:Undecided:

I got my results yesterday, didn't hit my target, but was what I've expected it to be. I don't expect much of anything I do. Then I wouldn't be hit by major disappointment, hence preventing me from striving hard too. In some ways I'm just laid back and couldn't care less. In others, perhaps I'm just lazy and slack. So yea. Here's what running through my mind now.

I'm still undecided what do I do now. Was planning to take english course, but surely we need to have alternatives. So my sis was saying why not take mass com, hmm, thought of that before. But I'm afraid the chances of taking that course is slimmer than english. What the heck, I'll try my luck. I always let fate decides.

Always been that way, always will be. I just state my pick and c wher it brgs me, or see wher it stops me. I don't really care less? I cried last nite. I hate thinking of these stuff. I hate it a lot. It isn't my dream, it's others dream on me. I don't really know my own dreams. ><"

I hate the idea of having to leave the place I'm so used to. I hate the idea of having to be on my own, especially some other place where it isn't Melaka. I hate it a lot. I'm afraid. I'm scared to the max. I don't even dare thinking of it. Time and time again the same thing crosses my mind. Will I survive being on myself?? I don't even dare to think about it.=.=

But now, just a few months to go. And I'll be decided even if I do not decide. So what do I do now? If only I could "Leave out all the rest" like Linkin Park. But I can't. There's a time when we have to grow up. When we have to come back from our Dreamland and face Reality. And now's the time. The time to decide what do I want to do with my life. A stepping stone to cross the bridge that is a mile stone across. Well then, until I decided. This will be it. Let fate decides what happens next. =)

PS: I pick the choices, fate will decide.