Nehzus

New Year Resolution

2012-01-18T23:08:00.002+08:00

I know it's kinda late for my resolution, but here it is. I'll try to name 10 of them(2 ambitious I presume). xD

1. Do not buy Dress until the end of the year. (Bought 5 dresses for CNY alone.><")
2. Do not buy Books until the end of the year. (Bought lots of books enough to last me for a couple of years, or even more. xP)
3. Spend my money wisely (Gonna be broke every semester)
4. Take good care of my hp (While it's still alive and kicking)
5. Go less shopping (While I don't have money)
6. Smile more =)
7. Cry less. =P
8. Eat more. =D
9. Get FAT. XP
10. And lastly don't be such a lazy bump. xP

2012 1st Post: And yet it's so boring. xP

2012-01-13T13:48:00.000+08:00

Haven't updated in awhile, thought I do so today.
Two more papers to go! And then I'm free!!!!!Yoohoo~

Anyway, recap of what I've been up to recently.
Hehe, got the RM200 book voucher.
RM50 use to pay off my debt to my sis, wahaha,
Good use of it, since I don't have cash. xD

The remaining RM150 use to buy 5 novels, 1 Book Wrapper, 5 pens, 1 eraser. Hee...
1 novel I bought for my elder sis, since she ask me to,
2 novels are crime thrillers, my favourite. xD
Another 2 novels is a different genre altogether,
Thought I try reading something different, instead of the usual.

Hmm, wot else is ther to say?
Can't remember. update later. hehe.

anyway, if you guys would love to read comic strips,
here's one, from someone I know, damn hilarious. =D

http://dontlikethatbro.blogspot.com/p/comic-strips.html

Confession to make

2011-12-26T16:37:00.000+08:00

I have a confession to make,
I'm tired of dressing up,
Tired of constantly having to make myself feel pretty,
So as not to feel intimidated by all the pretty people,
Tired of having to seek for attention all the time,
Hoping that people will notice me,
Why do we have to do that?
Why do we have to be like that?
I'm tired of always trying to be pretty,
Every girl loves to dress up,
Loves to be told they are pretty,
But who can really tell who's really pretty,
You see all the pretty faces,
On the billboard, on the posters, on the magazine,
Are those people who we call pretty?
And are we not pretty enough ourselves?
Why do we stress so much on the outer beauty,
When so little people have what they call the inner beauty.

For now,
I realize I lack of that inner beauty,
One might be able to look pretty on the outside with the help of some make ups,
But how can one really be beautiful from the inside?
And only those who cares about you can truly sees how beautiful are you within.

Hmm, note to self, I don't wanna be some pretty face without a beautiful soul,
I wanna be pretty with a beautiful soul,
I guess to do that, I ought to learn to be independent 1st.

P/S: Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder after all, [E.g. To me, a girl smoking is just so ugly, I have no idea why, but I just feel so.]

Regards, Enaj.

Take Love as a Fool

2011-12-18T08:40:00.000+08:00

I often wondered how could some people change partners like they change clothes.

Is it not love they felt in the first place?

If it's not, then why? One after another,

Even though I know very well,

They take it as trying on clothes,

If it suits you then it's alright,

But it doesn't, then just change it,

But that concept is just so wrong,

If we try too many clothes without buying,

Won't we at least feel guilty?

For wasting people's time,

For wasting our own time?

People do not have to serve us,

They are only doing it out of obligation,

It's the same thing when you're with someone,

That someone don't have to play along with you,

It hurts when that someone is serious and you are not,

But somehow, they take love as a fool.

Good idea, I could write a poem with that title,

Anyway, that's someone's else problem, not mine.

You know sometimes you feel the strain when you quarrel,

It always happens, I always felt there will be a strain,

But somehow, he makes it all dissapear,

I don't know how he did it,

But he made me assure there wasn't the strain,

Even if there is,

He always tries to mend it instead of making it worse,

I guess I should be trying my best not to strain our relationship too. Hehe. xD

Okla, so long for now, thought I update since I neglected this blog for awhile.^^

XOXO, Enaj.

Stupid Me

2011-11-23T22:51:00.000+08:00

I've always been stupid when I do something,
Or after I've done that only I realize I'm such an idiot,
And then I'll be so unhappy with myself,
Like now,
I don't like that,
Even thought I were being stupid,
I wanted to get it over it,
But it's like a thorn in my head,
I hate that,
Can't find the heart to do anything,
I'm uninspired,
Hmm...

What do I do to cure myself?
To find back my "heart"?

Sad case.

Time Flies

2011-11-10T12:23:00.000+08:00

Time is too fast,
We can't even stop,
One day and one day and one day,
It goes non-stop,
Feels so much faster than it was before,
That's what my mum said,
Time used to be must slower,
When everyone was doing things at their own pace,
But now?
We have to keep up with everyone else,
It's just so tiring,
I don't know how to record the moment of happiness,
Other than taking pictures of it,
That we can re-live it in our memory,
I guess that is why pictures are important,
For us to have something to hold on to.

Hmm, ought to work on something.

Sharing Happiness

2011-11-03T21:23:00.000+08:00

You know the feeling when you're truly happy for someone and another when you're worried about them?

There are people who makes you happy when they are,

There are the others who makes you worry when they are.

What do I mean by that?

There are friends who you never know how long their happiness will last,

Is that what they truly want?

And there are those who knows what they're doing,

And you know they couldn't be happier,

Now I see the difference,

Now I know,

I just hope all my friends can be truly happy,

And for the some,

That I don't need to worry,

If they would break another heart instead of theirs.

I pray.

Sign, Enaj.

In Time

2011-11-01T18:27:00.000+08:00

Went to watch "In Time" just now.
Needed a break from all those writings,
I don't feel like writing anymore,
So uninspired.
Crap.

Anyway, about the movie,
I'll say the storyline is refreshing,
But the show is really blue frame,
Reminds me of Twilight the movie,
The people in it is like drained of blood,
There's only white, grey, black most of the times.
Maybe it's their idea of a dull world,
But it seems pretty dull to do so.

Anyway, went to watch the movie because Justin is in it. Haha.
Typical of girls, eh?
But was not disappointed anyway.
Not a fond critic movie of myself,
If there's a movie I'll say sucks,
I think it must really suck for me to say suck. Lol.

Go watch it and find out yourself, it's not for me to tell you what it's about.xD

Regards, Enaj.

Big Head Prawn

2011-10-30T16:46:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary,

I'm always doing something wrong,

Or keep repeating the same mistakes,

Over and over and over again,

I never learn my lesson,

I mean, never, ever.

After some time I'll do it again,

I'm always being blur and out of focus,

I'm the "Big Head Prawn",

I wonder if I'll ever learn not to fall down,

Instead of keep falling down and getting up,

And never learning how to becareful,

I'm as careless as a person can get,

Always doing silly stuff,

Always doing the wrong thing.

It's like the world goes round clockwise,

And I had to go anti-clockwise,

Always doing things against the flow,

I wonder,

What is it with me that makes me, me?

I'm so confusing I'm not quite sure myself.

Yours truly, Jane.

Headache

2011-10-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

My head still hurts,
Gosh,
I wonder if it's the Sun,
or the Mood,
or the Stress,
I feel like taking a break,
I can't handle so many stuff at once,
If I'm at a job,
If I'm the boss,
I'll fire myself already,
I know that,
I'm never good at handling stress,
It makes me even more stress,
I need rest,
There's not enough time,
Why do everything need to come at once,
God damn it,
I feel like cursing,
You know I don't curse,
These days I just can't take it,
I'm emotionally+mentally+physically unwell,
I feel like shit,
I'm seriously contradictory,
I hate being left alone,
But now I just want to be alone. F***

Regards, Enaj.

Lost Passion

2011-10-11T12:25:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since I blog, thought I update myself.

It's true what my lecturer said in first year,

That when we were first year,

We had to passion to do our assignments,

Prepare for our exams,

But when we enter 2nd year,

The passion starts to waver,

It's starts to diminish until a point where you ask yourself,

What the hell are we doing here?

I find my classes boring,

Lifeless, as I drag myself to class each day,

I couldn't seem to have the "semangat" to listen,

I can't seem to focus in class,

It's really annoying,

I hated it so much.

I wish I could only seek back the passion I had before,

The girl that loves poetry, it's hard, and it's not getting any easier, sigh...

Anyway, I wonder if we should stay friends with guys we used to like?

But then found out he's a jerk?

When he really just not that into you?

I get that now, but haha, I think it's best we stay passerbys,

I might not even recognize them when I saw them in the streets,

I guess it's best that way.

And I'm coping...

Coping with life, without many friends over here,

I can hardly imagine what it will be like next 3 sems,

When he's no longer around,

And I'm all left with myself to feed,

I guess I'll go into my emo state again then,

Sigh, I wish my friends are here,

It's hard to blend in,

It's hard to click with these people.

I think it's because I'm hard to comprehend,

But honestly, if you only know me.

Regards, Enaj.

Confessions

2011-09-25T00:44:00.000+08:00

Since I have nothing better to do,
Spent my time watching two movies in a row,
On my computer of course,
One is Nanny McPhee, heart warming tale, no?
I like her character, it's simply delightful.

And another is confessions of a shopaholic,
It's inspiring,
Everybody has a little bit of a shopaholic in our selves,
We just need to take control of it,
I've been buying stuff ever since I start working,
Keep going on a shopping spree,
And now I learn to count the worth,
Is the amount I'm paying for really worth the item?
Most of the times,
It's not,
Well, learning to say no, for things that I won't wear,
Enough is enough,
When I don't have enough money,
I always tell myself,
Never spend the money that I don't have,
I'm not brought up to aim for designer bags or whatsoever,
It cost thousands,
A month's pay,
No?
I mean, okay, I love buying,
But when you buy stuff that costs hundreds,
It'll cost me thousands,
And seriously,
I can't afford it,
I'm just a student,
And I know that.

Self-controlling ain't that hard,
If you know when to stop.

Self-Identity

2011-09-24T11:40:00.000+08:00

Went to watch "Abduction" yesterday.
Not bad for a not so expected movie,
I mean, besides Taylor Lautner, you don't really know the rest of the casts.
And we only know him because he's the werewolf in Twilight,
Anyway, it's a little cliche, but a while different kind of movie,
Interesting in a way that makes you enroll together in the ride to escape,
Get away from all the bad guys,
Find out your true identity,
And well, it's a thrill of a ride.

Honestly, there are times when I feel like he does,
That I'm a "stranger in my own life",
I don't know why,
But sometimes I feel like I'm standing outside looking at what I'm doing,
Isn't it strange?
Or do we feel that way sometimes?
I feel like I'm out of my physic, and my soul is separated from me,
I really can't quite explain how that feels,
Just feels like the soul out of the body,
If you get what I mean.
Eh well, so long for now.

Regards, Jane.

Sophie's Tale

2011-09-15T18:28:00.000+08:00

Just finish reading Twenties Girl by Sophie Kinsella,

The 2nd book I read from her,

The first was Remember Me,

Now that was amazing,

So is this,

But I don't read her shopaholic series thou,

Not my kinda thing.

We were ask to do our assignments based on vampire novels,

Now I seriously loath that,

Even though I love it so much before,

It's just over my phase,

I admit, it's intriguing,

For teenagers,

But when you pass the age,

It gets annoying,

All I all,

I hope we does well,

Cross my fingers.

Right now,

I'm more into chick-lit comedy novels,

And of course, ever the crime novels,

It never bores me.

