Live it Right

Life is about making Something out of Nothing at all. If you're able to do that, you're able to do Everything.

Painted Life

Life is like a flower, painted to perfection, yet at the end it wilts, fragile as it is, only the stem left unbroken.

Fallen Leaves

Like the autumn leaves, we fall at times, only to find ourselves blown away by the wind, and thus we reach yet another place.

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By Sicreci

Self-Identity

Went to watch "Abduction" yesterday.
Not bad for a not so expected movie,
I mean, besides Taylor Lautner, you don't really know the rest of the casts.
And we only know him because he's the werewolf in Twilight,
Anyway, it's a little cliche, but a while different kind of movie,
Interesting in a way that makes you enroll together in the ride to escape,
Get away from all the bad guys,
Find out your true identity,
And well, it's a thrill of a ride.

Honestly, there are times when I feel like he does,
That I'm a "stranger in my own life",
I don't know why,
But sometimes I feel like I'm standing outside looking at what I'm doing,
Isn't it strange?
Or do we feel that way sometimes?
I feel like I'm out of my physic, and my soul is separated from me,
I really can't quite explain how that feels,
Just feels like the soul out of the body,
If you get what I mean.
Eh well, so long for now.

Regards, Jane.

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By Sicreci

Money Matter

Money spent so far: [RM400 Max]

Personal:
1. Bag: RM66
2. Dress: RM28
3. Lingerie: RM37+RM26: RM63
4. Online: RM87
=RM244

Others:
1. Mum: RM70
2. Dad: RM24
=RM94

Total: RM338
=Left RM62 to spend.><"

This month sure over budget.sigh.

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By Sicreci

Plain Jane

今天休息，却睡到8.30am就自然醒了，我们人的生理闹钟还真厉害，每次去做工，闹钟才要响我就已经起来了。

吃东西，上上网，又买一件衣，就十点半了，then go bank update sis bank book n help mum bank in check, she always ask me follow, so that she don't have to find parking, after that go pos office, want to use pos laju, but no envelope, situ pun x jual, ><", so go family store, end up buy this buy that, all barang makan, mum buy sayur all that, I buy rubbish. :P...n bread la. hee...

Somebody's parcel arrived today, mum make noise, never mind, I buy something online, that somebody make noise at me pulak. ><"....swt, sendiri byk baju mcm apa ckp org, aku guna aku punya gaji pun xleh. @.@

But since she mention, I guess I shud recount my clothes. Let's check.

T-Shirts:
6 Pink-4
1 Yellow-1
1 Polka-1
3 Black-1
1 Green
2 Blue
2 White-2
=16 T's, but only 7 can use to class, because some cartoony, some v-shape, some broad shoulders. hee...so...enuf wif t's...xmau beli t's liao...aiming for something else. Just bored with being the Plain Old Jane, xleh ka?

Shorts:
1 Jeans
1 Brown
2 Blacks
2 Blue-2
1 Red
=5 shorts, 2 can't wear ad, hev more actually, the rest gave my sis ad. hee...bcoz either 2 small, 2 tight, or colour fade liao, she happens 2 like wearing tie-dye shorts. lol.

Tops:
1 Black
1 Pink
1 White
1 Maroon
1 Flora
=5 only, hmm, hehe, wan get sumore pretty tops.:P

Dress:
[Slightly Formal]
1 Sea Green
1 Purple
1 Black Flora
1 Silver
1 White
=5, hehe, that will do for now. =)

[Casual]
1 Pink
1 Polka
1 Grey
1 Jeans
=4, maybe I can use another one.=P

Trousers:
2 Black Formal[Exam]
2 Black Jeans[Class]
2 Blue Jeans[Class]
1 Straight Cut
1 Skinny Jeans
=I have more than enough jeans, just like I only like the two I usually use, because that 2 is the ones that fits me perfectly, the rest is a tid bit big, but ad s size..><"... i hev a very small waist.

Okla, kepala pening ad, saje check aku ada apa baju, hee. dat's all..tata.

Regards, Jane.

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By Sicreci

Work?

Hmm, going to work tomorrow, I wonder,
Can I survive working for 3 months there?
Hmm, always think too much about something,
When I actually do it,
It's not that difficult also,
Just a habit that is hard to get rid,
Keep thinking until I could not sleep well at night, haiz.

Sign, Enaj.

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Hair|Cut

So long didn't cut my hair le, not gonna cut short anytime soon anyway,
Wanna keep long long then cut straight straight~
Hehe, neway, look like a little girl again, lol..
Sometimes I wonder how old do I act like,
My mentality doesn't seem to fit my character, swt.
I think I act like a little girl most of the times. =P

-lilrig-

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By Sicreci

It:Starts:From:Me

Dear Diary,

The sky is shadowy, looks like it's gonna rain.
My mind is like an empty sheet of paper,
With words scattered around without order,
I try to put it all together,
Write it down here.

I despise myself some days,
I just wanted out,
Don't want anyone to come near me,
Don't want anyone to bug me,
I wish I could just tell them "Silence!",
Even when they did nothing wrong,
After all, if there's anything they did,
Is that they cared for me.

Those words just keep repeating it my mind,
"Shudup!", "Go away!", "Whatever!", "Blah blah blah~", "As if I care!". Etc.
I just want to be left alone,
I hate to be told what I thought isn't right,
Even when there's no right or wrong in my dictionary,
The universe is simply full of multiple choices.

I don't know enough to insist anything is True,
I simply say it is for that's what I Believe,
I don't know enough to say that's not true,
I simply feel that way because that's what I thought.

