Just got back from PD. Well, nth much 2 talk about that, except I had a rather gratifying dinner. =)

All this makan makan, x minum minum is gonna make my stomach very Senak man.

Btw, I've just decided. Ought to 改口.
There are times when the words I speak really doesn't sound nice.
At all. E.g. I replaced "Shoot" for "Shit".

It's easier to replace words than to get rid of a word. Seriously.
There are three words that I should really stop mentioning.
1st two will be Stupid & Idiot. 
You know I hate my sis calling me that, but over time I t'jangkit from her, and I start saying her back whenever she says me.
Making it a habit, that the two words dun seem to be much of a big deal anymore.

But I understand that it makes other people t'singgung if I say them like that,
So hmm, I shud seriously quit saying it,
But since I'll be away from that lil girl soon, mayb I could.

Another word that I tend to use is really Offensive[Given that I refer it to a person, not that I ever did]
Is "Sial". I never said anyone sial.
I just tend to use that word, as in sial betul, etc.
But it really isn't a nice word to say.
Especially when I'm a girl. Lol.

Oh yea, I already miss Melaka.
Haha, I just thought of some things I will surely miss.
You wanna know what's number 1 on my list?
1. Fruits.
Yep, nanti pergi sana mane ada fruits giv me eat?
Sob sob, me An Apple A Day punya org nia.
Hari2 fridge got fruits one you know. Sigh~

That is so not gonna help with my indigestion.

Well, number 2 to 10 I'll tell you after I go there. Kaka...but most likely will be Qikely. =P

Slept at 2am last night, woke up at 7am this morning.
My mum woke me up, ask me go to the clinic.
Siang2 x ckp, zzz, so sleepy.
She went to check entah apa la, me go and do body check up for uni de.
Went to Poliklinik Ayer Keroh.

Go early in the morning not much people,
Was there for 2 and a half hour,
Membosankan, nasib ada bawa my buku,
My novel, my constant companion,
I find it a very good item to keep unnecessary convo away.
Haha. Unless ofcoz ur like my mum, pergi klinik pun nampak org yg dia kenal.

I tell u ar, she rly hor, go evrywhere sure got ppl she noe one,
And when it comes to relatives, it's always my granduncle's daughter's son sth dot dot.
I tell u her family tree hor, she can relate 3 generations, and I always huh? What and what? Confusing.
I don't know what 2nd cousin la, 3rd auntie la. Mostly just my dad and mum's closest that's it.
Other than that, let's just save it. Both my father and mum's side ad about 100 ad. Lol.
Not to mention all those 2nd relatives.

Neway, even if ppl she duno,
She sit down oni dah start ckp.
That's y I say, y dun she juz go do amway,
Kenal so many auntie auntie wot,
Hehe. My house dun buy amway's thg anway,
Cosway adalah. That oso few items je la.

Semalam mane gua pergi eh?
Pi tgk The Karate Kid.

Eek, forgot to buy sth 4 sum1 again.
Gosh, it's always like that, I remember I forgot sth, juz cudn't remember wot izit...><"
Cum bak baru ingat...aikz..
Dah la, next time keluar baru pi beli...

Ah, wher did I go? Went to MP DP lor..
Jie2 mau pi...
Wot did I bought?

List:
Eye Mo          : RM  6
Nail Polish      : RM  6
Tooth Brush   : RM  4
Ice Cream      : RM  5
Watch            : RM30
San Shu Gong: RM  9
Total amount spent: RM80...@.@

Wah, didn't realize that...well, at least I got my watch...hee, still nid 2 get another watch thou. Y?
Bcoz the one I bought too formal oleli...clash wif all my casual wear...lol...

1 more week to go: Left RM20 to spent...><...wanna go watch movie nia...2 movies...cukup je...><"...

Hmm, or wait June baru pi la...wednesday cheaper..haha...xD

Went to makan Sushi King lagi...coz Jie Jie wan eat...2day x order sushi...I eat sushi sampai sien ad...haha...xD...
So order nasi makan...piri2 chicken~
Heh, so full...
Hmm, feel like slping, it's a nice weather, okla...watch my show kejap then wan go nap le...hehe...

Fren ajak me keluar malam nanti pergi yamcha. For sum reason I dun rly feel like going...evrytime go out wif that group I dun even noe wot 2 say anymore. 2 much gossips involved...><"

Laz nite lagi cham, eventhou I dun mind goin out wif that group, my primary skul frenz...due 2 sum reason, my heart wasn't at the table, which rly sux, when they say sth n laugh I juz play along, even thou I wasn't rly feeling that way...oh gosh...y oh y...I am such a...sigh~

Hehe, so funny, what's so funny? Well, watching Down With Love on TV, eventhou I've already downloaded it all, that is by the request of my jie jie, she luv that show.

