Another:Day

Rly had yet another exhausting day...sigh...feel like CRAP right now...Woke up in the morn, had my breakfast, watch drama on my com, then went 2 my aunt's hse 2 help her with her cookies...made kuih Dahlia, hehe, she let us brg bak 2 boxes, me n my sis fav...I went bak early, coz nid 2 go out wif my frenz, act walk bak home while it's sunny in the sky, so hot n I can't open the umbrella, cause the wind too strong..swt...not that it's very far, but still...further than my skul...lol...n I dread evrytime I had 2 walk bak from skul, lol...budak malas cam ni la...


Neway, I juz realize my temper is getting from Bad to Worse...I seriously can't control how I feel inside even if I don't show it outside, which most of the times u'll get a sour face from me, which is much better than I get all sarcastic n start being cynical 2wards u...Yea, that is when I'm rly pissed off...


For one thg, I'm starting 2 bcum like my dad, I dun like 2 be disturbed when I'm doing sth, or working on sth, it rly gets on my nerves when I'm bz-ing n ppl cum n bugs me, I dun rly hev a good temper, not these days anyway, contrary 2 popular belief, I juz hide it well, they thk I juz dun mind, I DO...every person has their own limit, it's juz not ez 2 get 2 my limit, n when u reach my limit, I'll juz break down n cry n b angry at myself instead of anyone else, that's d kind of person I am, d one that gets the blame, n the one that blames herself 4 evrythg she might never did...lol...


Here's another thg, I do not like to WAIT for ppl, even thou I'm pretty much used 2 the Malaysian time, but it still pisses me off, not to say one or two time, but evry single time?? I like 2 be on time, 5 or 10 mins late still fine, but more than half hour? It seriously changes my mood every single time...I'm such a hypocrite I know, they thk I'm all so GOOD n CALM n all. Well, honestly, I'm NOT...I juz don't show it, cause for one thg, it's enuf I get myself upset, no nid 2 make evryone else upset bcoz of me...


Whatever it is, don't PUSH it, I hate it when ppl does that, I'm not ur puppet, u can't FORCE me 2 do sth I do not want, get it? I live by my own rules n only mine, I changes the RULES all the time, but it's up to me to DECIDE, it's my life, I decide how it shud be...not u, not anyone else...


PS: I Love You. J