There are just so many Possibilities that I can choose from,
I can choose to be nice, or I can choose to ignore,It all starts from me, it starts from within.

And as the Grey clouds go away, there's always the Rainbow to watch out for.

Like Stefan said...We choose our own Path, our Values and our Actions, they Define who we are.

And yet I find myself opting to be the "Couldn't be bothered" girl, instead of "Brighten up your day" girl. I tell my sis that if you want people to treat you with Respect, you ought to treat people with Respect first. But here I am unheeded to my own advice. As I say, it's easy to give advice, not easy to practice it on your own. Words. Easier said than done.

A Greeting made a difference. A Smile made a difference. Some of the days when I was in school, I go to school reminding myself to Smile and Greet. A simple Good Morning is all it takes to lift a Smile on another's face. One second of Happiness, that's all you need to boost some Energy.

Whenever I'm High, people tend to tease me that I must have forgotten my Medicines. I don't mind that, it's the only time I felt in Cloud Nine without feeling Guilty about it. Call me Crazy of anything. That's when the Sad Emotions don't get to me. Even just for a Second, a Minute, or an Hour[Well, it usually doesn't last that long]

Quote: I don't try Hard to be Happy, because Happiness isn't attained through Pretense. I only try to Feel Happy, by being Grateful of Everything that's Happening in my life.

PS: If I'm being Unkind to you. Please leave me alone and let me feel Remorse for my own Actions. I'm still not cut out to be the Goody Good Girl. Pardon me for that. Adios mi Amigo. Have a nice day! Yoi Ichinichi o!

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By Sicreci

:搞不懂自己:

没有人会喜欢对自己不负责任的人吧？
突然想到那句，究竟是要对自己付什么责任呢？

我刚跟网友说：
All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.
All play and no work makes Jane a lazy girl.

好吃懒做真的会让人跟外面的世界脱离呢。
不懂要怎样才能打起精神来，
一天过一天的，
越来越靠近我害怕的日子。

本来还想写一篇诗的，
却写了两段就不懂得如何继续了。
还是说说我要写什么好了？

女人就像花瓶一样，
再美的花瓶，如果里面没有鲜花，
就没能展现出它的用途。
再美的花瓶，如果里面插着枯掉了的花，
那么放着也不让人多看一眼。
而普通的花瓶，单单插着一支玫瑰，
就能呈现出如此耀眼的一幕。

你，明白我在说什么吗？
严格来说，再美的女人，没有了内涵，
就等于A Beauty without Brain, or insights,
而再漂亮的女人，如果内心不存好意，
也等于一颗不会发光的星星，
而再普通又平凡的女人，
只要有战斗力，意志力，
就会一直往前冲，
设定了自己的目标，
认真的去完成每件事，
那种女人真的会让人看了留下深刻的影响，
那种女人让人欣赏，让人崇拜，
只可惜，我不是那种女人。

我不是别人眼里的小美眉，而是别人眼里的小妹妹，
我不是别人眼里的女强人，而是别人眼里的小女生，
我不是别人眼里的开心果，而是别人眼里的苦瓜脸，
我不是别人眼里的心上人，而是别人眼里的知心人。

我不是很多人会喜欢的人，
也不是一个善解人意的人，
我只是在大街上走着的人，
不会让人留下深刻的印象，
也不会有人想再多看一眼，
就是那么平凡又普通的人，
一个快到二十岁的成年人，
却是不起眼的在一旁观看，
真心朋友在身旁是有几个，
却没几个真正懂得我心思，
因为连我自己也搞不懂我。

真的是太空闲所以想多了吧？
十九年了，我从小到大，做什么事都敷衍了事，没认真的拼过，也没真正的战斗过。
我也很好奇自己是怎么过日子的。
小学时不用怎么努力成绩也算不错。
初中时只要努力一点点就会如我所愿。
高中时不但不努力而选择了放弃，搞不懂习题就离它远去。
中六时想重新再来，却又失去了意志，没能勇往直前，又一次向后往退。

我就是那个一次又一次放弃的人，
却是不懂得气馁的人，这么说是自相矛盾吧？
也许是我的优点也是我的缺点吧，
我很容易放弃，很容易丢下手上的工作就不做，
我却不会对人生气馁，因为我知道不管发生什么事，
我想继续活下去。
被狗追就会拼命地跑，拼命地逃，
跌倒了，还是会学会自己站起来，继续走。

刚也跟我朋友说：Life is short, but not that SHORT.
人生再怎么苦短也好，比起担心明天如何，是否还在不在，
不如活在当下，珍惜今天，只要还活着就有希望。
就像那句台词，希望在人间。

我朋友也说，人会在被逼的情况下长大，
我再怎么不喜欢，再怎么抗拒，
该发生的，会发生的总是会发生，
时间不会为我而倒流，更不会为我而停留，
Go Go Fighting!!

我再怎么简单的一个人，
I can still make a difference given the chance,
只要我还活着。　

PS: Even if I don't think of myself. Even if I'm alone. There are still people I love, and people who loves me as well.

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By Sicreci

Make:Up

Ok...went to help my fren yesterday. Be her guinea pig. Haha..ok..be her real life model for her to practice on. Like a canvas except I'm a human? Yea well, she's learning Make-up at the moment. Since I hev the time, went along n let her do her thg. It took about 2 hours and 40 minutes I thk 2 complete my whole FACE...yea. No kidding. Now I know it's rly ain't as easy as it seems. Usually I juz spend bout wot 5 minutes? Then I'm done. Okay, maybe more. Still.=P..