I oni luv the certain characters. Jerry Yan & Ella is really funny, haha. My sis says Jerry's one of the few guys she thinks is handsome for taiwanese.

Haha, well, the rest she say handsome is the one she watch before, 桃花小妹, that show rly byk handsem de...kaka...xD

Ella can rly act younger than her character. And I rather watch her than Rainie anytime, stil duno y guys like watching that kind of CUTE girl. Lol. Me luv Jerry the most too out of the four F4 guys~Muahaha...

Went to Aeon again today, accompany my sis. And go get sth the lil pig apparently didn't buy yesterday. That I hev 2 use my own money..geram.><". Suak, bo pian le.

Hmm, wanna go watch the Kidnapper & Robin Hood. Waiting 4 green light...sien~

My stomach still dun feel well...N 4 those who sms me but I didn't reply, sorry about that. Not in the mood 2 sms.

Take care.

Haha. Call me crazy, who cares~!!! I'm actually loving it. I mean, the crazy part of me. At least that's when the fury and grief doesn't hit on me.

Neway, I'm feeling better today. Juz once in awhile I get hit by the blues~Haha...y'all know us girls. So insensibly irrationally emotional. Hehe. So yea. Nothing much to say. But perhaps I ought to explain myself. Here goes.

I realize that when you remain silent. It's actually more worrying than when you're not. You'll realize this when you put yourself in another's shoes. That when I'm angry, or crying. Atleast you know that I'm upset. But when I'm not speaking, no emotions written on my face. That's when you'll be afraid. Coz that's how I'll feel if sum1 else is like that instead.

It's like you stop feeling. You start to feel numb. Your heart cold.

And right now. I rly kek sim. T.T...I rly can't help it. It's rly eating my heart. How can someone be so terribly rude and no manners?? How can she be so ruthless for the feelings of others? It makes my head crack, I feel like bursting. Yet all I can do is simply cry it all out until the tears stop. I wonder. If her soul could ever be saved? I wonder too, if mine will survive in the end.

Bukan gua yg nak cari pasal. But y d heck muz she make evrythg so simple be so complicated? Evrythg so nice and sound be so awful and nasty? Why must she be the grey clouds in my blue sky?

It hurts like hell. But she knows nothing like hell. I am of no concern of her. It doesn't even matter how I feel. My tears don't mean a thing to her. I don't even want to get mad at her anymore. Coz it's rly pointless. It's useless. I just wanna give up on her and not hoping that she would change anytime soon. I can't stop my tears from falling. She can shout and get mad at me for all she want. If I'm one crazy b*tch. She's one idiot b*tch that I don't even want to give a damn about anymore.

So wot if she's terribly an idiot? So wot if she wants 2 be such a person wif such terrible personality. [And now I wonder, if I'm just the same.] I don't even know why I bother. Don't even know why I even take to heart the thgs she says when what she says is pointless.

Let the tears flow. I'll be alrite.

Okay, since I'm calm down ad. Let's talk 3D today.

Went to watch Clash of Titans 3D on Sat. Went to watch How To Train Your Dragon 3D just now. So here. I'll talk about the previous one 1st.

Clash of Titans
Story: Rly an epic. Worth watching no doubt.
3D Effects: The same as Alice, no FEEL at all. Lol. Post-production 3D shows. Not worth watching in 3D.
Graphics: Amazing. It's like a world of its own. Except it's rly surrealistic.
Characters: Beauty and Brains. Haha...
Note: Most suitable for those who luv the greeks and their mitoses. If you're one who prefers chinese movie, you might find it hard to comprehend. And if you're no fan of them, you might as well skip it. I personally luv the greek mitos. Keep thking of The Lightning Thief thou. Since ther's 1 demi-god ther 2. Pluz Zeus and Hades. Eh well, they are those infamous characters afterall.

How To Train Your Dragon
Story: One of the best animations I've seen.
3D Effects: Much2 better than Alice & Titans. Some scenes you actually feel you're in it. Especially the water flowing, as thou it's flowing towards you. Hehe. Thou not that much of those scenes. Still~. Heh well, probably my last 3D movie for now until the next genuine 3D movie comes along.
Graphics: Damn amazing colours and movement. Definitely the best animation for the year.
Characters: Luv the dude and the lady. They r so cute 2gether~!! Oh yea, not to 4get, toothless is so CUTE~!! Haha.. cute dragon. Hmm.
Note: Suitable for all AGES. You'll love it. Love it love it love it~Yiyea~
PS: I Love You. J

Thought there'll be something I wanna write about. But it seems my heart and brain is like a blank sheet of paper now. Nothing left for me to say.

