+The Diary Of Jane...

+Honestly, I don't really know where to start, and whether I should type this post in English or Chinese, perhaps for fear that I'll let the cat out of the bag. But, I doubt that, and it's my blog anyway, my little diary.

Disclaimer: The following is how I feel, and has nothing to do with my opinion regarding anyone.

First of all, I was pretty disappointed when I got back home yesterday, until this very day, I honestly still have no idea what the girls are thinking, and where is their heart? Somehow I couldn't feel their sincerity in it. Still, I know of a couple who are true, and real, the friends I'll cherish as long as I live.

Well, girls are a really tough subject to understand, so I don't really blame the guys, and me being a girl, is even more incomprehensible. But, first things first, what I wanted to say is that, the fact that why can't we all just get along? Why can't we just stick together at least for now? Perhaps they do not realize, that right now, we could get together as 10, but next year it'll probably cut down to half, and the year after, one by one will stop contacting each other, it's so happens that way. I know, cause I've been through that phase with my previous friends.

And all they need was just to show they care, some reasons to believe we are all friends, yet, I can't tell how some of their words just stabs me like a knife. I thought we were all friends, I guess I might not be so right, if I can treat everyone of my friends equally, why can't they? Sure, there are some which are my best friends, whom I know will be there for me whenever I need them, and friends I know, that even if we were to be apart, time is no distance to our friendship, for we are already embedded in each others heart.

If you still don't understand anything I've typed up till now, I'll simplify everything with an example. I don't really wanna go sing karaoke already. Just seems like every time I do, I see the true colours of some. Even when we are in a room, they're still segregated, it seems that the rest doesn't matter as long as they are with the ones they deemed as "friends". The atmosphere, I just couldn't stand it anymore. Every time, I'll just take a walk alone to get some fresh air. And also the reason why I prefer to walk on my own when I goes shopping. If we weren't going the same path, why bother in the 1st place?

I remember the time when I went with the guys, with me the only girl, due to the fact that the rest fly me an aeroplane again, for those that don't know,the phase means they "mungkir janji", I don't know a better word, so sorry for that, and back to the point. Honestly, the atmosphere with the guys is totally different, you see, the thing with guys is that, they don't think too much, perhaps there are some friends whom they deemed as best, but the rest, friends are friends, they don't favor one over the other. It's that simple, the theory is only that "We are all friends".[This is of my personal view regarding the guy friends I know, for those that disagree, I'm so sorry that they weren't the same for yours]

They could sing along together, all they want, whether or not it's the song they've picked, it doesn't matter, or they could sing in turn, just waiting patiently while looking at the one singing. I'm really tired with all the little things, 1 Malaysia is not easy to achieve, given the fact that even friends couldn't really stick together. "Bersatu kita teguh, bercerai kita roboh". So true indeed.

P.S.: I rather be the one that gives and never gets anything back, than the one that gets everything yet never gives anything back.

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Location:Sibaraku


+Me & Yee Kim...


+Me & Vynel...


+Me taking their picture...


+Me with the girls...

+For those that saves a place for me in your heart, thank you...

"Life is worth not for the ones that disregard you, but for the ones that regard you as worth."