As I sit ther, letting her draw on me. I realize how much patience is needed 4 u 2 actually decorate urself. Except I'm so not a x-mas tree. Lol. Neway, Fuh~Those girls that make-up everyday rly is sth. I feel like I'm wearing a mask when she's done. Seems so fragile and delicate too that I'm so afraid to touch any part of my face. Thking it may just come off.

Her box of make-up is like the ones you usually see those make-up artist carrying. From foundations to lip gloss. The base and the wotsoever. Lots n lots of it, which 2 sum it all out, if 1 were 2 buy the whole thg, probably could cost above RM500. That oso nt so good brand. Mayb 1k? For all the good brands? Yikes. That's y I don't rly spent much on Make-up even thou I do buy sum of the stuff. But I dun rly use much of it. Hehe. Only on SPECIAL occasions.

It made me felt like a Barbie Doll for once. Which is far from who I'll ever be. But it was fun. Sitting ther n seeing my own face changes. Haha. Eventhou when I got bak home my sis say I look like a ghost. Lol. wth. I dun mind being treated like a doll actually. Haha. As in well, u noe? To be decorated wif. Clothes make-ups. Hehe. But that's juz once in awhile. Kinda makes me feel cute. I'm nt saying I am. I mean the feeling. =P

Eh well. You can find the rest of the pix at FB when I feel like revealing it. Hehe...here's one.

PS: When you feel Pretty, you feel Happy...=)

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By Sicreci

+Nee again...=)

+The further the distance, the more distant it seems, so why look back at d past? When clarity is right ahead...=)

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought
+Ought 2 do sth wif my hair, I wonder, wot shud I do wif it? Cut it shorter or leave it juz that, or alter it, hmm, still trying 2 figure it out...hehe...
2. How much cash do you have on you?
+rm100 that I nid 2 settle my bill wif, I'm broke!! I nid a job, lol...but I can't, so study aje la...sigh~
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR?"
+Lol?=P
4. Favorite planet?
+Hmm, earth la?
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
+dun hev 1,2,3,4 one la, he lor...was slping that day...lol..
6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
+Prisoner of Love~I'm a prisoner of love, prisoner of love~
7. What shirt are you wearing?
+Rite now wearing pj lor, if normal days padini ones la, heh...
8. Do you "label" yourself?
+No, labels r 4 stupid ppl, we are all unique in our own way la, thou I can't deny it makes us differentiate those ppl easier, geeks, goths, well, y is that so? Bcoz they all look d same la...>.<" 9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?
+Vincci, hehe, heels, I dun wear shoes, eh...
10. Bright or Dark Room?
+Bright ofcoz, dark is freaky eh...
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
+She's a rly unique girl, n friendly one 2, a true fren indeed...^^
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
+Doin wot I'm doin now.lol,answering her tag...haha...
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
+Laz ar? which is consider laz leh? bfor I c this q, or after I c dis q? Haha, anyway, juz a fren saying he's drinking tea...lol
15. Where is your nearest 7-11?
+Opposite my skul, then walk right on...
16. What's a word that you say a lot?
+Currently? Seems 2 kip saying walao/wapiang~I alwiz change my word la, I duno y that word is stuck 4 now...
17.Who told you he/she loved you last?
+A fren of mine...love comes in many different forms, so stop defining love as only one!!
18. Last furry thing you touched?
+My pillowy~Tisu2, haha, my sis named it that, I 4got y, I thk I mistakenly said that...xD
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
+3 paracetamol, was in d laz 3 days? dun remember, I noe I got a rly bad headache, oh, laz tue I thk, haha...
20. How many rolls of film do you need developed?
+I dun use camera that uses films lor...
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
+The present...
22. Your worst enemy?
+Man's best fren, I'm afraid of them alrite, even those around my hse...zzz...
23. What is your current desktop picture?
+A paper torn into a love shape? Hehe...
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
+A lot leh, sms, msn? Lol, talk?? 4got ad la~
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
+Million bucks la, helo, fly 4 wot? Fly go wher? So silly, we all can fly without wings, it's juz how u c it...=)
26. Do you like someone?
+I like more than sum1 la, I like those around me alot...
27. The last song you listened to?
+Listening, 情书，, Love Note by Van Fan~!! Hehe...=D

+Tagging Nic, Solo, Sereno, & who else will respond 2 my tag leh? Hehe, hey Jeff, mayb u shud update ur blog now, kaka...xD

"Stay true to your heart, and you'll see what's real..."

XoXo, J@N3...=]

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By Sicreci

+Nee Tagged Me...

+It's me!! Cute? Haha...=P

1.Real Name
Jane
2.Nickname
煎蛋
3.Zodiac sign
Virgo bcoz I'm a Virgin la? Wot la Nee...haha...xD
4.Elementary School
Wen Hua
5.Middle School
Moon-Shh~~
6.High School
Same la...
7.Collage School
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8.Hair Color
Shiny black n luvin it~
9.Long or short hair
Short
10.Loud or quiet
Can be either
11.Sweats or jeans
Jeans
12.Phone or Camera
I want a phone now!!!
13.Computer freak
Nope,blogger addict perhaps...=P
14.Drink or smoke?
Neither
15.Do you have a crush on someone?
More than that perhaps?
16.Waiting for?
The imperfect guy that wud make evrythg perfect...