To those chick lit novels,

You should really check on Sophie's novels.

Now, if I could get my hands on Alexander's Potter's Book.

Will do, maybe next month! =P

Regards, Enaj.

Unhappy

2011-09-15T13:28:00.000+08:00

You know how it feels like when what you're feeling inside simply turns into a word in your mind,
And I was like having these thoughts that I'm really "unhappy" today,
I don't know why, perhaps because of the nature of me,
Ever the emo girl,
Yet it also strikes me as I can talk to a stranger if I want to,
I can talk to people if I want to,
But sometimes I just want to shut the whole world out of my life,
I don't really know how to explain how that feels,
I just feel, alone somehow.

Regards, Enaj.

Presents!

2011-09-08T15:50:00.000+08:00

12 more days until my birthday,
And I've already received four birthday presents~
^^

1. Canon Camera, courtesy of Dad & Sis.

2. Nichii Jacket, courtesy of Von.

3. Golden Key Pendant, courtesy of Mum.

4. Adidas Watch, courtesy of the guys. =)

Wonder what he'll be giving me...hee...
Happy, happy, lalala...

That's all for now. C ya later.^^

累了

2011-08-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

我又累了，精神和肉体都累，
累得，不想跟人家解释所做的一切，
累得，不想自动去找别人，
别人想我时自然会找我，
累得，不想再当那个主动的，
累得，想休息个够。

珊，上。

Girlfriend Outing.^^

2011-08-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

Wee! Went shopping today~!

Hehe, got my 2nd Birthday gift! Courtesy of Von~

Lalala, finally found a jacket, even thou not a blazer,

I guess I give up je la cari blazer,

Make me look lagi thin for some reason,

Wanted black, but make me look lagi thin,

So I got a White one~

Happy happy~^^

Okay, wanna go watch my show ad, tata.^^

Regards, Jane.

Mi Cameria.

2011-08-26T16:01:00.002+08:00

Got my early birthday present! And my first birthday present this year!

Courtesy of my sis, dad, and ofcoz, myself.xD

Wanted to buy Canon IXUS 220, end up buying Nikon S8100 instead. Zadao...

My family forever Nikon fans...xD

First reason I bought this is because I played with two cameras, and Canon really got beaten down by the pictures, Nico really takes nice pictures, and has 10 times zoom instead of 5 on Canon, and the price difference is only RM50, dis one more xpensive la, but my dad keep pestering me to get this instead of Canon, so I got this lor, and it has Red as well, otherwise I sure won't buy.xD

*Just a little problemo wif my Nico here, her flash pops up at the finger where you hold d camera, lol.

Other than that, loving the pictures she takes. ^^

P/S: I noe ppl alwiz calls their Nikon Nicole, Nico, or Niko. But haha, no idea what to name here, so she's Nico as well. xD

Btw, it cost me RM350, my sis n dad paid for the RM500, it's RM850 together.

Regards, Jane.

自由了！

2011-08-17T12:42:00.000+08:00

不用去上班了！好爽哦！
还是做一个星期五天的工比较好，
一个星期休息一天，
我好像都麻木了，
没有做工也习惯性的早起，真要命。

这两个月又三个星期学到什么了呢？
我学到责任感真的很重要，
有责任感别人才会看好你，
学到了有些事不要自作聪明，自做主张，
结果也许会弄巧反拙哦。

遇见了多性格的人，
遇见了无法理解的人，
这世上太多种人，
要学会做那个不让人讨厌的人。

我还没完全醒，只是在胡言乱语而已。=P

*Blink blink. =P

珊，上。

Money Matter

2011-08-13T23:54:00.000+08:00

Money spent so far: [RM400 Max]

Personal:
1. Bag: RM66
2. Dress: RM28
3. Lingerie: RM37+RM26: RM63
4. Online: RM87
=RM244

Others:
1. Mum: RM70
2. Dad: RM24
=RM94

Total: RM338
=Left RM62 to spend.><"

This month sure over budget.sigh.

虚荣心

2011-08-09T09:42:00.000+08:00

所谓的虚荣心，是没有办法被满足的。
我总是在想，
妈妈用的，是三十块的包包，
自己却愿意花钱买三百块的包包，
有些还肯花个三千快包包，
是因为我没钱？
我现在才这么想？
可是我希望就算我有钱，
我还会这么想，
也许坚持自己的原则有点固执。

可是“贪”是不好的一个性质，
有办法不贪，那是完美无瑕，
可是我并不是佛，
我也会贪，
但是贪到来，
也要有限制，
别人的事我控制不到，
自己的事我能控制，
我的原则其实很简单，
就是不花我没有的钱。

如果我拿我赚的钱跟我花的钱相对比，
如果我一个月赚两千，我还会买两百块的包包，
如果我一个月赚二十千，我才会买两千块的包包。
不能赚多少就花多少，
爸妈从小就叫我们要简约，
我们不是什么有钱人家，
虚荣心这种东西，
我觉得还是不要太沉迷。

*洗脑当中。。。

珊，上。

真多事

2011-07-27T23:17:00.000+08:00

Hmm, don't know if I should write this in English or Chinese, maybe I'll just type whatever I like.

Did a STUPID mistake at work again today,
WHY??? I should have followed my guts and ask when in doubt!
Damn, why the heck must I ask only after I have made that stupid mistake...
Huhu, hope can get back my money...so sad...

还有，就是想说，为什么我总是那个被定为负责人的人？
在工作也那样，在生活也一样，
我在想，我真的那么本事么？
我真的可以承担所有丢给我的任务么？
搞不懂，只知道自己快烦透了。

Just hope they could just stop demanding me to do anything.
I beh tahan ar.
Y izit alwiz me? ><"...

Go buy present me,
Go out call ppl me,
Go where plan also me,
Me, me, me.

Ish, 受不了。。。
我好心给人take granted...T.T...
如果我不在叻？><"

Swt, Jane.

生活乐趣

2011-07-25T19:28:00.000+08:00

在几天前，还真觉得生活很反味，真是无聊透顶，
每天就只是上班，下班，
偶尔逛逛街，买买衣，
女人，最大的乐趣，还真是到处逛街，哈哈。
今天，又买了一件衣，
原本还说这个月不要买衣了，
结果看到又买了，嘻。。。><"

这个月应该还不会花过龙。=p

Food:
Sate Celup: RM7
Duck Noodles: RM3
KFC: RM4
Milo: RM2.50
Cake: RM1
Station 1: RM18
Secret Recipe: RM21
Pizza: RM7.50
Waffle: RM2.50
Cake+Buns: RM4
Sushi+Buns=RM6.50
KFC=RM4
Drink=RM2
Old Town=RM9
Cake=RM6
Buns=RM4
Waffle=RM3
Eggs=RM3
Pizza Hut=RM7
McD GCB=RM9
=RM126

Movies:
Harry Potter 3D=RM17+7
Hanna=RM6
= RM30

Clothes:
Hi-Style=RM35
Acewin=RM33
White Top=RM16.50
Babydoll Top=RM28
Belt=RM12
=124.50

=RM280.50

RM900-RM200=RM700-280.50=419.50+100=519.50

Plain Jane

2011-06-29T16:06:00.000+08:00

今天休息，却睡到8.30am就自然醒了，我们人的生理闹钟还真厉害，每次去做工，闹钟才要响我就已经起来了。

吃东西，上上网，又买一件衣，就十点半了，then go bank update sis bank book n help mum bank in check, she always ask me follow, so that she don't have to find parking, after that go pos office, want to use pos laju, but no envelope, situ pun x jual, ><", so go family store, end up buy this buy that, all barang makan, mum buy sayur all that, I buy rubbish. :P...n bread la. hee...

Somebody's parcel arrived today, mum make noise, never mind, I buy something online, that somebody make noise at me pulak. ><"....swt, sendiri byk baju mcm apa ckp org, aku guna aku punya gaji pun xleh. @.@

But since she mention, I guess I shud recount my clothes. Let's check.

T-Shirts:
6 Pink-4
1 Yellow-1
1 Polka-1
3 Black-1
1 Green
2 Blue
2 White-2
=16 T's, but only 7 can use to class, because some cartoony, some v-shape, some broad shoulders. hee...so...enuf wif t's...xmau beli t's liao...aiming for something else. Just bored with being the Plain Old Jane, xleh ka?

Shorts:
1 Jeans
1 Brown
2 Blacks
2 Blue-2
1 Red
=5 shorts, 2 can't wear ad, hev more actually, the rest gave my sis ad. hee...bcoz either 2 small, 2 tight, or colour fade liao, she happens 2 like wearing tie-dye shorts. lol.

Tops:
1 Black
1 Pink
1 White
1 Maroon
1 Flora
=5 only, hmm, hehe, wan get sumore pretty tops.:P

Dress:
[Slightly Formal]
1 Sea Green
1 Purple
1 Black Flora
1 Silver
1 White
=5, hehe, that will do for now. =)

[Casual]
1 Pink
1 Polka
1 Grey
1 Jeans
=4, maybe I can use another one.=P

Trousers:
2 Black Formal[Exam]
2 Black Jeans[Class]
2 Blue Jeans[Class]
1 Straight Cut
1 Skinny Jeans
=I have more than enough jeans, just like I only like the two I usually use, because that 2 is the ones that fits me perfectly, the rest is a tid bit big, but ad s size..><"... i hev a very small waist.

Okla, kepala pening ad, saje check aku ada apa baju, hee. dat's all..tata.

Regards, Jane.

Shopaholic Much?

2011-06-17T21:54:00.003+08:00

Not even one month since I've started work and I've already spent a lot, ><".

Let's check...hmm...

Money I spent on myself:
1. Two shorts: RM70
2. Dress: RM25
3. Belt: RM15
4. Bag: RM56
5. The Face Shop: RM123
6. Flats: RM13
7. Elianto: RM28
= RM330

Money I spent on/for others:
1. Sis's present: RM70
2. Dad's present: RM25
3. Johor trip: RM50
4. Dinner Treat for family: RM50
5. Lipstick for Mum: RM10
6. Wedding Angpow: RM50
= RM255

Total = RM525

Haven't add all those makan stuff some more, let's count what I remember:
1. Tea*3= RM1.80*3 = 5.40
2. Maggi*2= RM2.50*2 = RM5
3. Porridge*2= RM4*2 = RM8
4. Shih Lin's= RM13
5. Fried Sotong= RM5
6. Minitoons = RM4
7. Sweets = RM3
8. Potato = RM2
9. Ice-Cream = RM1.50
= RM46.90

Others:
1. Pictures: RM30

Total = RM661. 90

I say, I rly can pokai o, next month gaji keluar, need to simpan RM500 inside. At least must have 1k of savings when I finish work.

Regards, Jane.

What I've Been Up To

2011-06-16T15:11:00.000+08:00

Been working almost everyday, even when I'm not working, I'm not home, today is my off day, thought I update myself.

Seriously, wedding ceremony is grand and all, but I think I'll opt for a holiday wedding if I am to wed that is, why spend the money on everyone else? Might as well go on a grand honeymoon. After all, wedding not about the ceremony, but the matrimony, the reason you wed them in the first place is because you want to spend the time with them, yea?

I'm bored, doin my part time work at home, but having headache, I think I'll have problem finishing it, anybody wanna help me? :P

Just doing some writings lor, anyway, malas to continue now,bye bye.

Regards, Jane.

