Because she's little, I'm suppose to be the mature one,

Little like hell, she's 15 years old! God Damnit!!

Even I when I was 15 I do not throw a 5 years old tantrum!

What she wants she must get it,

It gets on my nerves,

I try to not burst,

It's just testing my patience,

Anything expensive is good to her,

Why is that so?

She believes that一分钱一分货，

Now I seriously hate that Chinese phrase!

So many Chinese phrases get misused in life alone.

Perm hair more expensive than my mum,

Eat Ice-cream must eat Baskin Robins[Which doesn't even have my fav Mint]...not really a fan of baskin robins, one time n blah, okok sahaja. Prefer to buy Walls anytime. ><"

Kasut entah berapa pasang, semua RM50++

Aku punya kasut semua Sales baru beli...her 2 pairs can buy my 3-4 pairs. Swt.

Ho mia eh ho mia.

I have no idea this is the number what post I'm writing about her,

Perhaps when I get older and lazy to quarrel with her I will stop feeling upset,

No tears today thou,

Just guh!

Everytime we have to give in to her,

Put up with whatever nonsense she gives us.

You wanna say it's because we pamper her whatsoever blah la,

Family is like that isn't it?

No matter what, no matter how much it upsets us,

We just can't stay mad for long,

And the tears we cry,

She don't even give a damn,

All she cares is what she wants and how she must get it,

When my mum cooks, she doesn't want to eat,

When we dapao noodles and sorts,

She insists she wants rice,

When we say her,

She says the rice at home not nice,

WTH?

Dah lah tu, someday when she lives alone outside, 

She'll know how nice home cook meals are,

She rather starve herself than eat what my mum cooks,

She can go whole day without eating them,

Rather eat those cookies, or cook mee or whatsoever,

Is she normal or what?

You tell me?

I really don't know.

She has temper,

We all have too,

But all the times we are the one that has to be patience with her and put up with her temper.

What the heck is so ignorant about being 15? She's not a stupid damn 5 years old for God sake!

While watching Drop Dead Diva today,

I thought of something,

You know the show is really something like Ugly Betty at its initial stage,

With all the life philosophies you can learn and something to think about.

Here's the thought of the day: Does size really do matter?

You know, you see thin people with thin people, the slim with the slim, and the fat mostly ends up with the fat.

The fat ones usually are the ones that are frowned upon,

Watching a real life show the other day,

A fat guy talks about his weight, and you know what?

To most people, it's always like, they should control what they eat,

They are fat because of what they eat.

It's not usually the case thou,

Most of the times, it's in their genes,

As for me, I'll say it's in my genes that I'm thin,

Seeing that my dad is still thin, and my mum used to be slim too,

I might as well grow fat some day, you never know?

So I really don't wanna laugh at fat people or anything, seriously.

The thing is, it's so difficult to change the society's perception,

And as the years drag on, their thoughts go into their children mind,

Which creates even more prejudices towards the more than average size,

You know when a thin person is with a fat person,

And people are like, what the heck are those two doing together?

That the thin deserves better, and things like that,

And I for one knows an average girl actually got together with a fat guy because he's rich,

So like what the heck?

We should always be with people we feel comfortable being together,

Otherwise it'll fall apart eventually if we couldn't accept ourselves,

Or they couldn't accept us, I guess that's the real issue here,

Even though I will love to think that size, height all those doesn't matter in love,

It does, I can't deny it, because we all have our own definition of beauty,

Fat is beauty too,

I guess we just can't force that thinking into everyone's mind,

Next time you have a child,

Try to change it and tell them that beauty is undefined,

Because it is.

Hereby say, don't think lesser of a fat person unless you get to know them,

I happen to know a few really great people,

That the thin people have no right to think lesser of them,

They're beautiful to me. =)

有人说我像个小孩子，

说我其实一点都不成熟，

我只是喜欢理智的思考每件事，

而有时候就是太过于的理智而没办法放松，

我知道，有很多事，

是强逼不来的，

也不能勉强。

我的头脑总是跟我的心作对，

从别人的过去吸取教训，

也不知道是好是坏，

因为人生因人而异，

有时候明明没事的，

反而因为他人的关系，

他人的影响，

而搞到自己胡思乱想，

谁能保证未来的一切？

没有一样东西是一定的，

生命也一样，

没必要因为别人而影响自己，

还是做好自己吧，

What I've been doing from the time I came home till now.