Future
17.Want kids?
Hmm, if I evr learn 2 be responsible...haha...
18.Want to get married?
Mayb, who noes...a girl looks best in her wedding gown doesn't she? Or I cud juz be a bride's maid, haha...=P
19.Careers in mind?
Novelist, then I can stay at home n type n write as I like dun I? Lol...

Which is better in the boy/girl you like?
20.Lips/Eyes
Eyes that dazzlez...
21.Shorter/Taller
Taller la plz, I like heelz...=P
22.Romantic/Spontaneous
Both?
23.Looks/Sincere
Who wudn't wan both rite? Lol...but I guess at d end of d day, it's the latter that matterz...
24.Sensitive/Loud
Sensitive ofcoz, can't stand egoistic ones, but kept falling 4 those, I wonder y...heh...
25.Hook-up/relationships
Relationships...
26.Troublemaker/hesitant
Can't pick...

Have you ever:
27.Fight
Wif my sis all d time, used 2 be physical, now rarely la...
28.Run away from home
Will nvr...home is best!^^
29.Become a playboy
Playgirl can la, but I wud never, nt fun fooling wif ppl's heart u noe?
30.Kill somebody
Wa, it's a sin, will nvr, won't wan 2 send myself 2 hell, lol...
31.Broken somebody's heart
Yep
32.Been arrested
Nope, by no one...
33.Cried when somebody died
Almost anybody...

Do you believe in:
34.Yourself
Most of d times...9/10 times...
35.Miracles
Certainly do...but sumtimes u nid 2 create ur own miracles...
36.Love at first sight
Nope, crushes, yea, but nvr love...
37.Heaven
I trust it's on Earth...
38.Santa Claus
I nvr do, dun celebrate christmas oso...
39.Tooth fairy
Used 2, haha, 4got wot got me that thking, hmm, a movie, dun remember...
40.Kiss on the first date
It's ok if it's on d cheek

Answer truthfully:
41.Is there one person you want to be with right now?
Ther probably is, or mayb not...
42.Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
Seriously, no, happy, yea...contradict? Alwiz..haha...
43.Do you believe in God?
I do, but ther's nt wot I shud be blving in~

+Lazy 2 tag ppl, hehe, tagging whoever reads this...=P

"Stay true to your heart, then you'll find your way..."

XoXo, J@N3...=]

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+Tagged by Cai Hong...=)

+Lotus: The Flower of Life...

Last phone call
+Dad...but if u mean a real convo, sure Xian wot..haha...

Last text msg
+Appreciation msg 2 a lil ghost...xD

Last time cried
+Cry 4 the right reasons? or cry 4 the wrong reasons? Or cry 4 no reasons? Let's c, I cried watching ugly betty on tuesday, Cried 4 the wrong reasons god noes how long, cried 4 the right reasons which is bcoz of myself, is a few weeks bak I thk...

HAVE YOU EVER??
Date someone twice
+Wot does that rly mean? Meaning I go out twice wif them but we're not a couple, no, it alwiz ends wif a single date, then we're PERFECT STRANGER, yea, I'm gud at that, so if u wan 2 break off a friendship, juz brg me on a date, LOL...

Been cheated
+Feel cheated? Yea, by those I cared for, n cherish, my frenz, n those that meant more than frenz at a time, but it doesn't matter now does it? They did not lie, simply bcoz believing itself is to beLIEve in a lie...how many times I've been lied to, how many times I've lied myself, life like's this, it's made up of Lies & Truth, but rly, it's how u c it as...

Kiss someone and regretted it
+Nvr, coz I nvr did, haha, well, kisses on the cheeks yea, grandma, my parents, but lips, no, so I hev no idea...

Lost someone special
+I won't say lost. For I dun thk I did, for they simply are passerbys in my life, PERFECT STRANGER, that doesn't nid 2 be remembered, nor bid farewell wif, to those that come into my heart as they like, n go as they like, I wish u all the best, 2 not feel the same as I did...n I'm not even being sarcastic...

IN THE PAST MONTH
Fallen out of love
+Love? Infatuation perhaps, how can there be love when two souls aren't attached? You tell me, I know I wud nvr say the 3 letter words again, except 2 my dearest frenz & family, since it pretty much means nth 2 those that doesn't seem 2 hev a idea how my heart feels...

Laughed until you cried
+Hev I? Couldn't remember...

Met someone who change your life
+Every person that I bump into changes my life in a way that mayb juz the slightest, or mayb the lessons of my life that I wud nvr 4get...so thx 4 the memories, even if they're the ones that I try hard 2 4get...

Found out someone was talking about you
+No, but surely there are those that talks about me behind my bak, I dun mind act, as long as it doesn't affects my good name, but then again, anythg juz say directly 2 me, then I'll change, coz I alwiz do that, when I dislike sum1 doin sth, then I'll say it out, instead of keeping 2 myself, then they improves themselves, n I get happier...=)

How many people on your top friends do you know in real life?
+9/10...if u mean msn, coz mostly I knew them online, but has since been thru lots of ups & down wif me, even the ones that is across d oceans...noes me better than the ones right next 2 me...

How many kids do you want to have?
+a set of twins, who doesn't wan that? A boy & a girl, haha, but if ur talking about me, then I'll say, none at all, dun thk i'll be the ideal parent...heh...

Do you have any pets?
+No, as above, I'm irresponsible as callous as I could be..

Do you want to change your name?
+Nope, coz Jane is an ancient name, n I love it very much...

What time did you wake up today?
+6.30am i thk, duno, been laying on the bed refusing 2 get up, my mum has 2 bug me evry 5 minutes..lol..=P...wot can I do? been hevin insomia these days!! Ish...when I'm exhausted like hell, I juz couldn't put myself 2 slp, y can't I juz sing myself a lullaby then? Duh..