First Class

2011-06-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

Went to watch X-Men just now,

I'll say not bad,

As an X-Men,

Didn't fail as one of the series. =)

Anyway, I can't think of any new movies coming up,

Off to work again tomorrow,

Tired,

These days I just got numb,

Just feel like staying home after I got back from work.

Hmm....

Well,

Anyway,

Watch ghost stories, hear ghost stories today,

I wonder,

If we fear ghost,

Will we fear ourselves when we turn into one?

It doesn't make sense right?

We all live, and die,

Do we then evaporate?

Or do our souls linger on?

P/S: May all beings rest in peace.

Sign, Enaj.

Kids These Days

2011-05-28T12:00:00.000+08:00

Gonna talk about a serious issue today,家教，dis days, it doesn't seem to matter anymore. ><"
Haiz, apalah nak jadi lah eh?
It's not that I'm prejudice towards them,
But here's a fact.

The other day,
I went to school and pick my sis,
Went to her class,
Now I know why she is the way she is, ><"
My ex-school, now her school,
Is full or barbarians and students with no manners,
They actually tease me infront of their teachers,
And strangely, the teacher just buat senyap,
U know wot kind of attitude they hev?
As I walk across the balcony,
It's like all those hamsap lou never see girls bfor?

I mean, seriously,
Can they get even lower?
What the heck is wrong with these ppl these days,
Kurang ajar and xda akal,
It annoys me the whole way,
Every single class I pass,
I'm like, is this really the school I used to be at?
It wasn't that way the last time I check,
The kids these days are losing control.

That is why there are so many bullying going around,
They don't even know what's wrong and what's right?!
Wtf!

That is why I just hope those people that get married at my age,
Actually able to teach their child properly?!
Otherwise, abislah...

No pics today, duno wot to put, so next time!

Sign, Enaj.

2nd.Day.of.Work

2011-05-24T20:21:00.000+08:00

2nd day working, and I've been hearing and seeing things already,
I mean on the peoples and workers,
Well, I do hope I will survive,
Not sure how long thou,
Will see how it goes after one week,
Mayb I'll work for a month, maybe 2 months,
Maybe 3 months?

Just wait and see, but I doubt I'll work 3 months,
Anyway, jia you ba!
These days, I rather people don't bug me after I finish work,
Bug me when I'm working is more than welcome,
That's all, c ya.

Sign, Enaj.

Work?

2011-05-22T19:40:00.000+08:00

Hmm, going to work tomorrow, I wonder,
Can I survive working for 3 months there?
Hmm, always think too much about something,
When I actually do it,
It's not that difficult also,
Just a habit that is hard to get rid,
Keep thinking until I could not sleep well at night, haiz.

Sign, Enaj.

Now or Later?

2011-05-17T23:22:00.000+08:00

Haiz, in a dilemma right now.

Wanted to work in June,

But since there's two wedding,

I thought I'll postpone it to the middle of June,

Now only middle of May,

Everyone ad kip niao me to go work,

My elder sis,

The little pig,

Say I rotten meat la,

Stay at home do nothing la,

I really don't know what to do ar.

Haiz.

Pening kepala I tau??

Thought want work 2 months holiday 2 months,

That's what I always do ma,

That time also I work 3 months Holiday 3 months,

Cannot meh? T.T...

Hmm, now can holiday,

After graduate go work le,

Wher got so many holiday leh?

Haiz,

I beh tahan ar!!!

Kip niao niao niao non-stop.

That day go scan2 see got what work,

Clothes/Shoes/Watch?

I also don't know what I want to do leh?><"

Any suggestions? @.@

Sign, Enaj.

姐妹

2011-05-13T01:20:00.000+08:00

所谓的姐妹，

到底是如何的呢？

不知不觉，

我从那个总是一个人的自己，

多了好多个姐妹，

有时候，

姐妹们都会有摩擦，

对彼此不开心的事，

之前，

我也被人误会了不少，

但那些都已经是过去事了。

随着大家的成长，

不知是好还是坏，

有的变得更现实，

有的变得更倔强，

有的变得更坚强，

无论如何，

改变是避免不了。

有很多时候，

我们不知道，

对方在想什么，

要什么？

一个人做出决定时，

最难的，不是要选择什么？

而是，要放弃什么？

每个人都有说不出的苦衷，

当一个人难受时，

不代表另一个人不难受，

我们，

只好学会体谅，

难以了解也要接受，

那是对方的选择，对方的决定。

珊，上。

Brave Myself

2011-05-10T21:38:00.000+08:00

I realize I've been "a katak dlm tempurung" for long now,

Always afraid, always scared of the "real world",

I know it's time for me to get out,

Time for me to be brave,

Have some confidence Jane,

You're blessed with a good life,

Don't think so much,

Just embrace it. =)

Starting from being "Not Afraid". Credits to Eminem. xP

Sign, Enaj.

Movie Marathon

2011-05-09T11:23:00.001+08:00

1: Red Riding Hood: Mid Valley, KL.

Wanted to watch Thor that day, but it cost RM13 over there, so I thought come back and watch better lur, then watch RRH instead, student price cheaper. =)

Didn't want to watch it at first, because of Amanda Seyfried, wanted to watch it, because it seems nice, so I give in, I can ignore her stoic characters. The reason I dislike watching her acting is because it always leads back to the same character I knew her as, the one that I admired but grew to notice that's all that she's capable of, if you still remember, Jennifer's Body. Then I went on to watch Dear John, Chloe, Letters to Juliet, all of which featuring her as the main actress, and she failed miserably to impress me.

Okay, I don't like actors/actress that makes me think of their other characters, just like Harry Potter, if he's good enough, he'll be able to shed the character out of him, I haven't seen other movies of him, so I don't know. Anyway, in RRH, she is still so damn bored to watch at, but the movie is interesting, she's the only thing that isn't. ><"

2: Thor: Dataran Pahlawan, Melaka.

Wanted to watch it ever since I saw the trailer, not bad, nothing that surpass my expectation, as I don't have much for it, it's suffice, and worth watching.

3: Fast 5: DP, Melaka.

Now this, I will say, is action packed and full of adrenaline! Oh man, I love it when they out run the cops, haha, how charming, no? xD...N The Rock and Vin Diesel together?! That's like, damn! You can't get it any better. Hehe...waiting for Fast 6! Oh yea, the director say there will be one! WooHoo~!

脑残

2011-05-07T18:36:00.000+08:00

Video of a Crazy B*tch
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=143838322354031&oid=121766611168619

Blog of the Crazy B*tch
http://wwwcherryboom.blogspot.com/2011/05/tmd.html

我想，这种事，不必宣传，可是我在这，想说出的是，很多时候，the predator will make themselves seem like the victim, I've seen cases like those, but this is far from being a victim. No matter what the girl did to the other girl, she doesn't deserve to be treated that way.

I thought of something the other day, while watching Oprah about a mother who abuses her children and kidnapped a child.

This quote came to my mine: "Only a person with no conscience will be thrilled over the pain and hurt they cause another."...or should I only an eccentric? I seriously think these people do not have a right state of mind. A sane people will never do such a thing, we will always be happy when someone else is, not happy when someone else is not, that is just ain't right.

Seriously, sometimes u blame the education system, the family. But even when many are brought up in the same situation, only one is like that, so I guess it's more of influences from elsewhere, your own personality, you can't really put the blame on one party, I think it's more to self-conscience.

I only wish, this world, will have less brain damaged people.

Even animals, do not abuse, they only fight, for their rights, and survivals.

Sign, Enaj.

男人女人

2011-05-03T23:33:00.000+08:00

在这，又想谈到非诚勿扰了，

越看越觉得有些女的真的是，

一直不断地挑人家的毛病，

明知自己的缺点，

还者迷不误，

反而还想找个能容忍，

能包容她们一切缺点的人。

我知道，感情方面，

彼此都要懂得包容，

可是有些女生，

只希望别人包容她们，

也不想想自己有什么资格那样？

看了，我自己也想回自己，

我知道很多时候，

我也抢强词夺理，

我没那么好，

可是我觉得至少，

我不会总是挑人家的毛病，

我也知道自己哪里不好，

我唯一要做的，

是如何学会改善自己。

我在想，

也难怪有些女生没人要，

就算他们要人，

也未必有人能容忍，

如果站在台上的是我，

难道我还要这么的执着？

敢敢承认自己小气，爱吃醋，脾气不好的人，

还不懂得改善自己？

感觉就好像丢人显眼。

我在想，

如果把权力颠倒的话，

把二十四位美女换成二十四位帅哥，

那会是如何的结果？

我想女生不会被男生嫌弃得像她们嫌弃男生一样。

拜托，连我自己都不好意识说，

这些女生，真的是，

不懂谁受得了，

可是既然有人受得了我，

那么，一定有人，

受得了她们。

珊，上。

Genting Trip

2011-05-03T10:23:00.000+08:00

Okay, now where do I start this?

Went up to Genting on Saturday, Reach there around 6pm,

Heavy traffic along the way,

So dizzy in the car, @.@

We stayed at Ria Apartment,

Highest floor, at the Penthouse.

Not many ppl around at that time,

Just wait for Dinner,

Cousin Sis cook Bak Kut Teh!!!

So nice!! Hehe.

And wait for Sunday to come,

Went to Theme Park,

The crowd is crazy man,

Wait 1 hour just to sit 1 ride,

And so sad, I didn't get to watch the 4D...T.T...

Didn't have the time,

And we went back for tea time at 5pm,

Then I came back up with my friend at 8pm,

Meet with my other friend,

Had dinner,

Went to Padini,

Jalan sini jalan sana,

Waited for him to reach,

Finally he reach,

Then went walk2 wif him,

My ji mui go back to her place.

So happy to see them all,

He walked me back to the apartment,

And walked backed to his Hotel.

Monday morning went to the Chin Swee Temple on our way Back.

You know you get to write your wishes on a wooden plat?

We wrote ours and hang it on the highest floor,

At the Sky Terrace, it's a wonderful scene there.

And then we came down, and back to Melaka.

That's it.

Sign, Enaj.

个人观念

2011-04-27T17:32:00.000+08:00

闷，明天考作文，

现在，不知该读什么好，

希望我会写吧，

叫我篇故事还行，

叫我写论文嘛。

那倒是，有点难度的说。><"

好怕，英文对我来说，

都希望能考好，

特别有种不满自己的英文，

就是不甘愿，

觉得自己写得很好的同时，

还是觉得自己写得不够好？！

这怎么说呢？

就比如，我很满意自己的作品，

但从正确的写作方式来看，

我是否能达到一定的水准呢？！

><"...aiyo...

反正，其实我上来这，

不是要谈那个啦，

还是说明一下那个题目，

“所谓，个人的观点” 都因人而异，

人生本来就要像味道一样去品尝，

酸甜苦辣，

在我们成长的过程中，

都会遇到，

不忘了，咸，谈，点点的滋味。

因为某些人，

我却领悟到了，

做人，真的要学会，

宽容大度，懂得包容，

懂得释怀，也懂得谦虚，

这世上，应该，不多人能做到所谓的境界吧。

以我的个人观念，

我们可以想做一些人，

可是心态问题，

有点难度，

或许我这么说，

假如，

你想着，做慈善，

是因为，想上天堂，

这个心态其实，并不太好，

因为这说明，

你要求回报，

可是，很多时候，

你并不是这么认为，

只是自己心态自然而然会联想到，

把慈善和回报连在一起。

我们，总是，

在跟自己挣扎，

能让我们失去控制的，

没有别人，

只有自己，

我还真的是，

要学会调整一下自己的心态，

改善一下，自己的情绪。

我不是神，

我只是人，

好心，也要用在对的人，的身上，

有时候，好心，反而，害人害己。

+Life is all about seeing the world from a kaleidoscope, each of us see things differently, each of us percepts things our way.

