原来，我真的是个胆小鬼。不敢诚实的面对自己，欺骗别人，也欺骗自己。 累，每天这样觉得。不够睡？也许吧。应该早睡早起。我却迟睡早起。每天无神色的去做工。同事看了我也是同一句。脸色苍白。发现到我早上醒来的样子真是不行。有够糟糕的。 一个人微笑时是最美的。可是我却爱哭。是个爱哭鬼。我也好想微笑。因为快乐的人自然显得漂亮～！ 所以，我每天在提醒自己，记得笑。哭过就好了。不需要压抑自己，更不需要假装坚强。我想，保护我的那道墙。不知何时会消失呢？
I got my results yesterday, didn't hit my target, but was what I've expected it to be. I don't expect much of anything I do. Then I wouldn't be hit by major disappointment, hence preventing me from striving hard too. In some ways I'm just laid back and couldn't care less. In others, perhaps I'm just lazy and slack. So yea. Here's what running through my mind now. I'm still undecided what do I do now. Was planning to take english course, but surely we need to have alternatives. So my sis was saying
The most commonly asked questions for the ones that are single. What kind of guy/girl do you fall for?What do you see in a guy/girl?What type of guy/girl attracts you? The fact is that, everyone will offer you different set of answers. And most of the times, when they are no longer single. Their partner will not be the one they described it to be. It just happens so. 1st off. What kind of guy? Well, I have no ANSWER to that myself. But if you look at the ones I fell for in the past. Mayb
话说，友谊每七年就要更新一次，看来也是真的。距离，是一端难以跨越的线。担心，却不知该做什么来拉进。 跟他们越来越疏远了。到我，开始真正的感觉一个人。也许，这是自然界的现象。或许，大家都变了。 新年的期间，都跟几班朋友出去，走走，拜年。当中，感觉到，中学的那班，已经不再像以往了。再也回不到过去。他们都长大了，个交了新的朋友。连我弟，也不需要我了吧。又想起了那首歌。 傻瓜，我们都一样。。。相信付出会有代价，代价只是一句。。。傻瓜。。。看来，我真的是个傻瓜。今天朋友玩真心话大冒险。每次到我，就问我关于男生的问题。问我，不会看上怎样的男生。我说，比我矮的。我知道，自己不应该那样。我也相信爱情是无条件的。 有人说，改天，我一定跟一个比我矮的。谁知道？也许呢。还问我，是不敢爱，还是不想爱。这个，我也不懂要怎么回答。也许是想，却不敢。或者是敢，却不想？寂寞，是一定会的。但又有谁，知道我心里的深处呢？ 说回友谊，之前没那么好的，现在反而比较close了，我反而觉得，那一班还比我弟他们有心，也许I hold on too much to them,是时候放手了，像我弟，也懂事了。Maybe it's time
Today: Haha, been playing cards 4 the past 3 days, slpt at 3 laz nite, our stakes not say very high oso, min rm1, which is wot most ppl play, but, ek ek, laz nite ada menang sikit, hari ni kalah quite wot I won laz nite...zzz...geram, sebab play black jack sampai boring ad, so switch 2 in between, laz round my cousin sapu habis rm20 on the table, so dangerous man, but damn "qi kek"...haha, I wanna play sumore ler, but all goin bak 2nite, T.T...kena pi cari kaki lain ni.... Ohya, u noe we kids[which
It's CNY, pluz V-Day, which the latter doesn't rly mean anythg 2 me, juz another day 2 go by, sure means a lot 2 my sis bf thou, haha, valentine boy+cny boy 2day, hmm, I'm tired, still haven recover from my flu, took lots of panadol ad, my mum went out 2 try n get sum flu meds yesterday, but semua pharmacy n clinic sudah close..><"...so hari ni byk jia lat, zzz, now ok a bit d la, hse got a couple flu med sumore. Neway, whenever I'm sick, I dun like ppl 2 bug me, well, nobody does rite? Ok
生病还没好呢，通常睡一觉就好了，可是我又睡不着。朋友，是个加减乘除的东西。所谓的加，是每一天在认识的朋友。而减，就是Hi Bye Friends，对于这种朋友，不需要感到遗憾还是可惜，因为只要相遇过，认识过，相处过，就是一种缘分。乘，你会发现，我们会从朋友那里认识到他们的朋友，所以数到来，也等于在数乘法表。除，没有你的心的朋友，把你当作过路的朋友，那我们也没必要去想起，或是记起。因为我们的心是有限的，把那些无谓的人开除，就有空间了。=) 写到好像这么悲观吧？没有啦，因为如果不这么做，不开心的也是自己。最近好忙哦！一直出去，还一直花钱。我快要宣布破产了。。。呵呵。。。 最近，也思考了许多，一直在反省自己，反正，我也不知道该写什么了，就这样吧。生病的人总是有点失魂。就让我一个人静一静吧，累了，要睡了。 这是我堂哥的狗，King Charles, his name is Charles. Lol... So cute rite???!!! But I dare not hug him, like a baby neh neh...Kawaii des ka neh~!!!>&
Argh, it's so tiring man, standing the whole day, I thought I'll survive, oni one day n argh, no wonder my sis cabut after 2 days, haha. Seriously, that's y I nvr applied 4 promoter job, neway, went 2 d old JJ n work 2day, do sampling, juz ganti my fren, coz she had another job on her hand, she mmg byk kerja punya, laz nite she told me today oni, mane tau 2day she tell me 2 days, zz, okla, since ad work one day, work another day lo, bsides, gud pay wot, RM140 for 2 days, juz enuf 2 cover 4 the thgs
What are we vying for? What am I vying for? Feel like dropping everything. Breaking down aga
Yay, finally done with the cookies, eh, u noe? I don't eat the kuihs I help to make, but oven fresh yea, haha, damn nice, other than that, I juz dun eat it, such as pineapple tarts, n the cookies my aunt was making. Well, it's so tiring while I'm at work, funny thg is I still hev the energy 2 help my aunt after that. My grandma helped my aunt as well. N my aunt keep saying she can't sit still, she don't rly wan my grandma 2 help so much, bcoz it's very hot in the kitchen, but my grandma wouldn't