PS: I Love You. J

It's CNY, pluz V-Day, which the latter doesn't rly mean anythg 2 me, juz another day 2 go by, sure means a lot 2 my sis bf thou, haha, valentine boy+cny boy 2day, hmm, I'm tired, still haven recover from my flu, took lots of panadol ad, my mum went out 2 try n get sum flu meds yesterday, but semua pharmacy n clinic sudah close..><"...so hari ni byk jia lat, zzz, now ok a bit d la, hse got a couple flu med sumore.

Neway, whenever I'm sick, I dun like ppl 2 bug me, well, nobody does rite? Ok then, u all noe my driving sux rite? If I got the guts, n the skills to drive properly, I dun mind fetching ppl, but I don't, even now, I still mati enjin. That's y I dare not fetch ppl, not say I dunwan 2 fetch. 

Sadly, most of my "girl" frenz, no offence yea? Can drive, drive very good oso. BUT cannot fetch ppl...byk alasan one, one is PETROL, another is DISTANCE, lagi is MALAS. I say I pay 4 ur petrol sudah. ><"...seriously, I dun like 2 trouble others 2 pik me, but nt that I hev a choice yea? I can oni drive SHORT distance, I noe, I pun byk alasan, sebab gua takut, so I dun rly hev the right 2 complain about them.

But then? My guy frenz can pik me as long as I ask them[even thou I prefer not 2, coz I dun like 2 trouble them all the time 2], but the girls...hyez, sudahlah, I malas nak panggil...no wonder there's oni "Ahmad" as in male drivers, but not female drivers. Don't recall seeing any on the street that is. I'm in a sick mode, if ur offended by wot I'm writing here. Sorry.

Neway, regarding the post title, well, I took the cam n use, then I lost it. Alamak, n then I dun recall taking it or losing it. Then my sis oso dun recall the pouch wif the cam or not...find find find whole day x dpt cari. Up n Down, Low n High, sigh. Can't even remember, since morning x jumpa, then when we got bak from visiting in the evening, my cousin found it, then my sis niao me, she say the pouch is at my uncle's car. Then baru gua ingat, while I was taking pix, I left it infront of the car. Nasib kat situ bukan lain tempat, coz he drove the car go else where tadi...zzz...nasib x hilang, yao bu ran habis gua kena niao...kena scold lagi, say I alwiz like that, alwiz absent minded, hyez. I oso duno how not 2 be absent minded. Memory SUX...

Okla, that's all 4 now, slept at 3am+ laz nite, was watching a movie by Heath Ledger. Casanova. Hehe, heard of the movie, x sangka got show!! Hehe, so hepi~! Y so late ar? Coz it's 12.30am movie. Lol.

Damn, I love it, the costumes, the fighting scenes, the romance, the place!!! Venice, oh gosh...watching the movie, I'm nt sure if it's the character itself or Heath's acting skill. Like his character, I rly thk he cud easily make girls fall 4 him, 2 charming indeed...so it seems, it rly is a pity that he died young, may he r.i.p...

Casanova is a 2005 American romantic film directed by Lasse Hallström starring Heath Ledger loosely based on the life of Giacomo Casanova and described by a tagline as "A partially true story about lies told, virtue lost and love found." -Wiki


PS: I Love You. J

Argh, it's so tiring man, standing the whole day, I thought I'll survive, oni one day n argh, no wonder my sis cabut after 2 days, haha. Seriously, that's y I nvr applied 4 promoter job, neway, went 2 d old JJ n work 2day, do sampling, juz ganti my fren, coz she had another job on her hand, she mmg byk kerja punya, laz nite she told me today oni, mane tau 2day she tell me 2 days, zz, okla, since ad work one day, work another day lo, bsides, gud pay wot, RM140 for 2 days, juz enuf 2 cover 4 the thgs I spent on 2day, wakaka...

Been aiming 4 a jeans from Giordano eventhou I already had 5 jeans...=P...n I did say I dunwan 2 buy jeans anymore, but I dunhev skinny jeans, n it fits me, nt so tight oso[I dun like leg hugging jeans], kinda loose act?? Yea, I'm dat thin...kaka, ask my fren buy 4 me, she use staff discount, 30% off, otherwise I sure won't buy...keke...when it cums 2 getting benefits, my muka very tebal one, I'll try 2 find whoever can get discount 4 me, lol...I'm a "bad" girl...