What were you doing at midnight last night?
+Trying 2 slp...

Name something you cannot wait for?
+Finish my muet, n start looking at the world wif only my heart instead of my eyes...eyes can be deceiving, do not trust all it sees...

Last time you see your father?
+Few hours ago...lol...weird q?

What’s one thing you wish could change?
+The way my I perceive thgs as...n accept that it's nth wrong 4 me 2 thk the way I do to sum extent, or mayb change the way I thk 4 the better...

Have you ever talk to a person named Tom?
+Nvr heard of anyone wif that name...except Tom Cruise ofcoz..lol...

What's getting on your nerves right now?
+The fact that in 8 hours time I'll hev 2 sit 4 my muet test, n I'm still awake, chatting away..lol...

Elementary/primary school?
+Wot is the different eh? no idea...

Middle/secondary school
+Ditto...

Hair color
+Shiny Black, n luvin it the way it is...

Long or short
+Short, n I'll luv 2 kip it this way until d end of the year...

Want kids
+Look bak above...

Want to get married
+I noe I dun wan 2 live by myself when I reach the golden age...being old n cranky, lol...

Career in mind
+Novelist, editor wil be good, but all in all, still, holding on 2 a dream 2 open an ice-cream shop, that takes away all ur worries wif a scoop, n cheer u up...=)

HAVE YOU EVER???
Kiss a stranger
+No way

Lost glasses/contacts
+Dun wear them

Ran away from home
+I'm nt going 2...

Broken someone’s heart
+Got heart broken...

Been arrested
+By whom?

Cried when someone died
+Alwiz will...

Is there any person you want to be with right now?
+My bear2...lol, no one in specific, I juz wan 2 rest 4 now...put my heart on halt...n my brain on forward mode...

Do you believe in God?
+Sum1 will knock my head if I say I do, but I can't say I don't either, it's the same thg wif spirits isn't it? Doesn't mean they doesn't exist juz bcoz u dun c them...

"There's a reason for everything, always remember to see with your heart instead of your eyes..."

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+Thx Rainbow...^^

Syarat2 menerima award ini :
> Pastikan jantina anda perempuan

> Copy badge sebagai award anda

> Nyatakan 7 sebab kenapa anda bangga menjadi perempuan.
> Passkan award ini kepada girlfriends anda.

+Simply beautiful...

1) Because we can cry when we want to, no need to hide the tears unlike guys that will not cry infront of others, because of what?? There's nothing wrong 2 just break down and cry, it doesn't make you sissy, thou I do understand the reason they do not cry, what I want 2 say is that, it's OK 2 cry at times...if a guy ever cry because of me, I know, he is someone I shouldn't let go, but that depends rite, if I dun like him, I'll still let him go...=P

2) Because we get to wear pretty dresses, put on pretty make-ups, hey, ther's nth wrong being vain, thou I stil insist that natural is beauty, but make-up is juz like accessories 2 me, as long as u dun thk of it as ur clothes then it's alrite, afterall, beauty lies in the eye of the beholder...=)

3) Because we have the priviledge to act kyut, kaka, and the pestering power that cums wif it, hehe...=P

4) Because most girls are sensitive and emotional, perhaps way 2 emotional at times, but, being a girl, we understand better to others need...yea, when u put it that way, still, I noe I need 2 control my emotions, now I'll balance both my heart & head, coz my heart is 2 easily influenced...heh...darn it...

5) Because I dun hev 2 pay 4 a guy, n mostly they pay 4 me?? Haha, waliu, jk la, I'm not that kinda girl, I dun mind paying 4 a guy act, but, they will nvr let me anyway, so yea, still, I'll pay 4 my own unless they call me out n I no money la...*guilty*runs*hides...=P

6) Because I can keep long hair n need not tie it up, guys wif long hair tying up their hair? hmm, well, it's bad enuf if ur long hair looks like a girl, if u tie it up, err...it will totally looks like a girl, thk ther's few exceptional thou...ther alwiz is, isn't it?

7) Because I am born a girl, n proud of it...wot is EGO? is it so important that guys cannot put their face down at times? I noe, it doesn't matter 2 me, that's y I luv being a girl, even if we are considered "weak" at times, even when they say us "emo" at times, so wot? I am Jane, that's me...=)

P.S.: All comments are not directed to anywho in real life, and anything I say is not refered to all but some of all people, or perhaps most...=P...

Passing this award & tag to :
+Evry girl that is proud of herself...=)

"Being proud of yourself is the first step to happiness..."

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+NC-16 Survey...xD

What is your name and do you like it:
+Jane, an ancient name with a gracious meaning 2 it...=)

Would you consider yourself attractive:
+I do in a way that I dresses to make myself feel confident...

What is the craziest thing a guy have told you:
++That he likes me evn when he doesn't noe me? =P

Are you attracted to anyone you work with or is anyone crushing on you:
+I get attracted 2 sum1 quite easily, if anyone is crushing on me I wouldn't noe unless they tell me...

How do you feel about your ex:
+Do not hev one...

Do you feel that your ex taught you a lesson:
+Ditto...

Are you still in love with your ex:
+Ditto...

What is your definition of being married:
+Believing in each other n nvr loses the spark 2 be in luv even after hevin children...

Do you believe in love at first sight:
+Same wif CH, crush at 1st sight, u'll nvr luv sum1 u duno...

