thing I notice I do alot is hand gestures,

Whenever I "Don't know what to do",

You'll be sure to see me scratching my head,

Which I think most people do to,

Some people scratch their chin, ears, or whatsoever, you get my point,

When someone is uneasy, they'll move about,

They can't sit in the same position,

They keep switching,

It's really interesting actually,

If you can find out people's emotion based on their expressions,

But be warned that people who are good at differentiating the truth and lies,

Meaning too good,

Won't be good for their life instead,

Life without mystery is dull.

Anyway, that's all today,

You can tell a lot from body language,

Guys ought to learn some,

It'll help with your girl I'm sure,

Since most girls always say a different thing from what's on their mind,

If you can't read it, too bad for you. =P

Yoohoo~! S tiba2 ckp dia balik Melaka!

Balik je terus pergi MP~!

J yg drive, not me nia, hehe.

Wahaha, kat rumah terlalu sien,

Pergi jalan2 pun baik, hehe. =)

Went to MP 1st,

Jalan2~

Bought a shorts and a dress,

Hehe, shorts bcoz I've been wanting to buy another 1,

Asyik2 wear the same one, eventhou it's not much difference since it's black oso, keke,

Ok, I have a thing for black, and dark colours, =P

2nd, the dress is casual dress, oohlala~

Dun rly hev a dress that I can casually wear,

So that will do la, hehe,

My other dresses are not so casual, eventhou it's not formal,

But everytime I wear go shopping sure say me apsal wear so nice, swt.><"

Then I x pakai oso say me buy dress put in cupboard..o.O

Hee, 1 shorts down, 1 more to buy,

Not buying long pants,

Beli long pants pun beli Jeans je,

Or maybe if I happen 2 c a skinny jeans to my liking, hehe,

Otherwise sudahlah.

J & S bought the same dress, haha, ask me to buy same one,
But I x pakai that kind of dress, so x beli lor, whee~=P

Oh, oh, then went to DP, round2, xda benda pun, went to Old Town,
None of us was that hungry, just makan sikit 1st lor,
Then there's some local Chinese artists from NTV7, 8TV, at the stage promoting the CNY album,
Got one actor quite handsome de, hehe, saje kecoh sekejap dah cabut~

So yea, 2 more tops to buy~

1 pair of shoes~

1 bag~

Xda lagi kot,

Evrytime CNY tu la benda nak beli. =D

Neway, 4got to put the parking ticket lor,

None of us remember,

So kena saman lor,

So each of us keluar RM10 lor.lalala~

Aiyo, buy a pengajaran lor,

If nobody remind me I thk I oso will 4get. =P

Dah la drive at nite alwiz 4got to on the lights pun. =P

That's y I say I very forgetful, Hee...

Okay, I'll make things short. Hehe.

Just got my results!!! Wahaha, I am so HAPPY~!!!

Even thou it's not very good la ok?

Just so much much more than I expected,

Kinda expected I might fail a sub,

Nasib pass!!! Fuh!!!!

So okla, hehe...

But this time I nasib baik je.

Next sem kena work harder le!!

I keep on curi tulang, T.T..

Jia you!!

2nd is, I'm sure most of u know about the guy who commit suicide already,

After a 4 months affair, the girl decided to end it,

The guy couldn't take it he choose to end his life.

I wouldn't do that, I never will,

Sure I'll be sad, I'll cry my heart out,

But it's too selfish,

I rather hurt myself, than hurt anyone else,

If I kill myself, that means hurting everyone else.><"

So yea, nobody is worth u taking ur own life for,

But are worth risking ur life for,

There's a difference!!!

One thing for sure, u being heart broken is something,

U breaking everyone's else heart is another thing,

Cherish your life, cherish those who love you. That's all.

Do you know many people exist in this world?

Of the Millions of Billions of Zillions,

Everyday the amount just keep increasing and decreasing,

You can't even total it all up,

But one thing for sure,

It's true when they say you're One in a Million,

No two souls are alike anyway.

Anyway, I've been thinking,

While I'm sitting at home doing nothing,

Well, technically, I just rather stay at home other than hanging out with my friends and going out with my family,

So yea, for now, I'll enjoy my rest while I still have it.

Some people might say it's a waste of time,

I could be earning some extra money to spend instead,

The thing with me is,

I never did like working part time jobs,

Since it's part times,

I always do it just for the sake of doing it,

Pretty sure I make a bad employee,

If it's a full time job,

For sure it'll look bad on my resume,

Anyway, I can't change who I am,

But I do know I can change the way I act,

Just depends on my mood that is, heh.

Excuses, something I'm pretty good at coming up with.

You know how everybody has their own Comfort Zone?

Mine is being at home, where I'm well fed and well slept,

Other than that, it's being with my family, him and my friends,

I totally hate venturing out of my comfort zone,

There are times when I tried to do so,

It made me feel uneasy instead,

I just couldn't find the sense of belonging in certain cliques or groups.

I grew up in between two groups,

My English-speaking family, and my Chinese-speaking friends,

Language too can shape a person differently,

People might say I have the best of both world,

But there are so many times I'm caught in between,

I love reading English novels,

But there are so many times I find myself expressing better in Chinese.

It's a conflict in me that my personality is two-sided,

The English-Speaking Jane which loves watching English Series,

And the Chinese-Speaking Su Zhen which loves watching Chinese Movies,

I wonder, if I'll ever find a balance between the two,

As I stand still and stay within my comfort zone.

-lilrig-

You know, back in school we always wait for the holidays to come,

When we don't have to pile up the books and study for the exams,

Even when some of us stayed at home all the time,

It didn't really matter to me then,

But I have to admit,

I did nothing this holiday,

I just pick up a novel that's been at the shelf for a year now to read, 

And I have a bunch more waiting for me.

Life is easier when we are kids,

Kids can play with anything or nothing at all,

It's non-stop entertainment for them,

They find joy in the simplest thing,

But as we grow up,

All the simple things are taken for granted by us,

It's not enough mummy and daddy gives us what we want,

We always want more.

Well, kids do too,

Only difference is, it gives them such happiness it makes their parents happy too.

I don't like studying, text books make me feel sleepy,

I guess I get it from my mum,

She always feel sleepy whenever she reads,

But then, I shall use whatever time left to finish my novel,

So long, time for dinner. Chao~