So 2day spent RM140 lor...coz I bought Bio-Oil sumore, 4 my scar lor...bought eh...ling ling lang lang lor..hehe, dunwan tell. Neway, money is tight man, zzz...use it 2 pay my hutang liao neh....so left less than half oni..wu wu...T.T...so sad, sigh, kena tahan lagi satu hari lor, then satu lagi minggu, then yay..!!! 1 WEEK HOLIDAY!!! YAHOO~!!! Hooray hooray!!! Woo lala...4 that one week holiday, I shall persevere...zzz...><"..yatta!!

Oh oh, I 4got 2 mention, went 2 watch Tiger Woo Hoo laz nite, I shall say, it's a show u definitely shud watch, but I thk it means more 2 watch it wif ur family...=)...so geli hati sial...support M'sian production yea?

Oops, another thg, I juz realize that there are people with good intentions, but the way they interpret or speak out their thoughts, might not be right, and may come off as cocky n offensive. N I remember how "piss off" I look, coz I saw sum1 that look juz like that...man it rly pisses ppl off, I shall keep up my smiley face...=D..hee, lol, well, I dun like 2 speak much, got 2 noe a friendly girl 2day, another promoter bside my stand, she say I seem quiet, haha, I get that way around strangers no? Yea, anyhow, I muz remember 2 smile...coz I realize that I either make ppl smile by my smile, or make ppl piss by my piss off look...lol...ofcoz the smile one is better?

PS: I Love You. J

Sad...sad...so sad...drop my phone, on the tile floor....but the impact is damn teruk, knock on another thg, now can't access my menu ad...die die die...trying 2 reformat my hp here...sigh, u noe I can't slp whenever my little qikely get into comatose state, I'm worried sick, sigh sigh sigh, so sorry little qikely, it's all my fault...again n again n again I slip u from my hand...T.T...emo emo emo...hyez...hope she'll be alrite...

Neway, since I can't slp, might as well write sth now. Well, I juz thought about it, went out with the guys again, go yamcha, coz the girls all can't make it, juz me n 4 guys. Honestly, nt juz thought about it, I've alwiz thk that way. Maybe that's y I rly couldn't accept other guys easily. It seems I keep comparing them to my guy frenz. It's strange I know, I don't love any of my guy frenz, I like all of them. There's this particular group that I alwiz hang out wif. Which includes my lil bro. Whenever I'm with them, I feel safe n sound. It's like they wouldn't judge me, so I rly dun hev 2 be cautious in front of them instead of anyone else. I feel comfortable n at ease instead of when I'm wif some others.

Especially the guys I had crushes on in the past. Somehow instead of making me feel safe and protected, I feel the other way round. They make me feel insecure and mediocre in compare to them. Love isn't suppose to be that way. So I could say that I've never truly loved at all. Not that kinda love atleast...

Neway, wrote the one above laz nite, wasn't able 2 pose it then, well, went to temple this morning, sent my little qikely to repair...T.T..I miss her already, then 12pm-9pm at my aunt house help her make kuih, juz came bak, bath, now blogging lor...yea...I don't know wot I'm feeling now? Tired? Probably, kinda numb, hmm, wth, mayb now I'll get some peace for my mind. That's wot my fren said laz nite, said good la, no one will kacau u ad, then I say him...the problem is I can't kacau ppl leh!! Say he very suka lor, less one ppl kacau him, lol...

Here's the Q for today: Can you choose the one you love? Given the choice, I'll pick any of my guy frenz 2 love, wot's not to love? They're the few guys that do not exploit a girl's feeling n thk love as a game. They're nth like that. But it's not for me to decide. As they say, love will come to you. Besides ur family n frenz. True Love seeks more. Instead of knowing who the other person is. I may love all of my frenz, but it's not that kinda Love.

Yesterday's Q: Why is it that we can do ANYTHING for the ones we Care & Love, but NOTHING for the ones that Care & Love us? For example, a guy u like, evrythg he says, u'll keep in mind. But the ones that has always been ther 4 us, our parents, our friends, y can't we listen 2 them instead? Last nite, a fren of mine said I'm rly "Ti Ki"...my mum alwiz say that 2 my sis, it means stuborn in hokkien. My stomach isn't getting any better. I know it's indigestion+gastric. But I wouldn't take care of it properly. I'm doin myself no good. I know. Somehow, just not in the mood to pay attention to that anymore. 

N u noe wot? I love my part time job more than my full time job, lol. That is helping my aunt with her cookies. I don't rly feel tired, but act it's very tiring, my aunt does it the whole day. Wonder how she did it. Which btw,  working in a kindergarten, is so not a place for me, coz I myself, am still a little girl. The little girl who refuses to grow up, but soon she'll face the real world. N soon, she'll hev 2 fall down n get bak up on her own. Because by that time, no one else will be around to Save her.