1st few days I was like out, and out, and out,

Mostly with my family and cousins,

Then I stayed at home and watch TV, eat, slp, PPS.

Haven't got the urge to read any novels yet,

I just realize I have a bunch of immortals n vampires lying around,

Currently not in the mood for those,

I need some thrillers. It thrills me. =p

As for them, I'll have to get myself to open the 1st chapter before I would even continue reading them,

Just in the mood for more shows now. Hehe.

What shows have I been watching? On PPS that is. Here goes the list according to my preference.

That's just what I like about it, it's so funny, there's laughter in every episodes. xD

And Usui, the guy is just kakoi, well, he look funny here, hehe.

Besides, Misaki is not your average "need help" girl, she helps other wherever she can.

Look at the poster and what do you see? A girl about size 2 goes to heaven and press the return button only to have her soul got into a size 12 body. The typical body switch drama? So not.

Because the fat girl here, named Jane, has gone to heaven, and the thin girl, who's name's Deb, got into her body and she has to live with it for the rest of her life. For Deb, she's a low IQ high EQ model,  for Jane, it's vise versa, and she's a lawyer, so having her soul in Jane's body, actually gave her Jane's mind, and now she has both High IQ and EQ. And this drama actually tells you that fat people too can be beautiful. =)..unlike the idiotic ugly betty that got so annoying by the end of the last season, damn, they has to spoil the show.><"

I actually like this as much as Triple D[Drop Dead Diva]..

Meet Bo, the lustrous Succubus that will suck your Chi out of you. It's a drama of all the folklore creatures in modern day, being unnoticed by human as they blend in. There's goblin, elf, vampires, werewolves, fairies and it even has a creature like U-Know-Who in it, haha. It's not Merlin or anything, but it's worth the watch.

Let's face it. No way will there ever be gender equality.

N why is that so? Because man and woman are two different species,

Guys have their traits that woman don't,

And vise versa,

I thought of something last night,

That everyone of us has something we can do that others couldn't,

It's the same damn thing.

Just like how guys are meant to do somethings,

And girls are meant to play a role in some others.

N well, self-reflect and I realize how unreasonable I am at times,

Well, consider this another fact,

That most girls, always get unreasonable at some point, lol.

What do I mean by that?

Hmm, so many times a girl could do the things she do,

But reverse the situation for a guy,

The guy shouldn't do such things they do,

Guh, I just couldn't help myself.><"

I don't think I even need to give an example for this,

Too many examples if I wanna state it,

As I keep reminding myself again and again,

Stop being such a "girl"...duh...

That's all, just had to write it out.

Damn, I kinda miss my short hair.

Haha, but I wouldn't cut it again thou, not now.=P

Neway, always wanted to get a pixie cut, but I don't think it suits me anyway.

Hence, I can only admire this pretty people's hair...hehe...

Somehow I think the law of attraction played a part in this,

I don't know how, I don't know why,

It just happens so.

There are just so many times when we least expect to see someone that we bump into them,

And the times when wow, I know your dad, damn, my mum knows your mum,

And huh, been to my place but I didn't know you then etc.

People who don't know each other might have met countless times without realizing,

When we do know each other it's simply coincidence that we do met.

Well, I don't know about elsewhere, it's probably because Melaka is such a small place,

I grew up frequently bumping into that someone yet never bumping into someone else,

It's like I have friends from primary till secondary,

But you never bump into all of them,

Most of the times, I bump into close friends of mine,

It's always the same person you know?

Gosh, I saw him there yesterday, damn, I saw him here today,

That kinda thing?

It's funny and strange, but I have this idea that two people weren't friends by chance,

It's like you have this "connection" to them,

As I'll like to put it as some sort of thread that ties to people,

Except this applies to the friends,

As for couples, the Japanese say it's the Red Thread.

This is just something I've accumulated over the years,

Heh, it happens to me on various occasion,

And vise versa, how so?