How do you feel about long distant relationship:
+9/10 fails if it is within the country, 99/100 fails if it is overseas...lol...as long as u trust each other, 2 me, hmm, if there's a chance we'll meet again, we will, y risk the shot...=P

Are you the jealous type:
+Isn't evryone so?

The wildest place you have had sex:
+>.<"...zzz...not until I'm tied wif a ring on my finger shall I...

The things that turn you on:
+A guy's manners...

Do you believe in sex on the first date:
+Ain't no westerners...

Do you have to be in love to have sex:
+No, it is making love that requires love, sex is a different term altogether, n I wud not hev myself getting involved in that bfor marriage, for it is sth precious 4 love, don't u get it?? Darn it, wot's wif all the teens these days, and I dun even mind talking about it here, duh, ridiculous teenagers...no offence of who takes pride of themselves...

How important is protection:
+Very much indeed, even after ur married, u nvr noe, sumtimes the person u trusts the most turns out 2 be sum1 that ain't worthy of ur trust afterall...

Do you love being loved:
+Who doesn't? I love to love...=)

"I smile when I want to, cry when I need to, laugh when I have friends that doesn't mind being silly just so I could be happy....=D"

XOXO, JANE...<3

TAGGING TAG
EVERYONE or ANYONE:)
no limit:)

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+Rainbow Tagged Me...=P

Whoever gets tagged have to write 10 things about that person who tagged him/her...

Her name is Cai Hong, literally means Rainbow, hehe, wot a beautiful name...=)
She's a prefect in my skul...
She has a sayang that she shares everything with...=P
She's a friend that will keep u in her heart...^^
She is open minded and doesn't mind accepting ppl's opinion...
She is friendly and easy to chat with...
She has very lovely big EYES...O.O...=p
She's kawaii des ka neh...
She cools things off quickly...
I'll love to know more about her...=D

+There's always a rainbow that shines after the rain, if only you're willing to see...=)

The person who got tagged has to write 10 things about her/himself...

I do not like PINK, but I do luv certain kinds of pink, the pink wher evryone luvs is the pink that I hate, I prefer rose shades or magenta, go google it n c if u duno wot shade it is...
Still, again wif the pink, I so cannot stand guys wearing PINK, juz dun fancy, except if it's in a shade suitable wif their skin, still, mostly I juz hate that certain pink...
I luv collecting music albums of artist whom I find worth admiring, the one that can rly compose, sing, or write, I do not support artist based on their looks n dislike artist that oni hev looks but no personality...
I luv to read manga, n watch anime, if I got the time that is, I'll buy my fav animes when I saved up enuf, download them n burn into a disc when I ain't got that much of cash...
I luv handmade stuff, n luv giving ppl handmade stuff, it's not the value that counts, it's the thought that matters, n the time spent 2 do such stuff...=P
I blv in fairies, they ought to exist sumwher in the world, but can not be seen, nor touch, nor hear, yea, dun u noe they're invisible? Haha, so how do we noe they exist? They simply will let u noe...=P
I luv to scribble my note book whenever I'm bored or had the inspiration to do so, mostly it's about love or friendship or whatever frustration I feel, n my note book has about more than 10, probably 20 perhaps? Haha, been scribbling it since my adolescent years I guess?=P
I can oni draw a girl, not a guy, bcoz the guy alwiz ends up looking like a girl, n it's been so very long since I draw, since my drawing rather sux..hehe...shud we say sketch, I never colour my drawings, since my colouring sux even worse...
I luv my friends, I luv 2 be around them, they let me cool down, I dun like 2 talk about matters that I decided not 2 think about anymore, but end up talking about them still if it keeps bugging me, still, I rather ppl not ask, I'm the kind of person who will say when I wan 2, n keep quiet if I dunwan 2...mostly the latter doesn't happens, coz I juz can't seem 2 keep my mouth shut...
I do not believe in forever, eternity, or one and only, until sum1 proves 2 me it exist n that is only if they were 2 stay bside me at the present of the future...

+Smile like never before...=)

At the end, you need to choose 5 people to be tagged and list their names...

Angela
Ling
Jeff
People whom I 4llow their blog
People who is reading dis post...=P

"Get to know someone else before you decide to like them or hate them..."

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+25 Random Things About Me...

1) I'm a sentimental soul to the extent that I cry during romantic scenes, reading newspaper, yea, or listening 2 the news, I even cry listening 2 songs...

2) I don't believe in forever, to me forever is present, as long as you live in the present, then forever you have achieved...

3) I alwiz contradict my own words, sumtimes without even realizing it, my apology, I'm still a kid, forgive me...

4) My 1st impression to others, as u urself shud noe, is cold, stuck up, quiet, n those who knows me will probably has seen the "wild" side of me, kaka, I can go crazy when I'm wif a bunch of crazy freaks, go quiet when I hev nth 2 say...

5) There are many thgs I wan 2 do, but will never brg myself 2 do it, one of it, is driving, hmm, wait ar, wait ar, auto plz?=P...no rly, electronic car better, they juz invented one, kaka...

6) I have a passion for poetry whenever I hev inspiration, I'll write and correct it and write again, or mayb edit it into another version, but sumtimes, living itself is an inspiration, and right now, everythg seems 2 be beyond words 4 me 2 write into a poem, mayb when I cum 2 distinguish wot's real and wot's not, I'll write again...=)

7) I am stubborn, and hate to listen 2 wot I already noe, even though I do not necessary do such thgs..lol..yea, sue me...=P, pluz, I hev no common sense, seriously, so yea, kbkk questions are pretty hard 4 me 2 do, err...juz can't thk wif sense...lol..