PS: I Love You. J

In case you haven't notice, I've been writing in English ever since the start of the year.. well, technically, I use my sis com, n she uses mine, due 2 benefit purposes, I nid 2 use her com 2 watch drama, my com de colour too dark, lol...n well, she need mine for the chinese, which is what her com do not have! I can't even read chinese here, it'll all turn out 2 be little square boxes for each character, sigh, neway, anyone that's suppose 2 c this, I hope they do. Coz I hate to repeat myself, n even more, being DIRECT 2 them. 


Okay, went to work as usual today, after work went to my aunt's hse 2 help her with the cookies, my aunt says me byk kuasa, can kerja OT lagi, haha...well, since she asked go over n help lor, she's short of workers, even thou I can oni help xtra 2 hours, but one day 2 hours better than nth la. Neway, my grandma was ther, while they were talking, my grandma mention about my sis bf, she just said "Chao"...which means bro-in-law, haha, then my aunt juz say her...:"Belum apa lagi dah chao chao apa?"...haha...She answer my aunt: "Xpa, dah nak dah, x lama lagi"...dun rly remember, juz writing out wot she means...then my grandma say: "Dak Jane pun ada "Kawan" kan?"...meaning bf ler..lol...n then I juz answer: "Xdela, sibuk je..."...haha...Grandma: "Mane xda, mak slalu nampak"...referring 2 my guy frenz...Me: "I say, ala, kawan je..."...Grandma: "Yala, start2 mmg la kawan..."...well, neway, u get it dun u? Haha, she alwiz ask me de same q, I alwiz answer it differently, bfor this I answer bfor, "Xmau la, laki x leh pakai..."...[no offence guys, JK...=P]...haha...eh well, u noe wot she answer: "Yala heh, skrg byk org jahat, kena hati2..."...=P


K then, honestly, this is for you. Juz realize how much I miss u, evryday counting the days, it's not even two weeks. 13th January, lol...stupid guy. Yea, padan kena gua marah, budak bodoh...blek...juz realize I rly can't find anyone 2 tell evrythg but u, since u already noe a lot, coz I rly dun wanna tell wot's bugging my mind all over again. N recently, I juz dun wanna care anymore. I don't rly wanna giv a damn, guys will alwiz be guys, n I had enuf[of them]. Gonna stop being a NICE & GOOD girl, coz I'm nt rly all that Nice & Good. I juz appears to be, dun be dceived will ya? Juz realize wot I'm capable of, that it kinda scares me. N I hate myself for being that way. It's frustrating, n my mood isn't getting any better. The ones that I hope will accompany me doesn't do so. Instead the ones that I would rather not layan keep finding me for company!!! Argh, stupid stupid stupid...can I have a break already??? Sigh...


Neway, enuf wif that, here's another thg, like it's not enuf I'm working 12 hours a day now, will rly appreciate it if ppl DO NOT FIND ME when I'm bz, I HATE IT alot...that is unless I find u...otherwise, I guess u can juz try ur luck, by nt making me piss at u at that MOMENT, alrite? Duh, I'm rly tired, rly no mood 2 do wot others wan me 2 do, I juz wanna do wot I wanna do. I don't even have enuf time anymore. So I'll appreciate a time of my own. Juz a couple of hours r suffice. Sigh. Ought 2 brg the "Still Thoughts" to work n read it. Mayb then I'll calm down a lil...ever since I start work I juz kept losing my patience. So no offence if I get piss at u 4 no reason. Juz nt being composed, will adapt 2 it asap.


K then, time for a break, time for my drama. Lol..

PS: I Love You.

Skipped work today, called in sick, but don't think I'm taking mc, so unpaid leave lor. Sigh, potong satu hari punyer gaji. I don't know what it is, couldn't identify the pain when I woke up, my waist just hurts so much standing up I had 2 lay down. Slept n then wake up n then slept, until 12pm, it doesn't hurt now. Keep thinking about work. I don't wanna make it a habit like the days when I was in skul. I know the pain is just momentarily, it always is. But still it hurts as much. Even the doctors couldn't help, what's to say the meds. I don't rly noe what else 2 do, except I feel so guilty for skipping work. I ought 2 tahan. Afterall, it happens a lot n I can't keep staying home. Hope it's no biggie. ^^

PS: I Love You. J

+Gonna revamp my blog!!! Getting bored with the simplicity already...haha..n when is that?? Hopefully 121209...haha...if I can manage..^^