Well, there's this guy that had a crush on me,

He always seem to be at the place I goes to,

Except, here's the thing,

I never saw him, out of 10 times,

Perhaps there's 1 time I actually realize him,

And other times, he saw me,

How do I know? 

Because he told me so.

You see, I guess it works the other way too you know?

That when you don't wanna see that someone,

They won't even appear before you.

And there's another thing,

When you cut off all ties with someone,

You might actually never get the chance to ever meeting them again,

The thread has been cut, and then it's done,

Fate has its way, and it simply keeps both of you apart,

Even if two of you might work at the same place,

Or even stays nearby,

Seriously, I mean?

I think it's really not much, as I would like to put it,

I'll simply say it's coincidence.

这世界是不公平，是大家都该接受的事实。

如果说今生的我们是脱了上辈子的福，而今生所做的好事会让我们下辈子更好过，这个我相信。

可是这世界依然不公平。

如果因果现象能解释这世间所发生的一切那这个世界就算公平了。可是却没办法。

我相信不仅仅是那个因数。

有些人天生惹人爱，惹人疼，

有些人天生没貌却有才，

有些人天生有样却无脑，

有些人的人缘好却无情人，

那又是为什么呢？

这世界没有完美的人，

接近完美的是他们前世修来的福，

美丽的定义也看你本人，

幸福快乐也看你的心态，

太多的一切却不懂得珍惜，

失去了一切才懂得享受，

不管什么，不管怎样，

都有好有坏，

平衡到来，

也是一样的结果。

结论就是，在不公平的世界里做最好的自己。

-lilrig-

Syok yer~~~~~~~~~!!!!

Lalala~!!!!

Hehe, so happy, kaka..xD

Belum balik dah ada org panggil go yamcha..

Masa on the way,

Fren call me thought I'm in melaka liao,

Duno y she call me, later ask her, hehe,

Then juz now another wanted 2 ask me yamcha,

But went out wif my family,

So didn't go out with them lor~

Tomorrow night go yamcha with Sha po~!

Sunday nite oso goin out ba, hehe...

Weekdays can take n watch  my shows lor, hehe...

Esok kalo free nak pi potong rambut la..

So long ad, guh, so messy..><"

Oh yea, wot I did today...

8.40am....woke up, pack some stuff.

9.05am...go n take my bath.

9.30am...continue packing my stuff.

10.07am...Jie jie cum pik me, she go c her lecturer 1st, ask me wait in d car 4 her.

10.50am...Baru abis jumpa her lecturer...><", then bak college get my stuff.

11.35am...Kat Bukit Jalil nearby apartment. Need fetch her bf Erico go KLIA.

11.55am...Baru get bak 2 the car, lol...

12.48pm...Reach KLIA. Erico went n chek in dis dat...

1.22pm...Went at eat lunch at the food court. Mahal giler..ada staff discount still mahal.. A 20% discounted Bandung cost RM3.60. WTH?
2.05pm...dah makan abis, time to cabut...

3.50pm...reach Melaka!! Home sweet home..^^

4.00pm..unpack my stuff n evrythg. Start clearing... that stupid pig, talk to her refuse 2 answer me, evrytime mood x baik org tanya apa2 xmau jawab, geram betul...Her own stuff wait for her to clear the sky oso will fall down...seriously, kek sim u tau apa? U try talk 2 her c u kek sim not kek sim?

That's y it's not that we don't want to advice her or anythg, she makes us so kek sim n pek cek u get it? It juz makes me upset more than anythg. ><"

6.00pm...rearrange her stuff took me 2 hours?!! WTH...wasn't even my stuff.. imagine that, then ppl say her x suka, she simply reply dun clear la, din ask me 2 clear pun, wth, it's my room oso, dia bleh tahan, i xleh tahan, cekik darah ckp sama dia tau?

6.15pm... hungry, eat some mum cooked mee, and a red bean pao~nice..hehe...

7.50pm...mum say go eat Pizza, mane tau masuk kreta, si budak ckp xmau, nak Bei Zhan. But 2day friday, for sure byk org, so evrybody say dunwan, then say go AMIGO je. Ok..set...hehe...