珊，上。

Sad Case

2011-04-26T14:56:00.000+08:00

After reading what seems to be directed to me, I must say, it's pretty amazing, how someone can get mad at me, just for the "unfriendly comment" that I leave, as the person deem so, sigh, reality is hard, ppl, can be harsh, I know that, but, it makes me sad, deep down, really.

Not because of the way that someone was mad at me, but rather the way someone deals with a small matter so “小题大作”，it's okay, I learn from my own mistakes, I learn from ppl's mistake. Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned, I mean, well, hell hath no fury like any woman judged. Almost the same thing, never mess with a woman, that is why I like guys more, even as a girl, I don't rly like my own attitude, I know so, I admit so.

Anyway, if my comment offended anybody that I'm a frequent visitor to their blog, do let me know, you don't want me to comment, I stop commenting. It's hard you know? Trying to convince myself, that ppl can be better, that I myself can be better. It's really hard to believe, I wonder if I will stop believing, there are ppl who will actually get better, and there's actually a better person. That is “宽容大度”.

Nic, I gotto say, thanks for being my friend, I think I ought to stop "busy body" about ppl's life, since it makes no difference, the comments I leave them, and it actually makes them angry, that's not good rite? Step back, I'll learn to survive. That is why I'm so afraid of the real world, real ppl makes me scare, it's okay, they don't know me, they can judge me all they want. 我对得起自己的良心，我问心无愧，也许大家总是认为我的自以为是，可是我知道，不都是这样，我还需要成长，还需要成熟，可是我想，我还是要保留着小朋友的心态，今天难过，明天就忘了。

我只能说，我的出发点是好的，别人要说我什么，那是他们的自由，我不会生气，我已经习惯了，我只知道，没有人可以让你生气，佛说：“让自己生气的是自己而非别人。在别人伤害了你的时候，不要企图去报复。你放过了别人，也就放过了你自己。所以我们要善用智慧，不要总是用记忆来修理自己。每个人的角色不同、看法也不同，我们只要用包容的心来看待事情，也许就不会那么痛苦了。”

Sincerely, Enaj.

Ought to zip it. =|

2011-04-24T18:34:00.001+08:00

Hmm, I just realize something in me,
Perhaps it's good, perhaps it's bad,
It really depends how you see it,
As usual,
I always ended up making someone piss at me,
Not the first time, ain't gonna be the last,
But for the first time,
I wasn't pissed that those people are pissed at me,
Weird thing har?

I've learned sth actually,
Ppl who says I'm judgmental, sarcastic, or prejudice and etc.
It doesn't really matter.
Nobody will actually come out and say,
They are not either one of the above.
Who dares say so anyway?
I'm sure each of us will be one of those at times,
And when somebody thinks you're judging them,
Honestly, they're judging you as well,
Don't you think so?
That's what I think, anyway.

I guess, being friendly, or giving friendly advice,
Still doesn't work with me,
As I end up always being seen as the unfriendly person.
Sigh, so to say,
I'm not trying to defend myself or prove a point,
But, before you think someone else is judging you,
Perhaps you should check and see if you're doing so yourself.

So long then.

Sincerely, Enaj.

Shopaholic

2011-04-23T12:38:00.000+08:00

Haiz. Had some bad experiences while shopping online, kinda dissapointed ad.

Dunwan to shop online ad, where's the fun of it rite?

Sigh, wanna try and c n thk whether it's nice on me.

Stop shopping online Jane.

Yea, I seriously shud stop!

Feel cheated sumtimes,

All those unethical sellers, heh,

Fine fine, u wan continue cheat ppl continue la,

But I dunwan to be cheated ad.T.T..

U suck, earn ppl's money without conscience.

I alwiz thought of doing a business,

If one day I really can do that!!!

I will not be one of those unethical cheaters!

Yahar!

Actually not all that bad la, only sometimes. xP

But I alwiz end up buying things I don't wear or use. xD

Sign, Enaj.

Aku bosan ler...

2011-04-20T20:00:00.000+08:00

Sien..sien...sien...
Baru study until Chapter 4...sien...
Later study 2 more chapter...
Tomorrow finish another 4 chapter...
Sien..scan saje..
I thk har. tikam je la.><"

Sign, Enaj.

非诚勿扰

2011-04-16T16:04:00.001+08:00

最近爱上了看《非诚勿扰》，

中国收视率很高的节目。

题目的意思是【非有诚意的人，不要来打扰】

不是电影版，而是综艺节目，

其实也不算，

正确来说是相亲平台，

给单生男女机会寻找另一半，

也许大家会觉得这种节目很现实，

另外也不切实际，

为什么这么说呢？

也许两个陌生人从不同地方来，

不同岁数，不同观点，

能在一起是个不太可能的事吧？

的确，觉得有些参与的女生爱慕虚荣，

要不就看外表，看格子，

甚至是看对方的打扮都有，

却当中还是发现，

再好看，再有钱，再聪明的男生，

也不一定能让一个女生心动，

这证明了，

说到心动，

格外条件，都是多余的，

女生，往往要找的是，

靠谱的男人。

男生女生应该看看，

因为节目中时常会领悟到很多你忽略的东西。=)

希望大家能找到属于自己的幸福，不要说你没资格，要不就改进自己，要不就永远孤独。

珊，上。

Definitely, Maybe.

2011-04-14T23:34:00.000+08:00

Suppose to be studying, but instead I spend my time watching love movie, hehe.

Definitely, Maybe. A 2008 heart warming movie,

I'm sure most people will not actually sit through and finish it,

It's kinda boring in a sense,

But I have no idea why,

I just want to know how the story ends,

And I'm not the kind of person who flips to the end of the movie just to find out,

So I patiently sit through it all,

And it made me smile, and cry, and glad, for having feel the love of it.

The love that you can have for that special someone. =)

Sign, Enaj.

Pisau Cukur

2011-04-13T01:13:00.000+08:00

Just finish watching a Malaysian movie that I got from a friend,

Wanted to watch it when it was screened in the cinemas in 2009,

Directed by Bernard Chauly!!! The director of Gol & Gincu!

But, as usual, mana ada orang mau teman I pi tgk eh?

So glad I finally got the chance to watch it!

Really nice, hehe, and entertaining,

Humorous in a different way,

Light-hearted and you just go "aww", "ah", "oh"...all the time watching it. =D

Aku suka!

It really isn't about a "Pisau Cukur",

There's nth wrong for loving money,

But happiness is much more priceless. ^^

P/S: Aaron Aziz is just so charming! xP.

Sign, Enaj.

One Down!+What Da Heck

2011-04-12T14:18:00.000+08:00

Whee!!! Was so kan jiong up to this morning,

Was very kan jiong when I'm answering the questions,

Honestly when I saw the q's, I was a bit relief,

Bcoz I knew a bit about it,

But after answering it,

I'm not so sure anymore, haiz...

But, eh well,

What's passed is passed.

Prepare for next week's test!!!

Anyway, u noe,

I rly dislike dislike sama sekali,

Wif girls that goes dating with guys behind their bf's back,

Wth rite?

Seriously,

Can't u juz be faithful to a person?!

If ur juz hanging out, fine, it's alrite,

But not when the guy had a thg for u,

And ur giving them a chance to FALL for you,

I mean, y hurt another soul rite?

If u noe ur not gonna fall for them?

Feels so shitty,

I kinda pity the girls,

And maybe even the guys,

Can't you get a hang of urself?

Stay off girls that had a bf,

And for the girls,

Know ur limit. Heh.

That's all for today, tata!

Sign, Enaj.

+Aku x Suka.

2011-04-10T15:51:00.000+08:00

Aku x suka balik UKM,
But it's been a really unproductive week,
I thought I could study at home,
But I really couldn't.><"

Sigh, my stomach hurts like hell, again.
Nothing much to say,
Just this,
So long then.

Sign, Enaj.

Emotional Distress

2011-04-06T12:53:00.000+08:00

Was really emotionally unstable last night, while I was at it I went to take an Emotional Intelligence Test. Here's the results.

According to your self-report answers, your emotional intelligence is somewhat poor.

People who score like you may at times feel that they have trouble dealing with their own emotions and those of others.

They sometimes struggle to overcome difficulties in their lives and they are not always able to control their moods.

It may be hard for them to understand how best to motivate themselves to overcome obstacles and reach their goals. In addition, they find social interactions difficult at times, for several reasons.

They may have trouble allowing themselves to get close with others, finding it difficult to be vulnerable enough to establish intimacy or perhaps lacking understanding of, or comfort with, social interactions.

Perhaps by working on your problem areas, you can become more confident in dealing with your own emotions and those of others.

Nuff said.

Sign, Enaj.

Why on Earth?

2011-04-05T11:41:00.000+08:00

Why is it there's disaster in what seems like a "peaceful country"?

Why is it there's war in the land where everyone is already struggling to live?

What is it with the politicians for all the propaganda they throw at each other?

Has they got nothing better to do?

I thought the leaders are suppose to lead the nations?

But what are they doing?

Humiliating themselves?

All the sex videos,

And one that is "hot topic" recently,

I honestly don't buy a thing they say about him?

I don't know the truth,

But if someone do it on purpose to frame him?

It's not so Coincidentally they got him on tape rite?

N they can't even prove the man is him?

Back to the sodomy thingy?

I thk he's been framed as well.

Let me make this clear,

I'm not supporting him,

But who in their right mind after being "sodomized" by a man,

Will come out and admit it?

That too on his own free will?

So STUPID or what?

Wouldn't he be ashamed if it's true?

The only reason I can think of is because someone OFFERED him a large amount of money,

Money can do alot of things ya noe?

Even admitting for sumthg u nvr did.

There's sth xtremely wrong wif the Politicians,

Acting like kids when they're suppose to be the Adults,

Giving me the feeling that the older people gets,

The stupider and senseless they get,

Now I only wish I'm not gonna end up as one of them,

The one whose mind DETERIORATES as they age.

Idiotic.

They seriously don't care about the people don't they?

All they care about is bringing each other down,

So sad to see that right?

Unfortunately, that's just the case.

The reason I'm typing this is because I'm sick of the news in the newspaper in the front page all the time, don't they have better NEWS to report? Duh.

P/S: I wonder if they'll detain me using ISA since they seriously have got NOTHING better to do? Lol. I'm being cynical.

Sign, Enaj.

Eaten Much?

2011-04-04T18:23:00.000+08:00

Hmm, I wonder what's in my tummy,
Feel so bloated, sigh...
But I keep wanting to eat, eat n eat,
But I can't...Sigh...

Y??? Tummy too small,
I can't take in so much,
Haven't had my sate celup,
I wanna eat...

Sigh, no mood to study eh?
Juz scan thru a chapter today,
Will do wif another chap in awhile,
Wot do I do eh?
Sigh...

Sign, Enaj.

World Invasion

2011-04-02T00:06:00.000+08:00

Kena tarik pi tgk wayang ni...

Lalala, fair n square la,

Almost he teman me,

I have to do the same oso ma, hee..

As long as it's not horror movie,

Which neither of us watch,

There's not much problem, hehe...

