Haha. Call me crazy, who cares~!!! I'm actually loving it. I mean, the crazy part of me. At least that's when the fury and grief doesn't hit on me.

Neway, I'm feeling better today. Juz once in awhile I get hit by the blues~Haha...y'all know us girls. So insensibly irrationally emotional. Hehe. So yea. Nothing much to say. But perhaps I ought to explain myself. Here goes.

I realize that when you remain silent. It's actually more worrying than when you're not. You'll realize this when you put yourself in another's shoes. That when I'm angry, or crying. Atleast you know that I'm upset. But when I'm not speaking, no emotions written on my face. That's when you'll be afraid. Coz that's how I'll feel if sum1 else is like that instead.

It's like you stop feeling. You start to feel numb. Your heart cold.

And right now. I rly kek sim. T.T...I rly can't help it. It's rly eating my heart. How can someone be so terribly rude and no manners?? How can she be so ruthless for the feelings of others? It makes my head crack, I feel like bursting. Yet all I can do is simply cry it all out until the tears stop. I wonder. If her soul could ever be saved? I wonder too, if mine will survive in the end.

Bukan gua yg nak cari pasal. But y d heck muz she make evrythg so simple be so complicated? Evrythg so nice and sound be so awful and nasty? Why must she be the grey clouds in my blue sky?

It hurts like hell. But she knows nothing like hell. I am of no concern of her. It doesn't even matter how I feel. My tears don't mean a thing to her. I don't even want to get mad at her anymore. Coz it's rly pointless. It's useless. I just wanna give up on her and not hoping that she would change anytime soon. I can't stop my tears from falling. She can shout and get mad at me for all she want. If I'm one crazy b*tch. She's one idiot b*tch that I don't even want to give a damn about anymore.

So wot if she's terribly an idiot? So wot if she wants 2 be such a person wif such terrible personality. [And now I wonder, if I'm just the same.] I don't even know why I bother. Don't even know why I even take to heart the thgs she says when what she says is pointless.

Let the tears flow. I'll be alrite.

Okay, since I'm calm down ad. Let's talk 3D today.

Went to watch Clash of Titans 3D on Sat. Went to watch How To Train Your Dragon 3D just now. So here. I'll talk about the previous one 1st.

Clash of Titans
Story: Rly an epic. Worth watching no doubt.
3D Effects: The same as Alice, no FEEL at all. Lol. Post-production 3D shows. Not worth watching in 3D.
Graphics: Amazing. It's like a world of its own. Except it's rly surrealistic.
Characters: Beauty and Brains. Haha...
Note: Most suitable for those who luv the greeks and their mitoses. If you're one who prefers chinese movie, you might find it hard to comprehend. And if you're no fan of them, you might as well skip it. I personally luv the greek mitos. Keep thking of The Lightning Thief thou. Since ther's 1 demi-god ther 2. Pluz Zeus and Hades. Eh well, they are those infamous characters afterall.

How To Train Your Dragon
Story: One of the best animations I've seen.
3D Effects: Much2 better than Alice & Titans. Some scenes you actually feel you're in it. Especially the water flowing, as thou it's flowing towards you. Hehe. Thou not that much of those scenes. Still~. Heh well, probably my last 3D movie for now until the next genuine 3D movie comes along.
Graphics: Damn amazing colours and movement. Definitely the best animation for the year.
Characters: Luv the dude and the lady. They r so cute 2gether~!! Oh yea, not to 4get, toothless is so CUTE~!! Haha.. cute dragon. Hmm.
Note: Suitable for all AGES. You'll love it. Love it love it love it~Yiyea~
PS: I Love You. J

Thought there'll be something I wanna write about. But it seems my heart and brain is like a blank sheet of paper now. Nothing left for me to say.

Seriously find myself DIFFICULT to stay in control when the little brat in my house pisses me off. Crap. Wonder what's with all the rats and pigs, what's wrong with their GENERATION?? 

Have you any idea how to talk some SENSE to someone who has no COMMON SENSE?? Everytime I "tegur" her, she either IGNORE me or SHOUT back at me, it's so irritating yet it just makes me BLOW up everytime she does STUPID things!! Argh, rly can drive me CRAZY~!!!

It rly gets on my nerves. I need a BREAK, from her. I just don't get it. Don't get her at all. No wonder he maths sux. That's what I told her. Y do you want to create a lose-lose situation when you could have create a win-win situation? In the end, I boh song, she boh song, dua2 sakit hati, kan CEKIK DARAH?? Ish. 

Neway, u might ask me the same q, the thg is, it's nt about winning of losing 2 me!!! I'm trying 2 get her to understand that she rly needs to fix that ACT BIG but THINK SMALL attitude!! She's not only the way she is with me but evryone else and even my mum!! And I can't even scold her KURANG AJAR bcoz it wud make me the same!! I'm frust frust frust. I cannot call her NUTZ bcoz we share the same blood. So wth can I rly do to make that girl come to her senses??

My guess is. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING unless she SNAPS herself out of it. Like my mum said, u noe her attitude mmg like that, talk 2 her oso no point. So wot 4 make sendiri susah hati rite? Here's the thg, bcoz like my mum wud say me, it's for my own good, most of the times. And when we say her, it's oso for her own GOOD!! But she does not get it!!

For a person who uses the computers 12 hours a day, will it be wrong for me to say that she's addicted to that STUPID BOX?? Seriously, she doesn't blv me, n nobody takes me serious anyway. ><"...n do you have any idea that in CHINA they ACTUALLY throw these kinda kids into a REHAB??? SERIOUSLY...=.=

Here's something I googled:
In spite of the variety of activities that can be considered addictive, people who engage in them tend to have certain attitudes and types of behavior in common. An addiction is generally associated with relieving anxiety or blocking out other types of uncomfortable feelings. To a greater or lesser extent, people engaged in addictive behavior tend to plan their lives around it; in extreme cases they will do almost anything to obtain the substance or engage in the behavior. The addiction makes them neglect other areas of their lives. They are commonly secretive about it, either out of shame or to protect their access to a substance. When confronted, they generally deny that they have a problem, although privately they regret their addictive behavior, which in many cases they have tried without success to discontinue. They tend to rationalize engaging in the behavior and tell themselves they can stop whenever they want. They may also blame others for their addiction and often experience frequent and uncontrollable mood swings.

U c? However remorse she may feel. She cannot actually fix it, bcoz they are alwiz in denial. Sigh. Pardon me. I have no idea what else can I do except to be patience, and hope that in times she actually grows up instead of get even more IMMATURE!!! Yikez~!

And I know I wrote a similar post 2 this in the previous. The problem juz got worse. Heck. If only the psychology girl in my hse noe how 2 cure her. [Which as she said, it's not in her field of studies, not her expertise]...[You'll need to find a child psychologist/psychologist for this one]...lol...

PS: I Love You.[Despite all the times I Hate You] J