Makan Chicken Cordon Bleu n Peppermint Shake!! I like d peppermint shake~!! Wan eat mint ice-cream`!!! Go n buy..hehe...=P

10.05pm...sampai rumah lor..hehe...=D...then fb...hehe, now blog, later PPS? =P

Today, I'm gonna talk about my two sisters. My elder sister is older than me by 4 years. The little pig is younger than me by 5 years. Hence the age gap among each of us. My elder sister treats us like little girls. My younger sister acts as though she's an adult. It's so complicated. I don't usually go a day without quarreling with the little one, but ever since I entered uni, the friction just decrease significantly, sometimes you just had to get away and grow up.

Anyhow, I'll talk about the tigress first, to us she's really like a big sister figure, that you can't really treat her like your friend, perhaps it's due to the age gap, and perhaps because she's english-ed instead of me and the pig which is chinese-ed. My parents are english-ed as well, only me and my sis can write chinese. Mum & sis can speak but couldn't write. Dad can't speak neither can he write.

When I thought of my little sis, I thought of how my elder sis thought about me & my friends. She seems to have a biased thought on the typical Chinese people. The reason she asked me to join Aiesec in the 1st place is that I mix around with English-speaking people. She seems to have this idea in her head that Chinese-speaking people have some sort of pattern and not willing to advance themselves and refuse to speak English, and some sort of prejudice judgment she has towards Chinese-ed people, always picking on their mentality. ><", forgetting that I myself is Chinese-ed. I'm not that good in my English. It's only that I've been exposed and brought up in an English-speaking family since I'm young. If you notice, I speak broken English, I even write grammatically error English which I'm constantly trying to improve.

But here's the case with my little sis, I see my friends in her, even though my girl friends when they are young most of them didn't know how to think and dressing up like "Ah Lians", how things has changed ever since. The very same people has turn out to be rather stylish these days. But the thing is this, I didn't get influence by them, because I wasn't like anybody else, I realized that a long time ago, and I'm fine being the way I am, my little sis on the other hand, has all these crazy ideas in her mind, that my family & I just couldn't get her to understand. At the age of a teenager, she's by far worst than my sis and me when we were at our teenage phase, I'm stating it rather seriously, and it's not only her actually, even my cousins about her age. 

Teenagers and kids her generation and to come is getting worse, I have no idea what reason is it. I'm not talking about their studies or anything, I'm picking on their mentality. They can't wait to grow up, they're depressed, their addicted to the stupid box call the computer, spending approx half a day in front of it, 12 hours that is, they cannot be told, they must get what they want, I just keep an eye close, I have no idea what do I do when I know the things I know, if I could, I would have send them to a teenager psychologist. Or is it just a phase? How do we close a blind eye when we see someone in our family being unreasonable and radical?

Even to the extreme of cutting herself?! Don't worry, I'm not talking about my sis, rather someone else, sigh, what do we do with these teenagers? Anyway, that's all for now, gotta run! Chao. Catch u later.

Semalam pun beli byk benda, nasi lemak, mee siam, ang ku kuih, dis kuih dat kuih, kek bahulu, dah lupa wot else, lol.

1. Nasi Lemak

2. Keropok Lekor

3. Murtabak

4. Roti John

5. Tau Fu Fah

6. Raddish Cake+Pumpkin Cake

7. Yi Jia Kui

That's all ba, itu pun dia buat bising say I buy so many, hehe, say I kat situ x cukup makan come bak makan puas2, lol, not I eat all pun ler, share wif my lil sis ler..><"

I wher can eat so much, makan sikit dah kenyang, nanti sambung makan. Hehe..xD

我最近不懂做什么，

一时一时眼泪又往下掉了，

又没有什么伤心事，

也没什么烦人的事，

我不知道自己在发什么神经，

觉得很不舒服，

是那样才导致眼泪，

还是精神上失调导致我现在的状况。

想读书，却有心无力，

看了一小时都不懂在看什么？

五十分我开始担心连一半都拿不到，

明天继续加油，

要睡却睡不着，

还想早点起来温习，

都不懂几点才睡得着。