Even though it's sci-fi,

Damn dun like watching sc-fi,

But it's more action-packed than alien-shooting,

I don't have much to comment on it honestly,

Except for my crying part[well, i always sob when the character dies.><"]

Yea yea, I know it ain't real.><"

And well, I think for any invasion movies like this,

The "Human" or the "Protagonist" always win isn't it?

Even though in the beginning the "antagonist" is so power-packed,

So much more advanced than the "Protagonist",

But human's will power will overcome anything,

At least that happens in movies all the time.

Anyway, some people say it sucks,

But well,

I don't have high expectations for movies,

I try to enjoy it as much as I can,

Except for ghost movies,

So yea la,

Watch it if u like this kind of movies,

That's all.

It got me thinking thou,

That if human were to perish,

If the world does not perish first,

The fear is actually there,

Where do we go when we move on?

I wonder.

We probably get separated from our friends n family in the after world isn't it?

That's just so sad to me.

But human don't live long,

We die, and we vanish.

Sign, Enaj.

Tenji

2011-03-30T11:11:00.000+08:00

Hello there, for the 1st time,

I'm gonna write a Review,

Of Food.

Guh,

How do I start eh?

6pm+ got into the car,

7.30pm reach Tenji, at Solaris Mont Kiara[Rich ppl's place],

Take the Dinner Buffet.

4 of us already RM306+.

Imagine that, one person RM75+,

But I fork out RM50 only,

My friend say they'll pay the rest for me because they really wanted to go,

Wanted to give them back but they didn't want it,

Haiyak,

Next time treat them la.

But seriously,

Even for RM50,

Buffet is never worthy for me to eat,

And for RM75,

The food is not WORTHY for anyone to eat,

The only thing I actually like is the LAMB and "Lala",

Other than those, the rest sux,

And even the lamb, got worse the second round we took it,

All the food is so SALTY,

SALT so cheap sampai pakai letak je ke?

Siao.

The last time I went to a Buffet is in Sibaraku Melaka,

Also a Japanese Buffet,

I thought that sucks,

Now that I think of it,

It's so much BETTER,

And only RM27++,

That also dinner time,

Lunch only RM17++,

Lol rite?

The difference is so much,

RM50 difference,

And yet it sucks compared to the CHEAPER ones.

Guh, it's right when they say Quality is always better than Quantity,

Sure, Tenji has lots of choices and food,

But what good does it do when half of it sucks?!

Never want to eat a buffet more than RM30 anymore,

When I can eat NICER ones less than that price,

><"

And they say TENJI is nicer than Jogoya,

But those who went Jogoya also said there not that nice,

Instead they say TAO nicer,

And TAO is only half the price of both of it,

Crazy, the reason I went there is because my friend wanted me to accompany her,

Sigh, n juz for ONE time experience,

I mean it,

I never want to go to these places anymore,

Sucks, sucks, sucks.

One word: SUCKS.

Sign, Enaj.

Essays!!!

2011-03-28T22:42:00.000+08:00

Done with the Five Essays!!

That I think is not up to standard!

But sudahlah!

Asalkan dah siap!

Sudah frust giler dah!!!!

Fuh..

Finish with that suddenly don't know what else to do..><"

Somebody still so busy,

No time for me also...sigh...

Dah la, when I busy, he not busy,

When I finish busy, he still busy. ><"

Aiks, buat apa ya? Tgk wayang je la. =D

Sign, Enaj

幸福的定义

2011-03-27T18:24:00.001+08:00

幸福，因人而异，

有些人觉得婚姻能带给他们幸福，

有些人迫不及待要个小孩，

而我，只想享受我跟他的二人世界，

不受其他因数干扰。

跟他在一起快八个月了，

短短八个月给我养肥了五公斤。><"

他的养肥计划失败，

要我肥反而自己肥。。xP

我说，他肥别人觉得不帅，

我一个人觉得帅就好了。。哈哈。。。xD

我只是觉得，

幸福，

看自己怎么打造吧？

结婚容易，成家难。

婚姻，不单是一种承诺，也是一种责任。

希望结婚的朋友们幸福吧。=)

珊，上。

纳闷

2011-03-26T20:02:00.000+08:00

唉，为什么别人总是体谅不到别人呢？

真的是让我好失望，

虽然明知道他们的本性是如此，

所谓的朋友在大学，

都是有异性没人性，

无言。

在大学那样，在家有一个样，

讲不听的小孩，

每次回来房间更乱，

真的是受不了啊！！！！

火滚。

给自己的话：不需因为那些无知的人发脾气。

珊，上。

Mong Cha Cha

2011-03-25T22:25:00.001+08:00

Haiz, for the first time I nearly didn't pass up my assignment,

It's a group work actually,

But I hold the whole file,

And nobody in my group knew we had to pass it today as well..><"

And when my group member did pass up,

I just realize I left out the conclusion..T.T...

Sigh, not quite a good day,

Even though I did pass up my assignment and all,

Today I just want to give my mind a break after rushing so many assignment in a week!

No wonder I blur ad.><"

Sign, Enaj.

Behind the Scene

2011-03-24T14:08:00.000+08:00

Honestly, I'm the kind of person who prefers to stay behind the scene,

Rather than get infront of it and take charge.

Take for example a scene in a play,

I rather be the camera man than the director anytime.

But here, I can't be the camera man,

I have to be the director in order to get things done,

I'm thinking it in a positive way,

At least I don't feel as bad then,

That when you take the lead,

It is fair enough to say that you will never be left behind.

I'm taking it as an opportunity for me to organize and take charge,

And I'm gonna stay like that if no one has an opinion about the way I do things,

Easy said, easy done,

Simple as that,

If no one's gonna take charge, I will.

Why bother with the fuss?

When nobody wants to be in the limelight?

Just get on with it and get the job done.

Period.

Sign, Enaj.

Satirize

2011-03-22T14:01:00.000+08:00

Been doing a blog assignment,

Poetry assignment,

Now essay-ing,

Half done,

Today only one hour class, so I skipped it,

Can finish my essay today, whee~! =D

Some people just so damn annoying,

Honestly, the very people that gets on my nerves aren't people who are frank,

But people who just satirize you on purpose or not,

Whatever it is, it gives me the feeling that they think they are superior.

Benci aku tau,

Ppl who alwiz thk they are better than evryone else,

Even for the fact that they are,

Only makes them a fool instead of a wise man,

This is the theory,

That a fool does not show himself as a fool but as a wise man,

Instead, it is the wise that always present himself as a fool and be humble and learn.

Okay, 5 minutes blogging, now return to my essay,

Catch ya later,

And don't satirize ppl ok?

You're only making a fool of urself when u make a fool of others.

I wonder, when are they gonna stop talking shit,

And start talking sense.

Sign, Enaj.

我开始讨厌。

2011-03-20T18:47:00.001+08:00

我开始讨厌什么？

从来不讨厌别人的我，

尽然开始讨厌"某些人"？

原因是，

我问罢了哦，

不是叫他们帮我什么哦，

他们的回复就只有，

“问你的男朋友啦。”

拜托，不是每件事我都要问他好不好，

可不可以实际一点啊，

现在不是我把他当成一切，

而是别人把他说到是我的全部，

很够无聊的咯这些人，

问也是白问，

这种朋友，

真的是，不值得交。><"

珊，上。

关于爱情

2011-03-19T08:45:00.003+08:00

大家早上好，今天我要谈关于爱情。

每一个人对爱情的看法都不一样，

不是每一段恋情都一样，

你要知道，感情是因人而异的事。

很多人，很喜欢告诉我说，

“你还没体会过，所以你不明白。”

“等有天你伤了，你就会理解了。”

从他们的口中说出的那些话，

已经有着对爱情一半的悲观了，

乐观的人是不可能说这种话。

因为对乐观的人来说，

“They live in the moment.”

哪一天伤透了，哪一天才来决定，

而我，从不后悔自己做过的决定，

喜欢过的，与爱过的人。

一直怀着悲观的心情，

只会限制自己不全心全意，

因为害怕伤害，害怕疼痛。

我想说的是，

很多人，

总是被身边的人影响，

才会照成一连串的分手戏，

你要知道，关于爱情，

从不允许第三者的出现，

自己的感情，自己做主，

不要因为别人的意见，

别人的过去，别人的经历，

而影响自己的信任。

不管发生什么事，

人的适应能力很强，

总得要学会释怀。

人生说短不短，

说长不长，

爱情，只是一部分，

不要让它占有了你所有的人生。

PS: 也许有天我会受伤害，也许有天我会有同感，但我要提醒自己，不这么想，因为那样只会让我失去人生一半的快乐。凡事以乐观的角度去想，我也许做不到，但我会试着相信。

珊，上。

Escape from Reality

2011-03-16T17:32:00.002+08:00

Every moment I spent with him,

I get to escape from reality,

Just momentarily,

I find myself again,

Instead of losing it,

Yet another time. =)

Sign, Enaj.

The Sad Reality

2011-03-15T18:11:00.000+08:00

It's true when my parents said that they are only generous in helping their own kind,

At least I know a part of them are,

It's rly sad,

That someone I know said there is no need to donate or help Japan as it is a RICH country,

I'm like "What?"

Then he continue by saying that "It's better we use the money to help our own ppl."

Seriously?

I mean, guh,

The minute I know a person to be like that,

Is the minute you get an "X" from me.

It's really sick that even when disaster strikes,

People are still racist and discriminates,

Don't you at least have a sense of Conscience?

I didn't know we are only supposed to help our OWN KIND?!

What the heck is our OWN KIND anyway?

To me there's only one kind of us,

That is Human,

If you don't wanna help the animals,

Itu u punya pasal,

But if ur not gonna help other humans,

No one is gonna help u in return.

I still remember a friend of mine that was asked by my teacher to donate blood,

He replied: "So many people donate, don't need me already."

We're all like, "What the crap."

Can I just change the sentence and say: "So many people alive, don't need another one to be?"

Duh, I'm being rly sarcastic rite now.

Seriously, some people are just really really, guh, I don't even know how to put it,

Get a life, do what you wish others do for you,

If Malaysia is the one that has disaster,

Wouldn't you hope people from everywhere helps us as well?

If there's no help,

Simply let Malaysia Perish?><"

Btw, here's a link for you to simply donate RM3, only click if you're actually SINCERE enough. Duh.

Japan Relief Fund

Sign, Enaj.

Jane Hari Ini

2011-03-14T19:57:00.000+08:00

Hello ther, woke up, got to class, pass up my essay[That is actually wrong],

Whatever, don't care ad,

Don't feel well, so didn't go to the other class,

Go back room,

Makan twiggies,

Rehat sekejap,

Masak Maggi,

Makan ubat,

Tidor...

Go class again,

Bak room,

Write essay,

1 essay down! Yipee~!!! xD.

Ok, that's all for today,

Finish report. =P

Sign, Enaj.

Boring!!!

2011-03-13T23:11:00.000+08:00

Guh, don't like to come bak UKM,

I only like coming back here to c him,

Not to do my work n go classes...zzz

Sien le, wu liao-ing,

Duno wot 2 do,

Lazy 2 read, lazy to write,

Practically being rly lazy rite now.><"

Okay, lazy to blog d. Bye.

Sign, Enaj.

In the Midst of Everything

2011-03-12T14:55:00.000+08:00

Gosh, must I be the Planner of everything?
Taking 5 mins off while I'm trying to think how to write my essay,
In the midst of replying my friend's and coursemates msgs,
Is it me? Or is everyone used to me being the Planner?
That it doesn't change even in Uni.
Every group work I have to take lead in University,
Every event I have to organize back in my hometown.