8) I wear dresses, not skirts, but the dresses are usually for special occasions, since they're much 2 formal 2 wear on normal days, skirts are hard 2 match, so jeans will alwiz be my pick, or shorts, it depends...

9) I am a good fren 2 many, but only a few best frens that will stick by my side no matter what, n 4 that, I am very fortunate 2 hev them, 15 years, 9 years, 2 hev reach so long n still frenz, it's not ez, so I dun rly mind hi-bye frenz, as long as I hev my dear frenz...but life without frenz is simply boring...

10) I cannot stand the sight of used tissue, it's rly disgusting, argh, n I cry when I got scared by a lizard, frog, rat. I'm afraid of man's best fren, even if they dun bite...lol...

11) My style varies that I can look older than my age or younger than my age whichever I prefer, anyhow, it doesn't rly matter...lol...best of both worlds?

12) People think I shud eat more, they thk I hev eating disorder, truthfully, I'm rly not that thin, I'm not size zero anyhow...

13) I hate ppl 2 bug me when I'm sms-ing, watching tv, msn-ing, n etc. So whatever you ask me or say at that moment, it's rly my partially concious mind listening, so I get mad whenever sum1 said they asked me n I say yes, but honestly, I wasn't aware of wot I said, so ask me when I'm not doing all those thgs...lol...

14) I'm afraid of fire, even lighting a match is a tough job 4 me, and I only cooks instant noodles n nothing else...

15) I am a slow moving person, that evrythg I seems 2 do is slow, except 4 when I walk, it's faster than evryone else, lol, I dun run thou, I stutter when I speak english infront of others except those I'm familiar wif....

16) I've a twin cousin. Xin's my younger other half :D

17) I dun take pork, beef, duck, especially lamb, so wot do I eat? Chicken n fish...lol...

18) I sux at sports, n the way I play is very funny, be it bowling, badminton, basketball? haha, u'll know if u get the chance 2 c me play, which rarely happens..kaka...

19) I luv the place 2 be bright, so the lights are alwiz switch on in my room...I'm afraid of looking at the mirror in the dark, yea...even resorted 2 cover them if it's not the one in my room...lol...

20) I rarely smile , but when I do, people thk I'm nuts...lol..

21) I miss the trampoline my parents left in kuching, s'wak, hyez...so sad...go buy another one go...

22) I love vampire related series, movie, novels, as long as it's a vampire I find myself attracted 2...haha...

23) I'm thin and tall bcoz my name is that way 2...=P

24) I slp wif 3 pillows, sumtimes 4, muz hold a pillow in my hands or I'll get rly uneasy..

25) I luv nasi lemak that I dun mind eating it evryday..kaka...

+I've procrastinated long enuf, so I thk I'll stop here..hehe...

"There are times when I'll sway away, yet life is a circle that keeps going back, so whatever it is, remember who you are, and where you're at, then you'll always find your way home..."

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+Craps...

L A S T
1. Friend you saw: Patricia...
2.Talked to on the phone: No one...but I wanna talk 2 Xian2...T.T...
3. Text: 6AS1 Monitor... =P
4. IMed: Mirra...miss u...

T O D A Y
1. Wearing?: PyJ...
2. Better than yesterday? Worse..argh...god..help!!!

T O M O R R O W
1. Is: Thursday
2. Got any plans: zzz...-.-

F A V OR I T E
1. Number:13
2. Color: white+black+blue+crimson+indigo
3. Season:sunny

C U R R E N T L Y
1. Missing someone: More than sum1...
2. Mood: SUX!!! Ish ish!!
3. Wanting to: get out of SKUL!!! Crap!!

S A D-S E C T I O N
01. Have you ever really cried your heart out? +Sure
02. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? +No doubt
03. Have you ever cried on your friend's shoulder? +Never tried, lend me a shoulder anyone? Right now...:'(
04. Do you cry when you get an injury? +Yup...pretty much...

H A P P Y -S E C T I O N
01. Are you a happy person? +Not rly...
02. What can always make you happy? +My frenz...
03. Do you wish you were happier? +Perhaps...
04. Is being happy overrated? +No way...
05. Can music make you happy? +Helps a bit...

L O V E -S E C T I O N
01.Anyone besides your family ever said they loved you? +Yea...dun say it if u dun MEAN it!!
02.Have you ever told someone you loved them? +Yea..n I MEAN it...lol....

H A T E-S E C T I O N
01. Who do you actually hate? +neh..u can't hate sum1 u duno...n sum1 u noe..u dun hate them...mayb dislike...
02. Have you ever made a hate list? +in the past..i thk...
03. Are you a mean/bully? +If sum1's mean 2 me, paybak time..lol...

C U R R E N T L Y W E A R I N G
01. Shorts? +No
02. Shoes? +No
03. Necklace? +Yea...

H A V E Y O U E V E R
01. Hugged someone? Yea...giv me hugs anyone? +I seriously wanna crumple down now...
02. Been on the phone until the sun came up? +Nope..I wish...
03. Put a song on repeat for more than an hour? +No way..oni my sis does that n it irritates me...it spoils the song..so stop doing that!!

L A S T
01. Last person you talked to in person? +Mummy?
02. Last person you talked to online? +Mirra+Ling
03. Person you talked to on the phone? +Wanna talk 2 u...wher r u??
04. Person you hugged? +Giv me one NOW...zzz...T.T...
05. Person who made you laugh? +No one..
06. Last Person you messaged on myspace? +No myspace...

