I have a confession to make,
I'm tired of dressing up,
Tired of constantly having to make myself feel pretty,
So as not to feel intimidated by all the pretty people,
Tired of having to seek for attention all the time,
Hoping that people will notice me,
Why do we have to do that?
Why do we have to be like that?
I'm tired of always trying to be pretty,
Every girl loves to dress up,
Loves to be told they are pretty,
But who can really tell who's really pretty,
You see all the pretty faces,
On the billboard, on the posters, on the magazine,
Are those people who we call pretty?
And are we not pretty enough ourselves?
Why do we stress so much on the outer beauty,
When so little people have what they call the inner beauty.

For now,
I realize I lack of that inner beauty,
One might be able to look pretty on the outside with the help of some make ups,
But how can one really be beautiful from the inside?
And only those who cares about you can truly sees how beautiful are you within.

Hmm, note to self, I don't wanna be some pretty face without a beautiful soul,
I wanna be pretty with a beautiful soul,
I guess to do that, I ought to learn to be independent 1st.

P/S: Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder after all, [E.g. To me, a girl smoking is just so ugly, I have no idea why, but I just feel so.]

Regards, Enaj.

Gonna talk about a serious issue today,家教，dis days, it doesn't seem to matter anymore. ><"
Haiz, apalah nak jadi lah eh?
It's not that I'm prejudice towards them,
But here's a fact.

The other day,
I went to school and pick my sis,
Went to her class,
Now I know why she is the way she is, ><"
My ex-school, now her school,
Is full or barbarians and students with no manners,
They actually tease me infront of their teachers,
And strangely, the teacher just buat senyap,
U know wot kind of attitude they hev?
As I walk across the balcony,
It's like all those hamsap lou never see girls bfor?

I mean, seriously,
Can they get even lower?
What the heck is wrong with these ppl these days,
Kurang ajar and xda akal,
It annoys me the whole way,
Every single class I pass,
I'm like, is this really the school I used to be at?
It wasn't that way the last time I check,
The kids these days are losing control.

That is why there are so many bullying going around,
They don't even know what's wrong and what's right?!
Wtf!

That is why I just hope those people that get married at my age,
Actually able to teach their child properly?!
Otherwise, abislah...

No pics today, duno wot to put, so next time!

Sign, Enaj.

Video of a Crazy B*tch
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=143838322354031&oid=121766611168619


Blog of the Crazy B*tch
http://wwwcherryboom.blogspot.com/2011/05/tmd.html

我想，这种事，不必宣传，可是我在这，想说出的是，很多时候，the predator will make themselves seem like the victim, I've seen cases like those, but this is far from being a victim. No matter what the girl did to the other girl, she doesn't deserve to be treated that way.

I thought of something the other day, while watching Oprah about a mother who abuses her children and kidnapped a child.

This quote came to my mine: "Only a person with no conscience will be thrilled over the pain and hurt they cause another."...or should I only an eccentric? I seriously think these people do not have a right state of mind. A sane people will never do such a thing, we will always be happy when someone else is, not happy when someone else is not, that is just ain't right.

Seriously, sometimes u blame the education system, the family. But even when many are brought up in the same situation, only one is like that, so I guess it's more of influences from elsewhere, your own personality, you can't really put the blame on one party, I think it's more to self-conscience.

I only wish, this world, will have less brain damaged people.

Even animals, do not abuse, they only fight, for their rights, and survivals.
Sign, Enaj.

Hmm, I just realize something in me,
Perhaps it's good, perhaps it's bad,
It really depends how you see it,
As usual,
I always ended up making someone piss at me,
Not the first time, ain't gonna be the last,
But for the first time,
I wasn't pissed that those people are pissed at me,
Weird thing har?

I've learned sth actually,
Ppl who says I'm judgmental, sarcastic, or prejudice and etc.
It doesn't really matter.
Nobody will actually come out and say,
They are not either one of the above.
Who dares say so anyway?
I'm sure each of us will be one of those at times,
And when somebody thinks you're judging them,
Honestly, they're judging you as well,
Don't you think so?
That's what I think, anyway.

I guess, being friendly, or giving friendly advice,
Still doesn't work with me,
As I end up always being seen as the unfriendly person.
Sigh, so to say,
I'm not trying to defend myself or prove a point,
But, before you think someone else is judging you,
Perhaps you should check and see if you're doing so yourself.

So long then. 

Sincerely, Enaj.

Sign, Enaj.

Gosh, must I be the Planner of everything?
Taking 5 mins off while I'm trying to think how to write my essay,
In the midst of replying my friend's and coursemates msgs,
Is it me? Or is everyone used to me being the Planner?
That it doesn't change even in Uni.
Every group work I have to take lead in University,
Every event I have to organize back in my hometown.



Sign, Enaj.