I don't even have time to do my own part of the assignment,

When I have to assign people to do theirs,

And help them with it.><"

And helping everyone celebrate their birthday,

Seriously,

After having celebrated so many ppl's birthday.

I'll be happy just to be with the ones that mattered most on my birthday,

Nothing else.

Okay,

Time's out,

Gonna continue cracking my head for my essay,

So long then.

Sign, Enaj.

Tears Dripping

2011-03-11T23:00:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm h sure everyone knows about the Earthquake that happened in Japan,
Where it is really severe it literally eats up the place.
I'm really emotional to the state that knowing so cause me to burst into tears,
And I never even seen the video or read the news,
You see,
I cry every time I read this kind of news, or watch this kind of news,
So, I just pray that things will get better.

We can only pray can't we?
The Earth is Shaking,
The Sky is Roaring,
The Gods are Angry,
Now, we're doom.

I'm not being pessimistic,
But human are seriously sick,
There's a point in the movie Clash of The Titans,
I think this time,
We really made them Mad,
Or perhaps, they are fighting among each other,
Amen, Amin, Amitofo,
Whatever it is,
Human are one,
We are all the same,
White, Black, Yellow,
We all have the same insides.

Hope it's a better, brighter day, tomorrow.

Sincerely, Enaj.

Birthdays

2011-03-11T17:27:00.000+08:00

Ever since I came back to Uni, been celebrating lots of birthday,

I mean seriously,

I lost count of it already.

Lol, ever the mix evrybody girl,

Dah biasa dah.

Anyway, I honestly think you don't need everybody to help celebrate ur bday,

It means so much more spending time with ones that mattered most,

Family, Best Friends, BF, etc.

I'm home, having flu after a very bad headache,

Sigh, tired, even thou I did nothing,

Feels like this all the time.

Y'know, sometimes I doubt my own existence,

Whether what I felt is true and evrythg,

Feels so strange at times.

That's all for today,

Ought 2 start on my hmwrk, SOON.

Sign, Enaj.

Shutting Out

2011-03-10T15:14:00.000+08:00

Feel like shedding myself out from the world right now,

Just want to be inconspicuous,

Unnoticeable,

Remain as in-distinctive as I never was. ><"

Sign, Enaj.

Like the Weather

2011-03-09T17:10:00.001+08:00

Was sunny this morning,

Afternoon it's cloudy,

Now it's just plain rain,

Except I haven't rain,

And not going to,

Just that,

Feels tired today,

And my stomach doesn't really feel good still,

Hmm,

Bored,

Have things to do,

I shall go do it now,

Talk later then,

Sigh.

Sign, Enaj

Pain

2011-03-08T16:36:00.000+08:00

Tummy ache again, took 2 ponstan and decided not to go class.

[I know I know, don't take so much medicines,

I only took it because it hurts really bad lor,

Sampai xleh bangun tau. ><"]

But it seems that it is cancel again,

Lol, yesterday didn't go class cancel,

Hari ni x pi pun cancel.

Nasib baik. xP

Was feeling rather guilty for not going,

But feel better now, physically.

Ah Jane ah Ah Jane,

Apa nak buat dgn kau,

Asyik sakit je.><"

Ah Jane: Aku pun xnak...T.T..

So hmm, while I'm free,

Might as well do my hmwrk lor. Hehe. xD

Okla, chao dulu. ^^

Sign, Enaj.

Beastly

2011-03-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

Gosh, it's the same guy!!!

Haha, no wonder he looks so familiar, the main actor of I am Number Four.

The reason I was doubtful if it was him is because he doesn't look good in Number Four,

In Beastly, he's just such a Beauty. If you get what I mean. xP

Ok, yea, it's cliche,

I'm a sucker for this kind of movie,

I just love to enjoy watching love once in awhile,

In melts your heart, no?

Well, you must be cold blooded then,

I know I know,

It's chick's stuff,

Guys rarely dig this kind of movie,

Sigh, the ever difference of guys and girls.

I pulled sum1 to watch with me anyway,

Hehe, bad girl,

Always make him watch this kind of movies,

But he always make me watch serious movies anyway,

Which I just wanna close my eyes and fall aslp. xP

So fair and square rite? =P

That's all, going to bed now. Tata.

Sign, Enaj.

Weighing the Importance

2011-03-07T10:25:00.000+08:00

At times I wonder,

Which is more important?

Some people can neglect their studies for extra-activities,

Some people can skip class for one month straight knowing it will get them barred from the exam,

I mean, is it worth it honestly?

What does the whole activity mean if you get messed up in your schedules?

I wonder,

My time management sux,

So yea,

They say we can learn time management at those activities,

But from what I see,

That ain't the case,

Instead it creates stress,

Causing them to skip class, and etc.

Strange eh?

Anyway, some ppl r rly strange,

They hev time to FACEBOOK,

But no time to do their work?!

What the fish.

I don't even want to bother anymore,

Keeping my mouth shut is the best I can do,

Before I slash out and blah blah blah,

And get blah blah blah myself,

We don't want a war now do we?

So yea, your business is none of my business,

I learn that,

Y do I care if u dun even care?

Seriously I mean,

Sick of caring for sum1 who doesn't even care for themselves.

If you nid my help,

Ask me sincerely.

That's all I'm asking.

Lesson for the Day: Give a damn about yourself if you ever want somebody to give a damn about you.

Sign, Enaj.

Peanut Butter

2011-03-06T18:41:00.001+08:00

Now, I'm gonna talk about this,

As I just ate a Peanut Butter Bread.

1st of all, I do not like Peanut,

2nd of all, I do not like Butter,

But Peanut + Butter.

That is just so yummy!!!!!

Hehe.

You know my mum use to make us bring breads to school every single day,

That we got really sick of eating bread,

But she changes the inside all the time,

Sometimes jams, sometimes eggs, sandwich, tuna, kaya, etc.

She rarely puts peanut butter,

But I come to like Peanut Butter very much!

More than jams and wotsoever!

I realize that, as I get older,

My appetite changes,

And strangely,

I changed to one specific food or drinks,

Say for drinks,

My favourite is actually Sky Juice,

Unbelievable izit?

But it's true,

Or maybe because I need it so much. Haha.

Eh well, just talking about Peanut Butter,

In UKM now btw,

Waiting for him to have my dinner[supper].

Bye bye. ^^

Sign, Enaj.

Buying the Brand

2011-03-05T16:30:00.002+08:00

Just finished another essay! 2 more to go. Sien.

Anyway, serious topic today,

I'm gonna talk about something to do with money,

Lots of money,

Brands? No, it's not the chicken essense that we take.

It is the branded goods and stuff people are crazy about.

Personally,

I go for quality rather than the brand itself,

I buy items that are actually worth the price or worth so much more,

Rather than buying a RM1K item that worth only RM100 when you can actually get a RM100 item that is probably better, nicer and longer lasting.

When you talk about brands,

There are many different range of it,

Those that are common and affordable in Malaysia are Esprit, MNG, Roxy, Quicksilver, Carlo Rino and etc.

Yea, those are the common ones,

As for me, I usually just spend my money on RM100 and below shop, namely Padini, Brands Outlet, Kitschen, Nichii, Summit and etc.

Here's the thing, many people on the other hand,

Are crazy over Coach, Gucci, Prada, LV, Burberry,

Where the price starts from RM1K and above.

Seriously, if you give me RM1K, I'll rather spend it on a laptop rather than a bag,

I mean, for those that read, give them RM1K, and they can probably stock up 40-50 novels.

In my point of view, it's just not worthy,

If I'm gonna spend that kind of money,

It will never exceed RM500,

Say for example, a watch, or spectacles, or sun glasses,

You can get decent ones below that price.

You can even get nice ones below RM50,

So yea,

I'm more interested in spending my money on something that actually serves purpose,

Like a camera, a phone, or etc.

Yea, otherwise known as gadgets.

Anything over RM100 that serves no purpose really has no purpose. ><"

Spend your money wisely,

Not on the unnecessary,

Think about it,

If you buy a gold at the price of RM1K,

You can actually get back atleast half of the price,

But branded stuff?

They just get de-value every second the clock ticks.

That's all from me,

C ya later!

Sign, Enaj.

Sleepy

2011-03-04T19:28:00.000+08:00

I'm in Melaka now,

Didn't plan to back this weekend,

But since "somebody" not free,

Come back lor.

Miss "him" ad...

I'm being very sticky right now. Hehe.

I wanna watch Beastly!! Adapted from a novel as well. Practically a modern Beauty & The Beast Story.

Gonna find someone and watch wif me,

Wanted to watch it wif him actually,

But not his kind of movies anyway,

So oklor,

N I wanna slp awhile la,

After having finish one essay,

3 more to go. ><"

Sign, Enaj.

Cameras!

2011-03-02T19:37:00.003+08:00

Damn. I wanna get my hand on either one of those.
For people who wants to take good pictures with affordable price,
I'll suggest a semi-pro camera,
As it's light, and for amateur,
They can take better pictures than those DSLR cameras.
Below are some pictures of cameras that will allow you to take good decent pictures.
Some using films, some digital.
Ofcourse, for long term usage the digital ones will be much more affordable,
But nothing beats a film camera,
If I had the money,
I'll still opt for cameras using films,
Most of the times, the cameras itself is Cheap, is it the Film that eats you up. ><"

1. Nikon FM3-Semi Pro SLR
Price Range: 2.5K-4K[With/Without Lens]

2. Fujifilm Instax mini 50S-Instant Film Camera
Price: RM660

3. Canon Powershot S5 IS-Semi Pro DSLR
Price Range: 1K-2K

4. Olympus Pen E-PL1
Price Range: RM2.5K-3K
That's all for the moment, all my dream cameras, gotta go, laterz. ^^

Footprints in the Sand

2011-02-28T20:59:00.000+08:00

We leave footprints in the sand, so that it will be washed away by the waves,

People nowadays, leave footprints online,

As my lecturer says, Facebook & Blogspot.

She said that it's risky to put up our true self for people to see,

Here's the thing, if we don't put our true self,

Do we fake ourselves and let everyone know Mr.Hyde instead of Dr.Jekyll?

Which is the real one anyway?

By means of not posting anything -negative,

Does it include emotional, sentimental, sad, angry posts?

If it is, if we can't even do it on Social Networks，

Where else can we vent our Frustration?

Our Dissatisfaction?

She said don't post anything that we wouldn't say so in real life,

Here's the thing,

We post anything we Will actually say so in Real Life.

I don't get Baby Boomers, seriously,

However in tune they try to get with us,

They still don't get us.

That's the generation gap I'm talking about.

Anyway, enough about that,

For now, I'm being discipline enough and attending every class from now,

It's started to get on my nerves not going to class,

When people who goes to class do not even have an idea what to do even being inform in class?

Yea, they tell me what to do,

But I have no idea what they are talking about,

Neither do they,

Perhaps it's something to do with the lecturers,

Some are just god damn annoying,

Like this one particular Prof,

Gosh, we know you're Prof,

But he has not the decency to treat us in a manner where it is Prof like.

Adakah wave his hand and ask one of my friends to "Pergi"?

It's like asking her to "Blah", she's just standing infront of him.

Duh, weirdo.

I say I'm going to be a good girl,

And go to class myself,

I'm gonna ki siao depending on others,

Even though I alwiz skip class due to physical reason,

I'll try to make myself healthy enough to actually attend classes!

Seriously annoying.