O T H E R
01. Do you get along with your parents? +Kinda...they duno me...lol...which parents does their kids?

C U R R E N T
02. Current hair: Short
03. Current Thing You Ought To Be Doing? P.A...dunwan do dunwan do!!!=(
04. Current desktop picture? Foldings of crane...PEACE!
05. Current music? Fish Leong...

NOW YOU HAVE TO DO IT AND BE HONEST. .DON'T CHICKEN OUT. . . .

1) Single, Taken, Naked, or Flirty?+Single n flirty...
2) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok? +Yea...
3) Do you want kids?+God knows...
4) How many? +...
5) Would you consider adoption? +??
6)) If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? +Honestly juz stay the way thgs are now...
7) Do you want someone you can't have? +Neh...If I can't have him, there's no point wanting him...
8) Have you fallen in love?+No idea
9) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries? +Yea...
10) Do you believe that you can change for someone??? +Change 4 the better...
11) Is it a good day? +Nope...
12) Have you ever broken a heart before? +Duno
13) Does your ex still have feelings for you? +No ex...
14) Do you believe in long distance relationships? +Depends...
15) Do you think any of your friends will repost this? +Yea...

"When you feel like giving up, just think about what you're throwing away by doing so..."

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+Four Leaf Clover...=)

1. Four countries I have been:
+Never been out of M'sia ever since I'm born...

2. Four countries I would like to visit:
+Volterra, Italy...
+Paris, France...
+Tokyo, Japan...
+London, England...

3. Four of my favourite dishes/snacks:
+Nasi Lemak...
+Chicken Rice...
+Shoyue Mi...
+Chipster...

4. Four of my favourite desserts:
+Ice-cream...
+Pudding...
+Ai Yu Bing...
+Gui Ling Gao...

5. Four things that I'm getting soon:
+Secret...
+A Novel call..."..."
+Jigoku Shoujo 3rd season dvd...
+Ayumi's Greatest Hits...

6. Four things you may not know about me:
+I'm not who u thk I am...I'm nt brave at all...
+I luvs the attention, yet dun like standing out in crowds...
+I'm more of an ice-creamolic than a chocoholic...
+I do not drink COFFEE...

7. Four things I dislike:
+Judgmental people...
+Hypocrites...
+Speak bad behind me, anythg juz spit it out...duh!
+People telling thgs I already noe when I say I KNOW, and act as thou they know it all, lol...

8. Four meanings of my life:
+Family...
+Friends...
+Food...
+Freedom...

9. Four things I don't dare to do but wish to do:
+Tattoo...=P
+Drive alone...I'm afraid atm it's kinda not possible 4 me...
+Cook perhaps? Scare of fire, maklumlah, kena celur how many times ad...aikz...
+Flash my finger across the flame, argh, how the heck do they do that...scary...zzz...

10. Four obsessions:
+Animes...
+Poetry...
+Music...
+Shopping!~hehe..xD

11. Four bad habits:
+=( instead of =) most of the time...
+Mess up my stuff...lol...
+Spending habits?=P
+Slp LATE, wake up 2 EARLY...

12. Four fav singers:
+Kenji!!
+JayChou~
+JadeLiu!=)
+Ayumi...

Hehe...copied the 6 q from a blog, wrote d other 6 myself...lol..bored la..okla..when I thk of sumore qq then I post, meanwhile, mayb u could copy it n paste it on ur blog? Let's get 2 noe more about u shall we?

"When the last leaf falls, then lucky is no more..."

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+Four Faces Of Me...=D

+Yea well...what can I say, forced 2 cut...lol...had 2 types of comments, some prefer my hair before, n some prefer my hair now, yea, esp my mum, she was thinking that I'm going QUIRKY...=P

+Ok, din take a pic of my hair from the bak, simply bcoz it is EXTREMELY short, no kidding, zzz, well, 3 more weeks 2 CNY, it better be good by that time...practically, I did not altered much, din came out like the way I expected 2, but nevertheless it's alright, since u hev 2 fit the hairstyles with ur features...

+Erm, so yea, took a few pix, I noe I'll get asked when I goes bak 2 skul, well, wth, sue me, I'll reply u the same thg..."I broke my heart"....wakaka...the guy who cut my hair used 2 say, in the old days, a girl only cuts her hair when she broke her heart, well, it's a saying, apparently, japanese says that 2...hehe, 2 bad he ain't in Melaka anymore, I nvr nid 2 thk wot kind of hairstyles 2 cut, he'll cut as he likes, n it alwiz suits me...

+Least I juz hev 2 use a tiny bit of shampoo now, n it's windy~lalala~haha...xD...xxss...

"We never know until we take the chance to change, who we are to become..."

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+New Hair Cut...

+Hello there...xD

+What can I say? I was BORED...lol...hehe...now it's one short one long, 2 bad d other end not that long, or else it'll be nicer, thg is my hair curves out when it gets too long, so hev 2 chop it off...T.T...nvm, next time I'll make sure it's sliding down my neck like a snake...=P

+N yea, ppl probably thinks I've got a bad hair day or sth, wot the heck, couldn't care less, n my sis thinks it's weird, ok, they aren't the only ones, hehe...but darn rite, weird is my signature, seems 2 be that way wif evryone else around..

+I'm juz tired of being ordinary, juz feel like doing sth ordinary ppl seems 2 afraid of doing so, yea, that's rite, I'm juz BORED...=P

"To be the same as everyone else, or to take the risk and be the odd one out... I, choose the latter..."