Today's Lesson: You don't have to be Young to be Rude. Some people never learn their Manners.

Sign, Enaj.

I am Number Four

2011-02-27T19:16:00.000+08:00

Yay!!! Watched the movie!

Adapted from a young adult science fiction novel.

A Sci-Fi movie that I actually look forward to watch!

FYI: I don't like Sci-Fi u c, not a fan of Star Wars all that.

After having to wait 3 Hours at Alamanda!!!

Which is at Putrajaya.

Yea, that's 180 minutes! I think it's even more than that, lol.

It's because 10 something all Full House already. ><"

Honestly, I have not much clue what it's about,

And in the very beginning, it looks so...FAKE...

The CGI that is.

That I thought this movie is going to suck.

But no,

I think it's actually quite good,

When it comes to the plot,

Even though there's still some cliche in it,

Where the super power guy falls for a small town girl,

He should have fall for the super power girl for a change! xD

But then, they'll be super power lovers? xP

I sense a sequel coming up,

Surely looking forward to it,

Something different than ever,

Although it's quite similar to Superman concept,

Where they come from another planet,

Aliens as we call,

But resembles our look,

So yea,

Worth to watch though.

Here are some pictures of those aliens and earthling~!

The guy: Number 4

The girl next to him: His Love

The other girl: Number 6

Warning: Watch it on your own leisure. Don't find me if it's not nice. xD

Sign, Enaj.

Finally, It's Over

2011-02-26T16:08:00.000+08:00

Feel so sleepy right now,

Suppose to do my essay, gosh,

Can't do anything when I'm sleepy. ><"

25/2/2011: Pesta Ang Pow Kolej Rahim Kajai, UKM.

We are small, we are not united, some even do not see eye to eye,

But together we do our job, and finish it up!

At the end of the day,

It doesn't really matter,

We did what we can,

We see their true colours,

We learn from our mistakes,

We trust to be better.

Anyway, I'm one of the Cosplayers, which I still can't figure out which character, even thou the outfit is like Angel Sanctuary/Soul Eater/Gintama/Trinity Blood. But, it's none of it. ><".

Show u d pic, if u can identify it, let me noe k? xD...spot me 1st that is. =P

The Thorn among the Roses!!! Yay!! I finally got the chance to portray a guy character!!! Haha, syok yer, I luv guys clothes, but, u noe la, will nvr be able 2 fit into it, 2 thin jor. xD

Now that PAP is over, it's time to finish up my homework, and etc.

Sign, Enaj.

Invasion of Privacy

2011-02-22T20:16:00.000+08:00

Great, our lecturer ask us to add her on Facebook,

That's just so fun isn't it?

The previous lecturer ask us to do a survey,

If it's ok, for university students like us to be friends with our lecturer,

On Facebook.

The answer is No, it's not okay,

It's so, weird, being friends with them,

What's with all your quirky pictures and emotional status for them to see,

It will somehow affect the way they think about you if they see it, don't cha think?

That's what I think.

Anyway, gonna finish up my work asap.

Tired of it, sick of it, dunwan 2 do it,

Numb of it already,

I'm gonna turn myself into a robot,

N dun hev any feelings but simply complete my work,

That's how they train the soldiers anyway,

Lol. Catch you later.

Sign, Enaj.

Motivation Needed

2011-02-22T01:29:00.000+08:00

Seriously, went to one class today, I never did concentrate in class,

So when the lecturer call my name I was like, huh?

Dreaming away, I'm sure that is the exact reason she called out my name,

Been skipping her classes all the time,

I just find excuse not to go everytime,

Kinda sick with classes and assignments.

Unlike 1st Sem,

We pour our heart out doing our homework,

But then we got rly dissapointed,

Bcoz after all the hard work,

We score just averagely,

So it's not discouraging and from then,

We started to not pay to much attention to the little details.

Everything agak2 do is enuf,

Don't have to be so perfect,

Finish assignment, done, pass up, that's all.

Fed up, no wonder my lecturer says she doesn't see the kind of motivation in 2nd year student,

Even me, as a 1st year is starting to lose the motivation,

I have no idea who to blame, perhaps myself?

That I wasted too much time last sem doing something,

Yet I did not get the result that I want in the end,

It's rly frustrating when ppl alwiz judge u based on ur results,

I've already realized that since secondary school,

But it's rly damn right annoying.

I need to find the motivation to sort out everything,

And seriously do my assignment,

I feel so shitty right now,

After having finish one assignment,

And a pile more to go. ><"

No one can help you but yourself,

Get a grip.

Sign, Enaj.

Introducing Lil Enaj.

2011-02-21T14:16:00.000+08:00

Lalala, got a new hp...

Hehe, happy~

Here's the model.

Nokia X3-02 Touch & Type Lilac colour. Her name's Lil Enaj. =D

The Best of Both World. ^^

I never liked nokia, wanted to get an SE phone, but dis is much worthy than SE, n bsides, I actually like d design, Slim and Sleek. Loving it. ^^. Still prefer a keypad. Then I don't have to look at it to sms. Hehe. xP

Now I'm gonna jimat2 sikit bfor I finish dis sem n get a job to pay for all my other expenses. Still surviving for the time being.

Sign, Enaj.

A Short Update!

2011-02-18T21:12:00.000+08:00

Hello there, type some stuff here bfor I goes bak 2 Melaka n try to finish my assignment in the midst of going out n lepakking wif my frenz. Gonna be bz for the weekend! Assignment due on tuesday. Now oni wan 2 start. Biasalah budak uni. zzz.

Ok, went to Alamanda Putrajaya today,

What for? Watch movie,

Been a frequent movie hang out place for me these days,

Y? Bcoz somebody like to go ther n watch,

Since it's convenient n near,

So what did I watch?

...deng deng deng...

I actually went to watch Sanctum,

Which I didn't think the trailer was interesting,

I thought it's sc-fi so I wasn't interested,

But it's nt sci-fi, it's not so nice, it's not so not nice either,

Average movie that questions the humanity of human,

And now I know why they had to classified it as 18 and above,

Because some scenes are just so yucky,

Not as yucky as Saw, but still yikes, disgusting,

That I don't even dare to see...

Bloods, Meat, Corps. ><"

Grr, he close my eyes in those scenes,

Juz cudn't bare it. @.@

Otherwise I sure have nightmare.

Then we went to Carrefour and bought 30 boxes that contained 18 mandarin orangers in it, that's 180 times 3, so many for what are? Later u will noe lor. xD...for publicity purpose. lalala.

Sign, Enaj.

Happy Chap Goh Mei!

2011-02-17T15:32:00.001+08:00

Was suppose to have our Pesta Ang Pow today,

But unfortunately, we had to postpone it until next friday,

Sad rite? Since today is the last day of CNY.

Anyway, I don't know what to look forward for,

What I do know is I ought to spend my start doing my assignments starting tomorrow,

Due date Feb 22, lol.

Sigh, bored, sien, ought to do my other assignment now, tata.

This is the banner that I did for the Pesta Ang Pow, actually this is not the final version, but I don't know where I put the final version ad, hehe. xD

Sign, Enaj

Hysteria

2011-02-16T18:51:00.001+08:00

Hmm, a girl had hysteria for the past two days,
I don't want to talk about it, in fact, I just want to forget about it,
Couldn't sleep well last night,
Kept waking up in the middle of the night, ><".
Hope I get to sleep well tonight,
I admit, I'm a scary cat,
That is why I rather not know than knowing,
What you don't know doesn't hurt. ><"

The Scream by Edvard Munch
Sign, Enaj.

What Woman Want?

2011-02-15T11:44:00.000+08:00

Whee, so happy~

Went to watch "What Woman Want" in Mid Valley yesterday,

"Force" sumbody to watch wif me, hehe,

So many ppl neh,

Bought the front row tickets,

Full house yo.

Here's the thing, it's a chinese adaptation of an English movie,

In the year 2000, maybe it's been screened here before,

But I'm only 10, so who knows, hehe.

Like watching Andy Lau's movie anyway,

Just like I like watching Shah Rukh for Hindi movies,

Old but, they still have such charisma don't you think?

Mature guys are so much more attractive. xD

But any guys that are older than me is mature than me, hehe. xP

Erm, okay, back to the movie,

That "somebody" actually say it's nice at the end,

Hehe, u noe la, guys dun watch this kind of movie,

Wonder y girls like to watch dis kind of movie,

They like 2 watch comedies, actions, sci-fi,

Love story is just so...heh heh.

Glad that "somebody" enjoy it lor. hehe. xD

Went to eat "Sushi King" neh,

Whee~Had my "Golden Ball"!

Me likey likey very much. ^^

So that's all for my Valentine's Report. =)

XOXO, Enaj.

Phase Out.

2011-02-12T13:24:00.006+08:00

Forgot to mentioned something yesterday.

Something to do with books.

I used to be an avid followers of fantasy storybooks,

Especially blood suckers that is made up of vampires, fairies, and etc.

Even the immortals.

But somehow, after I entered Uni,

I started to lose interest in it altogether,

This including the series that I've collected,

And have not finish reading.

Somehow,

All the books that is categorized under teen readers don't attract me anymore,

Perhaps because I'm not in my teen anymore?

Even though I'm still a young adult,

But perhaps I'm searching for something much more sophisticated,

Something that is in the fiction department without a less than 20 years old hero or heroin.

When I pick up a book and read the synopsis at the back,

Written there 16-year-old girl, 17-year-old guy etc,

I just put it back down,

I'm not a teen anymore,

I don't want to know about the story of vampires and wolves,

I don't give a damn about their childish play of love story,

Those weren't romance,

Those were flings,

Yea, puppy love and whatsoever,

I could die for you,

Then go ahead and die,

I realize now that it isn't realistic,

So I'm going for something much more realistic,

Something that perhaps a realist fiction?

Anyhow, there are a few books which I would recommend,

Out of the category of young adults,

And are my top favourites of different genres,

1# Psychological Thriller

2# Chick Lit

3# Suspense Thriller

So yea, those are the books I'm searching for, the ones that always stay fresh in my memory.

Gonna stock up on books later,

As for my TEEN books,

They are history,

Can open a library for ppl to look thru. xD

Sign, Enaj

New Layout!

2011-02-11T18:25:00.002+08:00

Am gonna keep it simple this time,

The reason I revert back to dark colours is so that I can post funky colours for the words. Hehe.

Like this.

Anyway, went to watch movie with my dear today, hehe. ^^

So happy, lalala~

Even though I didn't want to watch that movie,

I Love Hong Kong, not a fan of HK comedies,

But they never fail to make me laugh,

So I'll still live with it, xP

So hmm, going back Melaka in an hour's time,

Better pack my stuff, and c u ther! =)

Lots of Love, Enaj

样|子

2011-02-09T23:04:00.000+08:00

人，总是喜欢以貌取人，总是喜欢看美丽的人，事，物。

却往往看不见一个人真正的本心在哪里？

我知道，自己也是那个总是看样子的人，

我对人，很多时候也被他们的外表而影响了自己的态度，很可耻吧？

这里，我想说，我发觉了，

真正值得交的朋友，不是漂亮有钱的，

而是再不好看，再不有钱也会讲义气的，

我的身边，真的有那种朋友，

反而好看，学业好，家里有钱的，

原来，本质一点都不搭他的外表，

听了，我觉得自己太单纯了，

总是相信人人都好，

好看的人更好，

这道理太无知了，

越是好看的人，越是不好，也不是说每一个啦，

至少有一两个正是那样。

撞了人，

还直接跑掉，

也不做什么，

听了，我真的，

看不起他。

原来，

这种人，

真的不能当朋友，

因为就算他对你做错了，

他应该，也不会怎样，

良心发现，过意不去，

那些都是个人不好受，

而不是因为弄到对方不好受，

He never will be sorry he hurt you, he'll only ever be sorry he did something bad.

明白当中的差别吗？

这种人，只会为自己着想，要得到谅解，也是为了自己，而不是为了对方。

Losing|Focus

2011-02-06T23:38:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary, I'm losing my focus in life.

Writings, essays, assignments, I don't have the heart to do them, is it because I'm lazy? Perhaps. Losing the direction, is this where I want to go? I have no idea? What is waiting for me at the other end? I couldn't tell. We'll leave it like this at the moment.

In the midst of a recovery.

Sign, Enaj.

CNY|Mode

2011-02-05T11:13:00.000+08:00

Eve:

Waiting for CNY to come, just like that, was suppose to go BBQ at fren's hse n count down, then I dun feel like it, so I skipped it, this year didn't go to temple and count down, usually I'll go for CNY Prayers, I just slept early that day.

1st Day:

As usual, go around collecting ang pow, as you grow older it's actually not much fun than when we were younger, we love to collect ang pows, especially the pretty ones, honestly, when we were kids, we didn't give much thoughts about the money, it's the fun of collecting them, because they're so pretty, red, pink, gold, so many different kinds, but as we grow older, we couldn't care less about it, and the fun isn't that much fun anymore.

There's nth much on 1st day, don't even remember what I did at night? @.@

2nd Day:

Open House:

Every year my uncle will do an open house, that has nasi briyani, ayam tomato, KFC!!! Aiming for that, haha, xD, ther's drinks for evryone, laici, sunkist, chinese tea? Hehe. There's even my aunt's homemade cheese tart! Take some pics but that's all..

Went to another open house, my mum's fren, just drop in awhile, didn't eat much since we've already eaten. Then went to Jaya Jusco and get some stuff for my grandma's Birthday party. ^^

Grandma's Birthday:

Ordered Domino's Pizza! Was suppose 2 order 6 Xtra Large, but instead I ordered 2 xtra, 4 large, nasib x order 6 xtra, xleh habis pun. ><"...last minute added on so much stuff, there's so many kinds.

Food:
1. Satay
2. Otak2 Muar
3. Domino's Pizza
4. Mee Goreng Pedas
5. Bihun Goreng
6. Kari
7. Ayam Teriyaki
8. Ayam Black Pepper
9. Nasi Briyani
10. Nasi Kunyit
11. Spaghetti
12. French Fries
13. Nuggets

Fruits:
1. Pineapple
2. Jambu Batu
3. Watermelon

Drinks:
1. Sunkist
2. Lemon Lime
3. Coke
4. Beers

C how much is that? Double the portion of the people that is here. ><". Scare nt enuf sumore. @.@

Malam: Black Jack.

Hehe, played with a few of my cousins, then my frenz came, played with them awhile, then resume playing with my cousin, even my mum played this year, usually she doesn't play, I lose 2 bucks, I think. Was losing so much more in the beginning, hehe. Fun, but the congkeh sudah balik, 2nite duno got kaki ma...Nak main lagi~=P

We were playing at a round table, outside the house, haha, they we drinking kopi, so if police come, kasi duit kopi lor. xP...

My breakfast today: Fries and Pizza.

Okla, was suppose 2 go bai nian dis morning, but my stomach is nt being well again, so will juz stay at home n wait ppl come bai nian, now I rly gotto run 2 the washroom again, bye!

Enjoy ur CNY!! ^^

Sign, Enaj.

Sampah|Masyarakat

2011-01-24T22:39:00.000+08:00

Just ended a kolej event yesterday, kinda lame activity, that I had to take part in, lol, anyway, here's what I discover, I'm sure most people are aware of it, still, I wish to remind people>Throw your rubbish into the rubbish bin. Duh.

Google Translate:

Sampah: Rubbish

Masyarakat: Community

Sampah Masyarakat: The refuse of society.

I wonder, how many actually have Civic Consciousness and how many does not?

No wonder they have to teach "Kesedaran Sivik" in school these days.

Even the simplest task, throw a Rubbish into a Rubbish bin.

Even a 3 year old kid can do that, a 30 year old cannot?

There's really no excuse when they have been provided with rubbish bins,

That y izit they just couldn't throw their rubbish into the rubbish bin?

I'm rly particular about it because even at home,

There's a little pig that I have to remind all the time to throw her waste, seriously.

What is it so difficult about throwing rubbish into the rubbish bin?

Don't tell me you shit anywhere you feel like it?

It's the same rite?

You shit in the toilet bowl,

So throw ur rubbish into the rubbish bin, duh. ><"

I know I shouldn't describe it like that,

But I myself have conscious,

I wouldn't throw rubbish anywhere,

I just don't have the heart to do so,

I simply have to find a rubbish bin.

And I think most of the people here that attended my kolej event,

Is UKM students itself and people older than the students,

So yea,

University students do not have civic consciousness?

Perhaps they should introduce this as one of the Stupid Subjects,

Rather than those "Nonsense" my lecturer said about H.E and Pengurusan Emosi. Lol.

Okay, so that's all about my rubbish thingy, please have civic consciousness, and don't simply throw rubbish okay? Pity the Pengutip Sampah. ><"

Sign, Enaj.

世界|末日？

2011-01-22T22:26:00.001+08:00

突然有感想，一直想写华文，

最近少了英文的感想，

不懂是因为少说英文，

还是华语比较容易表达我想说的。

话说2012会世界末日，

但在那之前，

想谈谈别的事，

有谁不害怕死亡？

人一出生就注定有天会离去，

为什么我们还要这么拼？

这么努力的追求梦想？

这么积极的达成愿望？

When each of us knows that 一切总有一天都会化成灰？

问问自己，现在的我为了什么而活？

为了我内心的一个小火，

点燃我的人生，

既然还没化成灰，

就让我好好享受，

在这世界里的日子。

我爱我的家人，

我爱他，

我爱我的姐妹，

我爱我的朋友，

在这么冲满爱的世界，

就算有天化成灰，

也无怨无悔吧？

每一个人追求着不一样的东西，

只希望，

最终还是快乐的。

*我又说废话了？xP

+珊珊+

大学|生活

2011-01-20T16:49:00.000+08:00

又一个月过了在大学，

发现自己越来越懒，

进来之前没有目标，

到现在还是没有目标，

灵感也没了，

快乐的当中，有点空洞，

想念我的家，

想念马六甲，

大学生了，依然这么幼稚，

依然这么不懂事，

都是他在看着我，

自己也不懂得好好照顾自己，

明知道身体虚弱，

该吃什么，不该吃什么，

就尽量吧，

今天吃素，

我要改口，

吃多点蔬菜水果，

少吃肉，

多喝水，

一天平均2.5litres其实都不多，

人本来就应该喝2.0litres per day.

一直想睡觉，

没有推动力，

还有功课要做，

一直在偷懒，

这是，

Typical university student的lifestyle?

无言，

毕业后又是另一回事，

毕业之前，可以complete么？

陈素珊！加油！

13th|Sign

2011-01-18T19:48:00.000+08:00

Ok now, the reason I'm posting this is simply to notify those who doesn't know that we had another horoscope added into the family. Fortunately for me, my horoscope remains the same. Hehe, and strangely, his horoscope change, and I think it fits his personality better than his old horoscope. Haha. xD. Maybe that's just psychological. =P

Ophiuchus: The Serpent Bearer

ARIES = APRIL 19 - MAY 13
TAURUS = MAY 14 - JUNE 19
GEMINI = JUNE 20 - JULY 20
CANCER = JULY 21 - AUG 9
LEO = AUGUST 10 - SEPTEMBER 15
VIRGO = SEPTEMBER 16 - OCTOBER 30
LIBRA = OCTOBER 31 - NOVEMBER 22
SCORPIO = NOVEMBER 23 - NOVEMBER 29
OPHIUCHUS = NOVEMBER 30 - DECEMBER 17
SAGITTARIUS = DECEMBER 18 - JANUARY 18
CAPRICORN = JANUARY 19 - FEBRUARY 15
AQUARIUS = FEBRUARY 16 - MARCH 11
PISCES = MARCH 12 - APRIL 18

Emotionally|Unstable

2011-01-13T21:59:00.002+08:00

I am emotionally unstable as it gets,
I can forget about everything,
I can abandon everything,
Just when I'm not in the mood to do anything,
I'm piss off, piss off, and freaking piss off.
WTF, Slap urself awake!

Don't|Like

2011-01-03T20:22:00.000+08:00

Don't like to go class,

Don't like to do assignments,

Don't like to find out what I have to do,

Don't like to do the things I need to do,

Don't like to do so many things I do,

Don't like to do this and that and everything,

Don't like being the way I am,

Don't like being like this,

Don't like that I don't like it.

-lilrig-

Night|Mare

2010-12-27T13:20:00.000+08:00

I dreamt the exact same dream,

I just forgot about it,

And when I woke up,

I realize it's the same damn dream,

What a nightmare it was. ><"

I don't know how it starts,

I do know how it ends,

First I was walking all by myself,

When I encounter an abandon building,

I was outside of the building,

Then I write something on stick it notes

And put it on the ground,

Then I heard someone coming,

So I ran into the building,

It's just a girl and a guy,

They quickly came to usher me out,

But I didn't manage to do so,

And I have no idea how,

I switch on the outside light,

And they quickly usher me inside,

Of another hall that is of the size of a church.

It was pitch black inside,

I can't see a hint of light,

Then the light is switch on,

As an old lady stand on the stage and deliver her speech,

The others are all in a hood,

I can't see their faces,

They all wore blacks,

I was wearing white,

But I just hang on to the girl beside me.

After that the old lady walked along the path in between,

And look at the followers,

I was so afraid she will notice me, the outsider,

But when she pass through me,

Nothing happen,

Instead she just look at me and look away,

But when it's finally over,

I went out and start running,

That's went a car in red drove pass me,

I realize it's the old lady,

So I tried to run to another direction,

Only to notice she turn her car back and follow me?!!

What the heck,

I just ran and try and hide myself in a corner,

Wishing she wouldn't find me,

Just then, I woke up. ><"...

With my heart beating fast.

It's so freaky, it's the 2nd time I dreamt about it,

I remember that I dreamt something like this sometime ago,

And it's about a deviant religion,

When they chant, no hint of light is allowed,

Not a single hint of light,

That explains the total darkness,

What I write here is nothing compared to the picture in my mind,

I can actually visualize the whole place,

A stage with art works,

The old lady that preach,

It all seems satanic to me.

People seriously should stop getting involved in all those cults and sorts. ><"

-lilrig-

2nd|Sem

2010-12-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

Time flies, and that's cliche.

Anyway, it's really another sem already,

Gosh, I can't believe it,

Even thou I feel bored at home,

Being here makes me emo again,

Been dripping tears since I'm back,

Maybe because I'm not well,

Maybe because I don't feel well.

Anyway, I'm fine, still standing.

Sunday Trip:

I kinda lazy to talk about it, not in the mood to blog now,

Briefly we went to Times Square, Look Out Point, Back to UKM, n then they went to I-City.

Seriously mixed feelings,

I don't wanna come back here,

But it serve no purpose back home,

So yea,

Don't feel like writing for now,

That's all for the updates.

-lilrig-